"This is the day the LORD hath made, rejoice and be glad in it!" Take heart, smile, radiate. Let the love of the LORD Jesus Christ beam in your heart. No matter what this world tells you, you are not forsaken. The "old black church" reminds you; "He may not come when you want Him but He is always right on time."
The Bible teaches us, prepares us for, "long suffering". Believe me, that is no understatement. "But let not your heart be troubled." Get up, shine, put a song in your heart and do all the good GOD has planted in your heart to do.
GOD is moving by His Spirit and He is rectifying some wrongs. "No jail time in beating of priest" today's headline read. "Suspect cites trauma from being molested when he was a boy. By Terry Collins Associated Press San Jose, Calif. - A jury acquitted a man Thursday of assaulting a priest he says molested him more than three decades ago during a camping trip and left him tormented memories that led to alcohol abuse, depression and suicide attempts."
I am excited and encouraged by that man's victory. No, the priest is still free. He remains "unindicted", elderly and free as a bird. But, he is "outed". These demons will still crowd up in the "church", pull the wool over the eyes of the gullible and uncaring.
They will not win. These reprobates do not commit their sick acts for sexual pleasure. They do it to rob and to ruin. Selfish and rebellious, they lost their way long ago an insist that the rest of the world rot in their hell. You can if you want to. I choose to sing in the sunshine!
Stay in His Word children. Remember;"Apart from Christ you are nothing."
Do know that GOD will make a way out of no way. Be abundantly blessed today and dare to bless someone else.
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Friday, July 6, 2012
Thursday, July 5, 2012
Somebody lied to you!
No one is that good looking. You are not that good a liar and you are not fierce enough. Your conjure is not good enough.
Who told you that you could do just what you pleased to who ever you pleased when you pleased? Who told you your hissy fits, screaming tantrums and fake tears would get you off? You claimed you could never find a good man. Well, sister, you have to be a good woman in order to find a good man. You claimed you could never find a good friend. You must be a good friend in order to have good friends. You insist that every one keep your secrets while you put every one's life on blast.
You pretend your hatred for me is new. You hated me in the womb! You are not upset that I finally noticed, finally found the courage to make an utterance. You are mad because I had the nerve to complain. Bothering you with my feelings. Me a nothing, a blood clot, a dirty dishrag. Something you wished you disposed of long ago. Something not fitting for you to wipe your feet on. You are not sorry. But, you are raving mad that I finally told.
How dare you! How dare you be common enough to ruin my life from infancy! A full grown woman could not handle the awful sexual abuse you afflicted upon me. We are not going to discuss the physical, psychological or emotional abuse right now.
Pretending that you are mad because I exposed you for being common. Knowing full well that you are common, have always been common and most importantly you are common because that is your choice.
The fact is, it is not my abuse that worries me. It is the fact that you MURDERED my grandfather, got away with it and NO ONE IN MY FAMILY SEEMS TO CARE. Maybe they do care. I don't know. Perhaps they are still in disbelief. You are too horrifying to know, to recognize.
You won't get away. You will not repent and you will rot in hell. I am so glad I found out in time.
GOD is moving by His Spirit. Make sure you know that. Don't you dare doubt for one second. GOD's eye is on YOU!
Who told you that you could do just what you pleased to who ever you pleased when you pleased? Who told you your hissy fits, screaming tantrums and fake tears would get you off? You claimed you could never find a good man. Well, sister, you have to be a good woman in order to find a good man. You claimed you could never find a good friend. You must be a good friend in order to have good friends. You insist that every one keep your secrets while you put every one's life on blast.
You pretend your hatred for me is new. You hated me in the womb! You are not upset that I finally noticed, finally found the courage to make an utterance. You are mad because I had the nerve to complain. Bothering you with my feelings. Me a nothing, a blood clot, a dirty dishrag. Something you wished you disposed of long ago. Something not fitting for you to wipe your feet on. You are not sorry. But, you are raving mad that I finally told.
How dare you! How dare you be common enough to ruin my life from infancy! A full grown woman could not handle the awful sexual abuse you afflicted upon me. We are not going to discuss the physical, psychological or emotional abuse right now.
