My own "mother" gutted me like a fish and laughed. World, do know it is a horrible burden living with and trying to survive an ignorant monster. A monster mother that sexually abuses, brutalizes and terrorizes her own children. A wicked whore that plays "whore" jam up. Alluring, silky and comforting when she felt the need to be generous , a sadistic beast when she craved narcissistic supply. A woman so ignorant she viewed me as a sexual rival from my infancy.
Narcissistic mothers see their children as their property. My disturbed "mother" rarely valued her property.
The greatest evildoer is the evildoer that knows to do right, has the ability, yet refuses because they truly have a preference for evil. To insist, to demand to commit the sickest evil for eighty-seven years screaming "I'm an ordained minister!" is a tragedy of tremendous magnitude.
We must stop deluding ourselves supposing that all people desire to live right and love the LORD. (Please read People of the Lie , by M.Scott Peck.)
While I always knew my mother had a horrid"hair temper", was extremely whorish, lying, lazy and generally pretty despicable on a daily basis, I still loved her. Martha was lovable when she was not being overtly evil. Unfortunately she was evil. So evil , we could not comprehend how evil, dangerous and treacherous she truly was while she was still living.
One of the reasons is simply natural. It is only natural to love your mother, to defend her, to be totally blind to her faults. She did not love us. She hated us. Worse than hating us, she plotted against us in the worse way. That is the worse truth, the worse part, the cayenne pepper in my open woods.
No LORD, I don't think there have been many women as intractable as my "mother". There have been far too many for sure, but I still hope and pray her evil is rare. I hope the evil that engulfed Martha Jane Walters was reserved just for me, just for us, for the strongest, the most articulate, for those that will tell and never give up.
Few in this world can survive such excruciating pain. This world needs to know what happens when "Christians" think they are doing what Jesus would do. For what ever reason we kept something close to our bosom we should have shunned.
From the moment little Martha smashed that puppy between two bricks she should have been shunned, isolated, corralled. Perhaps she was. Perhaps that is why she grew into such a vile woman.
"When I was a child I thought as a child …" That was Martha's problem she always thought as a child. Unfortunately a very evil vindictive child. I am sixty-four and still break into tears when I sense her icy stare.
I know now those were cold serpent eyes controlling me. I will not be controlled by satan and his evil band. GOD gave me Holy Ghost Power! Has led and guided me all this way!
No satan you will not get your way. Bow down!
Healing over here.
Praise the LORD!
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