"Prop me up on every leaning side!" I'm leaning LORD, I'm leaning on you. I have been rejected once again. My "boss" called me into his office Friday, March 8, to tell me that it was my last day.
"Unwanted again"; was the first thought that crossed my mind. A mere nothing in his eyes. Did he care that I got up at 4:30 every morning to make sure that I was prepared and equipped to "teach" the "little darlings" left in my charge. Did he ever notice that I had never been late or absent one single day?
What about all of the money I spent out of my meager wages? I bought basket ball hoops, and one that kept score, a felt dart game,exercise balls, Nerf balls, all to keep my students excited because they accused me of being boring.
What about all of the tissue, hand sanitizer, pencils and pens. I am sure I bought tons of candy to bribe and appease this motley crew. I didn't mind. I love teaching. My greatest joy is motivating and stimulating young people to be the best they can be.
So, they didn't want me. Many, not all, made that fact abundantly clear everyday. I absorbed their insulting remarks. I let them call me names and pick at me for being old and slow. I forgave them. "Forgive them LORD for they know not what they do."
I couldn't do anything right at that school!. I was too old, too short, I wore too many rings. My daily affirmation; "I was born for Greatness! If I am to be what I want to be, it is up to Me!" was considered to be just another worthless chore by most of my students.
Don't ask them to stand. None of them pledge to the flag, not even the students in ROTC. They sit while in uniform. I told them that they live in the greatest nation in the world and they pelted me with insults and said that isn't so. I asked the young man to name a better country and he sneered; "Mexico!" because they have better weed.
Don't ask them to read the book or keep a notebook. Don't ask them to bring their own supplies to class. "That's your job"; one "student" told me repeatedly. "You're trying to make us read the book, to think on our own."; one Advanced Placement student complained; "we don't do that anymore...I can't learn like that."
I could tell "they" were very happy to see me go. So now they are rid of me. I was told that it would be best for me if I simply went into the county office and resigned. "I WILL NOT!" I've done nothing wrong. I taught for 30 plus years without one single blemish on my record. I was named Teacher of the Year in 2000. Stanford University honored me and credited me for sending them a great student. Every year my students scored the highest on the GHSGT in social studies. My students always earned the highest scores on the APUSH exam. In 2002 my students earned four 4s.
I will not be pushed around and bullied by "grade grubbing" parents. I will not put a bridle in my mouth and guard every word I say to students that call me out of my name and pelt me with insults. I will not cow tie to a school that chose the easy route of merely teaching the test. They have taken "teaching to the test" up a notch and simply teach the test.
I can't do it. In all good conscious I can't do it. If it cost me my job I can't do it. I Will NOT Shut Up! No one, no system will take my first amendment freedom from me.
Unwanted again! Cast out, talked but and hated again! Hold me up LORD. Take my hand. I know that you will never forsake me. David was chosen by GOD but hated and persecuted by King Saul. As a result he wrote Psalm 13; "How long wilt thou forget me, O LORD? forever? how long wilt thou hide thy face from me? How long shall I take counsel in my soul, having sorrow in my heart daily? how long shall mine enemy be exalted over me? Consider and hear me, O LORD my GOD: lighten mine eyes, lest I sleep the sleep of death. Lest mine enemy say, I have prevailed against him; and those that trouble me rejoice when I am moved. But I have trusted in thy mercy; my heart shall rejoice in thy salvation. I will sing unto the LORD, because he hath dealt bountifully with me."
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you and cloak you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Monday, March 11, 2013
Sunday, March 10, 2013
"All things are possible...
if you only believe." Believe children. I know you have "religion". But do you have Jesus? You must have Jesus. You are nothing without Him.
Don't put on a show for your fellow man on Sunday and live a rioteous wicked like on Monday. Don't be a slave to your sin. It doesn't matter what you did. Jesus loves you.
