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We should freely share our stories.  Why should we be ashamed? We didn't  it! It makes absolutely no sense to me. My mother spent eighty-seven years ripping and running talking about every one else.  My mother had more funny stories about everyone in the family.



You just better not mention her life though, nothing.  She was perfect and you better kiss her ass. You can't demand respect , you do have to earn it.

So, you're a Christian ...

that's what you say.  You know that means you have to be long suffering don't you?   "Long suffering" as in burdened down with imps like my mother, step-father, some relatives, some "friends", some co-workers.  Long suffering is exactly that, suffering!  Excruciating pain, no pain killer, no balm and worse no one who cares, well, very few.

Dear children if you ever find one single person on this earth that loves you sincerely, unconditionally, you are blessed.  Children, if you were born to a real mother, a godly woman that loved you fiercely, would gladly lay down her life to save yours , you are truly blessed.

I'm blessed also.  My mother was the opposite, she was everything Jesus warned us to expect.  The very best part of my mother was my grandfather, Jerome Walters.  She dumped us on him until we were of "age", out of diapers, still too young to know what she was doing or why.

Did I tell you I did my Master's Thesis on voodoo and conjure?  Well, I did, found my mother.  How did I end up leaving a great school like the SUNY to attend tiny little Atlanta University?   Following the guidance of my mother.  Yes, she was creeping, seeking to destroy but,  GOD was revealing.  Praise the LORD!

Martha had a choice and she had plenty of time, dirt off of a murdered man's grave or the Holy Ghost.  She chose the former.  Martha was always a fool.  Don't follow Martha.

"Come ye out from among them."

"Holy Ghost don't leave me."

I am not ashamed of the Gospel of Jesus Christ! I am not ashamed of my stripes, of my burns, of the savage brutal treatment this world, my mother being chief subjected me to.  I'm still whole, whole as a child can hope to be after severe molestation and rape handed down to me by my own mother.

From before my birth a mortal woman did everything she could, everything in her power to destroy me.  

Wise and corrupt enough to hide her vile intentions she stalked me for sixty-two years.  For sixty-two years she kept GOD busy just protecting me, just leading and guiding me.

Children, never doubt (HIM)! Be abundantly blessed  as you go about your day today and every day for the rest of your life.  Do pray for the indwelling of Christ Jesus in your heart.

Praise the LORD!

My mother was always stuck up,

always carried herself with an aire of superiority.  She hated every one and every thing, especially any one found to be darker than she was.  If  you were not white you were not right.  if Martha Jane Walters thought you were too black, too ugly, too pitiful, too whiny, too pretty, too smart, too loved by your granddaddy, you were not going to get anything.  No love, no gifts, no compliments.  As a matter of fact she was going to violate you sexually at the very first opportunity, age four.

I am sixty-five years old and I still don't understand.  How could a woman as evil as my mother escape exposure so long? Fear!  Yes, Martha beat babies, she would tear a babies ass up!  How did she get away?  She was a sneaky viper.

GOD you are so wonderful.  I clearly remember how she would wind her entire body around her second husband.  It was revolting! Pornographic! I knew to be repulsed by her lewd behavior and I was only five.

Dear LORD what happens to the poor children of men and women like my mother?    Yes, there are people on this earth that crave and lust after small children, babies.  They get away mainly because their crimes are so reprehensible the victims refuse to tell, refuse to remember, to recall.  I was very old before I could allow those memories to resurface.

Martha's mistake was cussing me like a dog when I remembered, inquired, desired a simple apology.  Phony preaching won't save you.  Clocking years in a church, tithing, declaring, hooping and hollering, none of that.  Is your heart right?  Did you deliberately brutally rape, maim, burn, scar your own children to ensure they would be destroyed and you would look better in the eyes of this corrupt world?

Martha Jane Walters  spent eighty-seven years a ravenous wolf devoted to destroying GOD's anointed, only to succeed in destroying herself.  She had the opportunity to repent, she refused, now she can rot.

GOD is no respecter of man, of color, of money, none of that.  It is your heart.  Is your heart right?  Do you love one another?  "Love ye one another as I have loved you."   Or are you a busy imp just like my mother?  Lying, denying , being willfully ignorant and depraved.  Intractable, stubborn , seething with vile hatred you hide with lies and insults?

Stop! Pray! Fast! Study! Seek GOD's Face.  Do it now!

