She lived to punish. We were the most beaten, bludgeoned children on earth. She would force us to cut our own switches to beat each other with . My mother was fond of group beatings. "You black ******* go cut a switch for duh'ughdun! (for the other one) " That was always a trick, a ploy. She would beat you with what ever you brought back. I remember breaking little twigs and my brother would brake off a tree limb. Of course she beat him savagely with that tree limb and he always blamed me.
(Lesson learned, don't expect compassion if you are unwilling to show compassion.)
For most of my life I mistakenly blamed the legacy of slavery for my mother's savage violent nature. I was wrong. It was satan, pure evil. She deserved it. She was a grave robber. Search the Bible no is considered lower. No practice is viewed with so much scorn . Be that despicable if you want to. Be lawless! Be an ABOMINATION! I will not defend you. I will not lie for you . Especially after I finally accepted the fact you NEVER loved me. You always hated me with a passion. You were an anti-intellectual . You were undisciplined, semi-illiterate and WICKED!
Yes, you were a brilliant actress. Yes, you were a great practitioner of WITCHCRAFT but you were never winning. You were predicted. GOD warned us you were coming. You had to do what you did. While you were assaulting, bludgeoning, scalding, burning, pistol whipping , molesting, raping, lying and MURDERING . While you were pretending to love the GOD you hated with a deep secret passion , GOD was watching, using and preparing.
Never be ashamed children. GOD maketh not ashamed. I am not ashamed that I was born into the clutches of a deeply disturbed woman. GOD kept me!
I did foolishly believe she would repent and apologize in the end. I was foolish enough to believe her lying sermons. I knew her fruit, was her chief victim and I was fooled until she cursed me like a dog for simply inquiring gently about my rape.
The veil came off then Martha. I did nothing wrong. You were wrong. Why should I bear your scars? Why were you ever dumb enough to see me as a sexual rival? Why were you ever depraved enough to use my little infant body as a sex toy?
It was not for sexual pleasure as you told your partners. It was for "power". Bitch you are the dumbest whore that ever lived! Some one told your dumb ass, you two dumb ass illiterate coons, that taking the virginity of small children would give you demonic power. You fell for it. Did it and lived by that abominable lie for eighty-seven years.
You refused me the slightest apology. Scoffed, felt insulted that I had the nerve to say anything to you. Yes, you really felt your light skin made you better. Or did you? Were you ever that ignorant? I think not. You were just that wicked.
We all must reap what we sow.
Praise the LORD!
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