Lonesome Valley

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

Sunday, May 17, 20/20

Rejoicing another beautiful Sunday morning.  Rejoicing, not mourning as my sick, sadistic tormentor intended. Praise The Living LORD for this opportunity to share the Goodness of GOD. Yes, I just want to Testify! I must Testify! I am absolutely radiant , all a glow, BEAMING!  Praising GOD for Tender Mercies.

No, it didn't look good for me June of 1951. Yes, my outlook was bleak. Born into the clutches of a DEMON POSSESSED TERRORIST WITH CARNAL PROCLIVITIES!   I was hopeless, a little zygote embryo,  mathy was too lazy, too sorry, too uncaring, too wicked, too ignorant, too racist, too savage,  to abort properly.

No, there existed very little hope for my black, bastard, unwanted, abandoned ,  female ass.

It is a good thing mathy jane came up with a brilliant scheme to "pimp me out" to the highest bidder and decided to rescue me from the whorehouse she deliberately left me in.

At any rate, I landed in the loving arms of my grandparents, Rachel and (Je) ROME WALTERS!  "PRAISE GOD FROM ALL BLESSINGS FLOW!

I've wondered and wondered, questioned GOD my whole life, confused, mystified by the power of evil. WHYYYYYYYYY?  WHY DID WE TAKE IT?  We all knew that low slut was a low slut? What kept Us in her clutches? s/he claimed it was her "roots", her voodoo. I highly disagree, just time, just a matter of time,  imp.  IT IS ALL IN DIVINE ORDER!

Of course WE all knew martha jane walters was EVIL! WAS SICK! WAS SADISTIC! No, I never had any idea my "mother" would one day MURDER AND ROB MY GRANDDADDY!

The slut did it, laughed! Framed him for suicide just like that imp that conjured up a fake birth certificate, now OBAMAGATE! Nigga Please!

What We fell for , was her "religious" bullshit.  NO ONE COULD KEEP THAT LYING DEMONIC SLUT OUT OF CHURCH EVERY ************* SUNDAY!

I know now, s/he was there just to show off her white skin, fine raiment, fine automobiles. Just fake! FAKE! FAKE! FAKE! A total fucking act, just to get money. Yes, martha jane walters was one money hungry whore! How many wo/men willing sell their babies, their toddler children , their young children, their grown children , into prostitution?  All  the while up "preaching"? Prancing around in "red bottom" shoes, bragging about what her fake hair cost, LYING, LYING, LYING!

DEMONS!

Why don't more people know about these lying sick perverts , up preaching, spreading their filth?  Why don't more people know wo/men like my "birther" , exist, are prolific?

"Churr-itch" , the Church Itch. Most people love to get up, get dressed in their finest and rush to participate in the Pageantry of Churr-itch.  I know I always went for the music, good food and often good "preaching".

Thankfully, by the Grace of GOD, my GrandDADDY, ROME WALTERS, TAUGHT ME TO TEACH MYSELF! READ!  "Study to show yourself approved."

It is a good thing I did. sATAN  got the "Churr-Itch" and gone!

BEAMING!

Ferlin Husky - Wings of a Dove (Grand Ole Opry)

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

Saturday, May 16, 20/20

Yes ,Dear Children, it is indeed true. I am a witness! For sixty-two years I was held captive, a prisoner, a mere chew toy for one sick ass abuser!

Yes, an ORDAINED PASTOR! A "DAUGHTER", A "SISTER" , A "MOTHER", AN AUNT, A COUSIN, YES THE LOW WHORE FOR sATAN WAS MY KIN. 

(NOT KIND, JUST KIN!)

HORRIFIC!  Please don't get on your high horse thinking nothing like martha jane walters or donald j trump can EVER  happen to you.

As a matter of fact it is quiet easy. Most people are just like them; deliberately ignorant, deliberately extremely carnal, DELIBERATELY DESTITUTE OF ALL MORALS!.

Yes, DELIBERATELY DEMON POSSESSED!

YES, HUE-MAN BEINGS THAT SUNK LOW ENOUGH TO PRETEND TO BELIEVE THEY ACTUALLY THINK sATAN CAN WIN?

JUST VOLUNTEER DEAF, DUMB, BLIND,RACIST SHEEP

IF sATAN CAN WIN OR IS ACTUALLY WINNING, WHY LIE? WHY DENY? WHY FIGHT? WHY DIG UP YOUR CONJURE FROM MURDERED MEN'S GRAVE IF YOU REALLY BELIEVE YOU ARE SO SUPERIOR?

