My Gift To You

PTL!

Praise the LORD children! Meet Him down on your knees at 7:27 in the a.m. Thank Him for blessing you, keeping you. Thank Him for wisdom and understanding. Thank Him for His WORD! Thank Him for deliverance. Thank Him for His prayer.

What an awesome God I serve.

Live in LOVE children. "Love ye one another."

Ask Him to search your heart. If He finds any sin ask Him to pluck it out.

"Defraud no man." You can't live double minded. You can't be a rank cold blooded demon and serve the LORD.

Quit fooling yourself. Quit lying to yourself. Take an assessment, take inventory. Are you living foul? Are you engaged in ignorant primitive "root working"? Come ye out from among them.

Confess your sins. Repent of your sins. Apologize! Correct the wrong you've done.

I know a poor lady that ruined her life. An obstinate rebellious miscreant. Insanely jealous and brilliantly wicked. Her incredible ignorance and jealousy is beyond human belief, beyond human comprehension. She is the worst liar in the world because she lies to herself. Her children are weak and impotent just like she made them. They are too cowardly to confront her. Too frightened of her to challenge her. They are modern day slaves waiting patiently for the evil witch to die. Some of them may just be selfish and uncaring just like their mother. God forbid that any of them are corrupt like her.

Look at the story of Joseph in Genesis. "Now Israel loved Joseph more than all his children, because he was the son of his old age: and he made him a coat of many colors. And when his brethren saw that their father loved him more than all his brethren, they hated him, and could not speak peaceably unto him." Genesis 31: 3-4.

The brothers were jealous of their brother's God given talents and sought to destroy Him.

This poor ignorant woman was jealous of the talents that God gave her children and sought to destroy them. Dissatisfied with her vicious mouth, cruelty and sexual deviance she teamed up with the devil. She introduced and relied on sorcery. She let the devil convince her that she had power. This woman neglected her brilliant God given talents in order to rob her own children.

Although she is a "preacher" she never heard or understood when God said "No weapon formed against you shall prosper."

Make no mistake His WORD is real, all of His Prophesies are coming to pass.

Where ever you are stretch out your hand, stretch it out toward GOD. Ask Him to come into your heart. Ask Him to open your blind eyes. Ask Him to unstop your deaf ears. Confess your sins. GOD already knows them but He can't help you if you won't let Him.

Don't you love the LORD? Have you not witnessed the miracles He wrought in me? in *Sam? Don't you know that GOD blessed you with the most wonderful father on earth? You were jealous of your own daddy you poor ignorant woman. You committed an unpardonable sin, you shed innocent blood. Yes you did. There is no denying.

It may be too late for you but it is not too late for my nieces and future generations.

Ladies do not let anyone define you or destroy you. Fight back! Stand up! Stand up and proclaim the name of Jesus Christ! Pick up your cross and follow Him. Do good. Seek GOD.

"Apart from Christ you are nothing." JR Walters.

Engrave that on your heart children. Humble yourselves, celebrate your great legacy. Do know that you come from great stock. Search the history books, search the Bible. You will find few men as wise and as gentle as my grandfather. I will not swallow that swill. You will never convince me that he took his own life. Shame on you. How dare you be so wicked, so ignorant, so depraved.

You shot a poor invalid in the heart and he was eighty-four years old because you were sick of him. You disposed of him like a bag of garbage. You treated him like you treated me, like you treated most of your children.

How can you continue to live so selfishly? So depraved?

The fantasy is over. You are no longer fun. I can no longer tolerate or abide you. I must expose you in order to save the children.

Foolish woman study your Bible. If you can, repent of one sin a day.

Rebuke Satan!

Continue in His WORD children. Pray for understanding. Pray for Peace and Love. Give Love this Christmas.

Be a blessing and be blessed. "Hold yourself up much as you can."

Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel

The Fear of the LORD!

"The fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge: but fools despise wisdom and instruction." Proverbs 1:7

Amen and glory to GOD. It is so simple. His Word is so easy to be entreated. But the way of the transgressor is hard.

Don't spend your time trying to save them. God told you that the only thing that you are going to get is a blot. "Cast not your pearls before swine..."

Wow! Why did God call them swine? A filthy animal. Because God knows all things and he knows that they are low life and common, human maggots capable of the most despicable acts ever imagined.

Why do these lying hypocrites get dressed up and run to the "Church" every time the doors open? To fool you, to appeal, to defraud, to set up, to laugh. There is no good in them, none.

