Monday, June 25, 2012
" We've come this far by faith...
leaning on the LORD..." I am still singing it. I can still hear it. No, the voices of Wesley A.M.E. Zion Chapel weren't that great. We only had a piano and some tamborines. But, the music was a symphony orchestra to me.
It was a little church but it had some prayed up sanctified members. No, not all, just some. All you need is some. One was my granddaddy, I'm proud to say. If you don't have a Jerome Walters in your life feel free to borrow from the proud legacy of mine.
I am a proud graduate of North Carolina A&T State University with honors because of him. I am a Coca-Cola Educator of the Year due to his influence. I am the proud mother of a brilliant Boston University graduate due totally to his wisdom and love.
Please don't let a dim-witted demon rob you of your legacy, of your inheritance. Please know that intelligence of the highest caliber runs in your family.
Just because there is an ancient demon still menacing and troubling in your family is no cause for you to give up or settle for less than your best.
You know what she told me one time? No she didn't tell me, she screamed it at the top of her lungs for hours. "YOU AIN'T S***!!!" I didn't know the ***** was jealous. She said it was because she loaned me $300 in September to buy my first car that she conveniently put totally in her name to rebuild her credit. (Because her too young gigolo husband finally escaped her demonic clutches). My own "mother" lacerated me with vile insults over and over because it was Christmas and she didn't want my s**** Christmas gifts.
I didn't know to tell her that she in fact was the one that wasn't s***! She was the one that had me violently raped by her husband. (fake stepfather) I didn't have sense enough to ask her why she had never given me one five cent piece to go to college. It never occurred to me that she was still affected by her fake college attendance. Granddaddy never reminded her of how she collected his hard earned tobacco farming income to pay for tuition to Virginia Union University that she no longer attended. She lied and faked, took his money and spent it on herself. Never had one qualm or sense of guilt or regret. Granddaddy never told me that, never mentioned it. She told me that herself.
She screamed that I wasn't s***. Did a part of me believe it? I must have because I spent the majority of my life trying to please her, trying to honor her. I spent my whole life holding and hiding her secrets. She was a crook and she was a whore, but that was her business. She secretly hated everyone she knew. She hated my uncle. I never told. There is not one person in my family that she doesn't secretly hate and have a vendetta against.
It was only when GOD hit me upside the head like a thunderbolt that I came to. She went too far in her demon treachery. GOD finally opened my eyes and my ears. Why was I blind so long? I could not believe it! There was no way on GOD's green earth any woman could be so cruel, so vile, so common. Yes, I saw her using "roots". But, it never occurred to me that she would be low enough, common enough to use them on me. No woman would use witchcraft against her own family! Not, and call herself a preacher. No one who loved the LORD as much as claimed could do so many evil despicable things so often. Every day was tragic and painful due to her. You see Mathy Jane came up with a magic scheme, a magic formula. She could do any and everything she pleased. She could commit every lustful common act known to man and get away unscathed. All she had to do was involve you, twist your little simple mind. Call you black and ugly, tell you that you weren't s***. And she could get clean away. She could use her guile and charm to mesmerize all you simpletons. There was no way that Mathy Jane was ever going to lose. "I can't lose for the stuff I use and you can't win for the fix you in."
Look at her, 86 without a care in the world. You invited her to the family reunion. I know you did. You will proudly pose with her and post your pictures on facebook. You will continue to call her the Queen, bow and scrape to her because you have eyes that do not see, ears that cannot hear. GOD has yet to slap you upside the head with His thunderbolt.
Everyday I lived, we lived, we were doomed to be her narcissistic supply. She will never be wrong. Nothing will ever be her fault. She will continue to tell you her magic lies. Everyone in her life will have to bear her guilt and shame. She will pretend to love you until she is lowered into her dirty little grave. She will die perfect. She will die with all of her lies still on her lips. Some will still love her.
Jesus will say; "Get thee behind me Satan. I never knew you." I will keep singing; "We've come this far by faith.."
Be blessed children. Claim your great legacy. That toothless demon can't hurt you any more. Her "roots" can't work. She has been found out. She is weighed in the balances and she is found wanting. Do pray for her salvation. In Christ Jesus' name I pray, Rachel Gwendolyn.