Do you live Him? Do you love Him enough to trust Him? To stop lying? To stop hating? To stop plotting? Can you ask Him to take your hand, lead you on, help you stand?
Can you forgive yourself of your many sins? Jesus met the woman at the well and loved her, shared the good news. Why was she drawing water by herself? Why was she ashamed to draw water with the other women? She was a whore, an outcast. She must have felt low, full of self loathing shame. But, Jesus met her at the well and told her everything she had done.
What would you do if Jesus met You at the well? Would you cuss Him out and tell Him to stay out of your business?
"All things are possible." Jesus will take your burdensome sin. He will take every lie out of your mouth. He will restore your health, your family. He will remove every stain.
Praise the LORD. Cast your cares upon the LORD and leave them there.
Let LOVE abide in your hearts today children. Be abundantly blessed.
Don't put on a show for your fellow man on Sunday and live a rioteous wicked like on Monday. Don't be a slave to your sin. It doesn't matter what you did. Jesus loves you.
Do you live Him? Do you love Him enough to trust Him? To stop lying? To stop hating? To stop plotting? Can you ask Him to take your hand, lead you on, help you stand?
Can you forgive yourself of your many sins? Jesus met the woman at the well and loved her, shared the good news. Why was she drawing water by herself? Why was she ashamed to draw water with the other women? She was a whore, an outcast. She must have felt low, full of self loathing shame. But, Jesus met her at the well and told her everything she had done.
What would you do if Jesus met You at the well? Would you cuss Him out and tell Him to stay out of your business?
"All things are possible." Jesus will take your burdensome sin. He will take every lie out of your mouth. He will restore your health, your family. He will remove every stain.
Praise the LORD. Cast your cares upon the LORD and leave them there.
Let LOVE abide in your hearts today children. Be abundantly blessed.
Saturday, March 9, 2013
"No one in your family
is as cruel and heartless as the "mother" I describe. You have never heard of a woman that whorish and sadistic.
There is an old blues song with a lyric that says; "you better sweep around your own front door." Before you get up on your high horse and proclaim how great your family is and has always been. Before you brag about how blessed you are and how every one in your family loves the LORD and they all live right. You might want to open your eyes and listen a little closer.
There are no liars, thieves, perverts, murderers, soothsayers, whoremongers or jealous haters in your family. Good. You are extremely blessed or blind.
People shock us every day. Who knew that J. Edgar Hoover was a closet homosexual, wearing women's underwear and shoes?
Who knew that Homer was a pedophile? I read it in 1969! I'll never forget it. The book was Ancient History by Norman F. Cantor. The exact quote by Homer was; "I would rather make love to a young boy than a woman any day."
Who knew Strom Thurmond fathered a child by a teenage black girl and took care of the child? His family sure was shocked. He loved her, always took care of her and she looked just like him.
Evil can overcome any family. I hate to tell you but there are a lot of fake Christians in the church. Jesus warned us. Keep your eye on their fruit.
Be blessed."
There is an old blues song with a lyric that says; "you better sweep around your own front door." Before you get up on your high horse and proclaim how great your family is and has always been. Before you brag about how blessed you are and how every one in your family loves the LORD and they all live right. You might want to open your eyes and listen a little closer.
There are no liars, thieves, perverts, murderers, soothsayers, whoremongers or jealous haters in your family. Good. You are extremely blessed or blind.
People shock us every day. Who knew that J. Edgar Hoover was a closet homosexual, wearing women's underwear and shoes?
Who knew that Homer was a pedophile? I read it in 1969! I'll never forget it. The book was Ancient History by Norman F. Cantor. The exact quote by Homer was; "I would rather make love to a young boy than a woman any day."
Who knew Strom Thurmond fathered a child by a teenage black girl and took care of the child? His family sure was shocked. He loved her, always took care of her and she looked just like him.
Evil can overcome any family. I hate to tell you but there are a lot of fake Christians in the church. Jesus warned us. Keep your eye on their fruit.
