FREE WILL!

Dear LORD!  I am down here on my knees thanking you for FREE WILL!  I am thanking you for making intercession for me when I was unawares!   I am am blessed! I am  RESTORED! REDEEMED! REJOICING!

Dear LORD thank you for my blindness! My thickness, my naivety , my failure to comprehend the serious danger I was in.  Thank you for the fervent prayers of a righteous man.  Thank you for the good souls that stood in the gap for me until I could get on my feet.

Sometime in September, 2013, I do believe the evilest, most demonic , cunning, manipulative woman that ever lived was finally lowered into the ground for our safety, for our deliverance.  She finally went too far when she as a minister of the Gospel started bragging, started spewing braggadocios quips about how she wasn't repenting for ****!

GOD said NO!

A woman so selfish, so immoral, so unmerciful, she did deliberately take her entire family down, in order for her to be number one.  Martha Jane Walters never loved anyone in her entire life.  Nothing but a raging demon possessed, malignant narcissistic sadist!  Merciless!  A woman so evil and selfish you could not win.  She sadistically tormented us for loving her and sticking by her side.  She tormented you, stalked you when you fled.   She called every boss we ever had!  Engaged in nothing but smear campaigns.    Delighted in destroying every marriage she could by every means she could while grinning in your face!

This woman wanted nothing from anyone but the allegiance of her tormented victims.  She demanded to be surrounded by her "flying monkeys", little imps that did her biding without question.  "Don't you f****** n****** even f***** think back!"

Sick and sadistic for 87 YEARS!

GOD said NO!

Why did we suffer so, suffer so long, so so mightily?    Lack of knowledge .  Sure we went to church, never learned nothing!   We were just encouraged  to take more of that demonic whore's crap.  "Gawd, don't put no mo' on you than you can bear."

Not one word about fleeing or shunning the evil doer that held us hostage.  This is the beauty children! That Jerome Walters, that good man, that one true Christian, was praying, did in fact sacrifice his life for ours,  knew this very day was coming.

Every day of my life when I went to my grandfather mystified by another evil deed heaped on me by my own mother, grandaddy always delivered the same message; "Don't worry dawthur, Jesus Will Fix It."

I do pray for and forgive all of my haters, my scorners.  You can't know what message GOD has placed in my heart.  I pray for that Jezebel spirited  woman that is attempting to block my path, my blessings , by declaring me a liar.    A woman so ignorant she preaches racial division, declared that I am a liar because she knows no black woman could ever be so evil.  Shut your mouth and get out of GOD's way!

Read Matthew 28: 18 - 20 today.

"And Jesus came up and spoke to them, saying, All authority has been given to Me in heaven and on earth.  Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son, and the Holy Ghost, teaching them to observe all that I commanded you; and lo, I am with you always, even to the end of the age."

Praise GOD almighty!  I just copied that out of my inheritance.  One of the few things of any worth that my mother ever gave me.

I can not help being humbled, marveling at the knowledge and image I still carry in my head.  Two little brown bastard toddlers standing in a graveyard (The Cow field, Coefied) on the bank of the Cape Fear river watching my mother collect her "goofer dust".  A woman so depraved she taught her toddlers how to collect it.  I shall never forget that lesson.

"If you want to do good, git yo' dust off a innocent baby's grave.  I use Norresa.  Ni, (now) if you want to do evil, to harm, you go ova' heah (here) tuh dis murdered man's grave.  Git on you knees when you collect it, scoop it up in yo' right hand and throw it ova' yo' left shoulder. Chuck it! One fuh duh father, one fuh duh son, and one fuh duh holy ghost.  Take duh rest and sew it up in  red flannel , soaked it in Hoyt's cologne."

There is nothing else I need to say.  Just what kind of woman would do such a thing?  A raging lunatic!
A MURDERING, lying, manipulative, miserable wretch!  GOD broke that bond, unyoked me from that demon.  Praise the LORD!

If you know like I know and you still love her, still admire her, GOD help you!

To all my kit and kin, to all my friends, enemies and friendemies, be abundantly blessed today as you search out your soul salvation.

Where am I?  Down at the cross, on my knees, praying for my whole family.  Praying for the restoration of my grandfather's good name.   CHILDREN OF GOD MY GRANDFATHER NEVER KILLED HIMSELF!  That miserable wretch of a woman did in fact hake his life! Not only did she take his life, she did deliberately take our lives! So jealous you wnted nothing more than to grind each and every person of goodness, of hope, ground into fine powder because she was a no mannered selfish rebellious BEAST!  She tore us all down!   GOD told me IT IS DONE!  THAT JESUS FIXED IT! 