It was a little church but it had some prayed up sanctified members. No, not all, just some. All you need is some. One was my granddaddy, I'm proud to say. If you don't have a Jerome Walters in your life feel free to borrow from the proud legacy of mine.
I am a proud graduate of North Carolina A&T State University with honors because of him. I am a Coca-Cola Educator of the Year due to his influence. I am the proud mother of a brilliant Boston University graduate due totally to his wisdom and love.
Please don't let a dim-witted demon rob you of your legacy, of your inheritance. Please know that intelligence of the highest caliber runs in your family.
Just because there is an ancient demon still menacing and troubling in your family is no cause for you to give up or settle for less than your best.
You know what she told me one time? No she didn't tell me, she screamed it at the top of her lungs for hours. "YOU AIN'T S***!!!" I didn't know the ***** was jealous. She said it was because she loaned me $300 in September to buy my first car that she conveniently put totally in her name to rebuild her credit. (Because her too young gigolo husband finally escaped her demonic clutches). My own "mother" lacerated me with vile insults over and over because it was Christmas and she didn't want my s**** Christmas gifts.
I didn't know to tell her that she in fact was the one that wasn't s***! She was the one that had me violently raped by her husband. (fake stepfather) I didn't have sense enough to ask her why she had never given me one five cent piece to go to college. It never occurred to me that she was still affected by her fake college attendance. Granddaddy never reminded her of how she collected his hard earned tobacco farming income to pay for tuition to Virginia Union University that she no longer attended. She lied and faked, took his money and spent it on herself. Never had one qualm or sense of guilt or regret. Granddaddy never told me that, never mentioned it. She told me that herself.
She screamed that I wasn't s***. Did a part of me believe it? I must have because I spent the majority of my life trying to please her, trying to honor her. I spent my whole life holding and hiding her secrets. She was a crook and she was a whore, but that was her business. She secretly hated everyone she knew. She hated my uncle. I never told. There is not one person in my family that she doesn't secretly hate and have a vendetta against.
It was only when GOD hit me upside the head like a thunderbolt that I came to. She went too far in her demon treachery. GOD finally opened my eyes and my ears. Why was I blind so long? I could not believe it! There was no way on GOD's green earth any woman could be so cruel, so vile, so common. Yes, I saw her using "roots". But, it never occurred to me that she would be low enough, common enough to use them on me. No woman would use witchcraft against her own family! Not, and call herself a preacher. No one who loved the LORD as much as claimed could do so many evil despicable things so often. Every day was tragic and painful due to her. You see Mathy Jane came up with a magic scheme, a magic formula. She could do any and everything she pleased. She could commit every lustful common act known to man and get away unscathed. All she had to do was involve you, twist your little simple mind. Call you black and ugly, tell you that you weren't s***. And she could get clean away. She could use her guile and charm to mesmerize all you simpletons. There was no way that Mathy Jane was ever going to lose. "I can't lose for the stuff I use and you can't win for the fix you in."
Look at her, 86 without a care in the world. You invited her to the family reunion. I know you did. You will proudly pose with her and post your pictures on facebook. You will continue to call her the Queen, bow and scrape to her because you have eyes that do not see, ears that cannot hear. GOD has yet to slap you upside the head with His thunderbolt.
Everyday I lived, we lived, we were doomed to be her narcissistic supply. She will never be wrong. Nothing will ever be her fault. She will continue to tell you her magic lies. Everyone in her life will have to bear her guilt and shame. She will pretend to love you until she is lowered into her dirty little grave. She will die perfect. She will die with all of her lies still on her lips. Some will still love her.
Jesus will say; "Get thee behind me Satan. I never knew you." I will keep singing; "We've come this far by faith.."
Be blessed children. Claim your great legacy. That toothless demon can't hurt you any more. Her "roots" can't work. She has been found out. She is weighed in the balances and she is found wanting. Do pray for her salvation. In Christ Jesus' name I pray, Rachel Gwendolyn.
I WILL NOT BE ROBBED!
I will not be broken and utterly destroyed as you wish. I will not be your stepping stone or proof that you are somebody. You can not take my brain, my eyes or my ears. Blind Ray Charles can see from the grave that you are a common deceitful manipulative conniving greedy selfish woman, who had the audacity to try to replicate herself through her children.
