Monday, May 11, 2015
"By the time I get to Phoenix"
I will not steal my grandfather's anointing. I will echo his voice. I will learn from his human mistakes, from my many mistakes. I know there is a wealth of knowledge in my own personal misunderstanding. I will garner much needed knowled from my "mis-education". I refuse to hide it. I celebrate the fact that I have changed! Grown! Matured. I did avoid many pitfalls , all due to GOD's Divine intervention and my innate inclination to heed the wisdom of Jerome Walters. I am sure witnessing the reprobate life of my own dear mother was a blessing in disguise.
I will shun evil. I will forgive and I will NOT forget. I refuse to hold people to a double standard. I will not be the first to cast a stone. My greatest pain and heartache with Martha is that I know for a fact she enjoyed (or at least thought she did) every foul deed she claimed she got away with. Every secret slap or stab, every "one shoe" she threw away, every bath cloth she wiped her behind in. Every "man" she "stole" from me, every lie she told, planted and nurtured.
Discovering Mathy's sick misery did not come too late. It came right on time. I passed the test. I DID NOT GIVE UP THE RIGHT FOR THE WRONG! That woman was a nasty beast with more nerve than a brass monkey. She lived by the sword, she died by the sword.
I can still hear that primitive carnal squeal she let out every time the poor delusional ignorant woman thought she was winning. I can still see her clapping those huge man hands, eyes red as coals, glowing, celebrating her great "conjure".
Go down on those graves seeking power, if you want to, you are going to end up a Mathy Jane. GOD is going to leave you "neither root nor branch!" You will become SOMETHING TOO ASHAMED TO REPENT!
I will NOT give up the right for the wrong. I will not suffer degradation, humiliation and lack, attempting to protect the good name of a woman that did not earn it. I will not cloak for a woman that was an ABOMINATION to GOD!
Yes, I will tell! I will warn! And most importantly, I will heal. The adversary can NOT saddle me with any more pain. I refuse it! I came in this world alone, and I will leave alone. "From dust we came, and to dust we shall
return"
Forced to find solace in my "banishment", in my ostracism, forced to create my own woman cave for protection from PREDATORS IN MY OWN FAMILY! I found Joy!
My own mother was a "stank whore" of the highest magnitude! But, she was such a clever, cunning Jezebel whore , we were forbidden to ever acknowledge it in any way! This woman did everything known and unknown to mankind, while posing as a PREACHER! as a loving nurturing mother, a good daughter, a good sister, aunt, cousin, friend, mentor, pastor ….ALL HOG WASH!!!
Worse than being a lying hypocrite, SHE WAS A MURDERING WITCH! A CONJURER! A SOOTHE SAYER! GOD said No!!!
The "aloneness" Mathy and other predators have forced me into , is comfortable, actually joyous. I've grown to love and cherish it. PRAISE THE LORD!
Do pray for patience children, for understanding. Pray for GOD to lead and guide you. Pray for the indwelling of The Holy Spirit. Otherwise you will do wrong. The adversary will blind you, make you delusional. Make you "dis" your mother on Mother's Day in the name of practicality.
Do not ever give anyone permission to hurt you. "Be as wise as a serpent but as gentle as a dove." "Mark that man" or woman. Jesus is just reminding us to pay attention. Do forgive them. But, do know what you are dealing with.
Do not join forces with the adversary because he appears to be winning. You are looking with your human eyes. You are guilty of leaning to your own understanding. You will fail.
At 87 Mathy was still dissatisfied, still angry , still lying and worse of all, still unrepentant.
GOD said No!
Sunday, May 10, 2015
So, just how dumb are you?
Are you docile? humble? eager to do the bidding of your evil oppressor, captor? Are you still too terrified to know your absolute truth, though that ABOMINATION be long dead?
"Looking through a glass darkly"; I can reflect back on my 62 year confinement, enslavement, imprisonment, deliberate torture and finally scream with tremendous exhilarating relief; THANK YOU JESUS!
You can search this world over a thousand times and I dare you to discover a mind more brilliant for evil.
