Don't be timid! Don't be frightened, come Boldly to His Throne! Humble yourselves before the LORD imploring Him for His Goodness, for His Truth.
As a mature adult I can tell you from experience there is not one thing this world will give you other than grief. Please remember the story of Jesus being tempted by the devil after He had fasted for 40 days and nights. GOD wants us to know that His son was at His weakest when that old serpent came to tempt Him.
Be very careful. satan has not changed his tactics. When we are at our weakest, ready to give up, that old serpent slithers up to us with a fool proof plan, with a demonic solution. The devil will try to convince you that GOD doesn't love you, that you are on your own. That evil force tries to chip away all your faith, all your trust. You hurt, you are angry. In your vulnerable situation it is easy to believe that you are forsaken.
Brothers and sisters you must pray. You must beseech GOD. Ask Him for His guidance, His wisdom and His strength. You must read and study you Bible. You must go into your secret closet. Shut this world out, meditate on His WORD.
Yes, it is a very gloomy day here in Georgia. But, it is a very glorious day in my life! GOD gave me one more chance to get it right, to trust Him, to let Him lead me.
I am so blessed. I found ASCA (Adult Children of Child Abuse) and DONM (Daughters of Narcissistic Mothers). Just when I thought I was going to lose my mind with grief and bewilderment GOD placed these organizations in my life in order for me to understand and heal.
As a survivor of the most heinous reprobate that ever lived I had to question GOD. I didn't do it disrespectfully, but I did wonder; "Why me? ... Why us? Why did you let her murder my 84 year old saintly grandfather LORD and let her get away with it?"
GOD told me; "She never got away with any thing. She knows full well who she is and what she is. She is a frightened coward. She is faithless and deceived. Pray for her."
Jesus told us that we would have mothers against daughters, daughters against mothers, etc. He told us that wicked ravenous wolves would wrap themselves up in sheep's clothing in order to deceive and mislead the innocent into captivity. But, He also told us to trust and believe.
My story is one of courage and victory. I had to wonder why it took me so long to recognize my mother for what she is. The truth is I just did not want to know. I was really trying to fix her. Our roles were always reversed. I took over mothering my brothers when I was five. Martha got to be a reckless promiscuous pre-teen her whole life.
That's sad. Eighty-eight years old, still playing pretend. Still faking and demanding that your whole family submit to you, go along with your schemes and scams. No one is supposed to notice or mention your 88 years of terror and debauchery. The horrifying fear you instilled should be sufficient enough to permit you to crawl into your dirty little grave unnoticed, unrecognized. As a matter of fact, you think your church will honor you and give you a great send-off.
Well, I came to remind you that you are wrong. Jerome Walters, the man you killed, told you; "Time changes all things." That crying, having tantrums, pretending that you are weak and can't help yourself is no longer working. That ignorance with voodoo and conjure got old and it doesn't work.
You are left with one choice Martha; repent of your sins. Come boldly to the Throne of Grace! You can't trade you sick deeds for your outward signs of godliness. You got into that awful pit you are rotting in because of fear and custom.
You were so violent, abusive and ignorant, no one could control or coral you. Terrorizing people became your pleasure. Of course you hid behind lies. Who had the courage to confront you? Your daddy! So you MURDERED him!
I talked back, defied you, told on you. So you hated me. Justified your schemes by inventing horrible untruths on me. For 88 years you have pretended to be happy. Pretended that you are winning. You know full well you are on your way to an eternity in hell. A savage sick hell. The same savage sick hell you inflicted upon us, your entire family.
You are guilty of hating the message and the messenger. GOD is not going to change for you. GOD is not like your family. Your family kept your despicable secrets out of shame. We were too ashamed to tell the world what kind of woman you really were. We were proud to ride around in your Cadillacs, faking, pretending we were somebody, a real family.
Martha, when you were born in 1925 people were taught to keep family secrets for the good of the family name. I am so glad "time changes all things". I am so glad I finally heard Jesus say; "Know ye the Truth and the Truth will set you Free!"
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Friday, July 5, 2013
Wednesday, July 3, 2013
Any body hanging back ...
waiting on GOD to change because they don't want to be embarrassed, just knowing GOD is going to protect you in your wrong doing because you don't have sense enough to know that GOD has been involved in this "mess", the whole time. I might as well go on and tell you, you are going to be waiting a long time!
The world may have convinced you that you are that fine, or gifted with supernatural intelligence. But GOD is not going to change His Prophetic WORD for you.
