Decade after decade of pain , anguish, confusion, rape, robbery, loss, rejection and never knowing why. I was confused. That fecal laden poison pen letter was the final straw in 1988. I went nine years no contact. It was the voice of the LORD Jesus Christ that sent me back in 1997. She is the one that didn't receive me. She is the one that still secretly hated me, played loving mother jam up.
Yes, the unexplainable tragedies started again. I was plagued by the IRS, College loans, car accidents, unexplainable loss over and over. Still I tried. I forgave. I forgot. That "boy" came back "home" in 2005 after a twenty-five year hiatus. That was the beginning of the end of Mathy Jane's reign of terror. Full disclosure and exposure had begun.
No one is as ignorant and depraved as my "mother". No one. Evil personified became evil de-mystified. GOD led me to the Information Highway. There on the Internet I discovered why I was made to suffer so long, so tragically, so inhumanely by my OWN "MOTHER"!
(Please read this article After Narcissistic Abuse - There is Light, Life and Love by Greg Zaffuto.)
All I can say here is; "We will all understand it better by ad by." I read this article shocked, horrified. Finally all of my excruciating unnecessary pain was explained, made simple. "…they have NO empathy, No care, No connection, No bond, No morals, and No LOVE FOR ANY HUMAN BEING."
Martha Jane Walters suffered eighty-seven years being a malignant disgusting troll because she was too full of pride to receive with meekness the Spirit of the LORD. satan made her completely delusional and she did her worse, all the while falsely believing she was winning. BECAME SOMETHING SO DISGUSTING SHE WAS ASHAMED TO REPENT.
Not only did Marta take her entire family down, she succeeded in revealing the flaws and secrets of her supporters. Any one that honors such a woman is lost, blind, living in denial and or just as depraved, just as ignorant and hopeless. Just as selfish, self-absorbed and uncaring.
" …the Narcissist is completely one of the walking dead…" "It may seem like a Narcissist has put a great deal into this false persona and basically they do. Bu it is simple for them and just a pattern they have used all of their lives. THEY ARE VERY ACCOMPLISHED LIARS! Their complete persona and their entire world are totally based on lies. Their positive attributes and alleged actions are all made up in order to get other people to give them their fix of narcissistic supply, praise, adulation and accolades. It gives them an acceptable façade and place among good and normal people in life. THEY NEED THAT PLACE TO BE ABLE TO ABUSE. …"
This is exactly why my "mother" became an ordained minister. Paid the Word of the LORD absolutely no attention. (He) said not to mock (Him). She did it anyway ad never wavered or worried.
My "mother " was the master at playing head games. "…AND they play to win and take no prisoners - it is a matter of survival in their world to avoid detection of who/what they are! They are poor losers and if they don't win they will react in a fit of rage and stomp away like an angry child."
If you are being plagued by a malignant narcissist , save yourself. There is no cure for them but GOD has an answer and a plan.
Praise the LORD!
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