- Compared To What?

An old whore had me, didn't want me.  Could not abort me because she owed the "abortionist". Martha Jane Walters was angry, roared, vowed revenge against the man that impregnated her yet , refused to marry her.

Yes, she also had the nerve, the unmitigated gall to hate GOD  for "causing" her to get pregnant so many times without privilege of "marriage".  Martha always claimed the "sorry black ass nigger men" always tricked her!

The fact my mother never really knew who my real father was did not stop her from pinning me on her two best candidates.  One would not leave his wife the other was terrified of her frequent beatings and known "ROOT WORKING".

So, into the world I came anyway.  Exactly twelve months after the brother she attempted to abort three times , before she gave up.

Perhaps Martha was very disappointed in herself. Perhaps she was genuinely ashamed to be known as "common as bat shit".  If it bothered her, if never prevented her from engaging in one sick deplorable act after another for nearly nine decades!

Did my mother over abuse me, us?   She must have,  because I have always worked tirelessly, feverishly,  to disprove every lie she ever said about me:

• "You too black!"
• "You luddle black heifer!"
• "You damn dummy!"
• "You talk too damn much! Yo'mouf run lak goose shit by the moonlight"
• "Gwen's a snitch! Don'Nevah trust hur!"
• "Miss Rich Bitch!"
• Miss Goody-Two-shoes"
• "YOU AIN'T SHIT!"

How did I always respond to Martha's unending abuse? I responded just like every one else in my family, I took it. Not only did I take it,  I always tried to improve myself. I always tried to make myself lovable. Something she  could finally be proud.

 In searching for acceptance from my mother I found the The Holy Ghost. Not only that, found out most pastors are fake, just "Jesus pimps". Imps standing up in pulpits "entertaining" , deliberately leading blind sheep astray, into captivity.

Most "Christians" are as fake as their fake pastors.

Most Christians are full of fear and lies.  Few have ever done more than carry their Bibles for show. Most have never read it. Most have no desire to read it. Most "Christians" only pretend to love GOD. 

 Most are faithless, just like Jesus said.

We all shall come to know, every Word in that book is true.

• Fear no wo/man!
• Trust no wo/man!
• Step out on Faith!

REVERSE THE CURSE!

"COME YE OUT FROM AMONG THEM!"