Be blessed."
"You better have Jesus...
that's all." What a treasure I have found! Please listen to that old "blues" gospel song by Washington Phillips recorded between 1927 and 1929.
It's beautiful! The message is even better; "You better have Jesus and that's all."
I Praise the LORD! I have Jesus! Thank you LORD!
I'm feeling a little melancholy today. I got fired and forgot to take my medication last night. I'm mot worried about my job, GOD supplies all my needs.
Today my mind is on the "lost" . The people too easily intimidated by evil. Faithless people that will not trust GOD. I know they say they do but, their actions sat they don't.
The "lost" think revealing GOD's Gospel truth is some kind of revenge. They insist on believing that my testimony is some form of revenge. I do want the world to know my story. That's not revenge, that's justice.
GOD will punish ALL evil doers in His own time and in His own way. Am I hurt? Of course I am. Am I disappointed in my life, the way it turned out? Sometimes. Again, I know GOD has a plan, He has a purpose.
I can not help looking back over my life without being shocked, stupefied. That woman did so many sick things, so many horrible things. I witnessed them, endured them but, I didn't know. She treated me, treated us like she hated us. But, we didn't know. Is it that we didn't know or we refused to believe?
It couldn't be. No one on this earth could be so evil, so cruel, so calculating. It is humanly impossible for anyone to be that selfish, greedy and conniving. Not My Mother! I endured the shame and humiliation for nearly all my life unable to accept the truth.
She could be so sweet. Just purr the kindest words in your ear. She knew how to make me feel special. She made me believe that she really loved me. She was just putting on for "dem other n*****". I was different, I was special. She promised to look out for me in her will.
You poor lost woman. Without Christ you are nothing. Your daddy told you everyday. Who knew that you were just pretending when you made us go to church Every Sunday!? I went to every Sunday school, Vacation Bible School, church conference and retreat.
Who knew that you had nothing but hatred and jealousy in your heart? You knew and you know!
You better get right! You better repent. The day is far spent. None of us came here to stay always.
Yea, you fell pretty low. But, lying and denying will not help you get better. Tearing me down to my relatives and anyone that will listen is not going to help your soul. Hating me for knowing and telling the absolute truth will not help you either. Only Christ can pick you up. Why don't you listen to some of your own cds and tapes? You helped others. Why can't you help yourself?
"You better have Jesus!"
It's beautiful! The message is even better; "You better have Jesus and that's all."
I Praise the LORD! I have Jesus! Thank you LORD!
I'm feeling a little melancholy today. I got fired and forgot to take my medication last night. I'm mot worried about my job, GOD supplies all my needs.
Today my mind is on the "lost" . The people too easily intimidated by evil. Faithless people that will not trust GOD. I know they say they do but, their actions sat they don't.
The "lost" think revealing GOD's Gospel truth is some kind of revenge. They insist on believing that my testimony is some form of revenge. I do want the world to know my story. That's not revenge, that's justice.
GOD will punish ALL evil doers in His own time and in His own way. Am I hurt? Of course I am. Am I disappointed in my life, the way it turned out? Sometimes. Again, I know GOD has a plan, He has a purpose.
I can not help looking back over my life without being shocked, stupefied. That woman did so many sick things, so many horrible things. I witnessed them, endured them but, I didn't know. She treated me, treated us like she hated us. But, we didn't know. Is it that we didn't know or we refused to believe?
It couldn't be. No one on this earth could be so evil, so cruel, so calculating. It is humanly impossible for anyone to be that selfish, greedy and conniving. Not My Mother! I endured the shame and humiliation for nearly all my life unable to accept the truth.
She could be so sweet. Just purr the kindest words in your ear. She knew how to make me feel special. She made me believe that she really loved me. She was just putting on for "dem other n*****". I was different, I was special. She promised to look out for me in her will.