Some of your children may be willing to give up their lives because you duped them. GOD told me that He is going to wake them up, take their blinders off. What are you going to do then? What are you going to do when everyone finally realizes that you are the snake you made me out to be?
What are you going to say when you see GOD? " Dear LAWD I know I wuz nothing but a nasty common pervert that destroyed and took lives but I wuz too proud to listen, too stubborn to change. I thought if I didn't think about what I did it would go away. "
I used to hear my grandfather say; "A lie can't live forever."
The world may have convinced you that you are that fine, or gifted with supernatural intelligence. But GOD is not going to change His Prophetic WORD for you.
Some of your children may be willing to give up their lives because you duped them. GOD told me that He is going to wake them up, take their blinders off. What are you going to do then? What are you going to do when everyone finally realizes that you are the snake you made me out to be?
What are you going to say when you see GOD? " Dear LAWD I know I wuz nothing but a nasty common pervert that destroyed and took lives but I wuz too proud to listen, too stubborn to change. I thought if I didn't think about what I did it would go away. "
I used to hear my grandfather say; "A lie can't live forever."
Live in Expectancy!
Live every day of your life expecting a blessing from Almighty GOD. Not because you deserve it, or did any thing to earn it. Expect His tremendous blessings because He loves you and because you love Him.
Don't live the life of vermin, some unwanted pest always up to no good. Don't live your life lusting after someone else's life. GOD gave you your particular unique life for His own purpose.
Trust Him! I don't understand some people. They let domineering, narcissistic, manipulative sociopaths control them. This life is no rehearsal, this is not a dry run. This life is for real. As far as I know, you only get one. You are only going to get once chance to get this thing right.
The first thing you Must do is Think! Think for yourself! Exercise that privilege. Don't wait for some one white to tell you because they are the only people you have been conditioned to trust. Trust GOD! Trust that Book!
Get up every morning thanking GOD for keeping and protecting you. Now, expect the best! Expect great blessings. Never think that you are too small, too dark, too cursed, too insignificant for GOD to smother you in His abundant wealth. "The cattle on a thousand hills is His."
If you are "broke", you need to be broke. "You have not because you ask not." Quit running around wishing you were someone else. Are you stupid? Quit burning with envy because some one you know and pretend to love got a new car, a new house, has a fine lover.
GOD is not out of blessings. He is not out of new cars or new houses. GOD has plenty well paying jobs. Know what you want! Don't follow the crowd and want what someone else has. Know what you want and live right. You know how to live right. You may not want to but it is the best and only route.
If you got on the wrong road. If you are on that wide road that leads to death and destruction, you can turn around.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Don't live the life of vermin, some unwanted pest always up to no good. Don't live your life lusting after someone else's life. GOD gave you your particular unique life for His own purpose.
Trust Him! I don't understand some people. They let domineering, narcissistic, manipulative sociopaths control them. This life is no rehearsal, this is not a dry run. This life is for real. As far as I know, you only get one. You are only going to get once chance to get this thing right.
The first thing you Must do is Think! Think for yourself! Exercise that privilege. Don't wait for some one white to tell you because they are the only people you have been conditioned to trust. Trust GOD! Trust that Book!
Get up every morning thanking GOD for keeping and protecting you. Now, expect the best! Expect great blessings. Never think that you are too small, too dark, too cursed, too insignificant for GOD to smother you in His abundant wealth. "The cattle on a thousand hills is His."
If you are "broke", you need to be broke. "You have not because you ask not." Quit running around wishing you were someone else. Are you stupid? Quit burning with envy because some one you know and pretend to love got a new car, a new house, has a fine lover.
GOD is not out of blessings. He is not out of new cars or new houses. GOD has plenty well paying jobs. Know what you want! Don't follow the crowd and want what someone else has. Know what you want and live right. You know how to live right. You may not want to but it is the best and only route.
If you got on the wrong road. If you are on that wide road that leads to death and destruction, you can turn around.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Tuesday, July 2, 2013
You can steal ...
a lot of things. But, you can't steal an anointing. You can not alter GOD's plans for my life, for your life, for any life.
GOD is Good! That is the Truth! GOD can not lie! That Book is Prophesy! How dare you ignore it! How dare you preach from it, not believing a WORD of it!
"Come ye out from among them!" Pick up your cross, "bear it daily."
GOD is so wonderful, so patient.
His WORD is Everlasting! It will sustain you when you get weak. It will protect you from your enemies. It will make you sing when you want to cry. You will forgive your enemies. You will love and pray for them.
You will declare:"Praise the LORD!"
