Nasty, whorish, lying strumpet! Stalking me for SIXTY-TWO YEARS for no damn reason! You had me, I didn't have you! You no mannered perverted slut! Can I blame you? Should I blame you? You were a low whore found in fornication when you were eight years old. You claimed you were raped. It was the THIRD TIME! Now I wonder.
Mathy, you were so nasty, so low, so common , you actually could have enticed that man at eight years old. You were already a proven sadist going around killing small animals.
I am sorry to believe such but, you were a hideous monster. Woman! You were "toe'down" common! SEX WITH THE DOOR WIDE OPEN! LOUD LUSTFUL SEX ACTS! Bitch I was thirteen trying to cover my head with a pillow.
Martha, Martha, Martha! Why!?
No, I did not go to your nasty funeral. I'm glad I didn't. No, I am never going to stop talking about you, telling on you because you low sluts deserve to be recognized, snatched out of every pulpit your nasty ass crawls up in.
No, you shall proceed no further. I do have one burning question though, how could you preach? How could you stand in GOD's House, open (HIS) Book and put on such a show? No matter, you shall proceed no further.
"Know ye the truth and the truth will set you free." Just know your truth, like knowing your truth is that easy. What if your mother is like mine and you are a fatherless bastard? What if you have been relegated to the hated black race?
What if your mother really is as common as bat shit like every one said?
I know my evil demonic mother died with a smile on her face. I'm sure she cursed all her nurses and doctors. I know her caregivers were never good enough, smart enough or light enough for her. I know Martha Jane Walters was an evil color struck racist if there was ever one , she was chief.
I know I'm very glad the bitch is finally dead! Damn! How did any woman ever sink that low? How? Was it the rape? Was it the "voodoo"? Or was it just GOD's Divine Order.
Woman I must take this opportunity to tell the world how nasty and deeply disturbed you were Martha. Yes, I do have to admit that I am laughing and crying at the same time. You were a grown woman kneeling down on graves looking for some magic! Woman! Did slavery do that to us? Did you do that dumb shit to yourself?
Yes, GOD is going to get you. (HE) is going to get all of you nasty pedophiles and incestuous parents. After all you did to us, to me as infants, small children, teenagers, why didn't you let us go? Why stalk me to the grave trying to prove you were right ? Trying to prove people with more Caucasian features are superior to people of color.
Martha you were light bright and damn near white just like you said but, your morals were in the toilet.
Did I tear them off after sixty-two years or did they wear thin? They wore thin and that "boy" came back home after twenty-five years. TWENTY-FIVE YEARS! That is a long time to shun your entire family. I'm not mad with him. He should have. Well, he should have shunned her. Old nasty predator.
I can not get over my sheer stupidity. All that church going, going and sitting for hours every damn Sunday! Watching and listening to some ignorant nigger "hack" for hours. Ass growing callouses from sitting on hard wooden benches trying to prove to GOD we loved him. Not enough to live right or follow (HIS) commandments. How could GOD dare expect such a sacrifice ? So we opted to put on this show every Sunday. Looks like we fooled every one but GOD.
Hacking is a form of preaching that can definitely be traced back to the slave quarters. A style of preaching more entertainment, more rap artistry, than actually Biblically or spiritually enlightening. No, you don't learn anything about GOD's Word but you get crunk in church, jumping, shouting, screaming, running, testifying. You get the spotlight on you if you are on program, get to show off your fine clothes. You get to lie and embellish without challenge and if you are lucky like my mother people will actually envy You, wish to emulate you.
What good does it do to sit up in church with a known "root worker " every Sunday? We helped her pass. We gave her credibility, offered some evidence to refute the suspicion that Martha was no more than another hardened harlot.
She did it for eighty-seven years. Was nothing but an extremely demonic incestuous pervert for EIGHTY-SEVEN YEARS!
Hey Martha Jane Walters, you murdered your own father and flat refused to apologize or repent. Died laughing about all the babies you flushed down the toilet like a turd. You died laughing, mocking me, telling me to not piss on your grave.
We all have the exact same worth as a human being. GOD loves us all equally. It is ignorant sinful man that assigns value to gender, race, attractiveness, age.
We all have a purpose, some for good, some for bad. Some vessels are made of gold, some of wood. If someone hurts you, seriously hurts you , you need to examination their motivation and pray for GOD to protect you from their wrath. I can see it so clearly now. My mother married a man so ignorant, so susceptible to her demands he volunteered to become her slave. He caught her in fornication and she beat him! She humiliated him , made him , beg her forforgiveness. He raped her children in cowardly retaliation.
