"Mother's Day"

The world is in love with "Mother's Day" a time devoted to treating your loving mother special.  We love to brag about our beautiful loving mothers. "Motherhood" is equivalent to sainthood.

GOD certainly designed mothers to be very special.  Babies will cry for hours, totally inconsolable, demanding to be held  by their mothers only.

Studies have been conducted that prove all people need to be held and loved.  Man hungers for the human touch.  Children will fail to thrive if they are deprived of love and human contact.

Our world refuses to believe that an evil corrupt mother is possible.  "Don't disturb this dream", let me remain ignorant.  Let me participate in the bragging contest of how great and loving my mother is.

The truth is "Mother's Day" is a holiday I've always dreaded.  I was always forced to "honor" my mother.  I had to buy gifts and cards, make a big deal, carry on to excess or get "cussed out".  I look back now and realize that I was going to get "cussed out" any way, get mistreated anyway. No gift was ever good enough.  "Mother's Day" was just another opportunity for her to prove that she was in control, the high priestess, could commit any filthy deed or act and get away clean.

I went through this farce every year without fail until I was 37 years old.  I became a mother at 33 and finally learned what motherhood truly meant.  It doesn't mean you own a person.  Nothing will ever give any person the right to sexually abuse a child.  Forcing and manipulating your six children into keeping your secrets   doesn't erase them.  The scars are still there.

My mother is Martha Jane Walters Hodges Doster Watson Lamoureaux.  She is 87 years old.  She has never loved me.  As a matter of fact she hates me with a passion and always has.  She has painted a picture of me that is despicable and totally untrue.  Assigned her sexual perversions to me, her lying to me, her witchcraft to me.  In her weak tortured mind she has made me her, made me pay for her deceit and low common character.

I AM NOT GOING TO TAKE IT!  You will NOT commit every sick despicable sin known to man and get away clean!

I look back over the 61 years you have successfully tormented and abused me and realize that is all you have every wanted; "to get away clean".  You love deceiving people, making people think you are a loving mother and devoted preacher of the Gospel of Jesus Christ.  You hate GOD!  You hate children! You hated your father!  You hate! You are the absolute opposite of what you portray!

I stand alone.  No, I am not alone in my pain and grief.  I am not the only person you did sick despicable things to.  My fellow victims do not share my "courage".  I don't think they trust GOD. "Oh ye of little faith."

88 years is a long time to wait, to watch, to witness pure evil.  On the surface she looks like she got away, she appears to prosper.  She lives in a decent house in a decent neighborhood.  She has a much younger husband, drives an old Cadillac, is loved and admired by hordes of people.  Not one relative will dare say one word against her.

Your "fear" proves she won.  You let her defeat you.  From our birth she never did anything but brutalize, curse and secretly sabotage. Brother#4, don't forget you started a successful band at 14, played with Donald Byrd, briefly enjoyed a very successful musical career.  What happened? Martha.  Why don't you know? She got  "away clean". That was her purpose, her plan, to creep in and destroy your life.  Why? You made her look bad.  You are an"outside" child that she tried to abort.  You are evidence of her whoredom.  You are an alcoholic.  Pray, ask GOD to take the taste from your mouth.  Give up fearing Martha. Give your life to Christ.

Brother #2, what happened to your medical practice? Martha.  Why don't you know? Again a slippery sneaky serpent that was determined to destroy everything good in your life.  You became a medical doctor and she hates you with a passion.  You made her look bad.   Your father refused to marry her.  You look just like him.  She feed you to the dogs, did the unspeakable many times over.  How did you survive?  GOD bless you.  GOD has so many blessings stored up for you. Give up the terrifying fear she cultivated in you.  Give your life to Christ.  

Brother#1, your mistake was believing her lies.  No, you didn't make the mistake of trying to make a mother out of a whore.  You made the mistake of trying to make a mother out of a demon.  Stop believing her lies.  Give up that fear!  GOD bless you.  Know that GOD loves you, will provide for you and you don't need Martha for anything.  Stop fearing her witchcraft.

Brother #3, stand up to her!  Listen to the voice of the LORD.  Tell satan to get behind you.  You can live, you can be made whole.  Embrace the truth and step on that serpent.  I see you healed and made whole.

Brother #5, wake up! Stop pretending.  You know her.  You know what you went through.  You know that you don't trust her either.  Hate me if you want to.  But hate me because it's your decision not hers.

Prepare for your "Mother's Day".  If you have a good mother, love her, tell her.  I will not be forced into honoring a mother I never had.  No monster is going to twist my arm and make me live a lie.  And I will not shut up!  I am going to talk about you until the day I die.  And when I'm dead I've written volumes about you.

For those of you that judge me harshly, that think they have the right to tell me what not to say, what not to do.  Walk a mile in my shoes.  Did some sick perverted monster pretend to nurture you?  Did your "loving" mother pimp you out to your stepfather?

No! I will not keep this secret.  "I press on."  The world will know about you. Please read Philippians 3:7 - 14. "I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of GOD in Christ Jesus."

I will not tolerate a society that turns a blind eye to child abuse.  I will not associate with a family that honors you, fears you and pretends to be perfect.  So, go and enjoy your "Mother's Day".  I just hope it is real.

May GOD's Grace. Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)