"In all thy getting ...

get understanding." One thing my life has taught me, shun whorish men and women like my mother and gravitate to wise sages like my grandfather.   I am amazed how easy it is for me to see how abominably evil my mother was now that she is safely dead.

 A "ROOT WORKER"!  A real, honest to god, demonic "root worker"!  A Sho'nuff "soothe sayer".  A sorry pathetic broke ass imp.  A slut too selfish to look out for anyone but her sorry ass selfish self!

That's why GOD didn't bless you or satan either.  "Be ye hot or cold!" dumb bitch!  What if you had done to white people, to your enemies, to your oppressors , what you did to your own family?  What if you had treated just one of your enemies the way you treated me?

You had no reason, you had no call.  I was born to you!  You had me, I didn't have you.  I didn't line up every pervert I could to ruin you.  Why hate me? Why couldn't you ever hate your nasty ass lying self?

Poor Martha, an ignorant, half read conjurer only interested in her immediate carnal needs, did come to this earth and vexed horribly for eighty-seven years!  People should not have to cheer your death.  What kind of person refuses repentance at age eighty-seven? Better, what kind of preacher refuses repentance at age eighty-seven?   It is not like you are not expecting death.  You know at the longest it is not long.

Martha felt unworthy because she was unworthy.  We are all unworthy dumb ass!  That is why GOD sent (HIS) Son ,  Jesus!  A lie is still a lie.   You can not pound a lie into the truth.  Martha was a deeply disturbed sociopath that derived tremendous pleasure from all forms of INCEST and PEDOPHILIA! She always pretended that she was too ashamed to seek help.  that is the lie she told.  The low stanking whore never wanted any help.  Yes, she did think her light bright color made her superior.  She really did.  She did think her "good hair" made her better.

What kind of pride is that? What kind of demons did you collect? INCEST! Fuck you bitch! I'm threw! I can't deal.  I was blind and now I see.  No wonder you could murder your own father, just shoot him dead in the heart and never care.  A bitch that can rape babies, beat babies, pour boiling hot coffee on her own toddler son, beware, steer clear.

When you are too wicked for GOD, when you deliberately become too corrupt, too lying, too sick and demented for GOD to rescue, you are a Mathy Jane! 

A Mathy Jane is a nasty ignorant thing that secretly hates GOD, all goodness and all innocence.  A Mathy Jane dies unrepentant deliberately and demands her entire family perish with her.

I WON'T! I CAN'T! IT IS ALL IN DIVINE ORDER!