Too much dust

This big fat buffarilla woman disturbed my mother's sleep, it was about one in the morning . The woman had come to see her ,  (my mother) , about a week prior, seeking MADAME ******'s help.  (Madame ****** was some shame my bored mother created on a whim.  She read Tarot cards, palms, guaranteed all men their "nature" back, decades before Viagra.)

This Magella -Gorilla woman  brought a picture of one fine Adonis looking man with her.  This woman pined for this man's love, for his attention.   My mother took her money , gave her the "dust" and told her to sprinkle it in  the man's shoes.

I did chide my mother for her awful swindle.  I was the door keeper and greeter.  I seated the ignorant and destitute, inquired about their misery or concerns.  It was all so mysterious.  Martha worked out of her  kitchen.  Dressed in gypsy flowing robe, head wrapped in a beautiful scarf, and feigning some foreign homemade accent.  She was Hilarious.

This poor woman was a big ugly woman.   My mother laughed and replied that a nigga would screw a snake if someone held his head.

Sure enough, the woman called from a motel where they did the deed. He did commit fornication with her.  Unfortunately while dressing the man was puzzled; "Whur all dis dirt come from ? " and poured the dirt out into the trash.

The woman called in a panic,  demanding to know what to do. Martha responded; " You weren't supposed to pour all of it in his shoes! I said sprinkle! That means grains , (dumb ass)."

We laughed.

My mother conjured me , but obviously , too much and far too long.  Too much dust.  PTL!

87 years of evil treachery.  My LORD ! My LORD!

DIVINE ORDER

• GOD deliberately planted me in the belly of a woman lower than any ordinary whore.  She was a sick sadistic sociopath.  A deeply disturbed woman, full of   insane jealousy.  A woman so cunning and disrespectful to the Holy Spirit she dared to preach.  Secured a license , not for the purpose of saving souls, but to destroy and prevent any form of happiness, to kill all joy,  from everyone unfortunate enough to love her,  while she roared with laughter.
• GOD placed JEROME WALTERS IN MY LIFE TO SAVE ME!  I would have been lost, completely decimated,  sacrificed to every form of debauchery for MARTHA JANE WALTERS' perverted pleasure.   She,  my mother , was a PERVERT!  A complete REPROBATE and she knew it,  and was proud of it.   She did put on sheep's clothing.  She was a RAVENOUS WOLF.   She preferred faking "religion".  Jesus on her lips was her ploy to keep you near, to keep you confused.  GOD SAID NO!
• NO WEAPON FORMED AGAINST ME SHALL PROSPER!
• WHAT IS DONE IN THE DARK SHALL SURELY COME TO LIGHT!
• EVERY WALTERS THAT CONTINUES TO HONOR HER INSTEAD OF JEROME WALTERS IS ACCURSED! You will never prosper.  Every things you attempt will come to naught.  She hated you too!   
• Life is a vapor.  GOD did not send us here to stay always.  He did send us here to upift the Kingdom.  Martha's horrid life uplift's the KINGDOM!  You now know clearly that you must personally study GOD'S WORD for yourself.  You know to beware of flattering words, empty promises.  You will know to look carefully at the fruit of those that keep you on your knees, those that keep you confused.

I am not bragging...

I am facting!   One of my mothers's favorite jokes. I am facting and bragging!  Me and GOD , under satanic attack for 62 years!  With the help of the LORD I fought off a succubus! We won! If you want to ever win, choose GOD.

Why were nearly 4 million slaves still suffering under the lash of slavery in 1865? Why did so many remain on the same plantations?  Fear! They were trauma bonded.  That is precisely what our evil Jezebel mother did to us.  We are all suffering with PTSD.

I would have never known without my brother returning after a 25 year hiatus! Divine Order brought him back and the gig was up!

Skank! Would not come to CHRIST, to the truth.  She did falsely believe she was smarter than GOD. Truly believed her brilliant acting and superior ability to scramble brains would always prevent her detection.

The truth is, who knew such evil possible?

Well! Choose ye this day whom thou shall serve.

Pressing on in Jesus' name! Healingl Restored! Redeemed! And always praying the LORD!

Kiss an angel good morning ...

by Charlie Pride was one of my mother's favorite songs.  I loved it too.  Like Charlie, my family loves Country music.  Some call us black hillbillies.  Well, so be it.