WHY DO YOU GET DOWN ON YOUR ASHY KNEES AT MIDNIGHT,  ON A FULL MOON, COLLECTING "GOOFER DUST"?

DID YOU REALLY THINK YOU WERE WINNING?

DID YOU REALLY THINK ALL OF YOUR MURDERS, YOUR SUBTERFUGE , WOULD LAST?

DID YOU NOT KNOW ONE DAY sATAN WOULD BACKSTAB YOU , THE EXACT SAME WAY YOUR BACKSTABBED OTHERS AND GRINNED?

NO  martha jane walters and donald j trump, sATAN IS NO ONE'S FRIEND!

BEAMING!!!

While the low whore for satan wasted eighty-eight years lying, bragging about winning

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

Saturday, May 16, 20/20

While the sick whore did waste her precious life actively trying to destroy every life s/he claimed s/he gave

What did s/he win?

NOTHING!

THE LOW WHORE FOR  sATAN GAINED NOTHING BUT SHAME

BY THE TIME S/HE WAS WELL PAST ELDERLY , S/HE KNEW TO NEVER DARE DART HER HORRID FACE IN A REAL CHURCH

SURE 

RELIGIOUS INSTITUTIONS DESIGNED TO FLEECE AND CO-SIGN EVIL WAS HER VENUE

ALWAYS

WHO? WHAT KIND OF PEOPLE BELIEVE SUCH?

FEAR SUCH?

THE UNREAD

THE VOLUNTEER ILLITERATES

VOLUNTEER DULLARDS

THE LOST

THE DEMON POSSESSED RACIST

NO WORRIES

JUST TENDER MERCIES

THE DEAR LORD NEVER ONCE REFUSED TO PROTECT ME

SURE

THE LOW WHORE FOR sATAN SLOSHED BEHIND ME PRETENDING TO LOVE ME,

ACTUALLY PRETENDING TO CARE

GOD LET HER BECAUSE ONLY JESUS KNEW GOD WOULD NEVER LET ME DASH MY FOOT AGAIST A STONE

AT EIGHTY-EIGHT  YEARS martha jane walters REFUSED TO APOLOGIZE

REFUSED TO REPENT

HER EVIL WAS TOO GOOD

HAD LASTED TOO LONG

TOO MANY WERE ACTUALLY FOOLED

THEN

THAT "BOY"

CAME BACK HOME!

REMEMBER

EVERYTHING DONE IN THE DARK SHALL COME TO LIGHT

GOODGOTUHMIGHTYYYYYYYYY!

BEAMING!

It is ALL IN DIVINE ORDER!

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

Saturday, May 16, 20/20

Yes, it is ALL in Divine Order, EVERYTHING!

No, the evildoers are not getting away,

They have never gotten away with any of their evil, their deep collusions

While far too many, if not most,  live in abject Fear and abject poverty

I REFUSE!

I HAVE EYES THAT SEE

EARS THAT HEAR

I HAVE A BRAIN TO THINK CLEARLY 

AND

A HEART TO LOVE FIERCELY!

My greatest nemesis is finally DEAD!

YES!

THE OLD DEAD , PATHOLOGICAL LYING, 

SICK, SADISTIC, CARNAL, GREEDY, PSYCHOTIC, DEMON POSSESSED IMP

IS FINALLY DEAD!

YES! 

I AM REJOICING!

HOW CAN I NOT!

THE SLUT WAS LEGION!

NO COUNT!

NO GOOD!

HORROR UNLEASHED!

BUT 

THE BACKFIRE!

 I'M HUMBLED!

I'M BLESSED!

I'M HEALING!

THE DEAR LORD IS BUSY, FURIOUSLY RESTORING EVERYTHING MY CLOSET DEMON "MOTHER" STOLE FROM ME!

DEAR LORD IN HEAVEN YOU ARE AWESOME

YES

LORD

THAT HORRID,  VOLUNTEER CRETIN,  DID STALK ME FOR SIXTY-TWO YEARS DEMANDING A POUND OF MY FLESH

WHY?

S/HE PRETENDED I (WE) RUINED HER LIFE!