"What a tangled web we weave ...

when first we practise to deceive."  A deceitful person is something you don't want.  A blood thirsty predator.  A woman so selfish and self-centered she can not ever think about others.  Incapable of loving but,  brilliant enough to say the right things, to mimic good behavior while purely abhorring it.  A viper.  They are here, they are in the church, in our homes, they are everywhere.

Do NOT fear them.  Just call the name Jesus! Step out on faith! Step on that vipers head! She is Not your mother!  She is an abomination from the pit of hell wearing your mother's skin!

You must study, you must pray, you must fast.  Jesus did.  If Jesus spent forty days and nights fasting and (HE) was GOD's Son with all GOD's favor, what about us?   Don't get so puffed up with pride you are too proud to pray.  Humble yourself.  We are all  lost without the Holy Spirit!  Pray for it, search for it.  Never tire, never give up.  Keep the Faith.

Apart from Jesus Christ we are nothing.  Jesus told us that we shall know them, the evil doers,  by their fruit.  If your viperous love one is as brilliant as mine s/he will  deliberately "dumb you up" and convince you that Jesus was referring to our children, our offspring.  That is what our mother taught us after we turned out so well despite her constant interference.  Despite her doing everything she could to make sure we never out did her.

I am still flabbergasted that my evil demon possessed mother truly thought she was smarter than GOD and that dirt off of a grave guaranteed her power.  Was Martha always too dumb to know that it was her extreme cruelty, perversion, pathological lying and plotting that gave her power?

Don't worry children. Live, Laugh, Love while GOD rights every wrong, makes every crooked way straight.

"Trust and obey"

Chill. Seriously, just chill. Listen.  Listen to learn, to gain knowledge and understanding.  Don't listen waiting to interject your ignorance.

Listen to that still small voice in your head, in your heart.  It is there.  It is in everyone of us.  That is your anointing, your rudder, your steering mechanism.  When GOD can't get there fast enough to intervene , (HE) guides you through (HIS) anointed Word that can only be heard by those that love (HIM).

I love the LORD! I felt the hand of my LORD Jesus Christ scoop me up! (HE) saved me.  My mother was foul.  Beyond foul, she was an abomination to the Holy Ghost.  She was a succubus! An imp!

 I am so proud of GOD!  I look back over my life and realize the awful danger I was in.  I count plot after plot devised by ignorant Mathy Jane trying her level best to destroy me!  The destruction, the ruination, the total annihilation of Jerome Walter's good name was the evil one's goal.  It will not happen.

 Why me!? 

What did satan see in me that he ordered you to kill? Why didn't you ever give up?  Why didn't you ever change?  If you hated being a whore, if you were so ashamed, why be one?  Martha you were a ravenous dog, a ravenous bitch dog in heat.  that is a shame before the LORD to say but it is the absolute truth.  That explains your deep hatred for me.  Why would I want to be a whore? a prostitute? a "side piece"?  I noticed it didn't help you any.

You weren't ashamed of that.  That was the wool you pulled over our eyes.  Once you got pregnant at sixteen why did you keep getting pregnant ever year?   Martha! You lacked self discipline, discretion.  Martha!  Guess what your cruelty developed in me? You guessed it, self-discipline, discretion, tenacity!  "Won't (HE) do it!?"

You were so ashamed of having us out of wedlock with different daddies that you had to exact revenge from us, so you pretended.  It's cool , GOD is making every "crooked way straight."

Praise the LORD!

Rebuke is the evil one's chief weapon

My friend called me very early in the morning  and invited me to attend church with her. I declined and reminded her that I no longer attend "church". She immediately went ballistic and demanded to know why.  As best I could I tried to explain that I still love the "church" but I had outgrown it.

She screamed, hollered, defended the "black church", on and on. Declaring the goodness of GOD in-between "doing whatever she was doing".

 I said I agree but,  I am stuck on Revelation 2:20.  She hasn't missed a Sunday of church going in fifty-eight years yet she still has no idea what that scripture says.  Worse, she has no desire to find out.  The world gave her a "doctorate" but it didn't give her the Holy Ghost, the gift of understanding, the strength and courage to stop lying.

If you attend a church that permits ravenous "root working" demon possessed women (men) to take over your churches and you remain too terrorized to so much as complain long after her death,  I ain't "studdin' you" and I will not waste my time or money with you.

• Salvation is Free!
• We all must repent of our sins!
• It is All in Divine Order!

Be abundantly blessed today as you go about your "life", learning, loving and most of all living.