A woman too stubborn, wicked and depraved to own up to her responsibility or admit one single mistake. I don't have to be foolish because you are. I don't have to live in fear because you are a terrorist.
I will not be robbed of my inheritance by a dim-witted demon. I know who I am and whose I am.
"But ye are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, an holy nation, a peculiar people; that ye should show forth the praises of Him who hath called you out of darkness into His marvelous light:" (1 Peter 2:9)
Remember we are engaged in Spiritual warfare. The enemy wants you to abandon your inheritance, your great legacy. That demon wants you depending on the meager crumbs from her table. The stingy ***** teases you with a few token fleeting "gifts". She will give you something wrapped in an insult, packaged in defeat and self loathing. She will make you feel about an inch tall, remind you that your life didn't turn out so well. She will make you think that she is laughing with you when in fact she is laughing at you. She will tear you down with her two edged tongue. She can't help it. She is jealous. You can never fall low enough for her. She wants you under her feet. Tell her that it is impossible. She saddled you with her darkest sin. You are forgiven. You were a child, it is not your fault. Don't think you share any secrets with her. She ran ahead of you, told every one your secrets and laughed. No, she left out all the parts that involved her. Do know she gleefully told about your past, your indescretions. If you didn't do anything dark enough to shame you with, she lied.
Don't ever forget, she is a backstabber. A low common one, one that stabs you in the back repeatedly, twisting it. She can't get her daggers deep enough while she laughs in your face, hugging and kissing you. Pretending to care and love you.
WARNING! Any person that could coldly, violently , maliciously with forethought and malice, take the life of her saintly father is not to be trusted EVER!
What is her defense? A lame "Why I do dat?" While still bragging she tried to kill him when she was sixteen! You know the many horrible sins she committed against you. You can wait on the ***** to die. I won't! I refuse to be held hostage by her horrible unbearable deeds. I want no part of her. I wish I could rip her terrible memory out of my brain.
I can read *****! I can think. I do have good sense. My some times very tragic life has taught me a few things:
#1 - Never wait on the world to validate you. Let GOD place His stamp of approval on you.
#2 - Some people are pure garbage. Just stank evil. You can try to help them and lift them up if you want to. They will only pull you down into that filthy pit with them. Jesus told you to shun them. I suggest you listen to Jesus. You can put lipstick on a sow. She will still be a sow, not a prom queen.
#3 - GOD will do just what He said. He will keep every promise. He will never leave or forsake you. He will deliver you from all evil if you ask Him. If you pray, if you seek His face.
#4 - What is done in the dark shall surely come to light. It might come kicking and screaming and denying, but it is coming.
#5 - Some demons will fight GOD's Almighty truth to their dying day. That's pride. GOD told us about such people.
As for me I am going to sing in the sunshine. I am going to salvage what is left of my life and enjoy it. I am abundantly blessed. I am anointed and appointed to tell GOD's Truth and I am telling. If you can't receive it, that's on you. If you want to continue to be held hostage by her lies and manipulation, that's on you. If you claim you love her and you are foolish enough to believe that she loves or cares one wit about you, you are dumber than I thought.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster, (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
A woman too stubborn, wicked and depraved to own up to her responsibility or admit one single mistake. I don't have to be foolish because you are. I don't have to live in fear because you are a terrorist.
I will not be robbed of my inheritance by a dim-witted demon. I know who I am and whose I am.
"But ye are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, an holy nation, a peculiar people; that ye should show forth the praises of Him who hath called you out of darkness into His marvelous light:" (1 Peter 2:9)
Remember we are engaged in Spiritual warfare. The enemy wants you to abandon your inheritance, your great legacy. That demon wants you depending on the meager crumbs from her table. The stingy ***** teases you with a few token fleeting "gifts". She will give you something wrapped in an insult, packaged in defeat and self loathing. She will make you feel about an inch tall, remind you that your life didn't turn out so well. She will make you think that she is laughing with you when in fact she is laughing at you. She will tear you down with her two edged tongue. She can't help it. She is jealous. You can never fall low enough for her. She wants you under her feet. Tell her that it is impossible. She saddled you with her darkest sin. You are forgiven. You were a child, it is not your fault. Don't think you share any secrets with her. She ran ahead of you, told every one your secrets and laughed. No, she left out all the parts that involved her. Do know she gleefully told about your past, your indescretions. If you didn't do anything dark enough to shame you with, she lied.