So why does God let them live, why does He let them exist? Ask God when you see Him.

I know that I know and I thank God for his revelation without ceasing.

Thank you Lord for revealing this painful disgusting truth to me. Thank you for your Word.

I'm standing on your Word and I'm standing by myself!

Thank you for your courage Lord. Thank you for self respect. Thank you for common decency. Thank you for the ability to love and care about others.

Why any woman would give birth to six children and hate them I don't know. I know what I know. I know what I saw. I know what I lived.

Why would any woman brag that she flushed "three of dem muthaf****** down de toilet"?

Obviously that is a person bound by a demon.

Why would any woman exploit her own little children sexually?

Again a woman bound by a demon.

Why doesn't she get loose like the woman in the Bible?

She doesn't want to be loosed! She is so ignorant and demented she loves being a stealth Demon. Excruciating pain is her pleasure.

You don't have to care about me. You don't have to care about what she does to others. But real soon you are going to wake up and realize how she has harmed you. You are not safe because you do her bidding. Do not think you are safe because you are one of her minions.

Why do you feel so sorry for her? Why don't you know that you are one of her victims also?

If you are a beautiful woman and you confide in her you will never keep a husband or boy friend. Do a check. How old are you? Have you ever shared any intimate secrets with her, about who you love or who you date? Will she advise you to do something whorish?

I have a particular beautiful cousin that has been married four times. This woman has been overly concerned with your love life all of your life. She talks about you behind your back and calls you are lying whore:"...talking bout she ain't never slept wid dat man...who the hell she think believe dat s***? S***! she still sleeping wid L******, dat's who she really love." My point is, you better look well to your going. You are so busy loving and protecting her that you can't see and refuse to hear the truth. She is jealous of your anointing; "She need to learn to preach!"

I'm slow, too slow, but I finally caught on. There is no denying.

"Know ye the TRUTH and the TRUTH shall set you free."

Continue to study His WORD children.

Be a blessing and be blessed. "Keep yourself up much as you can."

Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel

It Is What It Is

There is hurt and there is HURT! There is betrayal and there is BETRAYAL! If you care to know I will tell you about the commonest, cruelest, most sadist stealth sociopath the world has ever known. She is so incredibly depraved that it has taken me sixty years to fully comprehend her sick narcissism.

Whoa you nay sayers. "I wouldn't talk about my mother like that." First of all you are making assumptions and you have never heard of any one human being that is as evil and secretive as she is. Not only is she evil, she is brilliant!

There is no doubt in my mind she is a Demon from Hell!

When I go back and connect all of the sick acts and cruelty I feel like the world's biggest idiot. But I do understand that it is all in divine order. Something that was once a head scratching mystery is now crystal clear.

The fact that my mother was so whorish in 1951 that she didn't know who my father was is very unimportant. A lot of women are 'ho's. That doesn't make them cruel or perverted.

Well this nasty woman and her husband used me as a sex toy, so much so that they rendered me a eunuch. I'll forgive her for that. She is human, she is lustful and she may have been that ignorant.

She dressed in fine clothes and minks while dressing her kids out of thrift shops, she fed us grits and grease, while she came home with her t-bone steak bones and laughed at our plight. Beat us like animals and cussed us like dogs. I forgive her for all of that. It must have been hard to be the mother of five or six children and work for GS-5 wages.

She was always committing some sexually deviant act and we just ignored her. Pretended that it was a one time thing. She is a pioneer freak. I am just talking about what I saw. That was o.k. Too bad she wasn't brave enough to come out of the closet and just be the lesbian she always wanted to be.

She tried to prostitute me at fourteen. He didn't succeed and again I forgave her. She said HE was the pervert, not her. I chose to believe her lie and kept on loving her because she is my mother.

I listened to her tell big lie after bigger lie. I watched her transform herself into Madame Watson and work "roots" and I laughed.

She took me out of ballet when the WHITE lady bragged on me, said I was a natural phenom.

She cussed me out when I asked her if I could take piano lessons.

She threw all of my writing away so that I could not win the Langston Hughes Writing contest.

On and on year after year I had to listen to this woman rant and rave. I watched her work "roots" and tell me how she hated my oldest brother/uncle that she claimed ruined her life. I witnessed her try to pistol whip him in front of his new wife. I watched her trick and lie and laugh.

I let her cuss me out, tell me I wasn't shit!