GOD is Good! That is the Truth! GOD can not lie! That Book is Prophesy! How dare you ignore it! How dare you preach from it, not believing a WORD of it!
"Come ye out from among them!" Pick up your cross, "bear it daily."
GOD is so wonderful, so patient.
His WORD is Everlasting! It will sustain you when you get weak. It will protect you from your enemies. It will make you sing when you want to cry. You will forgive your enemies. You will love and pray for them.
You will declare:"Praise the LORD!"
"Please Stand!"
Back straight! Head held high! Please repeat after me;
"I was born for Greatness! If I am to Be, What I want to Be, It is up to ME!!!"
For the last few years of my teaching career I instructed my students to stand and recite that affirmation with me. I meant every word because I know it to be true. (Incidentally it was very affective.)
Do not call your children names or re-iterate that old lie; "You ain't s***! Ain't nevah gon be s***, 'cause yo' daddy ain't S***!"
Do not pour your negativity on that child. Don't spew your venomous lies and hatred on your progeny. GOD gifted you with those children for His own purpose. You have no right to malign and curse them because you made a mistake. Because you were undisciplined or promiscuous.
I do believe GOD gives us the opportunity to fix what ever was or is wrong in our lives through our children.
If you were treated cruelly and mistreated, treat that child, treat All children, the way you wished you had been treated. If you grew up hearing nothing but lies, be sure you are a "truth-teller".
If you don't like bullies, kick their a**. Kick their a** with GOD's Gospel Truth. Are you mad, stewing, perplexed because you think they got away with murder. Tell GOD! Tell GOD how you really feel about it. Ask Him to lead and guide you. Ask Him to put the WORDS in your mouth, the meditation in your heart.
Don't let the devil win children! Stand up for what is right! Help the "helpless"! Help those that don't have a voice. Protect our children from the vermin that would destroy them.
"I was born for Greatness! If I am to Be, What I want to Be, It is up to ME!!!"
For the last few years of my teaching career I instructed my students to stand and recite that affirmation with me. I meant every word because I know it to be true. (Incidentally it was very affective.)
Do not call your children names or re-iterate that old lie; "You ain't s***! Ain't nevah gon be s***, 'cause yo' daddy ain't S***!"
Do not pour your negativity on that child. Don't spew your venomous lies and hatred on your progeny. GOD gifted you with those children for His own purpose. You have no right to malign and curse them because you made a mistake. Because you were undisciplined or promiscuous.
I do believe GOD gives us the opportunity to fix what ever was or is wrong in our lives through our children.
If you were treated cruelly and mistreated, treat that child, treat All children, the way you wished you had been treated. If you grew up hearing nothing but lies, be sure you are a "truth-teller".
If you don't like bullies, kick their a**. Kick their a** with GOD's Gospel Truth. Are you mad, stewing, perplexed because you think they got away with murder. Tell GOD! Tell GOD how you really feel about it. Ask Him to lead and guide you. Ask Him to put the WORDS in your mouth, the meditation in your heart.
Don't let the devil win children! Stand up for what is right! Help the "helpless"! Help those that don't have a voice. Protect our children from the vermin that would destroy them.
Helen Reddy We'll Sing in the Sunshine
Dear LORD thank you for the
beautiful world You created for us. Thank You for your great plans and vision. Give us the strength and courage to fight evil each and every day. Remind each and every one of us that You gave us the Power, and the Holy Ghost.
You don't have to live a broken defeated life. You don't have to self medicate and disease up your liver. You don't have to numb yourself in order to survive another day. You can sing in the Sunshine.
Please do not make the mistake of assigning any kind of honor or fear to a sick reprobate. She served her purpose. Personally I think GOD let her live and exist in order to bring millions to Christ.
She made a spectacle of herself. Always sneaky and hardheaded. Always thought she knew more than everybody else. She may claim that she is happy, that she doesn't care. She is not happy and she does care.
Pride is keeping her enslaved. Pride and Envy, two characteristics you don't want. You will end up messed up. Feared instead of loved, tolerated instead of welcomed and when you are dead everyone will be glad you are finally gone.
Don't ever believe that you have to compromise or placate evil. GOD did Not put you on this earth to be stalked, hell hacked, and plagued by any one or anything!
Stand Up! No one can ride your back when you are standing. Don't let her poo-poo her evil! This woman is a demon from the lowest bowels or hell trying to pretend that she is being crucified for dipping a little snuff.
Have some self-respect! You are not going to do the kinds of things you did to me and my brothers then walk away annoyed. "Pissed" and cussing me out because I said something.
