Only GOD can make ...

your Joy bell ring.  Your collection of clothes, cars, gadgets and do-dads won't do it.  Your multitudinous accolades, presumed degrees mean nothing.  The hapless relatives that visit you toting balloons and flowers can't help.

It is GOD Almighty and GOD only.  You can lie until you are blue in the face.  You know that you are lying and you know exactly what you did and when you did it.  You might not fully understand why you did it.  But, you know you did it.  You know that your hands are bloody and your heart is filthy.

I can not help but wonder,  how many mothers are like you?  How many women are possessed with a demonic spirit, enslaved by carnal lust, lead by psychotic envy and loathsome jealousy?  You threw your rocks and hid your hand,  always blaming the "man", racism, for my hard luck.  You not only knew full well it was you, you enjoyed it.  Celebrated every successful scheme.

Your horribly abused son managed to become a medical doctor.  Scored among the highest in the nation on the MCAT.  You couldn't have it.  No one on this earth will ever out do you in anything.  Not if you can slitter up to them to poison and destroy them. Not if you can use your feminine wilds to seduce and destroy.  GOD said that your feet would be swift to run to mischief and they always have.  Martha you are a jealous woman that "never" earned a college degree.  It is not that you couldn't , you wouldn't.   Yes, you have a worthless associates "degree" in secretarial science from Fayetteville State.  You bragged about how you cheated in every course.

Notice, that "degree" didn't make your Joy bell ring.  You were talked about for having so many children out of wedlock.  So you snared a man.  He was too short and too black for you.  He certainly didn't make your Joy bell ring.  Why did you sexually molest your own children?  Were you bored?  Is normal sex too tame for you?  Or were you just trying to destroy?  Were you trying to punish us, punish GOD?

Are you mad because you can't erase my memory?  Or are you mad because I refuse to shut up?  I'm telling it.  I'M SCREAMING IT UNTIL SOMEBODY LISTENS.

One day some human beings are going to come to my rescue.   They will share my message.  There are some intelligent people on this earth that get it.  It is not the fact that you are black or low class.  You are a HEDONIST! You put your selfish carnal pleasure before everything.  Innocent victims no longer have to remain silent in a selfish hedonistic world.  GOD is revealing you for His own purpose.

You are a weak woman.  You lack self discipline and morals.  You are a lying MURDERER!  You don't love GOD, never did and perhaps never will.

You did wrong when you tried to destroy me, to destroy us.  Your pathological lying will not help you because You know the truth.

I don't know why you went wrong or when you went wrong.  You went way wrong Mathy.   "Wide is the road that leads to death and destruction."  You got on the wrong road many years ago and did everything you could to stay there.  Savagely angry and evil you have lived the life of a reprobate fool.

I will not honor you.  I will not lie and pretend that there is anything to lie for, anything about you worth protecting.  I will not cloak you and I can not fear you.  I am stupefied by my brothers.  Are they deaf, dumb and blind?  Did you successfully steal their manhood?  We shared the same grandfather, heard his wise admonitions everyday.

Is it our gender that makes the difference?  I am here to tell you that you do not have to bear her shame.  Read your Bible carefully.  As long as you "honor" her, love her more than GOD you will be "cursed".

If you want to hear from GOD, if you want your Joy bell to ring, give up fear.  Give up harboring a demon.  Thank GOD for His many blessings, for His Truth and salvation.  To GOD be the Glory.

Stay in His WORD children.  Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."  And only the LORD Jesus Christ can make your Joy bell ring.

May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you and cloak you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)