The demons that occupied the mind of my birth mother were in fact brilliant. For my whole life my mother bragged and did deliberately misquote and mislead GOD's WORD by proclaiming that we were "her fruit".
I said (as a child) : "Jesus said; "Ye shall know them by their fruit."
She said (in a child's mind): "That's right! Look at y'all! Y'all my fruit! I didn't do so bad. Got a doctor, a school teacher."
You know that Jesus is referring to your deeds, not your children. Another reason you must read that Book for yourself. "Study to show yourself approved."
"As a man thinketh in his heart, so is he." If you think you are a low thieving, pathological lying , common whore, that is what you will be and in return you will hate, covet and plot. That is the delusional life you will lead for your entire life.
The irony of ironies is the fact that Martha was beautiful, brilliant, gifted! She never needed to sell her soul to satan. She never needed to envy and seek to destroy anyone.
That is what happens to us when we allow evil to creep into our hearts, when we "play" with satan, with evil. You lose your "Free Will". You become an imp , a slave and YOU WILL DO WHAT EVER EVIL THE EVIL ONE , THE ADVERSARY DICTATES!
Yea, you might have money, but you will not have any joy. Your foul deeds will run through your head repeatedly . The scowl on your face is undeniable.
Why are YOU angry with GOD? Why do you hate the one person that tried to coax YOU to the cross?
Are you just another dummy, another docile lock stepper following the crowd? Are you chasing money, fame? Pursue GOD and His righteousness. All that you want will be added unto you.
What did GOD ever do to YOU to make YOU hate Him so? Don't let satan swell your head. Don't mess around and get tricked like most people. "Wide is the road that leads to death and destruction."
Don't you dare think Martha enjoyed a long life. The poor fake, fallen woman rotted in her own filth for a very long time, simply because of her foolish pride. Stupidly screaming nonsense about her color and hair. Died still trying to pass off "whoredom" as a valid occupation. Died still trying to justify her predatory nature.
But now I have Joy! Indescribable Joy!
PRAISE THE LORD!!!!!!!!!
Saturday, May 9, 2015
Hurry up and know ...
According to my journal, I finally accepted my awful truth September 16, 2009. I finally found the courage to accept the fact that the woman I called "mother" was the worse possible human being on the face of the earth.
At 63 my mind, my brain, is still constantly assaulted by terrifying images that my own "mother" did deliberately lang there in order to fornicate with who ever, when ever it crossed her sick demented carnal mind.
Martha did trick her 2nd legal husband into believing he would gain "power". Both, sick, delusional, pedophile, vipers.
Martha always committed incest, was known for it. The only thing that bothered her about it , was your "talking". "If you wud jest shut duh **** up..eva'thang wud be alright."
Dear LORD, save our dying world from such men and women!
I will not bear the same she did deliberately cast on me because she was too cowardly to repent of her many sins. I will not be held captive by that ogre any longer. I will to lie and cloak for her on purpose or by her evil plotting and extreme manipulation.
Sure, she "lived" for 87 years, all vile, repugnant and FAKE! A reprobate! A viper! A woman commoner than bat ****!
What did she get? What did she gain? I know what got, UNDISPUTED, IRREFUTABLE , PROOF POSITIVE, MY REDEEMER LIVES!
PTL!
Are you a fool?
Are you stupid? Overly proud, refuse all forms of correction and discipline like a toddler? Do you lie? Worse, are you a PATHOLOGICAL LIAR! ? Are you extremely proud of what you consider to be brilliant intelligence that you deliberately use to enslave others? Are you a sadist? Do you love inflicting excruciating , debilitating pain on others in secret?
When confronted gently, intelligently, concerning one of your foul deeds, do you behave savagely? Do you hate? Just hate for no reason? Are you always angry, dissatisfied? Do you lust, rob, plot, manipulate, control, then fight like a hellcat just loosed from the bowels of hell, when caught? Fume and rage with disgust and violence when "cornered" ?
Do you demand to be honored because you carried six children to term? Six children you delighted in vexing, harming, robbing, in secret ?
