Echoes in my head

The truth is I got old much too fast. Went from 18 to 63 in a flash. But,  I've lived  this life knowing full well that my Redeemer lives.  What I didn't know, what I failed to recognize was that my "mother" was Caligula in drag.

I KNOW THERE IS A GOD! Locked in my brain, in my memory are so many vicious, sick, sadistic acts of betrayal.  So much needless pain.  When you are so loathsome, so repugnant and reprehensible that people REFUSE to know.  When people can not find the courage to bear the truth about the real  you , the demon monster you kept under wraps until you felt the need to do something devious and demonic.

The book of James warns us against "double mindedness".  You read it, it didn't suit your purpose or your plan, so you skipped over it or dismissed it.  Martha Jane Walters! you played god for 87 years! It never prospered you one thin dime.  The sick sadistic pleasure you "enjoyed" was much too fleeting.  You were insatiable .

Martha you did the worse, in the worse way! You died KNOWING full well you were an abomination unto GOD! You died mocking His WORD! You died fully confident that you had destroyed, raped and robbed all of your children.  The six that managed to escaped your brutal coat hanger abortions.

You grinned, lied and robbed up until your last day.  You did cruel cruel things to me that I must take medication for.  But, you didn't get to do what you fully intended to, to utterly destroy me.

You died an idiot, an ignorant clown, Mathy Jane.   It was your choice. You were pretty, but immoral and common! You must have loved it because you totally refused to let it go, to change.  You were a schemer. a plotter. a robber, a rapist.  Something so despicable I suffer from night terrors! 

This world will not keep me silent! It is my sincere intention to travel the globe warning people about the likes of you.  You started out killing small animals like Jeffery Domer.  Perhaps I should be glad that you never cannibalized us.

Which is worse, to be cannibalized or aborted by your mother early in life or suffer needlessly for decades? Terrorized! Humiliated! Destroyed! Castrated! because Martha Jane Walters was mad, couldn't have her way, was jealous, was a liar and a vicious notorious WHORE!

Praise the LORD! The echoes of my Savior's voice are still alive in my head.  GOD warned me about you, kept you from taking my life.

You MURDERED my grandfather because you hated him with a passion. You hated him because you disappointed him.  You hated me for so many reasons.  You claimed my black skin was repulsive. Truthfully I think you hated me because I made your father proud.  I was the daughter he wished he had. You murdered Jerome Walters because he knew the truth about you.  You knew that he knew the real Mathy Jane.

I do Not bid you a fond farewell.  I am truly saddened by your long treacherous demise.  GOD gave you time and space, tried to give you Grace.  You refused, preferred satan, loose living, root working and every kind of despicable sin.  Stood up in pulpits boldly,  falsely believing that you were getting away.  Shame on you Mathy Jane.  Shame on all of your supporters and lovers.  I will not lie and say Farewell.  I for one, am very glad that you are gone.  "The wicked shell cease from troubling!" PTL!

[Excerpt from  The JR WALTERS Chronicles   August 28, 2014  All rights reserved.]