Wilson Pickett - Land of a Thousand Dances (HQ)

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIRIES***

Monday, July 6, 20/20

They say "Shit rises to the top". The fact that man of Perdition is still acting dictator , in a once sovereign nation, certainly proves that statement true.  So what? So, the low life,  lying swine,  brags that he shits on a gold toilet? His shit still stinks! He is still a low life, lying common ass liar.  Plus, what kind of people give a shit, where and on what another person shits?

Are his followers claiming to be proud that someone that shares their skin color , shits on a gold toilet , while they clearly don'?  I wonder what is the average net worth of a .rump supporter? I know if they keep crowding up in those "hate rallies"  unmasked, there shall be a lot less of them to worry about.

So, he claims he is "untouchable", a Teflon Demon? So did my "birther", my mother, my tormentor , for sixty-two years. Yes, s/he was a low, malignant, narcissistic , sadistic, pathological lying , volunteer imp for satan! Why? "yalla'".   World, martha jane walters turned stupid racist after s/he turned low INCESTUOUS/PEDOPHILE/ROOT WORKING WHORE!

Sadly, all that fake ass preaching was for the money, and s/he was too old to sell "hot pussy".   And  the "Church" was a place where s/he could lie, brag, show off all of her finery.   But, you better know something, You were  NOT going to her house!  martha was extremely Paranoid when it came to people visiting her home. Why? martha was terrified that people would do to her, what s/he always did to them, "dust", "lay roots", steal, vandalize, leave bad energy.

Well, any group of people willing to self hate because their oppressor proclaims them too ugly, need to suffer.

BLACK IS BEAUTIFUL AND #BLM!

BEAMING!

Bill Deal and the Rhondels - I´ve been hurt - 1969

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

Monday, July 6, 20/20

No, you think you've been hurt. You haven't been hurt,  DEVASTATED, laid low, counted as Dung, until your "birther" , your mother is a low volunteer slut for satan!

I've had an extremely long time to think about it.  I've thought about it, and thought about it. Yes, I've prayed about "IT" every day of my life, since I learned to pray.  DEMON POSSESSION  is some real SHIT! Very few "ministers" of any "religion" are sincere.  Very few of them warn Us. When We tell them, they demand We hurry and shut the fuck up. 

WE occupy a Predatory World where the vast majority have little faith in anything other than money, filthy lucre. "They" lie, preach tithing  is a Commandment, lying, greedy pimps!  The low, lying "scribes and pharisees" ain't mentioned Anti-Mothers, common low life INCESTUOUS/PEDOPHILE ROOT WORKING WHORES!

Time after time,  FEW of US take the time to see money is Not the answer to all prayers.  Wasn't Jesus tempted? Didn't satan promise Jesus everything he had IF [HE] would bow down and serve him.  Why? Jealous! Envious! Lucifer was jealous of GOD! Why? They say lucifer was handsome, had gold hair and blue eyes. 

Lucifer was ravenous, could not be satisfied. That Abomination to The HOLY GHOST  boasts that he is a multi-billionaire, demands the "Lion's share" based on his massive wealth, skin color, gender and ability to Con and lie.

Well, go ahead imp. So did my "mother", my "birther", at Eighty-Eight years old , s/he found herself something so foul , even s/he feared approaching the "Cross".

Do it anyway Children! Take your burdens to "The Cross" and leave them there.

BEAMING!

What did I know, when did I know it?

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

Monday, July 6, 20/20

 Ova'here "Girding up my Loins".  Thank You Jesus!  My "mother" preached forever and always mispronounced loins, lions. s/he never understood the difference, s/he only knew s/he (secretly) hated me for always correcting her.

 "What did I know and when did I know it?"  From birth! From birth, I vehemently declare! That slut knew s/he was a pure DEMON!  Yes, that low whore knew full well s/he was as sadistic as any common MAGGOT!

 Did s/he ever admit it? HELL NO!  Apologizing (sincerely) would mean martha jane walters would have to finally give up all her manipulating, conniving, raping, robbing , ruining, savagely and brutaly destroying everything satan directed her to demolish. 

.Actually,  sincerely humbling herself to the likes of "black ass niggers" , was not an act lying ass mathy jane was willing to preform. What would life be without sadistic pleasure? Who in this World truly wanted to be the lame ass "Christian" mathy pretended to be, once a week, for a few hours?

Openly engaging in a "Gang Bang" , where s/he was the only wo/man, in the broad open DayLight, in her "lover's" Barracks,  in my innocent nineteen year old presence, should have been my final clue.  (I was still a virgin, except for my vicious eight year old rape.)

