Finally getting my mind right

Learning to love myself has been an uphill journey, truly a daunting task.  I am doing it though. Strangely, "mothering" my own daughter makes me rage.  Loving my own daughter so much, loving her fiercely ,  forces me to recognize what a deeply disturbed worthless, lying, maggot, despicable whore,  my own mother,  always was.

Why? DEMON POSSESSION!   Demon possession , most pastors deliberately do not preach or teach about. Everyone is so full of the Holy Ghost , no one can bear to bring up unpleasant things in "Church".


The blind sheep demand to be blind sheep.  Blind sheep love being stupid, love dying for hopeless causes. Blind sheep love to repeat stupid shit that they don't believe; "GAWD don't put no mo'on you than you can bear."

Bull! All rhetoric and chains directly from satan's mouth to the blind sheep's ear.

That afternoon, on Main Post, in front of the movie theatre, after viewing GOLDFINGER , there IT was, that demon, that lustful carnal demon that plagued Martha for her entire lost life, stared me down.  I refused to acknowledge the lust in my own mother's" eyes.

"Come Jesus" were the only words that could come to my mind.

Do not run from the truth, run to the truth. Martha Jane Walters was one messed up woman! She was messed up because she was hardheaded! She was full of pride! She was a pathological liar to be sure, but the worse thing Martha ever was, was a "root worker" common enough, disrespetful enough to GOD to dare preach.

Martha was a woman so low, she cursed GOD, cursed all of her victims before she would dare repent. "From such stay away."

I have to laugh, "near-bout" scream! Wo/men like my "mother" up preaching! No lower whore has ever slithered on this earth! Yet I have relatives, dumb enough, low enough, to shun me! To avoid me.

You should have avoided that low-root-working whore,  you kept inviting to your home with her "dust" shaking, lying, jealous ass.  The INCESTUOUS, PEDOPHILE, MURDERER  YOU HAD BLESSING YOUR FOOD!

Deliberately not knowing your truth because you claim it is too hard to bear,  is a lame excuse for clinging to Martha's dead stanking ass.  Why are you still lying and denying for a dead demon?

Me, I'm  celebrating! I will not entertain a lie for a second. Some people are so low, so shiffless, so deplorable, so god forsaken, you can't help but feel relief, Grace, when they finally pass.

What good is a demon? The low slut made me value "true love", made every memory of my loving grandfather,  a treasure.  Every moment with my daughter, NIRVANA!

No, evil can NOT win but, it can vex. Like Martha, a low stank whore that tried her best to live forever. A woman so depraved, so addicted to afflicting pain she turned to WITCHCRAFT!
Witchcraft she could not control and was therefore  rendered one of the worse vipers to ever live.

I'm glad I read on my own. I'm glad satan's low whore made me so miserable,  I had to search , I had to study, pray, fast, purge! "To GOD be the GLORY!"

REVERSE THE CURSE!

"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!"