I Will Not Be Silenced!

"...Go ye, and tell that fox, behold, I cast out devils, and do cures today and tomorrow, and the third day I shall be perfected." Luke 13:32

Wednesday, May 8, 2013

Held hostage by demons ...

To be held captive and tortured by demons for years is certainly a tragedy more prevalent than this world will have you to believe.  Ghoulish monsters roam this world freely traumatizing and destroying.  Yes, they roam freely, out in the open, unafraid, unencumbered.  Because we live in a world system where most people depend on someone in authority to tell them what to do, what to think.

Most people walk by sight and not by faith.  If it looks good it is good.  If it doesn't affect me I'm not about to get involved.  We live in a world where most people think they know everything and have seen everything.
"Get over it already!" ; they tell me concerning my "mother".

"She's demonic!"  "She MURDERED my grandfather!"; I scream.  "You're crazy." "You're on drugs." " I don't believe you." "No way! Impossible." "Who ever heard of such?" "So what? You're a n*****! That's how n****** act."  "Move on, I don't have time to care about you and your sorry life."

I truly believe that GOD lets everything happen on this earth for His own reasons.  GOD certainly has a plan and the devil will never win.

When demons are finally exposed how many people claim to be shocked?  I can not help but draw parallels from my life and that of the young ladies in Cleveland, Ohio held against their will for over a decade.  I wonder how many people advised the grieving families to give up; "Let it go already! They are dead! They are never coming back."

There are actually people that have said; "They must be stupid 'cause I wudda got out of there!"; failing to fully understand or comprehend the power of demonic forces.

There is a very important lesson here that we must not overlook.  Three men thought they had the right to rob 3 innocent little girls of their joy and happiness.  Three men had no empathy or the slightest concern for robbing, raping and destroying innocent victims.  Because they looked normal, went about their daily routines, socialized, barbecued, gave motorcycle rides to little children in the neighborhood, the world remained clueless.

Martha is a beautiful charming preacher.  She is exciting, charismatic and gifted.  She only has one critic, that daughter.  Martha explains to the world that her daughter is own drugs and that she has always been jealous of her because she was born so black.  "I'm yalla, light bright and damn near white.  She envies me."

The relatives accept this explanation and never question.  "She's a nut."  "She is unforgiving." " She hates her mother.  How can any daughter treat their poor old 87 year old mother like that?  She need to git ova' it and go on wid her life.  What happened in the past is in the past. Let go and let GOD!"

I can't let go because GOD will not let me.   I will keep telling, keep talking, keep warning.  GOD set me free and I won't go back.  I am not content with my freedom only.  I must see my entire family free.  I must see the innocent in this world free of these camouflaged monsters masquerading as loving normal everyday people.

If you care, you will be like Charles Ramsey and help kick that door down.  You will come to the rescue of the many victims lost and held hostage by demons.

Stay in His WORD children.   Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GODs Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)

Tuesday, May 7, 2013

GOD told me ...

to do something radical! To tear the roof off.  To be like Jesus, to turn the tables over, to run the devil out of his "church".  GOD told me to never be a silent victim!

Don't you get the image of Jesus wrong because He told you to turn the other cheek.  Jesus was a radical.  He was a revolutionary!  He made demons bow down and flee.  He gave His life! He didn't lose it.

I am not going to stand around suffering,  waiting on a demon possessed woman to die.  I am not going to keep some sick pedophiles secrets because she "shamed" me.  All those that don't know, or don't want to know, will never know.

Live cowering and cloaking for that demon if that makes you happy.  "As for me and my house we will serve the LORD."  If you love the LORD you must come boldly to the throne of Grace.

Those men kept those three girls imprisoned for ten years! But GOD moved on their behalf yesterday (May 6, 2013) Praise the LORD!  The world is in shock, disbelief, astounded! The man said ;"He was my neighbor.  We bar-be-qued together.  He played with his dogs in the back yard, fixed his motorcycle.  We never had a clue."  That same demonic spirit that kept those 3 young girls hostage is the same spirit that plagues and possesses my "mother".

My truth, my testimony  may be unbelievable today.  People may not care about my pain because they think I'm a "nobody".  Because I'm black or female or lack fame and fortune.

It's alright what you think about me and what you say about me.  "GOD is moving by his spirit" and He has not forgotten the family of Jerome Walters.

"Come Jesus"

"Mathy, You stupid!"

"Mathy you sho' stupid! And you been stupid a long time. 'You duh biggest fool I eva' seen.' That's what you used to always tell me.  Man, now all these years later, all dese decades later you prove to be the fool.

No, you wudden' nevah dat smart... you went undetected fa' all dese years 'cause ain't nobody eva heard of such a woman as you.  LAWD who knew any woman wud do duh kind of things you did?  Thank GAWD that Book is real!  Praise duh LAWD.  I thank my Almight GAWD fah putting Hiz WORD in a book so I cud read it, study it and find you out!