YES 

S/HE DID TORMENT ME (US)

DAILY

HOURLY

EVERY MINUTE

EVERY PRECIOUS SECOND OF MY BEING

OUR BEING

PRETENDING S/HE ACTUALLY BELIEVED MY SKIN COLOR WAS A CURSE

THAT LOW SLUT FOR sATAN NEVER THOUGHT ANY SUCH THING

THE LOW SLUT FOR sATAN WAS JUST EVIL

DEEPLY DEMON POSSESSED

 YES

IN HER EIGHTY-EIGHT YEARS OF RAINING  (REIGNING) NOTHING SHORT OF "BLUNT FORCE TRAUMA"

S/HE COLLECTED DEMONIC SPIRIT AFTER DEMONIC SPIRIT

REALLY BELIEVED S/HE COULD HIDE HER PROCLIVITIES BEHIND A LETTR OF ORDINATION

S/HE DID

BRAGGED ABOUT HER GREAT SUCCESS 

UNTIL THAT "BOY" CAME BACK!

sATAN STABBED THE LOW SLUT IN THE BACK

EXACTLY WHAT S/HE SHALL DO TO ALL OF HER BELIEVERS

BEAMING 

GOD

THE HOLY SPIRIT

IS 

A 

WONDERFUL ONE!

REJOICE!

GOD GOT THIS!

What do you do when your blinders are finally snatched off?

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

FRIDAY, MAY 15, 20/20

What did We expect?  What did I expect? I can tell you very candidly, I never expected to discover , very late in life that my own "mother", would turn out to be my greatest known enemy.

HORROR UNLEASHED!LEGION! JEZEBEL! CAIN! lUCIFER! OLD SLEWFOOT!

Yes, I sat in some "Churr-itch" (on some occasions, real Churches) for twenty-one YEARS OF  Sundays, straight in row.  I went in there , not believing, KNOWING!  Knowing, having not one shred of doubt that Jesus, The HOLY SPIRIT  loved me, would never forsake me.

Did someone teach me this? Certainly, my GrandDADDY!  Not my "mother". No, never my "mother", not my real mother. The wo/man that birthed me and bragged about how magnificent and magnanimous s/he was to keep me, taught  me that "shit" was some rot.  That no one was honest or lived by that Bible shit,  but fools.

Was I puzzled, confused? Always. My "birther's" favorite quote; "The devil might'ugh brought it, but GAWD sho' sent it."  WE agreed! Of course! I shall never forget the day We went from eating nothing but "Grits and Grease" (just to keep Our assholes open), to martha securing a "meat man".

A "meat man" is a person that sells "hot" or stolen meat. Sure enough, one of Madame Watson's  (my birther), customers was going with an ordained pastor of Our denomination (African Methodist Episcopal Zion) .  Mr. (Blah-Blah) drove a long Cadillac , dressed to the nines,  and I heard he could preach.

Well, he worked out on Post, in the Commissary , and he stole meat to supplement his income. He had a sick wife, she was dying of cancer , and many "side pieces", and he had needs.

Anyway, he hooked Us up! Can you imagine being fourteen and going from a starvation diet to Rib-eye steaks, Lobster tails, pork roasts, tons of ribs? Well, it was Wonderful! martha was so greedy, so lecherous, s/he bought two freezer from a fellow con artist.

Well, at any rate, you guessed it, Our "meat man" eventually  got busted and was hauled of to jail. Our diets went back to "bullshit", Pinto beans and NO-thing! Nothing!   Not a muthafucking thang! No cornbread, no rice, no cool-aid. Yes, the slut had this huge industrial pot and she would cook enough pinto beans to last nine days.  (For some reason her beans always lasted nine days) 

No, I'm not mad , because that "shit" was truly motivation! "Get out! Get a good education! Get gone!"

Little did I know when I made my escape, when I promised GOD I would never come back if [HE] enabled my "get away", to make my  escape, I would never come back!   Yes, I lied to GOD. In my youth, in my foolishness, I couldn't wait to get back to my "mother". To finally collect on all the love I knew s/he had deliberately deprived me of.

Well, can a Leopard change it's spots? Can a sick, depraved, carnal, demon possessed whore, ever be anything else?  No. martha jane walters had to be martha jane walters. You see, We create Ourselves. We do become what We want to become.  Our problem is admitting people We think We love , are worthy. Our problem is refusing to see the Truth,  although it it is hitting us with BLUNT FORCE TRAUMA DAILY!

Of course I regret never having a real mother, and no father to speak of.  However, how many people are blessed with a Man like my GrandDADDY?

Few, very few!

True, when I backtrack sixty-nine years,  I am horrified. But, when I remember her evil,  the zellion demonic schemes s/he designed, that Backfired I know I am Glorified!