The truth is we are ONE people, GOD's people.  The color of our skin is as insignificant as shoe size.  Stop putting people in a box labeling them, making certain assumptions based on skin color, status or ethnicity.  You know better!

My poor mother lived 87 years bragging on her color and swearing dark skin people were the bain of her existence when in fact she was something so repulsive she had to hide from herself.  Something so common she hated everyone that could live a sincere life.

Why you must know my life story; Martha Jane Walters is the tip of the iceberg.  The proliferation of such women, such mothers signals the downfall of man.  When my book is published it is my prayer that all men and women will exercise great caution before they create a life.

Men and women that freely fornicate with any and every one, do it if you want to, but you will be deeply ashamed.  Women left with these unwanted children will punish them forever.

I have pieced my mother's horrible reprobate life together and it is obvious to me why she became a sick sadistic lying whore.  She was lost, blind, stupid and extremely rebellious.  I found my own mother in 2 Timothy 3:1 -7.   Don't laugh, don't mock,  don't scorn, you will be there soon enough if you are a liar, if you fail to crucify your flesh.  If you mock GOD.  If inwardly you hate GOD and His commandments.If you carry secret jealousy and covetousness in your heart.

"But realize this, that in the last days difficult times will come For (wo)men will be lovers of self, lovers of money, boastful, arrogant, revilers, disobedient, ungrateful, unholy, unloving, 
irreconcilable, malicious gossips, without self control, brutal, haters of good, treacherous, reckless, conceited, lovers of pleasure, rather than lovers of GOD; holding a form of godliness, although they have denied its power, and avoid such (wo) men as these.  For among them are those who enter into households and captivate weak women weighed down with sins, led on by various impulses, always learning and never able to come to the knowledge of the truth."

Praise GOD almighty! I read that and nearly fell out of my seat.  GOD's WORD predicted my mother , described her down to her teeth.

• No one loved Martha more than Martha loved Martha.  She was her favorite person.  Now I know why she took me  shopping , just to buy herself a Cadillac trunk full of shoes;"I want all of these (10 pair) in every color you have! I am very sure she ended up with one hundred pairs of shoes! I remember that day clearly in Buster Brown's in Eutaw Shopping Center on Bragg Boulevard  ….Oh, Gwen pick you out a pair (a pair as in ONE) from the sales rack" 
• Boastful, all my mother did was brag on herself.  No one that knew her can ever call me a liar on that score.  "I'm light bright and damn near white! I can scrambled a nigga's brains lak an egg!"
• Arrogant, if you knew her you know she looked down on every one not as fortunate as she was .  Her greatest pleasure was whizzing by fellow church members, walking to Wesley Chapel in the hot sun on Highway 301, in her long sleek Cadillac.
• Revilers, disobedient to parents.  My mother took great pride in doing everything her father kindly advised her not to do. Ungrateful, just like clockwork, my mother was on my grandfather's porch begging for money, because some man had done her wrong.  Money! Money! Money! you could never give Martha enough of your money.  She never paid you back.  Be foolish enough to remind her of a debt she owed.  You would be lucky to escape without any blood being shed.
• Unholy, very unholy, all practitioners of "Witchcraft" are unholy.  Unloving; she was iceberg cold when she wanted to be, beating you severely and always calling you every filthy name she could think of.  I have a handsome brother that thinks he is ugly.  My mother made him pay for being an "outside" child. She was newly married to her 2nd husband, tried to abort this baby at 6 month gestation in 1956! He was born weighing two pounds 2 ounces and she made him pay for embarrassing her.  A poor boy, tall and brown just like her lover.  Her unsolicited explanation ;"He look lake my mama's people."
• Irreconcilable!  She sent me a fecal matter smeared letter for no reason other than to blame for her third husband fleeing her.  (The man ran for his life when he realized what he had married. She tried to tie a "knot in his tale".  Martha very cleverly seduced her men into doing the unthinkable, molesting and raping her children for her pleasure ,then she held it over their heads if they ever tired of her abuse.  I was estranged from her for 9 years for that "letter".  GOD sent me back to her.  I totally forgave her for everything.  She responded with the secret treachery she heaped on me unawares.
• Malicious gossip, Martha's favorite pastime was getting on the phone, lying and tearing everyone she knew down.
• Without self control, none, moved her soon to be 3rd husband in after knowing him less than 45 minutes. Moved him in, lock , stock and barrel, while her 2nd husband was serving in Viet Nam! Had sex with a bunch of men, in my presence, when I was 19! (I ain't been right since) 
• Haters of good,  Well she sure hated her daddy and she sure hated me.  Called me a lame do-gooder, "Miss Goody-two-shoes" was my family name.  She taunted me for being honest, a truth teller. (My LORD! My LORD!)
• I thought I would go through the list.  There is no need I have made my point.  She did deny the power of Almighty GOD in favor of conjure and voodoo.
• GOD did tell us to avoid such people.  But it is very difficult when you are born into the cluthes of such an abomination.