Pretending that you are mad because I exposed you for being common. Knowing full well that you are common, have always been common and most importantly you are common because that is your choice.
The fact is, it is not my abuse that worries me. It is the fact that you MURDERED my grandfather, got away with it and NO ONE IN MY FAMILY SEEMS TO CARE. Maybe they do care. I don't know. Perhaps they are still in disbelief. You are too horrifying to know, to recognize.
You won't get away. You will not repent and you will rot in hell. I am so glad I found out in time.
GOD is moving by His Spirit. Make sure you know that. Don't you dare doubt for one second. GOD's eye is on YOU!
Stockholm Syndrome
Stockholm Syndrome, that's it, that's what we have. "Stockholm syndrome is a psychological phenomenon in which hostages express empathy and have positive feelings towards their captors, sometimes to the point of defending them. ...victims who essentially mistake lack of abuse from their captors for an act of kindness."
That is it, exactly and precisely. Born into the clutches of a fiercely evil demon possessed manipulative cunning whore we never had an iota of a chance.
We watched the parade of men and women come and go. Most fled, left everything, just happy to escape alive. A vile bully whose only desire is to pulverize, emasculate and ruin. She must keep on that mask, keep up that phony persona, or no one in their right mind would come near her.
We were helpless children with no father in evidence. What could we do? Men, do your part. Don't lay down with a demonic whore. If you do don't impregnate her. If she bears your seed, take it. Save it from the horrible torture she is sure to inflict.
I escaped. No, I am not yet whole, but I am healing. I will continue to warn you as long as I live. I will warn you because my love is real. I want to see you prosper and flourish. I want you to be all you can be.
Stay in His WORD children. Pray for deliverance from evil. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
That is it, exactly and precisely. Born into the clutches of a fiercely evil demon possessed manipulative cunning whore we never had an iota of a chance.
We watched the parade of men and women come and go. Most fled, left everything, just happy to escape alive. A vile bully whose only desire is to pulverize, emasculate and ruin. She must keep on that mask, keep up that phony persona, or no one in their right mind would come near her.
We were helpless children with no father in evidence. What could we do? Men, do your part. Don't lay down with a demonic whore. If you do don't impregnate her. If she bears your seed, take it. Save it from the horrible torture she is sure to inflict.
I escaped. No, I am not yet whole, but I am healing. I will continue to warn you as long as I live. I will warn you because my love is real. I want to see you prosper and flourish. I want you to be all you can be.
Stay in His WORD children. Pray for deliverance from evil. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Just the facts!
Let's face it, there are some people (too many) on this earth that are so rank with vile hatred they don't want any one to experience any form of joy in their lives.
There are some women that will get up very early in the morning (5 or 6 a.m.) and rail and curse all day for no reason. "WHAT BLACK MUTHF*****LEFT DIS MUTHF******* DIRTY GLASS ON DUH MUTHAF****** COUNTER! I HATE DUH DAY I HAD ANY OF YOU SORRY A**BLACK MUTHAF****** N*****!!!) She would carry on like that until sleep overtook her well after midnight.
What did that teach us? Don't make "Mother" mad. Be perfect, be quiet, don't tell, kiss her a**, humble yourself.
I know now what riled her, what secret sins terrified her. She should have directed that vile, foul temper on her common self. Determined that she was going to have life her way she resorted to "witchcraft". She actually believes she perfected it. Too dumb, blind and deaf to know that she lost miserably.
She lost when she was winning. I could not have been a better daughter, showering her with gifts, love and attention that she did not deserve. She had to work roots on me again. Just had to hit me another lick. The joy from all of her other deeds had worn off.
I was too happy. My life was going to well. She tried to slip up on me. Her game was too old. "He gon' lose dat house!" She declared knowing full well the power of the tongue. Why pick on that poor son? When was this poor boy ever going to win? "He came heah wid dat white woman... she thought she was so pretty... he went back to Germany wid her..she quit his black a**"
That illegitimate bastard son will never know any happiness if she can block it.