When she mailed me a letter full of her fecal matter in 1988 I was finally finished with her.

Nine years later in 1997 I returned to the scene of my greatest grief and forgave her. She asked me why and I told her it was at the urging of the Holy Spirit and it was.

Well everything was fine, so I thought. She was preaching and saving souls. I called her every Sunday and sent her all kinds of gifts. Everything was fine. I took care of her after two surgeries. I was there, not my brothers. But the devil would not let her have any happiness. The devil opened her vile mouth again and she started that same crap that she pulled on me when I was a three year old toddler. Her brilliant brain started slipping and she began to tell on herself.

Well I have studied the Bible and it doesn't look good for her. She is a hopeless Demon. I do feel sorry for her. Any woman that would shoot their saintly father in the heart and walk away is an incredible creature. She didn't even blink.

I am the only one that will call her out. That does sadden and disappoint me. She doesn't want to talk to me.

She is in deep denial as she should be. Do not feel sorry for her. Her life is her life. It is the life she created for herself.

Thank you Lord for revealing some of the most painful things to me. I just could not wrap my brain around her and that *Con. I just could not believe that she was still "rooting" people. The Bible says that a dog will return to his vomit and she did.

The lesson here is never to fool with "roots", the occult, none of that.

Don't be stupid, listen to Jesus;"From such stay away."

Thank you Lord for forcing me to accept the horrible truth about her.

Children, do not lean to your own understanding and Trust in GOD with all your heart and if you come in contact` with someone like her learn your lesson quickly and RUN!

How long? Not long.

Study your Bible, embrace the Truth, live right.

Be Blessed. "Hold yourself up much as you can."

Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel

Tolerated!

To be tolerated is about as good as being dead. When you are tolerated you are to be seen and not heard. You are deemed and idiot before you speak. It is painful but there is no drug for it, no pain killer.

I am fifty-nine years old and tolerated.

'Let her come around but include her out. Say yea,yea repeatedly when she says something. Make sure she gets the sorriest cheapest gifts at Christmas time if you give her anything.'

'Punish her! She should not have been born. She was not planned. Her daddy left me. She is just another black a** nigger! She is nothing. Forget her. Ignore her. No, she is good for something. Use the little black bastard for your sexual pleasure. God doesn't care. If God cared he would not have made her so dark. She is a whimp anyway. She never defends her meely mouth self. Ain't nobody gon believe her no way. I don't know what she trying to get so much education for, little cunt.'

'No she didn't! She is so stupid bragging to me about how she made the highest score on the test. She think she is going to be Fayetteville's first black paralegal. Dat dumb nigga think she gon work with Richie Smith the city attorney. She don't know that I know him. She don't know that I have freaked with him. I can stop that with one little phone call and I did.' (followed by a heidious blood curdling laugh)

'She thought that she was going to get that call to be the first black anchor in Greensboro. She will never get that call. I am so smart I will blame it all on racism. Ha-ha-ha-! They will never catch me, dumb a** niggers.'

'They don't know me I was manufacturing and selling lip reducing cream when I was sixteen years old! I am a genius, no one is smarter than me. And I can act. Brilliant. They will never catch me because they will never suspect me because I am going to put on a robe and climb up in the pulpit and scream and hollar. Dumb a** niggers don't know the difference.'

'Now that I am well past old I will play up my "mental illness". That's right I will just play crazy and my weak a** sons will give me a pass. I don't care nuttin' bout that luddle black cunt. Always running off at the mouth.'

'Lord let me get up from here and go to church. I got to do the morning prayer. I am going to read it because I can't keep this Jesus crap in my head.'

'I can do it! I can do anything I want to do because I always have. I am light bright and damn near white and I am brilliant and charming and you can't catch me. If you catch me in a lie I will blame it on you. As a matter of fact I am going to get you way before you get me. I am going to tell everyone that you are nothing but a drug addict. I am going to whin and sound so pitiful every body is going to love me and hate you.'

'Yea I killed my daddy. The old a** nigger wouldn't die! I got tried of waiting. He was already eighty-four years old. That enough life for anybody! S*** people in his family live all up in their nineties, s*** he had a cousin that lived to be 107! I was sick of that nigga always up in my business, always quoting the Bible. Yea I killed de nigga. Shot him dead through the heart. I couldn't shot him in the head. He was old but he was still pretty. I had a handsome daddy.'