I must admit, I knew! I was eight years old, so stunned by my "mother's" sudden VICIOUSNESS, I knew something was very wrong. I didn't know what it was then, I couldn't put a name on it. Today, I call it guilt, demon possession.

The fact is, martha always knew s/he was a low imp. any white man''s wench. Just another low whore , "Common as bat shit".  martha always roared, cut the absolute fool if you came any where near her with the Truth.  KNOWING FULL WELL EVERY WORD WAS TRUE!

Well, s/he was a low whore.  An ignorant imp that earned all of the demonic spirits s/he foolishly dug up over eighty-eight years.  For what? martha, did you live that horrid life , just to be "The top of the Bottom"?  "The bottom of the top." Something You would not tolerate! Someone You would not sully your soul to be around.

WO/MAN YOU MURDERED YOUR OWN DADDY! A GOOD MAN! A MAN THAT ALWAYS TREATED YOU LIKE A PRINCESS! A MAN THAT USED HIS MOUTH TO SUCK THE SNOT OUT OF YOUR NOSE WHEN YOU WERE A BABY!

Yes You Preached! Preached falsely! Only reached for the money! You refused to repent, now you are rotting. Your name is rooting. Your memory and yes, your "toe hold" is rotting.  Many ae walking straight out of captivity now that you are dead.

Wo/Man, how did you look in the mirror? You roared and grabbed your "dust" when confronted, cussed and cursed without ceasing every time GrandDADDY slightly admonished you.  No matter, it was all true. You didn't fool anybody.

True, you were a "haint", something sick and disgusting.  But, you didn't get away. "GOD keeps a ram in the bushes."  And looks out for [HIS] Own.

BEAMING!

I AM A WITNESS!

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

Sunday, July 5, 20/20

I know what I know! I will NOT be silenced by friends and family that see no value in my sharing my horrid Truth!

I truly REJOICE! Yes! I am prostrate , Humbled, on my knees Thanking Almighty GOD for saving Me from martha jane walters' worse! Yes, WORSE! For Eighty-Eight long treacherous, terrifying years mathy jane cracked a whip, raped, robbed, blasphemed, bullied, deliberately destroyed, murdered and maimed, Conjured and cojoled, just because s/he could.

It was easy. s/he, the low whore for satan,  was born at the right time. Yes, mathy jane was worshipped for the color of her skin. I am a witness.  Of  course s/he loved it, made a lot of money selling "hot pussy" to desperate,  perverted racist, color struck men.

Yes, mathy was closet homosexual. I have never figured out why, other than her fake belief in the "Church", in her Cherry picked, half read Bible.

One thing for sure, mathy was pure Maggot! There are no words for how common mathy jane really was, just be glad s/he failed so miserably at being horrid. 

Horrid, YES!  I have Sixty-two years of Horrid memories stored up. "I know what I know". I am a witness! No, I am NOT ashamed! I am proud that My LORD Jesus Christ saved me from a DEMON POSSESSED IMP, that "Christians"  were too "saved" to challenge.

"Christians" that swear they live holy because they don't drink, smoke, cuss,  or commit any sin outside of occasional lying, (white lies only) .  YES! They do inwardly  hate all poor people, especially those of Color.

Yes, "Christians" so full of The HOLY GHOST  they won't even pretend they have ever read the book they demand this entire World bow down to.    YES. unintelligent, low functioning, horrid imps think they can rape, bully, terrorize this World into submission because "they' always have.

I don't know of one day in Eighty-Eight years that mathy ever got what s/he deserved. I knows/he always howled like a sick wolf. I do know s/he was a damn ROOT WORKING FOOL!

I actually witnessed my mother "root", conjure, fix, her third legal husband. He was much too young and intelligent for her.  For some reason, mathy had that man packing his Duffel Bag and moving in with a married wo/man, her four children within forty-five minutes of meeting him.

Yes, s/he got him alright and it wasn't long before s/he was treating him just like "shit on a stick", just like s/he Always treated US. Of course he fled immediately! It did no good.  The low whore for satan never tired of making his life miserable for refusing to be her footstool,  and ATM machine. 

Yes, martha jane walters was LEGION! No, satan did Not come after her, she Chased satan! Yes, s/he, martha jane walters , gleefully dug satan up every time someone she claimed to love out did her. was prettier, got a compliment, found some money, did anything positive.

YES, s/he would go to this one particular grave of a murdered man, gleam his "dirt", bless it in the name of the Father, Son and Holy Ghost.  Then , the low whore would stalk you, chunking "dust".  "Goofer Dust" s/he called it.

YES, the low whore for satan, also Sold it! Never saw one broke day in Eighty-Eight long years!

