"Come on in this house!"

"Some people ain't got sense enough to come in out the rain!   How you gon' be a preacher and miss GAWD your own'sef?"

"Lying and denying, being stupid.  Some dumb asses are just stuck on stupid! Why in the hell would GAWD have a preference for any color …when He the one that made all the colors?   ….ain't nobody that stupid!"

My own mother wasn't that stupid. She deliberately played stupid in order to live and die a PERVERT!  The woman was nasty!  DIRTY FLO' (FLOOR), GUT BUCKET STANKING CHITTLIN' NASTY!

You men talking about you want a freak in the sheets.  Well, with that "freaktum" you demand you are going to get a THOT!  And if she is smart like my mother the old whore will outlive every damn body she vexes.  Never suffer with so much as a headache!

I must have over fifty relatives that died early with cancer,  a heart attack, car accident, some serious tragedy.    Not Mathy! Not one broken bone,  no hemorrhage, no stroke, not even a fall.  This heifer enjoyed good health for eighty-seven years!  Never had one sleepless night in her entire life!

Some vessels are used to usher many to Christ.

Praise the LORD!

"Doctor put me on milk, cream and ...

alcohol croons  John Lee Hooker.  Well, my doctor put me on Prozac! Praise the LORD!

Some body better tell these people, the world, that some people are pure demons.  No, not demon possessed , pure demons planted on this earth, entrenched in good families.  Women so wicked, so cunning, they are beyond human belief.  They are too horrible to be seen, to be recognized.  And they are too brilliant in their corrupt criminal minds to be held accountable.

Dear LORD than you for enabling me to endure.

PRAISE THE LORD!

"Positioned to pursue and possess"...

was the title of my former pastor's message.  It was a great sermon.  It certainly motivated me.  Did he genuinely care about my personal condition?   I am sure he did as much as one human being can care about another.

Truthfully, how many people can genuinely care about my "condition", my present predicament?  There are nearly eight billion people on this planet.  All of us are rocking in the same old boat.  "Blind and won't see."

How do you explain sixty-four years of sheer trauma?  How do you explain it took you  decades to fathom your "mother's" true despicable evil , though you experienced it's awful effects every day of your life?

Was I that needy? That stupid? No.  I had to endure to the end.

How do you rationalize what  was certainly hatred and an  never ending desire for torturous revenge from a intractable ABOMINATION?

(Dumb bitch I didn't flunk you out of college!  I am not the one that got you pregnant repeatedly without privilege of a husband? I was never stupid enough to believe my looks and charm would garner me any thing!  I was certainly not common enough to break every rule and boundary regarding common decency either!  How dare you dish it and refuse to take it!  I did not invent, create or conceive of Karma or justice! )

GOD does not operate on your exchange system.  You exchanged slight good treatment for your sick carnal desires.  You exchanged phony "clowny"  preaching for MURDERING  your own father,  then hated ME for You being You!   No Martha you were never that delusion.  Nor were you as ignorant and primitive as you pretended.

It was that false preaching that did you in.  Dragging me to church.  No, that was not a good move on your part.  The Bible is True! GOD is real !)

Was it easier for Martha to live an extraordinarily long life as a treacherous, MURDEROUS, Reprobate than to  ever look in the mirror?  To ever acknowledge the possibility that she was ever wrong about anything?

At sixty-four and a half I am still amazed at the speed of Martha's sickest, demonic  acts.  Martha could strip you naked, tie and bind you in a millisecond!  Martha could jump on you, bludgeon, assault you before you knew it was time to run.  Explosive!  Was it the beast?  Did my mother have a sick devourer living inside her?

While satan certainly has explosive power, so does GOD! It is called Dunimous (sp) Dynamite! We have explosive, dynamite Jesus Power to dance on the head of any serpent or viper.  Just hurry and recognize when you have one in your family , in your life and if that creature is in fact your own "mother" you are going to have to get baptized!  Seek GOD's face just as soon as you can.

I am not fooled.   My "mother" was never that dumb.  She was that wicked.  Mentally ill?  I am not so sure.  We, all six surviving "children",  are mentally ill.  Severely handicapped.  The world may label our condition bi-polar or PTSD.   It's just the effects of a sick whorish "mother" that  not one of us had the decency or courage  to just kill, to just put out of her misery.

Cool!  The bitch  is finally dead! Praise the LORD!

Any one still dumb enough to think GOD commanded us to not cuss,  to never use foul language is an idiot and deserves to suffer.

What is worse, saying shit or having a nasty common "mother" that is  lower than whale dung , that insists on ruining every life she touches on purpose, then laughs at your weakness, taunts you  for being dumb enough to let her do it over and over?  

