Is this a dream?

Is this a dream? Am I living a very long nightmare?  I am 61 tethered to the most despicable woman that every lived and I don't hear a peep from not one relative other than my daughter.

Is it that you don't care?

Cousin I offered all the evidence you needed to prove that she murdered our grandfather.  You have said nothing.  You told me that she told you that she sent me that letter smeared in her fecal matter.  How did she justify that with you?  What did she claim that I did to justify such and act?

Brothers, I witnessed how she savagely beat two of you daily.  You two love her more than all of us combined.  She totally destroyed your lives yet you both cling  to her.

I just assume that she is too heinous to know.  Just ignore her, just pretend that your life is lovely, "normal".

What did she do to you? How can you be so blind?  Ignoring me, "dissing" me still won't get that stanking slut into heaven.  I was never her only target.  You claim that you forgive her, that you refuse to live in the past.  When did she change?  You know her!

"She don't owe you no apology!" you scream (brother #2).  What about your apology?  What about all the horrible things she did to you?  She is not sorry, nor is she ashamed.  The fool thinks she got away, too blind to see that she is being punished.  Too dumb to know that she is an abomination to GOD.

I love and pray for all of you daily and I will continue to do so.  I refuse to be involved in your farce, in your pretend family where everything is so wonderful.  Age doesn't make that slut a saint.  Her fake preaching doesn't make her forgiven and her "roots" don't work on me.

Brother #2, you told me that you hope I find peace. I hope you find your mind, your manhood. I hope and pray you come to your senses. I pray that GOD will deliver your from evil.

In my heart of hearts I do wish that she would finally confess.  I wish she could sincerely apologize to me.  For many years I  longed to hear her say that she is sorry.  It doesn't matter now.  If she finally called and expressed her love and regret I would not believe her.

You "stayed" out there too long Martha.  Your "whored", lied, practiced witchcraft, destroyed and defiled too long.  You are right.  What is the point? You can't love. You can only offer something fake and artificial.  You are an abomination to GOD and all His glory.  I can't tolerate the thought of you.

You don't have to worry about me pissing on your grave.  That was the last thing you told me not to do.  Just who is that common?  Why did that cross your mind? One thing for sure we are not going to live forever.  One by one GOD will call us home.  One day you will have to give an account for the life you lived.

Family one day you will have to give an account to GOD for not standing up for your grandfather, for tolerating and loving a demon, for not caring about me.  For witnessing all the sick things she did to me and never coming to my aid or defense.

You will give an account to GOD for NOT standing against evil.

"Seek the LORD while He may be found."