Another beautiful rainy day in Georgia

It is true, most of the time I do feel friendless, because I am . No, this feeling is not new, I've felt this way for sixty-six years!   I do occupy an extremely racist, "color struck" world.  While so many of us scream "Black Lives Matter", very few mean it.

Most of the black people I know are the most disingenuous , jealous backstabbers,  you never want to meet.  Please notice, note, I said; "I know". The black people I know, the black people in my circle.

Perhaps I am just a "hard luck" person. Perhaps I am unusual.

I had to retire from teaching at age fifty-seven.  Why? Tired of "zoo keeping".  I taught for thirty years, I discovered very few scholars, very few willing to actually study.  Few that would actually read.

LORD, did the Institution of Slavery do this to us? Why are so many black people ANTI-INTELLECTUAL! Anti-intellectuals armed with"college degrees".

LORD, I'm standing before You, still piecing myself together.  Born into the horrid clutches of the most depraved,  evil woman to ever live  and few willing to know, fewer still,  willing to help me testify against her.

My own brothers, fellow victims, play dumb and numb to a DEAD DEMON!

 LORD, if You sent me here two hundred years ahead of my time, You sure broke my heart. Am I being punished? Is this Hell?  Was I an evil white racist in a past life? 

 Dear LORD, no one in my family cares that my  mother was the despicable fallen repugnant imp that she was.  Most people are bothered, feel irritated,  that I have the nerve to complain.

"She murdered GRANDDADDY! SHOT HIM THE HEART!"  "So!?  ... shut up!"

"She was a ROOT WORKER!  She was a PERVERT! "So? ...just shut up!"

"She hated black people, always claimed I was TOO BLACK."   "So? ... you are, get over it."

"She RAPED  me, she RAPED US!" "So? ... why don't you just shut up? Nobody cares. It sucks to be you.  I'm tried of hearing it.  Why can't you just get over it? Why can't you just go on with your life?"

I can't! I won't! Because evil can't win!

REVERSE THE CURSE!

"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!"