Granddaddy always said you wuz going to hell.  I can still her him; 'You going to Hell! dawthur!' And you wud just laugh. Is that why you killed him?  Or did you murder him fa' the fun of it?  Did you do it to test your power?  Did you do it because you love to make fools out of people?

You got a problem alright.  You a Sadist! A sick sadistic malignant narcissistic murdering homosexual root working pedophile!  Why didn't you kill yo'sef?  You murdered all dem babies and bragged about it.  "Yea! I flushed five of dem muthaf******!" You bragged ova' and ova' to make us feel special, to feel fortunate that you let us live.  To make us think our secret torture wasn't so bad.

'You remember too much!' you scowled.  Still mad, still angry, unrepentant and damn indignant.  You might have fooled the simple calling yo'sef a preacher.  Yea, I wuz simple too, believing your malarky.  Yes, I played the fool in 1997 returning to your lair.

You need not laugh 'cause GAWD rescued me!  Revealed Hiz Truth!  'Yea though I walk through the vallley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil for thou art with me.'  LAWD I didn't know I was living in the valley of the shadow of death.  I didn't know, couldn't comprehend the evil black cloud that hung over us.  But praise the LAWD! One day GAWD showed up and showed out!  He let you insult me and hurt my feelings one more time.  That final insult triggered some memories, dug up some old skeletons that you thought you had buried deep enough.

You cussed me out about asking about my molestation.  Little did you know that it wud lead to my dear brother.  I know what happened to him.  He told me!

Mathy, you stupid and you gon' rot in hell!  You should rot in hell, you stanking 'ho!  You had bedder sense. You got bedder sense now.  You wud rather enjoy the terror you inflict.  You wud rather yo' sons fear you than love you.  You know that it is terrorizing fear and shame that keeps them silent.

What you gon' do 'bout dis Internet?  You think ignoring it is gon' help you?  Do you think your grandchurin' declaring their undying love when they come ova' to get a piece of money is going to help you?  Do you think your so called church, Simon Temple, that won't say a word against you is gonna help you?

Don't you know it is in your countenance, it is in your eyes!  Ray Charles can see the evil in you from the grave.  Yea, I saw you sittin' at James Robert's funeral.  I saw you sittin' in that wheel chair wid your blind man's glasses on.  Sittin' dere hard,  lookin' lak a bulldog.

Sisthu you reaping! Yo' desolation has come whether you know it or not.  If you still too stupid to know that GAWD is dealing wid you, still holding out fa' you, you is a sho'nuff fool!

Any body want to go down wid you, to go down in yo' ship, go head!"

Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."

May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)

Monday, May 6, 2013

DEAD ON ARRIVAL

DOA, dead on arrival, a term used by hospitals and law enforcement agencies to describe the condition of a patient, victim or perpetrator when they arrive by ambulance for emergency treatment.  I got that, I can understand that.  But, can a person be born DOA?

Can a person come to this earth worthless, evil personified?   Evil and demonic from birth?  If you have a MALIGNANT NARCISSIST in your life, you have a serious life threatening problem.  You are suffering some debilitating pain.

Please permit me to share with you some information concerning narcissists that you must be made aware of for your own safety and sanity:

#1 - They will NEVER change!
#2 - Narcissists have perfected the use of "forgive and forget" to enforce their will on their victims.  "You must return for more abuse in order to prove you forgive.  You are accused of being mean, unforgiving and un-Christlike." * (Taken from Tactics of Narcissistic Personality Disordered Mothers, gailmeyers.hubpages.com Please read to gain a better understanding.)

I was blown away when I read this article.  It is a "Playbook" for my malignant narcissistic mother, chapter and verse. How could anyone know the exact life I have lived, the exact tactics this woman used against her entire family for 87 years?  The NM (deliberately) confuses the fundamental difference between forgiveness and reconciliation.  One can forgive but it takes two to reconcile.  How can we ever reconcile when she will never admit the  truth? MNM never forgive the slightest infraction, real, imagined or completely fabricated.

I was 58 years old and stunned by my mother's obvious anger and hatred when she rebuked me for being born June 4, 1951.  "I was on my way to the beach! I was invited to a party! I couldn't go because I had gon ' into labor wid YOU!"  She was genuinely angry, outraged.  I was shocked, puzzled, mystified (again).

"MNM never forgive the slightest infraction."  My mother never has.  To this day she can remember every hateful remark, slight or offense.  She tried to kill my uncle with a shotgun once for criticizing the way she dressed me.  I was a 2 year old wearing a pair of raggedy dirty "draws", no shoes and I am sure my nose was snotty.  He called her a whore and she hated him until the day he died in 2005.  Refused to cry and attempted to be the center of attention at his funeral.

"It can take decades for the children of a malignant narcissist  to even recognize what  the real issue is, many never do."  It took me 58 years!