Martha Jane Walters Hodges Doster Watson Lamoureaux you are not that ignorant! You are that cruel and selfish but you are not stupid by a long shot. You are disgusting and an abomination before the LORD. But, that is your choice.
Humble yourself and release your sons. None of us came here to stay always. One by one we are all leaving.
Your father left a great Legacy. What are you leaving other than your scent?
Stay in His WORD children. Remember:"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (The exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
beautiful world You created for us. Thank You for your great plans and vision. Give us the strength and courage to fight evil each and every day. Remind each and every one of us that You gave us the Power, and the Holy Ghost.
You don't have to live a broken defeated life. You don't have to self medicate and disease up your liver. You don't have to numb yourself in order to survive another day. You can sing in the Sunshine.
Please do not make the mistake of assigning any kind of honor or fear to a sick reprobate. She served her purpose. Personally I think GOD let her live and exist in order to bring millions to Christ.
She made a spectacle of herself. Always sneaky and hardheaded. Always thought she knew more than everybody else. She may claim that she is happy, that she doesn't care. She is not happy and she does care.
Pride is keeping her enslaved. Pride and Envy, two characteristics you don't want. You will end up messed up. Feared instead of loved, tolerated instead of welcomed and when you are dead everyone will be glad you are finally gone.
Don't ever believe that you have to compromise or placate evil. GOD did Not put you on this earth to be stalked, hell hacked, and plagued by any one or anything!
Stand Up! No one can ride your back when you are standing. Don't let her poo-poo her evil! This woman is a demon from the lowest bowels or hell trying to pretend that she is being crucified for dipping a little snuff.
Have some self-respect! You are not going to do the kinds of things you did to me and my brothers then walk away annoyed. "Pissed" and cussing me out because I said something.
Martha Jane Walters Hodges Doster Watson Lamoureaux you are not that ignorant! You are that cruel and selfish but you are not stupid by a long shot. You are disgusting and an abomination before the LORD. But, that is your choice.
Humble yourself and release your sons. None of us came here to stay always. One by one we are all leaving.
Your father left a great Legacy. What are you leaving other than your scent?
Stay in His WORD children. Remember:"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (The exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Monday, July 1, 2013
"You have not, ...
because you ask Not!" Thank you Jesus for telling us. If you want anything from GOD, ask Him for it! He is your father, He wants to bless and protect you. Jesus reminded us that were were wicked and if our children asked us for bread we wouldn't give them a serpent or a stone. He said even wicked parents give their children good gifts.
What are you lacking? What is it that you want? Ask GOD for it, tell Him what you want. Asking is praying. Go into your secret closet, pray and meditate. Don't want something because the world tells you that is what you want. The world will mix you up, have you following every fad and every narrow minded hater.
Find your purpose. Explore your gifts. Please let this mature woman save you a great deal of time. Every one cooing in your ear does not love you. "Look at their fruit!" Listen to their conversation. If they are delighted in the downfall of one of your siblings. Be real, what do you think they really think about you?
Understand the word Salvation. It means that you have surrendered your life to Christ. That you are trying your humanly best to live like Him, to love everyone like Him. It means that you have been set apart. You don't do the mean things you used to do.
I used to carry a .32 H/R every where I went in Atlanta. I had a beautiful little leather case for it. It looked like a fashion accessory. I said I carried it for my protection. Which I did. But, I also carried it to threaten and intimidate people. I let every boy friend and finally that husband know that I would shoot them.
I look back over my early childhood and youth and know for a fact that I was very violent. I took a personality test my senior year of college. My professor told me that my "personality index" described me as hostile. And I looked at that professor and snarled; "What the F***! you mean I'm Hostile!!!" (true story)
But, GOD has worked on me, taken and explained that hostility. If you know and love the LORD you know that He is going to take care of you. Have no doubt. What ever your problems. Let GOD work them out. "Take your burdens to the LORD and leave them there."
Don't worry about the problems of this world. Inflation, unemployment, the economy, ... all distractions are from the devil, evil, what ever you want to call or label negative forces.
Love the LORD! Love yourself. "Seek ye first the kingdom of GOD and everything else will be added unto you." That's Bible, that's the Holy WORD. I didn't have to wait and read that in the Bible. My granddaddy taught me that.
I look back over my sometimes very painful life and wonder aloud; "Where would I be without the LORD on my side?" One of Martha's "girlfriends" ended up a "two dollar 'ho", working the truck stops for "crack". When Mathy told me she was very happy. I could tell that she was delighted to see her friend in this condition. It struck me as strange and cruel. Then I had to admit, the woman has always been strange and cruel.