Don't ever forget, she is a backstabber. A low common one, one that stabs you in the back repeatedly, twisting it. She can't get her daggers deep enough while she laughs in your face, hugging and kissing you. Pretending to care and love you.
WARNING! Any person that could coldly, violently , maliciously with forethought and malice, take the life of her saintly father is not to be trusted EVER!
What is her defense? A lame "Why I do dat?" While still bragging she tried to kill him when she was sixteen! You know the many horrible sins she committed against you. You can wait on the ***** to die. I won't! I refuse to be held hostage by her horrible unbearable deeds. I want no part of her. I wish I could rip her terrible memory out of my brain.
I can read *****! I can think. I do have good sense. My some times very tragic life has taught me a few things:
#1 - Never wait on the world to validate you. Let GOD place His stamp of approval on you.
#2 - Some people are pure garbage. Just stank evil. You can try to help them and lift them up if you want to. They will only pull you down into that filthy pit with them. Jesus told you to shun them. I suggest you listen to Jesus. You can put lipstick on a sow. She will still be a sow, not a prom queen.
#3 - GOD will do just what He said. He will keep every promise. He will never leave or forsake you. He will deliver you from all evil if you ask Him. If you pray, if you seek His face.
#4 - What is done in the dark shall surely come to light. It might come kicking and screaming and denying, but it is coming.
#5 - Some demons will fight GOD's Almighty truth to their dying day. That's pride. GOD told us about such people.
As for me I am going to sing in the sunshine. I am going to salvage what is left of my life and enjoy it. I am abundantly blessed. I am anointed and appointed to tell GOD's Truth and I am telling. If you can't receive it, that's on you. If you want to continue to be held hostage by her lies and manipulation, that's on you. If you claim you love her and you are foolish enough to believe that she loves or cares one wit about you, you are dumber than I thought.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster, (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Sunday, June 24, 2012
It is very hard
to remember and even harder to understand. "We war not against flesh and blood. We are engaged in spiritual warfare." Truly it is a war of good and evil, of Holy and demonic. You look at that person standing in the flesh. Cursing you, cussing you, tricking and manipulating you and you grow weary and exasperated. "Why are you so evil?" ;you scream! "Why are you so corrupt and carnal? " " How can you do such sick demented things and not care? " When you find such behavior in another human being do know that person is possessed with a demonic spirit.
It is hard to believe but the person you seek, the person you look for is not there. She can not hear or heed you because she is in fact an aberration. She is no longer here. Her soul is lost. She lost her soul too soon, a willful wayward girl of sixteen.
There is a lesson to be learned here. Love GOD first! Honor GOD in all that you do. Never believe there is a shortcut to success. And never, never engage in witchcraft. Be mortally afraid to solicit evil spirits.
If you ever find yourself engulfed in evil, pray. Pray and fast. If you know someone that is lost, pray for them. Fast for them. Pray for their return. Pray for their salvation. You will be hated. So what? You are going to be hated regardless. Make sure you know you don't have to go down in their ship. Do not count yourself as "kin". GOD absolves you of that "kinship".
Mourn for her, admonish her, but do not follow her into the captivity she volunteered to go into.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
It is hard to believe but the person you seek, the person you look for is not there. She can not hear or heed you because she is in fact an aberration. She is no longer here. Her soul is lost. She lost her soul too soon, a willful wayward girl of sixteen.
There is a lesson to be learned here. Love GOD first! Honor GOD in all that you do. Never believe there is a shortcut to success. And never, never engage in witchcraft. Be mortally afraid to solicit evil spirits.
If you ever find yourself engulfed in evil, pray. Pray and fast. If you know someone that is lost, pray for them. Fast for them. Pray for their return. Pray for their salvation. You will be hated. So what? You are going to be hated regardless. Make sure you know you don't have to go down in their ship. Do not count yourself as "kin". GOD absolves you of that "kinship".
Mourn for her, admonish her, but do not follow her into the captivity she volunteered to go into.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
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