"A thorn in the flesh" ...

something you do not want to be, and something my mother was.  When people (in all honestly) must size you up, summarize you, as an abomination, YOU hit rock bottom in life.

[DISCLAIMER: While it is very therapeutic for me to share some of Martha's deeds, it is NOT revenge as she so cleverly announced years and years before I had an inkling, a single clue to her diabolical plans for my life. I am telling because GOD compels me to and YOU MUST BE WARNED!]

I was being punished, deliberately, on purpose, with malice and fore thought. This WHORE! My mother fully intended to create in me a worse monster than she was! A bigger WHORE! A more pathological LIAR, something uneducated, inarticulate and dimwitted.  A monkey too dumb to let go of the banana.  Another crab in the barrel.  GOD SAID NO! an created the exact opposite! PTL!

Once caught, after 58 years of confusion, scratching my head and my ass.  After years and years of shock and unbelief, GOD opened my eyes, took the veil off.  My nemesis, my thorn in my flesh was my own mother!

Why am I still shocked!?  Why is this fiasco so surreal?  Roots, black magic, the occult, incest, rape, molestation, MURDER, muggings, robberies and most of all TERROR!

I just keep repeating My LORD! My LORD! Dear LORD they are every where! In our families! Just as common as the day is long. "Will tell a lie before a cat can lick his ass!"

The fact that GOD permitted her to happen, should not be as shocking to me as it is.  The fact that GOD saw me, nurtured me, lulled me to sleep when the pain was unbearable, sustained me , kept me strong, was with me every step of the way on this journey MUST be celebrated .  I must bring this victory of good over evil  to the world stage!

Child Rape MUST be stopped! How can you stop something that people refuse to recognize as a problem ? WE are deaf, blind and silent to it because it is such an unpleasant subject.  An "Inconvenient Truth", because all too often the offender is a trusted family member.

Bite the bullet, grid up your loins! Quit being a whoose!   STAND UP!  TELL THE HONEST TO GOD TRUTH FOR ONCE IN YOUR LIFE!  BE THE MAN OR WOMAN OF GOD  HE CREATED YOU TO BE!


 I WILL NOT SHUT UP! I WILL NOT EQUIVOCATE! AND I WILL BE HEARD!(borrowed from William Lloyd Garrison)

The absolute irony here is that Martha's Childhood Rape was an unsolved, unrecorded, uncared for MURDER!  Martha was angry.  Seethed and smoldered with secret unresolved anger and hatred for 87 long years!  She hated her father  because he did not kill her attacker.  Then her father did not make the man that ruined her life at age 16 marry her.

Martha never found the courage to own her own mistakes.  Was it easier to blame and hate? To lie and scheme?  What did it?  Pride did it!  Read your Bible!

Children, mental illness and unresolved pain is no joke.  STOP LYING! STOP PRETENDING! STOP DENYING!

Free Fall into the arms of your loving GOD knowing He provides a safety net.  Never be ashamed of your truth no matter how dreadful.  Always trust GOD to deliver you from the hands of the enemy.

Praise the LORD! Praise the LORD!
Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."

[Excerpt from THE JR WALTERS CHRONICLES   November 22, 2014  All rights reserved.]