Study your Bible daily children.  Put some flesh on GOD's WORD.  I know that Almighty GOD saved me.  Placed Jerome Walters in my life to protect me from my evil, vile, repugnant mother.  He stood in the gap for me, prayed for me, for us.

I did morn and cry when I lost my entire family.  But GOD told me that it is all in Divine Order.  "Many are called, few are chosen."  Hate me, shun me, revile, ridicule me if you want to.  If you can't receive this message, clearly it was not meant to be.  You can serve evil fickle man if you want to , "As for me and my house, we will serve the LORD!"

No,  I will never shut up and I will not back down.  "Let he who hath ears hear." And Always Praise the LORD!  Be abundantly blessed today as you continue on your way.  But if you ever wonder why you can't quite get there, do know that it is your disobedience. satan has you in the palm of his hand and every time Jesus sends and angel to save you , you swat her away.

Salvation is free. the way of the transgressor is hard.  The price you will pay for your failure to heed GOD's WORD is too high a price to pay.  Sin is not worth the anguish.  And never forget satan is a lying trickster!  Look what he did to my poor mother.

Do you love me?

A better question is, do you love yourself?  How do you treat yourself? Do you permit people to mistreat or abuse you because they claim they have a right to because of the color of your skin?

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My poor mother died truly believing that she was entitled to be a whorish predator because of the color of her skin.

Whoa,  she is not the only.  You can buy into that slave "yalla" crap if you want to.  We had to listen to my mother brag about her color and hair every day of our lives.  I am so glad my grandfather spoke up every time she abused me about the color of my skin.

"Don't pay no attention to yo'mama dawthur …she ignut!  I always wished I wuz brown lak you."

I will not perpetuate racism or "colorism".  THERE IS ONLY ONE RACE! THE HUMAN RACE! 

We do live in a pluralistic society and we should not see color.  i can understand having a preference.  But, please do not believe a certain color makes a person better.

I don't care if a rich black man marries a white woman.  Marry who you please. But, please do not rank people by race or skin color.  Do not assume I am less intelligent or less worthy because of the color of my skin.

You will know ...

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First of all please permit me to scre-e-e-e-e-e-e-e-mmmmmmm; THANK YOU JESUSsssssss! Praise the LORD I am humbled! I was broken, smashed to bites, ground into dust, a fine powder, by my own "mother"!

62 years of SECRET SATANIC attack!  For no apparent reason.  I said apparent, I know now GOD has a purpose for my (our) excruciating pain.  The Dear LORD reveals it all in His Book.  You do have to study it.   "Study to show yourself approved."  "My people perish for lack of knowledge."  And may I add, a serious lack of faith.  We holler Jesus! Jesus! attend church every Wednesday night and Sunday, to no avail.  All babes in Christ must dig deeper and woe unto anyone that refuses Him.

No, Martha Jane Walters and your entire demonic horde,  you have been found out, revealed from heaven.  Run you curs!  Every last one of you shameless, immoral, ungrateful, blind, deaf, simple imps.

Are you really dumb enough to side with a Jezebel whore straight from the lowest bowels of satan's vilest hell? Or are you still traumatized, frozen in a catatonic  state?  In sheer disbelief that all the great tragedy that befell you was orchestrated by your own mother for her sadistic pleasure?

While Martha was a great "root worker", she was merely a pawn for satan, a slave serving satan while she thought she was winning.  GOD lifted the veil! He opened my eyes.  I did say,  GOD why so long?  Why the secret savage cruelty?  He told me the demonic Jezebel-Python spirit that controlled my mother,  sensed something incredible in me and roared with jealousy and set out to destroy me.  To tear me from limb to limb, to grind me into  dust , while putting on the greatest performance ever seen.  "Mother of the church", loving supportive mother, someone merciful and caring.

GOD said NO!  Because the Dear LORD wants us ALL saved , He gave Martha time and space, 87 YEARS,  all to no avail.  Too stiff necked, too full of pride, too lying to ever come to the Light, to come under Grace.