You can fake preach GOD's Word or you can genuinely care. Yes, you can "Come ye out from among them." You can stop seeing color, gender, age. You can tell the truth. My brothers can no longer claim fear, their torturer is dead.
Now, it is a matter of morality, of right versus wrong. Why do so many people worship money, wealth ? We are not taking one penny with us. When you are dead you are done. Would DT be tolerated if he was broke?
Love GOD, love yourself! Don't worry about evil doers they shall proceed no further.
You don't get mad because someone criticized you, refused to believe your lies. No, you don't think putting on an act, putting up a false front, the exact opposite of the real you will suffice. No, you need to take a long hard look at yourself. Once you smashed that puppy between two bricks something should have been done. Keeping you a secret was not the answer. Once you grew into demonic WITCHCRAFT fear took over. Of course fear enslaved us, we were born to the imp. We were hers and she was a damn idiot! Wearing five and six hundred dollar outfits to a job in a warehouse in the Sixties! Why? Mush for brains!? No! Demon possession that Martha earned with her hardheaded, ignorant, demonic ass! INCEST! Get the fuck out of here! Get thee behind me satan! Bitch! What the fuck!? Your getting raped at eight is no damn excuse! No, my humanness agrees with you; never confess to such. Warning to all you potential perverts, don't you do it! Don't do it and demand loyalty from the likes of me. Don't get caught trying to ruin me, trying to gut me like a fish and then claim some fucking loyalty rights. you my mother and shit! No mother, no sworn enemy would stoop as low as you did Martha. You were disgusting and repugnant and I am not about to pretend I still love you or that you were worthy of anything short of dismemberment. You can't "unring" a fucking bell but , you can stalk me, sic the IRS on me, you could make sure I paid off my college loans! when I was fucking ELDERLY! Fuck you, you lying jealous slut! Making as many people as you can lower than you is not the answer. You should have used your energy, your intelligence, to find out why you were such a pathological liar, such a pervert, why you were so insanely jealous, why you never recognized one single boundary. Pride! The Bible tells us. GOD revealed you in (HIS) Word. I'm humbled LORD! I love you! I thank You!
I did ask GOD why men and women like my mother are so prolific in the "church", why do perverts love to become priests, pastors, church leaders? To hide, what better place to hide than where you are least expected to be? Just who is going to suspect that you are in fact homosexual if you lead a march against homosexuality?
I get it. My mother becomes an ordained pastor in order to prove she did not murder her own father but, she in fact did. I think somewhere in Martha's sick mind her eloquent theatrical preaching was a trade off. I do believe poor ignorant Martha was delusional enough to think that if she persuaded others to love GOD, to give their lives to Christ , she would be forgiven of her sins without confessing or repenting.
Wrong move Martha. satan planted you in the "church" to keep the weak in disbelief, to keep Jesus on their tongue and satan in their heart. It can't be done dummy! GOD said No!
I'm feeling good this morning, I made it to "Old".
"Dear LORD create in me a clean heart." ; I do believe that was my grandfather's daily prayer. I know he prayed aloud often, not for show but for strength. That was the difference between my grandfather and my mother. You can be sure if you ever heard her praying aloud it was for show.
My mother was so good, her performances so stellar, I believed her. I bought it hook , line and sinker. I bought her religious crap while totally victimized by her deep disturbing evil. I was totally enslaved by my own mother and did not know. I failed to recognize the great fear she instilled in me, in us.
I was horrified by her very noticeable personality changes before she died. The closer Martha got to her exit date the more she bragged about her stealth cruelty.
It was 2008 and I was her caretaker. She had knee replacement surgery and sent for me to care for her. I didn't mind. Well, I didn't intend to mind until she started treating me like Celie in The Color Purple clanging a damn bell demanding to be waited on hand and foot.
Dear LORD my mother was a child, a very selfish impish child that never grew up, never matured but, unfortunately was extremely evil, sneaky and treacherous. GOD brought me through! My mother followed me around, stalking me, robbing me for sixty-two years attempting to make me a worse imp than she was.
GOD said No!
My grandfather used to warn my mother to leave me alone. It is as if they were talking in code, exchanging information concerning Martha's secret evil. "Leave dat'un alone Mathy Jane! …Gwen ain't the one you want to mess wid."
Martha always bragged that she was so much smarter than we were, the fact is , she was just ahead of us. Ahead of us with the knowledge of the wickedness of this world and ahead of us inflicting pain, brutal beatings and sexual molestation. Martha was a hedonist. She sure exposed the "church" in my eyes and my so called friends and relatives. Any one still loving and cloaking for Martha Jane Walters is no friend of mine.