You poor lost woman. Without Christ you are nothing. Your daddy told you everyday. Who knew that you were just pretending when you made us go to church Every Sunday!? I went to every Sunday school, Vacation Bible School, church conference and retreat.
Who knew that you had nothing but hatred and jealousy in your heart? You knew and you know!
You better get right! You better repent. The day is far spent. None of us came here to stay always.
Yea, you fell pretty low. But, lying and denying will not help you get better. Tearing me down to my relatives and anyone that will listen is not going to help your soul. Hating me for knowing and telling the absolute truth will not help you either. Only Christ can pick you up. Why don't you listen to some of your own cds and tapes? You helped others. Why can't you help yourself?
"You better have Jesus!"
"He has never failed me yet"
My Precious LORD has never failed me and He never will! GOD didn't bring me this far by faith to let me fail.
"Here am I, Send me, LORD send me. If you need someone, send me." If you need someone to stand up for our helpless children, send me.
Dear LORD children, it appears I have been sent.
I told you that I am a teacher. I love teaching, it is my chosen profession. You must know that great teachers are born. It is an art form that can not be taught. I am a gifted teacher! No one has to tell me that.
The truth is sometimes great teachers are not wanted. They are not wanted in school systems that insist upon "dumbing kids up". Dumbing down the curriculum, teaching the test, in order for students to score higher on high stakes test.
There are some school systems where students are not required or expected to bring their books to class, carry a notebook or supply their own paper, pencils or pens. Inculcating higher order critical thinking skills is discouraged. Make it easy on the student and keep the "grade grubbing" parents off your back. "Let life teach them."
There are some school systems that permit students to use vulgarity and the "N" word with reckless abandon. It is ignored. Students can curse out teachers, spew the "F" word all over them and maybe they will get Out of School suspension for a few days.
There are some public schools with majority black populations where a course in "African American Studies" is not even offered.
There are some schools where "good character" is never addressed. There are some schools where teachers that really want to teach are not welcome. A teacher that demands quality work for a good grade better flee. A teacher that refuses to teach in noise and chaos is in for a rude awaking.
If you can't tolerate Advanced Placement United States History students that have no desire to bring their textbooks, take notes, read (and GOD forbid do outside research) and participate like Scholars in your classroom, you better find another profession.
I will NOT sell out! I will NOT be intimidated and bullied by students, parents and uncaring administrators!
While growing up, attempting to thrive under the worse conditions, the public school was my solace, my saving grave. My teachers did not know, could not know that I was being severely sexually abused by my own mother and stepfather. No one on this earth knew what terrible burdens I bore each day.
But, the Dear LORD put me in good schools with great teachers and I thrived. I was able to earn a B.S. degree in History education with a gold emblem that reads MAGNA CUM LAUDE!
It was only by GOD's grace and goodness that I earned my degree. No one on this earth helped me (except for my grandfather).
I earned two fellowships to graduate school. One to the State University in New York-Binghamton and the other to Atlanta University where I earned a masters in African American Studies but my jealous "mother" destroyed my thesis.
I am not bitter. I forgive her, she's ignorant. She destroyed my thesis but she didn't destroy my brain. I still have the knowledge that I acquired.
The devils will never stop children. You close the door and they will come in the window. Evil permeates our planet. Imps and demons are everywhere. Stand tall, stand strong, let GOD fight your battle.
I demand the right to teach properly, to hold students to a higher standard. The greatest skill a student can learn is to think critically and independently. I can not and will NOT be part and parcel to a group of so called "educators" that teach the test, cow tie to rude lying dictatorial parents. I will NOT rubber stamp ignorance so that a student can graduate in the top five percent of their class only to arrive on a college campus to discover that they are woefully deficient in basic knowledge.
Dear LORD Thank you for this opportunity. Thank You for your Saving Grace. Thank You for eyes that see and ears that hear. Thank You for the words in my mouth and meditation in my heart. Grant me the courage Dear LORD. Keep me strong.