There is a reason GOD commands us to repent of our sins. Marta Jane Walters, died the way she lived, lying, manipulating, conniving, secretly hating, plotting. But most of all terrorizing in secret. Martha had five sons and nothing delighted her more than robbing each and everyone of them of their "manhood".
Why? The evil imp felt entitled, was made delusional personally by satan himself. It served her right. She was an evil, "root working" witch. A conjurer, soothe sayer, so disrespectful to GOD, she preached.
GOD said No!
The African Methodist Episcopalian Zion Church has some explaining to do. Simon Temple on Yadkin Road, in Fayetteville, North Carolina, has some explaining to do.
Something went wrong in the body of Christ. She always said you all were as fake as she was. I know now, that was one time she did NOT lie.
Perverts, pedophiles, I suggest you kill all of your victims if you never want to be found out. And what ever you do, don't put on sheep's clothing and slither up in a pulpit and expect to never get caught, for every one to be to remain too terrified to call you out.
GOD said No! And my grandfather, Jerome Walters taught me; "Time changes all things." and "Jesus WILL FIX IT!"
Jesus told me to Fear no man! no woman, no demon, no legion of demons, no "witchcraft"." Most of all He assured me that He loved me, that He would send me another comforter when my "mother and father" forsake me. Praise the LORD!
How dare you be so disrespectful, so low, so common, so unrepentant, full of pride and foolishness! My heart may be broken but I know we all have FREE WILL!
We all must respect that. The evil one wants his imps to believe that loving and serving GOD is foolish, that GOD is to slow or disinterested. All lies. directly from the evil one. All lies Martha taught us. Dear LORD purge us, purge me of all of Martha's, the evil one's , influence. "And It is done! PTL!"
Hurry up and know the powerful, wonderful, wonder working, freeing love, of The LORD Jesus Christ!
Like a little mannish child Martha ran from GOD, ran from good, ran right into the hands of the most despicable evil possible. Any one that can't or refuses to listen to my testimony is free and welcome to hate me, to hate GOD's truth. Do know that it will not change IT, you certainly will not change me.
I must pause and beam just a little. My spent my entire life teaching my five brothers to hate me. She cultivated jealousy in them by only taking me shopping. While she would spend thousands on herself, they only noticed the trinket she bought me. (How clever satan)
So, now that the evil whore, (common whore) is finally dead, they still hate me or hate me the more. She did manage to pin all of her revolting crap on me. She said that I said XXXXX was not her 2nd husband's. The fact that he wasn't made no difference. She cleverly put the onus on me. No one noticed how she dumped an illegitimate child on her "husband" because everyone was was so busy hating me for "signifying " in her business.
The poor boy grew up hated by his whorish mother for embarrassing her by living, (for not resembling anyone in the family), secretly hated by his "pretend father" because he had to accept him. Mathy Jane had too much dirt on him for him to ever leave.
The worse fact is; IT IS ALL A LIE! I never said it, well at least not until I was accused of saying. I knew better than to ever reveal any secret on Mathy Jane!
Nothing is going to change. No, I will never shut my mouth! That woman was too low, too sneaky, too foul, too vulgar and common. She was an ABOMINATION and this world deserves to know. Unbelievers need to know where they are headed. The "unprotected" need to know what they are facing.
My grandfather, JEROME WALTERS DID NOT KILL HIMSELF HE WAS MURDERED BY HIS DEMONIC CONFUSED SADISTIC ABOMINATION OF A DAUGHTER!
Dear LORD, thank you for revealing THE TRUTH, my Truth. Thank you for setting me free from that succubus. A succubus I would have never believed possible had I not l out lived her. Praise the LORD!
Thank you for being with me LORD! Be with my family LORD! Be with my daughter, continue to hold her in the palm of Your merciful hand!
Friday, May 8, 2015
What does the WORD say?
"Loud, clamorous, AND LYING FOR 87 YEARS! AN ABSOLUTE WITCH, A SORCERER !!!
