One thing, you better know...

right now!  GOD is not going to prepare you for an uphill journey, equip you for fierce battle , with the worse possible enemies, then turn around and leave you.

Do, gird up your loins, put your big  drawers (draws) on!  You are going to have to fight!    You will fight for your natural life.

Isn't that what we do in order to come here?  Why do we have to struggle to come out of the birth canal?  It strengthens us.  If you are too weak, you are useless.

"Only the strong survive."  Strong willed?  Strong in the back?  Strong in convictions?  How about strong in the WORD?  How about not easily fooled, swayed or intimidated by bullies?

Yes, I am mad because I let my mother's foul mouth, strong hands, physical violence and knowledge of conjure and voodoo,  keep me quiet for far too many years of my precious life.  Kept me in my place, rather, the place, she decided, I should be my placed,  based on her perception of me.  She clearly told me many times,  that I wasn't shit!  I heard it so many times, it just rolled off of me.  Or did it?  Did I absorb it, accept it?  I must have!  I married far below my station, my "pay grade".  I have to laugh.

It had to be my fate.   I am glad I did not spend too much time trying to fix him.  One "Mathy Jane"  in your life is enough.

 See, another silent blessing.  My experience with Mathy Jane alerted me to similar "qualities", and characteristics in a person very unworthy of my precious life.   My attitude is still the same.  I would rather be "lonely", unattached, by-my-damn-sef! than risk catching a case with another malignant narcissist!

Why didn't I know such vicious acts were mere symptoms of her  (their) fragility, self-hatred, pride, dis-trusting, un-trusting, un-believing, fake, phony mouth?

Because I was traumatized.  I was trauma bonded.  Witnessing the  vicious attacks on my infant, toddler, 2 pound, 2 ounce, baby brother,  should have clued me into how she "bonded" with me, with all of us.

World; I just want you to know that you are manufacturing these women at lighting speed.

They are unnecessary.  We do not need any more of them.

It must take a great deal of nerve, blatant stupidity , or a lack of common sense to falsely believe that you can make it in this world without GOD.

Some of these glad-to-be-known-as-unprotected-godless-individuals remind me of some childhood friends that  refused to listen;

• little white boy at Ft. Bragg, fellow explorer of every where we should not have been on post.  I told him not to mess with that dynamite , he did, blew off both of his hands.
• their mother went to work, told her sons not to go swimming in that pond.  They did, it took them  all day to find them, unfortunately it was too late.
• Do not point an unloaded gun at some one with a loaded gun.  Some one will call your bluff.
• NEVER DO ANYTHING THAT YOU WOULD BE ASHAMED TO ADMIT THAT YOU DID OR DID NOT DO!

to "thine own self be true"

• Love GOD!
• Love YOU!
• Be Blessed!