On Friday, March 8, 2013 my principal called me into his office and told it was my last day. Grinned in my face, told me that I should resign. Said things would go better for my career if I resigned.
No sir I am not resigning! I will fight you and the school system tooth and nail! Do know that I am not alone. GOD fights my battles for me. I am a mere vessel doing GOD's will.
Bring it on! I have been tested. I am battle worn but I am not fatigued!
Stay in His WORD children! Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you and cloak you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceeding proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
"Here am I, Send me, LORD send me. If you need someone, send me." If you need someone to stand up for our helpless children, send me.
Dear LORD children, it appears I have been sent.
I told you that I am a teacher. I love teaching, it is my chosen profession. You must know that great teachers are born. It is an art form that can not be taught. I am a gifted teacher! No one has to tell me that.
The truth is sometimes great teachers are not wanted. They are not wanted in school systems that insist upon "dumbing kids up". Dumbing down the curriculum, teaching the test, in order for students to score higher on high stakes test.
There are some school systems where students are not required or expected to bring their books to class, carry a notebook or supply their own paper, pencils or pens. Inculcating higher order critical thinking skills is discouraged. Make it easy on the student and keep the "grade grubbing" parents off your back. "Let life teach them."
There are some school systems that permit students to use vulgarity and the "N" word with reckless abandon. It is ignored. Students can curse out teachers, spew the "F" word all over them and maybe they will get Out of School suspension for a few days.
There are some public schools with majority black populations where a course in "African American Studies" is not even offered.
There are some schools where "good character" is never addressed. There are some schools where teachers that really want to teach are not welcome. A teacher that demands quality work for a good grade better flee. A teacher that refuses to teach in noise and chaos is in for a rude awaking.
If you can't tolerate Advanced Placement United States History students that have no desire to bring their textbooks, take notes, read (and GOD forbid do outside research) and participate like Scholars in your classroom, you better find another profession.
I will NOT sell out! I will NOT be intimidated and bullied by students, parents and uncaring administrators!
While growing up, attempting to thrive under the worse conditions, the public school was my solace, my saving grave. My teachers did not know, could not know that I was being severely sexually abused by my own mother and stepfather. No one on this earth knew what terrible burdens I bore each day.
But, the Dear LORD put me in good schools with great teachers and I thrived. I was able to earn a B.S. degree in History education with a gold emblem that reads MAGNA CUM LAUDE!
It was only by GOD's grace and goodness that I earned my degree. No one on this earth helped me (except for my grandfather).
I earned two fellowships to graduate school. One to the State University in New York-Binghamton and the other to Atlanta University where I earned a masters in African American Studies but my jealous "mother" destroyed my thesis.
I am not bitter. I forgive her, she's ignorant. She destroyed my thesis but she didn't destroy my brain. I still have the knowledge that I acquired.
The devils will never stop children. You close the door and they will come in the window. Evil permeates our planet. Imps and demons are everywhere. Stand tall, stand strong, let GOD fight your battle.
I demand the right to teach properly, to hold students to a higher standard. The greatest skill a student can learn is to think critically and independently. I can not and will NOT be part and parcel to a group of so called "educators" that teach the test, cow tie to rude lying dictatorial parents. I will NOT rubber stamp ignorance so that a student can graduate in the top five percent of their class only to arrive on a college campus to discover that they are woefully deficient in basic knowledge.
Dear LORD Thank you for this opportunity. Thank You for your Saving Grace. Thank You for eyes that see and ears that hear. Thank You for the words in my mouth and meditation in my heart. Grant me the courage Dear LORD. Keep me strong.
On Friday, March 8, 2013 my principal called me into his office and told it was my last day. Grinned in my face, told me that I should resign. Said things would go better for my career if I resigned.
No sir I am not resigning! I will fight you and the school system tooth and nail! Do know that I am not alone. GOD fights my battles for me. I am a mere vessel doing GOD's will.