No, I shall not debate if the "shit"worked or not. I know coupled with martha's extreme cruelty, lack of morals and sick sadistic nature, it worked good enough for her to never abandon it.  I know everything I touched, WE touched , turned to "shit" IMMEDIATELY!

WHY? "Crabs in a barrel", "It is written, got to fulfill the Book". I don't know why, I just know every word I speak is true.

No , your age, gender, degree of kinship,  did not matter.  As a matter of fact, mathy's kin always suffered far worse than the rest of the World. It appears most people in this World grew wise to mathy jane early, always referring to her as "Common as bat shit".

Which s/he was! NO MORALS! NONE! NOT ONE! NOT NAR-UN!  But, you better not say nothing! Do! ... I dare you! The low slut actually promised to treat you worse, And DELIVERED! 

World, once a hue-being was caught in mathy jane's net, her web of deep deceit, it was over!

Thankfully , mjw was the type of imp that just had to brag about every success , while lying and raging , making ridiculous excuses about every failure.

For eighty-eight years s/he bragged, claimed to be doing nothing but winning. More like , nothing ,but , perversion, "root working",  conjure, incest, pedophilia, jealousy, envy, pathological lying and preaching falsely.

You plotted on your first cousin, stole her brand new patent leather shoes, (during the Depression), threw them into the fireplace. LIED! CRIED! DENIED!  Then later bragged that you did  IN FACT do it. You said she was too pretty, s/he was too light, her hair too straight. You fixed her good.

Later, you bragged she got drunk,  burned up in a house fire. Wo/Man what kind of "Christian" were you?

Well, mathy jane, perhaps your unrepentant soul is burning like all the fires you started in your Eighty-Eight Year reign of Terror!

Basking in the BACKFIRE!

Ray Charles - Unchain my Heart [1964]

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

Saturday, July 4, 20/20

If I had a nickel for every time my "mother", my birther",  declared her undying love for me,  for sixty-two years,  I would certainly be a multi millionaire,  at least.

What kept me so ignorant, SO LONG?  What prevented me from the Gospel Truth?  Can I blame the "Church" that deliberately taught me; "GAWD don't put no'mo on you,  than you can bear."?  That "family" is everything, to honor my MOTHER above all else.

Can I blame the people, the acquaintances, family and friends that always admonished me sternly; 'SHUT THE FUCK UP! FORGET IT GWEN! LET IT GO!"

I will NOT! I pulled Myself up by my BARE FUCKING FEET!  I never had no boot straps!  What I had was a SICK, PSYCHOTIC, SADISTIC, MALIGNANT,  NARCISSIST WHORE!  A fucking, poisonous, DEMON POSSESSED, PATHOLOGICAL LIYING VIPER ,  dumb enough, arrogant and fallen enough to secure a "License to Preach", just to MOCK GOD!

Well, Bible "Toters" and Bible Quote-ERS, you better read and study that book for yourself. The "Church" is overrun with lying, GREEDY, INCESTUOUS, PEDOPHILE, ROOT WORKERS,  JUST LIKE MY "birther".

Don't fear them , SHUN them!   Slap them with the TRUTH! Slap it dead in their lying face! If they decide to finally openly hate you, to GUT YOU LIKE A FISH, simply because you desire a meager apology, rejoice. At least now you know. 

HORROR UNLEASHED! martha jane walters always played the pitiful whore, a mere woman taken advantage of by lusty niggers. No such thing! Just like her mentor, Jezebel, martha had babies out of wedlock,  deliberately!  The low whore birthed her own little slaves! Introduced her sons and daughters to carnal knowledge,  CONJURE, deliberately.

Yes, s/he raped, robbed and severely EMASCULATED  all of US! s/he was a "man eater". the dreaded mathy jane collected "nuts" just for the sadistic hell of it. Just because s/he could.

mathy did warn me, did tell me,  I would be the one to betray her. ONEDAY.    Well, I guess I am , and for this privilege I am ETERNALLY grateful and DEEPLY HUMBLED!

Yes,  GOD is Good! And Yes, GOD  keeps a ram in the bushes.

BEAMING!

BEAMING!  All Aglow in this BACKFIRE<3

The Hilarity of this Situationship is a Magic Moment!

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES***

Tuesday, July 2, 20/20

I'm so "old" now, I'm not exactly sure when I became "Rachel". Rachel is my stage name. My first name, a name considered so unimportant by my selfish, sadistic, malignant, narcissistic, color struck, racist "mother", s/he neglected to tell me.

I was ten years old, it was the first day of school, (Murray Elementary School, Honeycutt Road, Fort Bragg, North Carolina).  Mrs. Dabinette, a tall, young, strikingly beautiful white woman , with flowing, flaming red hair , covered in brown freckles,  was my teacher.

