That was my brother's Bible verse. He claimed it and he threatened us with violence if we recited it first. My mother forced us to participate in a "family tradition". We enjoyed a southern breakfast of grits and salt fish, mother prayed (forever, until the fatback grease on your grits got cold and "froze" over).
After Martha read the scripture we had to recite a Bible verse from memory, no reading, no cheating. I took pride in memorizing some long recitation. I was so proud of my elocution, I didn't want *Sam's two word Bible verse, the shortest verse in the entire Bible.
I hope this explains why I remained so confused for my entire life. Double minded, bi-polar, mentally ill, evil, pretend to be kind people make me sick, paranoid, introverted, an extremely cautious. Be careful children. Do not take anything for granted. Never assume the person you see is real or authentic in this phony plastic world.
No matter what this world serves you don't get bitter, don't hate and never give up. "Human Evil" is a subject I will continue to explore. Not because I want to, I have to! Dear LORD I never want another child to be forced to suffer in silence the way we did. I never want another "child" to be duped, robbed and raped by their own mother.
"Jesus Wept" and I will continue to weep for all of the weak, defeated, emasculated men on this earth. Men and women that were born into the clutches of "Martha Janes".
Poor Martha was ignorant, refused to hear and HATED!( raged with half hidden hatred, vicious jealousy and envy for 87 years for no apparent reason) I don't want that to be me. I don't want to be a hard "I'll kick your a** "Christian". I don't want to be hard, deceitful and uncaring, always glaring with an evil eye. Always hatching some stupid ignorant scheme for attention; "All Eyes On Me!" Locked in insecurity because I demand to live a complete lie, all fantasy. Secretly drowning in self loathing because only I know how truly common and cruel I really am.
I want this world to know that Jesus Christ wept because He cared. You must care! You must love! You must reach out to save our youth, to save the lost and hurting.
Weep with me please. Weep until you can see GOD's Truth, weep until you can feel the excruciating pain caused by demons cloistered in families and churches. Running rough shod, tearing us apart, ripping us from limb to limb for their own selfish narcissistic supply.
Don't deny me my truth because you were fooled. We all know satan is treacherous, deceitful, slimy, scum, an abomination. We also know that GOD will deliver us from evil if we ask Him.
Announcement! I am not embarrassed by my truth as satan expected. I AM PROUD!!! GOD saw fit to save me! To take the blinders off! To lead me to the light. Praise the LORD!
Children, weeping is not a sign of weakness. Never be ashamed of your tears, of your journey, of the pain you suffered needlessly. Jesus cried for us because He cares, He Loves, He Saves! I don't care what it looks like; "GOD got this!"
Study to show yourself approved. Stay in His WORD. Remember; "Apart fromChrist we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
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Powerful word today. When we visited my aunt she also required everyone to quote a bible scripture before we could eat. I many times would slip out Jesus Wept although many were jockeying to recite that one, mostly my siblings because we weren't required to do so at home. Now my cousins had the long eloquent scriptures because their mother wouldn't settle for anything less. We did go to church, my mother was a Sunday School teacher and even taught me, but my memory was more efficient with music, LOL!! But I also learned like you are saying, you have to look behind folks religious traditions to see what they are really up to, what fruits produced, what love given. I'll take my mother's approach anyday over rigidity. But I did come to realize memorization of scripture is important to fight the enemy as Jesus did in the desert after his 40 day fast. I get your message loud and clear and it reminds me to be ever diligent to discern spirits and observe fruit produced regardless as to the words stated. Peace and Love.
ReplyDeleteFamos Amos thank you for you kind words and continued encouragement. GOD set me on this mission and He is truly educating me! PTL!
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