"Be with me Jesus"

Nothing made the demon spirit that resided in the flesh of Martha Jane Walters rage more than GOD and my grandfather constantly interfering in my life, saving me from  the imminent danger that lay behind every one of Martha's jealous plots.

 "You can't love GOD for real dumb ass!  That is just something you say, a role you play in order to get your way.  Look at me, common as the world is old! Just as closeted, secreted, ... a pure demon from the lowest bowels of hell!  The dummies of this world never caught me.  Well, they caught me, suspected me, they were just too dumb to catch me in the act  of my most deplorable acts and too terrorized to say a mumbling word when they did.  When caught,  when really caught,  I cut the fool so I terrorized myself.  LOL!

I ain't "studdin'" gawd and nuttin' in that bible!  …Idiots! Mental midgets!  You want sump'in' …git it fuh yo'sef!  Lie! Steal! Kill! Do what ever you have to do to serve me! No! I got here first! I'M NUMBER ONE!!!   I'm the oldest and the LIGHTEST! I HAVE GOOD HAIR!   You dumb black niggers bow down and serve me!  I am going to serve the good white folks of this world.  I am a coon.    I am cursed.  I am a low whore.  I am nothing.  I have been rendered unable, incapable of love.  I don't want to love.  I want to hate.  I don't care if people do not love me, just so they fear me.

The look of horrifying terror in the eyes of the innocent is my carnal supply.  I poured hot boiling coffee on that black thang called my son when he was a baby.  I pushed that boy' s pretty face into the stove (or did she throw lye  on him?) I burned, I maimed , I LIED. I STOLE, I MURDERED and not one of those so called Christians could stop me! 

My church didn't even pray for me …that's how far they are from GOD.

I can not and will not love these six sorry niggers GOD dumped on me.  Every man I ever had left me.  Sorry niggers cuddin' take a little pistol whipping.   Cuddin' take my 'hoeing around with strange men, young children and kin.  Cuddin' take a luddle root working. (Wimps)

I know every one is shocked.  Ain't nobody mo' shocked than that lame ass goody two-shoes daughter of mine.   She thought I really loved her granddaddy, loved her, loved them.  (Dumb asses)    The dummy thought I loved her.  I hated that stanking nasty cunt befo' she was born.  Yes, I did eva'thang I could to destroy her in secret.  She lack-tuh not never caught on.  She wudden' either if dat "boy" had'nah come back "home".  Damn interfering ass gawd, always in my bizness.

Pride go befo' a fall my ass!  I lived eighty-seven years pretending to love gawd …ain't nobody caught me.  I'm in the ground now.  I wundder if dey got sense enough to rebuke me yet?"

We will all understand it better by and by.