  Do know that all lies are from satan's mouth and all lies stem from fear.  Martha Jane did instill incredible fear in us.   She was a savage brute! A common low whore that was secretly proud to be a child of lucifer himself.

I only have one message for you today children; "Fear no man, fear nothing."  Fear will make you lie.  If you are a LIAR, satan is your father.  Find out what you are afraid of .   Chase it down.  KNOW the source of your deep shame.

I know that Martha targeted my (our) "sexuality".  Molesting us the very first night  she tricked my grandfather into releasing us into her care.  I call still see both those buzzards grinning with their pearly white teeth.  The abominable evil that controlled Martha targeted our sexual innocence, then our pride, our self esteem, our courage, our emotions.  Sure, I was severely psychologically damaged.  By age eight  I was through with this world.  We resorted to hiding in the libraries on main post. (Fort Bragg, NC)

The librarians marveled at the two pretty little brown children pouring over books daily until the library closed.  Then we would haul stacks of books home.  I found solace in great literature.  My brother read science and math books.  We grew to maturity, that slave of an ABOMINATION,  that Mathy Jane thang,  never let go, that tenacious bulldog -snapping turtle,  never let go and never let on that she was seriously satan's concubine, not his bride.  Martha Jane Walter's was satan's whore! She was too common to be his bride! That's low, I know, but every word revealed to me from Almighty GOD is true!
Martha Jane Walters was never satisfied with our collective pain or shame!  That whore loved us to death, syrupy sweet nothing,  slathered all over us,  while she stabbed us deeply in the back, twisting a dirty rusty dagger while she grinned and purred.   Visited our homes chucking "dust".  Mailing us letters full of "dust" or excrement, all the while professing her innocence.  She scratched her head along with us , helped us to look for the demon that hated us, knowing full well it was her,  all along.

GOD said No!

I did ask GOD, why did she MURDER him?  Why did she take the life of such a good man?  "She was a thief, a common whore, a common jealous, envious whore that wanted nothing but her father's mantel to  fake with, to flaunt,  like she earned it.  She did want to ruin his good name!   She hated him deeply for his goodness, for his mercy, for his stupidity!  She thought he was stupid for loving her, for never giving up on her.  Martha secretly hated everyone that loved her because she secretly hated herself."

Love yourself children.  Come out of that ignorance you are incased in.  "Know ye the truth and be set free TODAY!  Come to the Light!  Come out of that deep dark pit your demonic, satanic,ignorant,unrepentant mother/grandmother/aunt/cousin/friend/pastor left you in."

PTL! "You will know"  Before you judge me so severely that you miss out on your healing, take the time to LISTEN! To comprehend, be receptive, pray for understanding.

GOD did not bring me here to be Martha Jane's dirty washrag! He did not bring Jerome Walters here to be Martha Jane's footstool!  GOD said No!  and You will know that GOD is GOD, GOD IS GOOD,  and no ignorant "goofer dust", no vile reprobate , bold enough to crawl up in GOD's pulpit LYING , is going to stop or prevent GOD'S DIVINE ORDER!

Keep cloaking for the guilty if you want to.  Keep lying and denying for a demon.  GOD will not bless you! YOU WILL NOT PROSPER!  Humble yourselves, get baptized (go under the water), come to the Light.

Be abundantly blessed today .  Always pray, always seek His face.  Put GOD first and always Praise the LORD!

Pressing on in Jesus' name!

[Excerpt from The JR WLTERS CHRONICLES   March 21, 2015   All rights reserved.]

Yes, I am singing ...

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my joy bell is ringing.  satan thought he had me bound. Martha Jane Walters died laughing, positive that I was utterly destroyed.  As much as bragged; "Yer life didn't turn out lak you planned …did it?"

I certainly can understand her great confidence.  83 years old at the time, winning, winning, at least she thought.  She had a man the same age as her oldest son for a "husband".  He knew well to hand over his check, sit down in her family room in the dark, using a huge wooden plank for a food tray.  He knew not to complain.  He knew to never think for himself, just sit up under her and rot.

I know that my mother was very proud of her "gifts".  She was quite clairvoyant .  I was amazed when she read her Tarot cards perfectly.  I was a witness when she told the beautiful young lady that she was pregnant with triplets.  *Lillie was unmarried and found herself pregnant  for a married man in 1964.  Of course Madame ******'s advice was an abortion.

Every day, granddaddy's same admonition; "You going tuh hell dawthur."  Everyday she laughed and paid him no attention.

My joy bell is ringing because I can look back over my life and finally see what a great failure she was.  What if she had loved her bastard children instead of beating, raping, brutalizing, terrorizing, holding hostage ?  What if she nurtured instead of covering her devious sick plot with platitudes of her make believe love?

"No weapon formed against you shall prosper."  "Shall prosper", shall benefit the evil doer.  It is clear to me rebellious Martha hated GOD,  hated Him for her shame.  Martha was a complete and utter fool.  She blamed me for her "outside child" that she had on her husband.   "… ain't nun ugh her m******* bizness!  My son forsuke me! She duh 'cause of it! "   For 62 years I was the cause of everything that went wrong in Martha's miserable life.  Not her incest, not her pedophilia,  not her extreme whorishness, not her pathological lying, not her brutal beatings of any and all that dared to admonish her.  Not her thievery, her plotting .  Not even her delving into the occult to assure that she would always have her way, would always drive a Cadillac.

 Looking back over her life I can certainly see why she was so deeply ashamed.  Put out of school for pregnancy at age 16.  My brilliant brave grandfather went before the board of education in Cumberland County , North Carolina and pleaded her cause.; "Gentlemen, the fact that my daughter is in family way, is all the more reason she should be permitted to remain in school.  She will need and education.  Do not punish her forever for making one mistake"  

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The cold judgmental hearts of the school board, so moved by my grandfather's eloquence,  she was permitted to remain in school and graduate.  It did not change Martha's cold ungrateful heart.: "I hate dat N******! Dat damn yalla n***** ruined MY LIFE!"  That was in reference to her first born.  That is what she said behind his back.  She was syrupy sweet in his face.  I wonder if he ever wondered why his house burned down, why he lost all of his land, his inheritance from his grandfather?  

It is obvious to me now, Martha was never no more than a very bored, spoiled brat,  whore,  that bitterly and not so secretly hated everyone, the entire world for her mistakes.

I found this description on Facebook; "NARCISSISTS ARE MASTERS OF ILLUSION, THEY PLAY THE POOR ABUSED VICTIM WHILE IN TRUTH THEY ARE WREAKING HAVOC BY TORTURING, MISTREATING AND ABUSING THOSE THEY FOOLED INTO LOVING THEM" - Y. Clerebout

Do not blaspheme the Holy Ghost!  Do not use GOD's name in vain.  No one can tell me that I wasn't there as a toddler, at midnight, under a full moon, with my mother as she collected her "goofer dust" in the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Ghost.

Martha was a stalker, you would never enjoy the good abundant life GOD promised you with her around.  She would grin in your face and feed you poison.  Martha did delight in my failure, at the doors constantly slammed in my face.  She delighted and cheered at all of our misfortune.

What a long miserable life full of debauchery.  "Judge not that you be not judged."  I am telling you because GOD told me to.  After 62 years of secret savage rebuke from my mother, I certainly don't need weak faith-ed, "know-it-alls" to tell me to shut up and get over it.

How dare you think there is only one Mathy Jane?  How dare you be dumb enough to think that you or any one in your family is safe from such creatures?  Do know that  the misery Martha Jane Walters did deliberately cause and delight in for 87 years is NOT  over.

Warning world, she is here by the millions! And she is growing! Stiff necked rebellious lying sadistic bullies that refuse to live in a world where anyone is happy, where any one appears to have more than her.

Jesus said shun, from such stay away.   I was very offended and deeply heart when my entire family turned against me in favor of her.  I was offended until I realized many are just like her.  Just as jealous, just as lying and deceitful.  Just as common and no count.

It is "Free Will" .  It is their choice.  "Man does not do what is right dawthur. Man does what is convenient ."; the eloquent words of my brilliant grandfather.

It is not convenient to shake that "roach" out of GOD's robe for Simone Temple A.M.E.Zion Church right now.  I do know that my mother called them all ;" …greedy dogs and a bunch of f******!"

Martha was double minded.  She did entertain demonic spirits that did ultimately steal her anointing.
There is no shortcut to salvation.  You must pray and study your Bible daily.  You must think critically, seek GOD's face.

"For GOD I live and for GOD I will die."  For all the friends and family I have lost for baring my soul in an attempt to heal from this excruciating long painful journey, may you never know such pain and may your heart be made glad in Jesus Christ.

"Don't worry dawthur, Jesus will fix it."