"Thou shalt not suffer a witch to live." Exodus 32:18
"Your kerchiefs also I tear, and deliver my people out of your hand, and they shall be no more in your hand to be hunted; AND YE SHALL KNOW THAT I AM THE LORD!!!" Ezekiel 13:21
"Good gaw'tuh mighty!"; as my grandfather would say! Growing up I used to watch my mother making her little "pillows", little bags of "goofer dust" she sold to ward off evil, she claimed. Little did I recognize her evil. It is strange, while I certainly knew my mother was evil and vulgar, in my childishness, I thought I liked it, preferred it. In all her "lowness" she convinced me that she loved ME! That I was special, that I was not like all the rest. She was cool with me, at least until I got out of line. Until I opened my mouth! Until I spilled the beans, brought up things that were none of' anybody's blakety'blank business!
Martha taught us that it was far worse to "snitch" on "Mathy Jane" than it was to be the victim of one of her sick deeds. (Martha compartmentalized her many personalities.)
"It's done! "Shut the **** up! Get ova'it!" (Let me play "church", you play hapless, docile nit wit until I die!) That idea was perfect for Mathy Jane, but your miserable black worthless life was lost. You were her footstool and she was satan's troll. So what does that make you?
Am I the only victim that ever dared to slap Mathy Jane back? I was afraid, in fact probably terrified. She slapped me and instantly I slapped her back and I was only eight years old. What did she do? Nothing! Walked away.
GOD said No!
While I always "sensed" my mother was in fact working evil against me, attempting to lead me astray, I remained confident in my ability to outwit her while I persuaded her gently to change. Just like Grandddaddy, I gently coaxed Mathy Jane to change, bragged about the goodness of GOD, all to no avail.
She did in fact wax worse and worse as GOD's Divine WORD predicts. Martha always hated the truth and especially the the truth teller or any one that hinted they knew she was just another common whore, so called gypsy con-artist.
Seriously, a person would have to have the intelligence of an amoeba protozoa to fall for Mathy's complete scam , very long. So, she had to rely on brilliant lying, cunning, conning, brilliant acting and of course WITCHCRAFT! She had to be offensive. She delighted in the names she branded you with, whether you earned them or not.
I do feel sorry for my yoke fellow she labeled her "bBlack Prince". (May the Dear LORD deliver you, open your eyes and ears quickly. You have suffered enough.)
"kerchiefs", little pieces of cloth. Martha's preference was red flannel. I watched her sew up her "dust", wrap a twenty dollar bill around it, anoint it with Hoyt's Cologne. Martha guaranteed this little bag would keep the law off of you, enable you to do just as you pleased.
That is ignorant! But it is done! It is practiced! Don't play "brand new". Many pretend Bible scholars declare ; "There is No SUCH THING AS WITCHCRAFT! YOU LOOK IGNORANT! YOU ARE A FOOL!"
Well, Dr. Ph.D ( Phony unearned, unlearned Dullard) why does GOD list Punishment for Sorcery, if it doesn't exist?
- Exodus 22:18
- Levitcus20:27
- Deuteronomy 13:5
To cease from using sorcery;
- Ezekiel 12:23, 24, 13:23
- Micah 5:12
Belongs to the works of the flesh;
- Galatians 5:20
Vainness of sorcery;
- Isaiah 44:25
Practiced by Jezebel;
- Kings 9:22
Practiced by false prophets;
- Jeremiah 14:14, 27:9, 29:8 - 9
- Ezekiel 13:6 - 9, 22:28
- Matthew 24
GOD promised to deliver me from the hand of my enslaver, a woman that secretly hunted me! Praise the LORD! Almighty GOD protected me! I was stalked like prey! Deliberately lead astray!
GOD said No!!!
"For in much wisdom is much grief; and he that increaseth knowledge increaseth sorrow." Ecclesiastes 1:18
Jesus told us to be as wise as a serpent but as gentle as a dove. Do pray, do pray for the indwelling of The Holy Spirit. Do pray for protection from the enemy, without ceasing. Don't YOU stop! Don't YOU dare be foolish enough to think you don't need GOD or that you will call on Him only if you ever get in trouble. I got news for you neighbor, YOU WERE BORN IN TROUBLE! We all were.
Do NOT be intimidated by loud, vulgar, Jezebel spirited witches. Shun them!
Do NOT be intimidated by loud, vulgar, Jezebel spirited witches. Shun them!
Thursday, May 7, 2015
Beaming!
I do thank GOD for keeping me blind, practically clueless.
Of course she hated me. Martha hated all women of "virtue", or "alleged virtue". Now I know why she hated her sister/cousin so much. Yet she was addicted to her. Pushed her pathological, "root working" self on them. Just intruded! Marched right in and took over. That was Martha's habit to come in like a whirlwind, upsetting, destroying, robbing, lying and most importantly , leading into captivity.
To think, all of Martha's pain, her long protracted, demon possessed life , can be traced back to covetousness, lying, stealing, fornication, adultery.
"It is better to obey , than to burn."
I am stunned! Secrets and shame, go hand in hand. I remember Martha attempting to murder my brother for screaming out of frustration that she was a "bitch" and his mother.
Martha went ballistic of course, grabbed her pistol," "I'LL KILL YOU MUTHF*********!"
[ That was a dark day on 825 Dwain Drive, Fayetteville, North Carolina ! A day that will live in infamy for my entire life. Of course Martha lied, dis-remembered. It was all over loaning him her Cadillac. She gave him barely a few hours to use it, to visit his fiancees home in Goldsboro. She knew there was no way he could make it back in time. Martha was jealous, just wanted to show off, didn't want him to marry, said he was going to get killed in Viet Nam and tha ***** was going to get all of the money. So Martha knew what to do as a woman. Make this future husband look weak to his future wife. She succeeded. ]
XXXX (future husband #3) managed to wrestle the gun out of her death grip. Calmed her down, declared his love for her no matter what.
As a family we were never allowed to merely mention one of Martha's many mistakes. Secrets and shame go hand and hand. No one was to ever know that Martha had a baby out of wedlock at 16. Is that why she never so much as bought him a pair of socks? Martha could only offer us misery and captivity, phony lying and a reprobate, lascivious life full of fake prayers and 'playing church"
GOD said No!
Am I angry now? Or am I just disgusted, disgusted with Martha for her weak nature, for her pathological lying mouth? For her savage primitive cruelty? For her deep ignorance? For her audacity and arrogance? For deliberately disobeying GOD for 87years and falsely and foolishly believing she was winning? For putting herself in completion with me, pretending to love me, while seeking only to inflict worse on me than she thought GOD had put on her.
The list is long; rape, enslavement, torture, honors destroyed and thrown away, art, manuscripts, master's thesis, all destroyed by satan's ignorant imps. Dear LORD , thank you for removing the two skinning, grinning, Jesus pimps from my life. Two complete imps, too lying, too jealous, too semi-illiterate, to ever honestly and sincerely know GOD. "From such stay away."
Sure she laughed, delighted by all the sick deeds she thought she got away with. The sad fact is, those deeds remained in Martha's head, re-lived every day. The same secret pain she deliberately inflicted on me on us, stayed with her. She had to look in the mirror. She knew she was a ghoul, down on her knees in a graveyard!
GOD said NO! Be a simple imp if you want to!
There is no way Martha could not be repulsed by her own sick out of control demon possessed life. She could find the courage to rape and ruin, to haunt graveyards like a ghoul under a full moon, but she could not humble herself enough to repent, enough to ever care for another single human being on this earth.
GOD said No!
I don't have to be wrong because nearly everyone in my family is wrong, still blind, still deaf, still delusional. Most importantly still conditioned, still terrified. We all suffer with extreme PTSD! And I know that it only by the Grace of our Magnificent GOD that none of us are pulling time, or siting on Death Row for killing that reprobate WHORE!
I pray that my earnest , consistent, tenacious testimony concerning my 62 year enslavement will help them.
I pray that every one , every one in my family, finally come to the cross. Come to know Jesus Christ in the pardoning of their sins, sincerely. Not like Martha, lying, being slick, a whore, a conjurer, a viper, something too disgusting to know , but must be revealed.
Praise the LORD!
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