'Well here I am Lord. You know that I am never going to confess. I show ain't gon repent. Let the niggers suffer, serves them right for being so stupid. I still got my "roots" and I am going to "root" all of them until the day I die cause I'm smart and you can't catch me.'

And God said to me "Trust in God with all thine heart and lean not to your own understanding."

To readers of this blog. It is what it is, "Know ye the TRUTH..."

Get a Bible children and study it every day. Search the scripture.

Be Blessed and be a blessing. "Hold yourself up much as you can."

Much LOve, Peace, and Happiness,
Rachel

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Lying Lips

"He that hideth hatred with lying lips, and he that uttereth a slander is a fool." Proverbs 10:18

You poor foolish woman. Oozing with sweet syrupy words while lacerating your "loved ones" with foul wicked deeds.

Who did you think you were fooling?

"You put dat f****** bicycle outside! I don't want that s*** in my house!...Don't put it in the f****** storage room either! Nigga! I told you to lay that f****** bicycle up side de house! Hurry up nigga! S*** we got to go! Ain't nobody gon touch your f****** bicycle!"

What could he do? She was his mother, she had authority over him. They had a past. She had beaten him savagely many times in the past! What was the point? You weren't going to win.

There was no help for him. There was no help for us. My elderly grandfather did not dare interfere.

"Ain't nobody gon touch your f****** bycycle!"

We all knew that she was more than disturbed by the purchase of that ten speed Schwinn bicycle. It was the top of the line. My brother was very proud. It was the best present he had ever received in his fourteen years of life. Most of all it was precious because his loving grandfather had purchased it for him.

No one that knew her dared to lodge a protest. So we packed up her Cadillac and drove to Philadelphia to visit my Uncle XXX.

Sure enough, low and behold the bike was mysteriously missing upon our return.

"I didn't know dat XXX. I didn't know deze niggas wuz thieving...I'm sorry" she cooed mournfully.

What could he say, what could he do? The f****** slut struck again!

That's her, that's the notorious Mathy Jane. Slimy, sneaky, sour for no obvious reason.

Born tethered to her we got in line early, we learned the unspoken rules. Don't talk back, to quote her;"Don't you f****** think back nigger!" Don't protest, don't achieve, as a matter of fact become a worse f*** up than she was and you will be loved.

Her favorite children are the ones that get arrested repeatedly, drop out of school and give up on every thing they try.

Be pitiful, be whiny and weak and she'll love you. She will give you some of her ill gotten gain with minimal protest.

You prided yourself as an unstoppable monster. Inflicting pain was your greatest pleasure. Were you chasing that thrill? Were you trying to duplicate that orgasmic pleasure you enjoyed when you smashed that puppy?

It is unreal. How could such a monster be allowed to prey on the innocent for so long?

It's not God's fault. It is our fault for permitting her to violate us repeatedly.

A family of cowards? Perhaps. Maybe we are just ignorant. Or we are too proud, too stiff necked to tell.
"I'd take dat to my grave."; she taught us.
"You don't tell a muthaf****** thang dat go on in dis house!; was her mantra.

What is the truth? My mother, our mother is a Demon. A modern day Demon. Why are you so surprised? We hear about them everyday. Jeffery Dahmer, Charles Manson, Son of Sam, all monsters, all murderers.

All demons are not the same. They take different paths. Some are serial rapists, some become nurses and kill their patients. Some are very cowardly and simply enjoy terrorizing their own families.

They live dual lives. The saintly motherly preacher to the outside world and a cruel sadistic brute at home. Brilliant they do just enough dirt to be feared but slow down on their vicious treachery when they smell rebellion.

A brilliant tactician they keep their allies in check handing out token gifts of small amounts of money and big promises. They butter up and flatter all of their minions while they work feverishly to destroy that rebel, that critical thinker, that talker.

Well I am here to tell you that it will not work. "You shall proceed no further!" Your time is up Devil!

Repent of your sins. Fall prostrate on your knees and beg the Lord for forgiveness. Ask the Lord to come into your heart, to dwell there. Confess, apologize. Jesus is mighty to save. Step into your divine destiny. Claim your blessing. Honor God this day tomorrow may be too late.

Keep reading Proverbs children. Pay close attention to;
"He (She) that troubleth his own house shall inherit the wind: and the fool shall be servant to the wise of heart." Proverbs 11:29 "Every wise woman buildeth her house: but the foolish plucketh it down with her hands." Proverbs 14:1

Be Blessed. "Keep yourself up much as you can."

Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel