I would rather drink muddy water...

Having an evil demonic mother is not always bad. I was always very small, short,  actually tiny. But I was also very mean. I modeled my mother's behavior. I would lay my mouth on you. The words I spewed, few had ever heard. I carried a very sharp knife in the 9th grade because of that "stepfather" . Yes , I did suspect my mother, but  I just could not bring myself to believe my truth.  Plus my mother was a great actress, very persuasive , she was a pimp. She was actually fun, a comedienne, an hysterical riot and I thought she could preach. She used flattery very skillfully. 

"Only by the Grace of GOD, there go I."  I narrowly missed catching a case.

I had decided that black ****** had "one mo'mutha******* time to put his mutha******  hands on me!" Oh he was going to get at least "a'hunnard" plunges in his MFING heart! 

These nasty men and women are here, are prolific, in our families, our churches, daring us to call them out, to expose them.  Seriously?  Simple imps are crawling on this earth right now demanding that you fear them, that you let them have their way. They do really believe their own lies and performances. Pathological liars! Thieves! Whoremongers! MURDERERS !

I hope my "x" knows how dangerously close to biting six hollow point bullets he came.  GOD saved Him! That and the fact I did not want to risk going to jail and having my child end up with my mother. 

MURDER  is wrong. "Thou shalt not kill"   But do know some people will take you there. Some people deserve to be murdered.   That is , by man's standards, man's reasoning.  I thank GOD for His  Divine Order.  For righting wrongs, making the "crooked way straight." All child molesters should get life in prison. I think they don't because the judges and juries are full of uncaring reprobates. 

It is imperative that you humble yourself and learn to pray. Ask GOD for what you want. Don't pray amiss, random. I was not nearly specific enough when I prayed for a husband. 

I must have just prayed for a warm body, a sperm donor. "The season was dry." The season will always remain dry if you only gleam one field. Look beyond color, caste, ethnicity. Don't  assume one is better than the other.  Men are men are men. You can not assume anything about anyone's character based on their skin color or what they say, "Look at their fruit!"

  

Hold on to GOD's unchanging hand

I am just holding on. Every day that woman is dead her deeds grow clearer and clearer . My first impressions of Martha were not good. Always hateful, angry, resentful. Always violently snatching me around, viciously cursing me with foul names. ( Not just me, every one she knew and pretended to love.) I can still hear her deep masculine voice labeling me a "luddle black heifer". "You ain't SHIT!" YOU BLACK AS TAR!"  Always projecting her character on me; "Gwen a snake! Gwen a lesbian." "She a liar."

"Pride goeth before a fall"  Martha was the type of person that preferred to convince you, You were the problem. "You think too much of yourself!" That is exactly what my mother screamed in my ear for gently and humbly inquiring about the excruciatingmpain I felt in my vagina when I was eight years old.

Mathy Jane was mad, she was hot. She resumed her old tactics of name calling, blaming and scapegoating.

"I did the best I could! WELL FORGET IT THEN!" For eighty seven years Martha lived the secret life of a hideous reprobate.

Did she think beating, brutalizing, raping and robbing was her right? "This  a dog-eat-dog world! You got to be the big dog or get ate up!"

Do know at no time in her extremely long life did she ever admit she was sexually perverted.  "I'm a LADY!"

Were her sick sexual proclivities the result of her childhood rape? Was it racism? That was her claim. The white man was unfair,  treacherous, there fore she had to be treacherous.

No matter how horribly Martha treated us she always loudly and proudly declared her undying love.  " I jest love my churin! I sho do! I love me some XXX and Gwen."  No money, no gifts , no true affection, constant stalking, lying and "chunking dust" just for good measure and to terrorize us.

A demonic slutty whore with her own theme song; "You can't win fuh DUH fix you in, I can't lose fuh duh stuff I use." , falsely believed she was going to come to GOD's green earth, do exactly like she pleased , mock GOD, murder her own daddy and destroy me and just die. Die calling herself a pastor. Die being honored by her "church", The Mother of the Church!

Preach repentance while refusing to repent of her disgusting sins .

GOD said No!

PTL!

Almighty GOD enabled me ...

stood with me, lead and guided me, protected me from one of the lowest, most vile, repugnant vipers satan ever created. Praise the LORD.

For some reason Martha's criminal mind was set on the total destruction of her whole family. Demanding to be kept secret, manipulating and forcing us to cloak for her. A pure demon! A low common creature ignorant enough to seek the "church" for cover.

Now GOD warned her to touch not His anointed.  He has a message for such beings, DONT!

Just intractable!

Don't play with GOD. Don't mock Him.

It is so tragic. For eighty seven years MARTHA JANE WALTERS was an ignorant savage dog , devouring her family, her eleven children , because of pride. Martha demanded to have her way.

She had her way and only reaped shame.

Your raped molested sons lie and pretend they want you to rest in peace. They really want your secrets to die with you. Martha you deliberately left your five surviving sons in a pit they are too ashamed to climb out of.

 Hate me all you desire. I am not  the problem. Revealing Martha is not the problem, your lying and cloaking is.  If you remain too terrified to free yourself from your very dead demonic mother, you need to pray, get baptized, seek GOD's face.

Remember brothers, "He maketh not ashamed"  Any thing you do for GOD, for the Kingdom will always make you proud.

PTL!

You will know

First of all I am not old. I am the right age. I am mature. These are my Golden years.  It was my mother that was elated , almost giddy, constantly telling me what a fat ugly loser I was. Reminding me I wasted my entire life "teaching them damn *******". How I married miserably, very briefly, no one liked me, I was a lame nerd and I would never  find love.

Yea , you had a good time confusing and torturing me.  Severe abuse. No, you couldn't limit your sick mind to just brutality. You did it all! So all that vile cursing and violence swearing your innocence , knowing full well you were lying.

You said no one would ever want me . I was repulsive. I am sure you meant it. You  knew it was true. How many people can be sexually molested, brutally treated then paraded around sworn to secrecy?

Four Martha! FOUR! Raping and molesting your own toddlers! May you bust hell wide open! You and all your followers!

Martha preached love in the church and practiced every abominable sin she could at home. I am screaming! You did such wrong to us and demanded that we act "normal" so as not to embarrass You! You never cared how you embarrassed us.

You had sex with all those young men in my presence when I was 19 and hated me with a great passion for annoying you with my protest. You didn't have to stalk us, ruin us, because you were common.

Why couldn't you be common honestly? Why hate me because I said none of us had the same daddy? We didn't! Why did it matter? It didn't matter when you were fornicating with random men.  You could have used protection.

Were you trying to punish us for your sins? Why? You are not A God! Your "light bright, damn near white skin" was whorish!  No one wants a whore! A whore doesn't want a whore.

Martha loved to hold me up to ridicule.  I was trash, worthless, jet black, and just despicable.  She on the other hand was still getting "hit on" and she was in her eighties. She was brilliant, she had a husband. The fourth legal one was the right one. She had money, drove a Cadillac and every one was jealous of her. She only lied to keep people out of her business.

The truth, my mother was a demonic sadistic slut. When you can murder your own father and never care, you have been predicted. JESUS expected you. He told us you were coming, that you would preach.

Martha, you never had any power.  GOD "Let you let".

You doubters , you supporters, all of my relatives still fearing a dead demon , read II Thessalonians.

Guess what Martha, all that evil you plotted against me for 62 years BACKFIRED!

All that good preaching you preached falsely is really true. You should have listened to yourself, especially that last sermon. "Take the child and raise it for me and I will give you your wages."

PTL!

Know your enemy

"Home is where you are treated best, complain the most."  Was a quote often repeated by my mother.Martha's feeble simple mind was controlled by a brilliant demon. How tragic to live 87 years completely depraved.

Worse her defeated, emasculated victims that still claim to love her, still pretend to be blind to her abominable evil.

You are all immoral and in danger of hell fire. No one can defend Martha Jane without lying.
I do pray GOD will take all of the terrifying fear she instilled in you. Come to the truth, come to the Cross, GOD's marvelous light.

Your freedom is just a truth away.

My prayer is for all the survivors of severe child abuse meted out to them by their caregivers. It was not your fault. It was ever your fault. You were never forsaken. It happened to you because the evil one clearly recognized your great gifts. Make sure you know when you mother and father forsake you, GOD will pick you up.

I beg my brothers to please not continue to live in denial regarding that woman you called mother. It is alright. She was a viper! I certainly understand why you don't want to speak about it but recognize you are cursed.

In order to be saved, to receive the blessing GOD had stored up for you, you must rebuke that evil vermin. Don't be afraid. Step out on faith.

Evil demonic Martha never wanted any one in the entire world to prosper or have joy. That whore followed me, deliberately stalked me with her fake love destroying ever word I ever wrote. In Martha's diabolical, never ending attempts to destroy me every way possible, she made me.

Claim your gifts brothers. Know thy self! Dance on that viper's head.

We were children. We were so dumb, laughing with her as she savagely mistreated others she claimed to love.  Celebrating her successful robberies, brutal beatings, and conjure.

When a woman maliciously mains, mares, rapes and deliberately tortures her own children, murders her own father, that woman is an abomination. Do not dare count her false preaching for anything but what it was, dung.

"Come ye out from among them."

PTL!

satan is a rude bully

GOD opened the windows of Heaven.  Finally put an abomination away, helped me understand why and how she was able to keep us in her demonic clutches for so long. Fear. Sheer fear she instilled in us.

How horrid, yes. But look at GOD! PTL!

"You can't win fuh DUH fix you in, I can lose fuh DUH stuff I use." Lies you tell satan's whore.
Now rot.

Revelations

Yes,  my heart is still broken but GOD is healing me miraculously. He has assured me, soon and very soon I will be able to look back over my life without melting into a pool of tears. I am proud of my journey. No I would not wish a woman such as my mother on anyone. But through it all I have learned to trust GOD.

With every move I make trying to claw my way up out of the abysmal pit my own mother dug for me I feel GOD's love surging through my veins and I rest assured knowing I am going to make it.

Martha was an idiot! She did falsely believe the lies and myths she had been taught as a child. She did believe her white skin made her superior, that her "hoodoo" actually worked in her favor.

GOD told me to expose her, to warn the entire world of this future woman. Bottom line Martha was just a selfish uncaring whore. She had no natural affection. She was a demon to be sure, waxed worse and worse with each day GOD permitted her slither on this earth.  She was sold out for satan , lock stock and barrel.  She was sexually perverted and did not mind, was proud of it. Just did not want to be criticized for it or stopped.

Martha did hate GOD with a passion. She hated her father for sincerely loving the LORD. She hated me for loving granddaddy and the LORD. More than anything  Martha hated the Truth. She was a low common whore, in fact a vile nymphomaniac.  She was in fact an incestuous  pedophile. She loved young boys around the ages of 12 to 14.  Young girls too. Martha was addicted to group sex.

The one book she hated was the Bible. It predicted her, assured her that she would not win. Granddaddy's constant admonition, his unshakable faith; "JESUS will fix it" unnerved her, made her bristle with fury.

Retracing my 62 year journey tethered to this albatross I see nothing but excruciating pain and misery.  I must tell. The world must be made aware of such Jezebel spirited women. They are whores for satan. Completely brain dead and soulless. There is nothing too evil, too demonic, too repugnant for them to do. You just better not say nothing, you better not do nothing. Don't you dare take a defensive posture to protect yourself.

So why preach? Martha preached to mock GOD, to prove His Word was a Lie. Marta wanted to show GOD she did not fear Him and her false preaching was critical evidence that Almighty GOD was as phony as she was. Marta was delusional, released over to a reprobate mind early.

Common and lazy she dumped us on her parents until we were four and five. World do know our sexual molestations began the very night she rudely snatched us from our grandfather's loving arms. It began with hot soapy enemas. I immediately told my grandfather. From that moment on I was labeled a snitch. "Yo' mouf  run lak goose shit!"

Word to the wise and unwise; evildoer keep on doing what you are doing. Your name will rot!

PTL!

Dear LORD I pray that you will take the blinders off, unstop the deaf ears, assure my brothers they have nothing to be ashamed of. Bring them to the light LORD. Give them the courage to embrace their truth, get baptized and finally live for you.