She had a baby at 42 and I was 17. She tried to blame it on me! She told people that her son was her grandson! What kind of idiot does such? I shook my head and went on to college.
You have all kinds of people on this earth. Some are just ignorant. They are poisonous, you can't help them. Stay away from them! "Walk not in the counsel of the ungodly!" The ungodly are not going to tell you or announce to you that they are evil, demonic, an imp seeking your destruction. If they tell you the truth you will shun them. Then they will have to hunt for some other victims.
No, they are not going to change. May I say it in my best British accent; "Not bloody likely!"
My FB friend posted 1 John 1:9 today. That is some good scripture. It is the WORD! "If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness."
"If we say that we have not sinned, we make Him a liar, and His WORD is not in us." (1 John 1:10)
Confess your sins. Admit that you were ignorant, wrong, devious, corrupt, had some issues. We all have issues. We have issues because we had pain that we tried to heal ourselves. We tried to look out for or protect ourselves. We didn't trust GOD. We said;"GOD's too slow!"
I've learned that GOD is right on time. Trust Him! "He will do just what He said!" Praise the LORD!
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
What are you lacking? What is it that you want? Ask GOD for it, tell Him what you want. Asking is praying. Go into your secret closet, pray and meditate. Don't want something because the world tells you that is what you want. The world will mix you up, have you following every fad and every narrow minded hater.
Find your purpose. Explore your gifts. Please let this mature woman save you a great deal of time. Every one cooing in your ear does not love you. "Look at their fruit!" Listen to their conversation. If they are delighted in the downfall of one of your siblings. Be real, what do you think they really think about you?
Understand the word Salvation. It means that you have surrendered your life to Christ. That you are trying your humanly best to live like Him, to love everyone like Him. It means that you have been set apart. You don't do the mean things you used to do.
I used to carry a .32 H/R every where I went in Atlanta. I had a beautiful little leather case for it. It looked like a fashion accessory. I said I carried it for my protection. Which I did. But, I also carried it to threaten and intimidate people. I let every boy friend and finally that husband know that I would shoot them.
I look back over my early childhood and youth and know for a fact that I was very violent. I took a personality test my senior year of college. My professor told me that my "personality index" described me as hostile. And I looked at that professor and snarled; "What the F***! you mean I'm Hostile!!!" (true story)
But, GOD has worked on me, taken and explained that hostility. If you know and love the LORD you know that He is going to take care of you. Have no doubt. What ever your problems. Let GOD work them out. "Take your burdens to the LORD and leave them there."
Don't worry about the problems of this world. Inflation, unemployment, the economy, ... all distractions are from the devil, evil, what ever you want to call or label negative forces.
Love the LORD! Love yourself. "Seek ye first the kingdom of GOD and everything else will be added unto you." That's Bible, that's the Holy WORD. I didn't have to wait and read that in the Bible. My granddaddy taught me that.
I look back over my sometimes very painful life and wonder aloud; "Where would I be without the LORD on my side?" One of Martha's "girlfriends" ended up a "two dollar 'ho", working the truck stops for "crack". When Mathy told me she was very happy. I could tell that she was delighted to see her friend in this condition. It struck me as strange and cruel. Then I had to admit, the woman has always been strange and cruel.
She had a baby at 42 and I was 17. She tried to blame it on me! She told people that her son was her grandson! What kind of idiot does such? I shook my head and went on to college.
You have all kinds of people on this earth. Some are just ignorant. They are poisonous, you can't help them. Stay away from them! "Walk not in the counsel of the ungodly!" The ungodly are not going to tell you or announce to you that they are evil, demonic, an imp seeking your destruction. If they tell you the truth you will shun them. Then they will have to hunt for some other victims.
No, they are not going to change. May I say it in my best British accent; "Not bloody likely!"
My FB friend posted 1 John 1:9 today. That is some good scripture. It is the WORD! "If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness."
"If we say that we have not sinned, we make Him a liar, and His WORD is not in us." (1 John 1:10)
Confess your sins. Admit that you were ignorant, wrong, devious, corrupt, had some issues. We all have issues. We have issues because we had pain that we tried to heal ourselves. We tried to look out for or protect ourselves. We didn't trust GOD. We said;"GOD's too slow!"
I've learned that GOD is right on time. Trust Him! "He will do just what He said!" Praise the LORD!
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
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