Bring it on! I have been tested. I am battle worn but I am not fatigued!
Stay in His WORD children! Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you and cloak you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceeding proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Sunday, March 3, 2013
What a Joy!
It is an absolute Joy to know that I know my Redeemer lives! GOD in His infinite wisdom sent us a savior. And I graciously and humbly accept Him. I grew up in the church. Praise the LORD! True, my road has been rocky. "But, GOD is not finished with me yet."
"Wide is the road that leads to death and destruction." Few will choose the path of righteousness. Most of us will bump our heads over and over listening to the "wisdom" and advice of mortal men. Make sure you know that there are too many people on this earth that think because they messed up their lives they should deliberately steer you down the wrong path to insure that you mess up yours.
We may go to church every Sunday repeating all the right prayers, never really listening. Never truly hearing. Take your time. Say the LORD's Prayer. Listen very carefully. Our Father... Our Father, not the Father of African-Americans, or the "White" Father. We are ALL One. GOD makes no distinction. We will not go to Heaven and separate according to gender and race.
"...forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those that trespassed against us." You are asking GOD to treat you like you treat others. Be careful. If you can't forgive others, how can GOD forgive you?
"...And deliver us from evil" Are you bogged down in the evil of this old world? Are you targeted by demons in your own family? Ask GOD to deliver you, He will.
Love and care for all GOD's children. Don't harbor hatred, animosity and hatred in your heart for people that are racially or culturally different. Don't believe that lie from the devil that GOD has a preference for a particular race, color or hair type. Pray for GOD to purge you of that ignorance.
Do like Jesus, fast and pray. Go into your secret closet. Seek His face. Stop living to impress people. Stop trying to earn their love and respect. Seek GOD first and all that you want will be added unto you.
Stop lying and denying!
GOD created a beautiful world for us to live in. Live in it! Take your burdens to the LORD and leave them there.
Stop living in fear. Resist, rebuke the devil and s/he will flee. GOD's Truth is like krytonite to the devil. Shine a spot light on their darkness. They will run. Evil doers are nothing but cowards. That's why they pick on little children and the elderly. Pray for them and move on.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
"Wide is the road that leads to death and destruction." Few will choose the path of righteousness. Most of us will bump our heads over and over listening to the "wisdom" and advice of mortal men. Make sure you know that there are too many people on this earth that think because they messed up their lives they should deliberately steer you down the wrong path to insure that you mess up yours.
We may go to church every Sunday repeating all the right prayers, never really listening. Never truly hearing. Take your time. Say the LORD's Prayer. Listen very carefully. Our Father... Our Father, not the Father of African-Americans, or the "White" Father. We are ALL One. GOD makes no distinction. We will not go to Heaven and separate according to gender and race.
"...forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those that trespassed against us." You are asking GOD to treat you like you treat others. Be careful. If you can't forgive others, how can GOD forgive you?
"...And deliver us from evil" Are you bogged down in the evil of this old world? Are you targeted by demons in your own family? Ask GOD to deliver you, He will.
Love and care for all GOD's children. Don't harbor hatred, animosity and hatred in your heart for people that are racially or culturally different. Don't believe that lie from the devil that GOD has a preference for a particular race, color or hair type. Pray for GOD to purge you of that ignorance.
Do like Jesus, fast and pray. Go into your secret closet. Seek His face. Stop living to impress people. Stop trying to earn their love and respect. Seek GOD first and all that you want will be added unto you.
Stop lying and denying!
GOD created a beautiful world for us to live in. Live in it! Take your burdens to the LORD and leave them there.
Stop living in fear. Resist, rebuke the devil and s/he will flee. GOD's Truth is like krytonite to the devil. Shine a spot light on their darkness. They will run. Evil doers are nothing but cowards. That's why they pick on little children and the elderly. Pray for them and move on.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
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