The scripture describes such women as vexation of the soul.  I would rather be lonely.  I would rather live in a hole in the ground.  YOU CAN NOT SAVE A MALIGNANT NARCISSIST! THERE IS NO CURE! RUN!!!

There is only one way Martha Jane Walters could have ever garnered any pleasure from the long repugnant life she lived, WITCHCRAFT!   GET THEE BEHIND ME sATAN!  "Resist the devil and he will flee."

I know for a fact my "mother" was heavily immersed in WITCHCRAFT  and preached falsely.


Sure my ignorant "mother" cursed me, put "roots" on me, tried everything in her power to destroy me and everyone she knew for eighty-seven years.  Dumb ass!


It didn't work.  I  WAS NOT DESTROYED!  I WAS MADE BETTER!

PRAISE THE LORD!

Have you ever noticed ...

the rudest, most hostile people are also the most sensitive?  My "mother" did not so much as permit us the "side eye". She could do anything (and did) and we better not so much as sigh or frown.   She on the other hand was common and uncaring enough to leave her little toddler children home alone for days.

Some thing was wrong with Martha, she was "wired" wrong.  She was truly incapable of empathy, sympathy, or interest.  Martha Jane Walters had no interest in any other human being or thing other than herself.  I think the term is myopic .  She could only see or care about herself.  No one on this earth or in Heaven mattered to Martha other than herself.

She thought she loved herself.  She didn't.  She hated herself and did honestly see and define herself as human garbage because (she should have)  she was.

Martha was just greedy, a greedy hoarder.   Don't feel sorry for her.  GOD gave her time and space.  She had the intelligence, just not the inclination.   If you have sense  enough to hide something, you have the ability, the "free will" to not do it.  Worse, Martha was a pure sadist!  She was SADISTIC!

Instead of lying to children telling them lies and myths about Santa Claus and the Tooth Fairy, teach them about predators!   Teach them how to avoid and protect themselves from "caregivers" like my "mother'.

Churches, pastors, stop perpetuating myths about mothers.  Every mother is not a good mother.  My "mother" had the audacity to love Mother's Day, to demand extravagant gifts while turning Jehovah Witness on your day.  My "mother" never had any money on my birthday.  Not for sixty-two years.  Died and didn't leave me shit!

(Good enough! Just Go!)

"We the family" should have enough "sense" to save ourselves.  If we can't do so as a "family" we are obligated to do so personally, independently.

Martha was a beast.  She knew better.

Dear LORD continue to strengthen me as  I grow closer to finally recognizing the truth I refused to see for so long,  I could not face it.  It was too dreadful.

I guess I just wanted a mother so desperately.  It seems I was willing to take some serious abuse.  Thank you for delivering me LORD.

DELIVER US!  Deliver every tortured soul from such creatures.

Praise the LORD!

"Be with me Jesus"

Nothing made the demon spirit that resided in the flesh of Martha Jane Walters rage more than GOD and my grandfather constantly interfering in my life, saving me from  the imminent danger that lay behind every one of Martha's jealous plots.

 "You can't love GOD for real dumb ass!  That is just something you say, a role you play in order to get your way.  Look at me, common as the world is old! Just as closeted, secreted, ... a pure demon from the lowest bowels of hell!  The dummies of this world never caught me.  Well, they caught me, suspected me, they were just too dumb to catch me in the act  of my most deplorable acts and too terrorized to say a mumbling word when they did.  When caught,  when really caught,  I cut the fool so I terrorized myself.  LOL!

I ain't "studdin'" gawd and nuttin' in that bible!  …Idiots! Mental midgets!  You want sump'in' …git it fuh yo'sef!  Lie! Steal! Kill! Do what ever you have to do to serve me! No! I got here first! I'M NUMBER ONE!!!   I'm the oldest and the LIGHTEST! I HAVE GOOD HAIR!   You dumb black niggers bow down and serve me!  I am going to serve the good white folks of this world.  I am a coon.    I am cursed.  I am a low whore.  I am nothing.  I have been rendered unable, incapable of love.  I don't want to love.  I want to hate.  I don't care if people do not love me, just so they fear me.

The look of horrifying terror in the eyes of the innocent is my carnal supply.  I poured hot boiling coffee on that black thang called my son when he was a baby.  I pushed that boy' s pretty face into the stove (or did she throw lye  on him?) I burned, I maimed , I LIED. I STOLE, I MURDERED and not one of those so called Christians could stop me! 

My church didn't even pray for me …that's how far they are from GOD.