BEAMING!!!

"So, youthink you can tell..."

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

Thursday, May 14, 20/20

AWESOME!

AWESOME!

AWESOME!

 DEAR LORD IN HEAVEN 

THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HUMBLE HEART

THANK YOU FOR FINALLY TAKING THAT SCOURGE FROM YOUR BEAUTIFUL EARTH

I REJOICE LORD

I REJOICE AS YOU HEAL ME

I REJOICE AS YOU RESTORE ME

I REJOICE AS YOU RESTORE ALL THAT ASK

BEAMING!

BEAMING!

BEAMING!

AWESOME! AWESOME! AWESOME!

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

Thursday, May 14, 20/20

Awesome! Awesome! Awesome! Surely, GOD will do just what [HE] said! "And you shall come rejoicing". I don't know exactly how to put this , other than to say GOD is not dead. No imp, no low viper for satan , shall ever come to this Earth and live the low, evil, sick, sadistic, demented life, martha jane walters deliberately lived for eighty-eight years , and just slither away.  Unknown, anonymous!

No whore, you had your chance. Your dumb ass chose satan!

Did my "blinders" slide off or were they snatched off?  No matter, they are off! Now that my blinders are finally off, I fall humbly to my knees thanking GOD for saving me from her worse.

Sure, the deliberately evil, vile slut,  did do me much damage, much harm  over the sixty-two years s/he held me hostage,  but do know the BACKFIRE is Fantastic!

While this low whore raged because s/he could not keep any man, ever, without the help of voodoo, cunning, manipulation, assaults, persecution and deep subterfuge , I gained!

Yes, I gained Christ! For sixty plus years I have read the Scriptures, many great books. I have prayed. I have been honest, full of love and forgiveness. I am proud!

Looking back over my long life, it is clear martha jane walters was DEMON POSSESSED!  Not demon possessed accidently. No, the low slut sought satan.  mjw was such a ravenous whore, such a NYMPHOMANIAC , s/he was not about to give up all of her Carnal desires  to be some "lame Virtuous Wo/man".

martha gladly played one when s/he suspected some other :lame" was looking. No, martha jane walters never  wanted any part of Christ, honestly, Truth telling, sincerely loving, Ever!

One of my first vivid memories of martha's unendeing terror,  occurred when I was only two years old.  My uncle Mac, a very handsome , good man, casually admonished her for neglecting my appearance.

We spent the entire day  joy riding around the country side of Wade, North Carolina. We visited relative after relative and Juke joint after juke joint.  Uncle Mac's car was flying down those country dirt roads leaving trails of "dust clouds".  It was fun! I held onto my uncle's big neck with my nimble two year old fingers as we careened on two wheels.

I was completely naked , no shoes, no dress, no pants, no bows, no love, nothing. I did have on an old pair of dirty ragged "draws".  Uncle Mac mentioned that s/he should dress me better. What did Uncle Mace say that for?  That Slut! That HORRID WHORE FROM THE GATES OF HELL BROKE LOOSE.  Not only did martha curse my Uncle to no end, s/he grabbed my grandfather's shotgun and tried to kill him.

Some one wrestled the shot gun from her blood thirsty, demon possessed, guilty , ravenous,  viperous hands.  World, do know this was always martha's way. Wretched, terrorizing, brutal, savage, uncivilized!

 Say anything to martha jane walters,  that s/he didn't like, all hell broke loose. Yes, my "mother" , my birther was "trump" before .rump. 

World, do know this was not the first time martha resorted to such violence.  As a matter of fact say anything satan's lowest whore didn't agree with,  you were sure to be cursed for two, three, four days , straight. No let up.

Then, for the rest of your natural life, this not so secret slutty whore was going to stalk, blessing block and chunk "dust". Sure, s/he was going to grin in your face. Flatter, flatter, flatter. S/he could buildup up "mentally". Do know the whore was lying, was full of nothing but demonic hate and jealousy.

At any rate , the low whore is finally rotting in her dirty little grave. Many refuse to have anything to do with Me! Like I'm the liar.  Many of my relatives have their hands over their ears screaming , "Not true, Fake News" , knowing full well I am the Truth Teller.

If I have to lie, pretend, or ignore such a viper crept into the Walters family and completely devoured everything my grandFather, ROME WALTERS  , had stored up for us...forget me.

You don't have to shun me, I proudly shun you.

BEAMING!