#3 - The MNM have clever strategies:
     1- Gaslighting
     2- forgive and forget
     3-triangulation
     4- Scapegoats (SG) the child she manipulates the siblings into hating. (that's me)
     5- Golden Child (GC) the child that she adores.  She doesn't love this child, but pretends to because this child improved her image.  My brother managed to become a medical doctor and immediately she began referring to him as her "Black Prince".  From that point on he was worshiped by her, praised constantly.  "You n***** ain't s***! *Sam became a Doctor!"  She did everything she could to make us all feel inferior until he escaped her clutches for 25 years.
     6- Flying Monkeys (taken from the Wizard of Oz) "Willfully ignorant or easily deceived friends and family that abuse by proxy." These are the people she manipulates to do her bidding.  They are her gullible little imps , they do her bidding on demand and never question her.  Their fear of her is so great they will do anything she demands.  My MNM ordered two of my brothers to humiliate my brother (GC) by destroying his medical practice.  The fool took a U-haul to my brother's office and emptied out every stick of furniture, file cabinets, refrigerator, etc.  She busted in his office screaming and hollering; "I bought all dis muthaf**** shit! GET DUH F*** UP AND GET DUH F***OUT!   Humiliated and disgraced my brother left town and remained estranged from us for 25 years.  The MNM will use FM to do her dirty work.  The MNM will lie and project her bad behavior on the victim, the Scapegoat (SG).  I am the SG in my family.  According to my MNM I am the cause of all the grief she's ever had to bear.  My brothers and family refuse to have anything to do with me because MNM demands their loyalty.

I just have too much to share from her "Playbook" today.  It is exhausting.  I am going to have to break this down into smaller segments.  The most frightening characteristic I learned in my research is that they rarely heal and their predatory nature continues on the deathbed. " If anything it worsens."  They are evil personified!

Dear LORD I thank you for this knowledge.  Bring wholeness and healing to my family, remove the scales form their eyes.  Permit them to finally see, in the Mighty name of Jesus I pray.

Stay in His WORD children.  Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."

May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)

Sunday, May 5, 2013

"Sick and tired of being sick and tired!"

The late great Fannie Lou Hammer said that.  It resonates with me.  I am sick and tired of  hurting , of being misunderstood, of being hated.  I am sick and tired of being the object of some one's envy and jealousy.  I am sick of ignorant racists (black and white) that hate me for the color of my skin, the texture of my hair, my cultural heritage.

We have no excuse as a world, as a society.  Far too many people on this earth are too evil, too depraved, too low.  And just as many are apathetic and uncaring.  I am sure GOD looks down on our dying decaying world and cries.

I heard a very good sermon today; "Sick of the Palsy" (Mark 2:1-12)  The man was so sick of having the Palsy he had his friends to tear a hole in some one's roof so that he could get to Jesus.  The young minister that preached this sermon said something  that ignited my soul.  "Sometimes we have to tear something up!"   We have to break down some barriers to get to Christ.

Quit playing games, it is latter than you think.  You know wearing religious trinkets and putting on clerical garb doesn't save you.  You know carrying a Bible and quoting scripture or putting on an outside show is a total waste of your time and GOD's.

Jesus told the man sick of the Palsy; "Thy sins be forgiven thee."  He was forgiven, We are forgiven!  You don't have to lie, to pretend, to rob, to snare, to plot, to plunder.  You don't have to keep up a front.  You don't have to fear.

"Where the spirit of the LORD is, there is liberty."  GOD gave us freedom from sin.  HE gave us dominion over sin.  So why are you still living in sin? Still lying, still plotting, still harboring black evil hatred in your heart?

You have the power.  I have the Power! GOD gave us the power, HE gave us dominion over evil.  I will not be defeated. I will not shrink! I will not be intimidated by your hatred, lies and insulting remarks.  Every time I see evil, see the devil,  I am am going to demand that demon to bow down.

Martha, you have a demon!  You know it.  I know it.  Every one in my family should know it.  Perhaps some of them don't know they should not fear you.  You have no power outside of your ugly lying mouth spewing filth,  lies and curses.  I decided a few years ago to quit taking your crap, to quit pretending that you are something that you're not.

I am not going to lie for you.  You will not make me "skin and grin", turn somersaults, turn a blind eye to your sick deeds.  Most of all you will not MURDER JEROME WALTERS AND GET AWAY WITH IT!

Martha! You are 87 years old!  Quit playing.  You know very well how to rid yourself of that demon that plagues you.  Ask GOD.  Pray for the indwelling of the Holy Spirit.  If you don't do it, if you don't do it now I will know  that you fully deserve to spend your eternity in hell.

I know you know better because you preach too good.  Continue to mock me if you want to.  "This very night your soul may be required of thee."

Family, I know you too.  Waiting on the old "haint" to die so you can be the first to say; "Yea, I know she did it.  I kinda thought she did it, but I wuz  too scared to say anything."  You better know, GOD is going to hold you accountable also.

Stay in His WORD children.  Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."

May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)