I can not and will not love these six sorry niggers GOD dumped on me.  Every man I ever had left me.  Sorry niggers cuddin' take a little pistol whipping.   Cuddin' take my 'hoeing around with strange men, young children and kin.  Cuddin' take a luddle root working. (Wimps)

I know every one is shocked.  Ain't nobody mo' shocked than that lame ass goody two-shoes daughter of mine.   She thought I really loved her granddaddy, loved her, loved them.  (Dumb asses)    The dummy thought I loved her.  I hated that stanking nasty cunt befo' she was born.  Yes, I did eva'thang I could to destroy her in secret.  She lack-tuh not never caught on.  She wudden' either if dat "boy" had'nah come back "home".  Damn interfering ass gawd, always in my bizness.

Pride go befo' a fall my ass!  I lived eighty-seven years pretending to love gawd …ain't nobody caught me.  I'm in the ground now.  I wundder if dey got sense enough to rebuke me yet?"

We will all understand it better by and by.

A viper is a supernatural imp!

Sitting here in my cozy apartment watching the beautiful sun rise, praising the LORD.  Humbled.  Swooning, praising (His) Amazing Grace.

I lost my iPhone yesterday.  I searched every where, grew frantic. Why hadn't I activated that app that would enable me to find it? (too sorry)  Why did I get rid of my land line? (too cheap)

The  longer I searched,  the more frantic I became.  No phone.  What was I going to do? I only know one phone number, my daughter's.  I started to feel dumb again, pathetic again, worthless again.  That phone was expensive.  It wasn't locked.

"Go back where you came from … retrace your steps and you will find your phone."  I listened, went back down  the stairs, looked around  the front of my complex.  No phone.  Dejected I lamented "woe is me … defeated again."

Tried to curl up in a ball again.  I heard her voice again;"You ain't SHIIITTTTTTT!!!  You black as taaarrrrrrrrr! " Followed by her hideous laugh.  "I'm an OOORDAINED MINISTER!  I got away! You idiots didn't catch me! I fooled you! I fooled all of you! I stole my daddy's mantel, preached falsely and you idiots were too dumb and too weak to stop me! Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! "

"GO BACK!  Retrace carefully!"  again I listened, heeded, FOUND MY PHONE! PRAISE THE LORD!

It was in 1997 that GOD sent me back into the clutches of the greatest secret viper that ever lived.  A woman so insane, so disturbed she MURDERED HER OWN FATHER!

Dear LORD when I recall the things that abomination made me witness and hold in terrorizing secrecy,  I cringe, curl up in a fetal ball, shaking and crying.  Then GOD touches my heart with a finger of love and reminds me; "Relax baby, I got this!"

To GOD be the Glory!

Be With Me Jesus/ You Stayed With Me Lord

What had I done!?  Talk about shocked into reality!  Some children are born with a silver spoon in their mouth.  I hate to admit what my "mother" probably put in my mouth.

"Time changes all things!"  Mental illness is a disease.  It should be recognized and treated as such.  To mis-quote Chris Tucker; "People are crazy these days!"

My mother was mentally ill.  True, she was demonic, etc.  But I do think the mental illness came first. We should not be made to feel ashamed for seeking mental health, a remedy for our "madness".  Nor should we fear taking medication for our anxiety.  Particularly in light of 2 Timothy 3.  Men and women have become lovers of themselves.  They have no empathy.  They can not care for another human being.

My mother's selfishness and greed must be documented so the next victim can take cues from me and "get gone" early.  No, the sad truth is there is no cure for these imps.  They do count themselves gods.  They do use their power, prestige, position and wealth to bully.  When they can't bully psychologically they will resort to physical assault.  They will maim you, leave you with a horrible scar to remind you ('Less you ever dare forget.  Unless you ever dare to stand up to them again in your pitiful life.)

My mother made sure all of us got some kind of brand or burn "accidentally on purpose". She would beat a baby savagely for crying or messing his diaper.  I notice she was always cunning enough to do her dirt away from prying or caring eyes.  Catch her and say something, you would rue the day!

Be careful of women always declaring their love for their children.  Look deep into the eyes of those silent children.

I do not have time to waste on consenting adults.  We all have to work out our own soul salvation.  But what my "mother" did to her own family for eighty-seven years does not have to be tolerated.  It should have never been tolerated other than to demonstrate 2 Thessalonians in the flesh.

You can't mock GOD!  Martha knew that.  She was that wicked and that selfish.  She was that carnal, sneaky and lying.  Why she could never catch on to righteousness was her choice.

The fact is, any and all that miss Christ Jesus as their Savior are not pre-destined.  They don't want it.  "Just taste and see!"

Martha had to come here and do what she did so that many can see clearly for themselves how good GOD is!

Praise the LORD!