My "home", my school, was ninety-nine percent WHITE! For some reason, Blacks in the military preferred housing off post. WE being "country ass niggas" loved "Military Housing". Shit! Indoor plumbing, FLUSHING TOILETS! Furniture rental, excellent health care, excellent INTEGRATED SCHOOLS, and a MUTHAFUCKING CHECK ON THE FIRST OF EVERY MUTHAFUCKIN' MONTH!

UNCLE SAM YOU THE MUTHAFUCKING MAN!  Well, that was the credo of my humble "upbringing".  Well, cool, Diva-ish Mrs. Dabinette kept calling; "RACHEL DOSTER! ...RACHEL DOSTER! .......RACHEL DOSTER!!!,   I noticed she was growing irritated , so I volunteered, trying to be of assistance; "I'm Gwendolyn Doster."

That white woman gave me such a look of disgust, my feelings are still hurt. "YOUR NAME IS RACHEL GWENDOLYN DOSTER!"

Shocked, I couldn't wait to share this secret information with my "mother". s/he cooly replied;"Oh yea, I named you after my mother because I knew she would be the one taking care of you."

Well DAMN!

YES I AM HORRIFIED! I HAVE EVERY RIGHT TO BE! NO,  I AM NOT ASHAMED! I AM REJOICING! My "birther" was a wo/man that fell so low, became so DEMONIC,  s/he Viciously Raped ME!  

The low whore was a SERIAL RAPIST! A CARNAL DEGENERATE! A COMMON ASS, INCESTUOUS PEDOPHILE, "ROOT WORKER",  HIDDEN BY THE "CHURCH"!

 THAT LOW SLUT,  martha jane walters Deliberately forced me to consume an entire bottle of Creme DeMint licquer and directed her Jet Black Imp of a husband to viciously rape my tiny eight year old body!

I "came to" BLEEDING! (I can still see the hot red blood streaming down my tiny little brown legs) THE LOW SLUT FOR SATAN VICIOUSLY BEAT ME FOR VOWING TO TELL GOD ON HER!

Well, I'm TELLING! I shall never Shut Up! I AM LOUD! I AM PROUD! I AM REDEEMED!

BEAMING!

Outkast - Take Off Your Cool (ft. Norah Jones)

***THE GWEN DOSTER DIARIES ***

Tuesday, July 1, 20/20

AWESOME! AWESOME! AWESOME! "Chilling in the BACKFIRE!"  GOD is still Good! Still keeps a ram in the bushes, still does just what [HE] said.

The Word is Real! DEMONIC ACTIVITY IS REAL! DEMON POSSESSION IS REAL! JUDAS WAS DEMON POSSESSED!

Judas let his envy for Jesus get the best of him. Then his greed. But, at least Judas showed remorse, killed himself. Not my "birther". The low slut had the nerve to pitch a fix when I humbly approached the subject of MY CHILDHOOD , VICIOUS RAPE, AT HER HANDS!

Rot you Stanking, Unrepentant, Foul, Disgusting, Demon Possessed SLUT!

If you are struggling, left alone, ashamed and broke as a result of a "birther" like martha jane walters, just REBUKE HER, THEM!

Take off your Cool and let GOD ARISE!

Frankly, I finally tire of ignorant, arrogant, thick headed, hard headed people that dismiss my "Thesis", my warnings, my pleas,  concerning DEMON POSSESSION, CHILD ABUSE, INCEST, PEDOPHILIA AND CLOSET HOMOSEXUALITY.

It's Real! If if wasn't real, The HOLY SPIRIT  would have told me. I KNOW WHAT I KNOW! I KNOW WHAT I SAW WITH MY OWN TWO EYES! LEGION!  The low slut was LEGION! HORROR UNLEASHED! 

 The slut should have been shunned, LOCKED THE FUCK UP.  BURNED AT THE STAKE! No, s/he was allowed to fester, to grow, to rape, rob, molest, MURDER!  Why? DEMON POSSESSION!

Awesome! Awesome! Awesome! Rome Walters put a Bible in my hand when I was eight years old! He told me to STUDY, to "study to show myself approved". It is a good thing I did. I never would have known my own "birther" was a self styled Jezebel Whore! 

I knew s/he was a "root worker" for sure, just could not believe mathy jane was as evil, low, fallen, repugnant, stank, nasty, jealous, sick, sadistic and demented, as s/he really was.

Why DID WE TOLERATE HER? Was it her fake preaching? Fake tears? Was it her great con game? Or was it in fact her conjure, her voodoo?

Well, s/he is dead now, all her shit is BACKFIRING!  It always did, it always will.

BEAMING!