You will not know any form of happiness tethered to her. Hug her if you dare. You feel like you are hugging a rock. Something about her loving compliments and declarations of her undying love rings hollow. Why does she hate so many people? Love/hate. Love/hate. She loves you one minute, hates you the next. She loves you when you have to come to her on your knees begging. She will broadcast your plight to anyone that will listen. Tell her of your good fortune and watch her expression change.
She claims that none of her children have good sense. She is right. She knows why. Jesus said:"From such stay away."
There are some women that will get up very early in the morning (5 or 6 a.m.) and rail and curse all day for no reason. "WHAT BLACK MUTHF*****LEFT DIS MUTHF******* DIRTY GLASS ON DUH MUTHAF****** COUNTER! I HATE DUH DAY I HAD ANY OF YOU SORRY A**BLACK MUTHAF****** N*****!!!) She would carry on like that until sleep overtook her well after midnight.
What did that teach us? Don't make "Mother" mad. Be perfect, be quiet, don't tell, kiss her a**, humble yourself.
I know now what riled her, what secret sins terrified her. She should have directed that vile, foul temper on her common self. Determined that she was going to have life her way she resorted to "witchcraft". She actually believes she perfected it. Too dumb, blind and deaf to know that she lost miserably.
She lost when she was winning. I could not have been a better daughter, showering her with gifts, love and attention that she did not deserve. She had to work roots on me again. Just had to hit me another lick. The joy from all of her other deeds had worn off.
I was too happy. My life was going to well. She tried to slip up on me. Her game was too old. "He gon' lose dat house!" She declared knowing full well the power of the tongue. Why pick on that poor son? When was this poor boy ever going to win? "He came heah wid dat white woman... she thought she was so pretty... he went back to Germany wid her..she quit his black a**"
That illegitimate bastard son will never know any happiness if she can block it.
You will not know any form of happiness tethered to her. Hug her if you dare. You feel like you are hugging a rock. Something about her loving compliments and declarations of her undying love rings hollow. Why does she hate so many people? Love/hate. Love/hate. She loves you one minute, hates you the next. She loves you when you have to come to her on your knees begging. She will broadcast your plight to anyone that will listen. Tell her of your good fortune and watch her expression change.
She claims that none of her children have good sense. She is right. She knows why. Jesus said:"From such stay away."
Wednesday, July 4, 2012
JUDAS GOAT
I taught in the public school system for thirty years. In the last few years of my tenure I was surprised by the number of students that were unaware of that term. I had to explain to them that a "Judas Goat" was a goat used to lead sheep to slaughter. Dumb blind simple sheep fell into line and went to their deaths, slaughter, never realizing where they were going or why.
Of course the name Judas comes from Judas Iscariot , the disciple that fell prey to Satan and betrayed Jesus for thirty pieces of silver.
Our world is crawling with "Judas Goats", people that deliberately lead the simple, blind, deaf and dumb into captivity, to their "slaughter".
We have no excuse. We have the Bible, we have GOD's WORD. If you are too lazy to read it, to study it for yourself you have no one to blame when you find yourself rotting in some pit. If you are satisfied with just existing and not living, shivering in fear, feeling threatened by a toothless 86 year old monster because she enslaved you from infancy. You have no one to blame but yourself. Let go of her! She can't hold you. She is too weak. Her sick demonic scheme has been fully exposed.
There is a "Judas Goat" in my family. She is rank with sin and cruelty. She is a terrorist. You will not tell on her! You will not criticize her. Your job is to honor her and to pretend that she is something that she isn't. She plays the part of a "preacher", a matriarch. She is a frightening cruel woman. She is a ravenous wolf just as Jesus described.
FAMILY! Do what you feel, do what you must. As for me I will honor GOD. I will honor JEROME WALTERS! I would have been some uneducated maggot crawling around in a crack den without his influence in my life. I will not pretend some blood thirsty lying demon possessed fake wanna-be-preacher is more than what she is. I will not fear her witchcraft. I do not care about what the world thinks. I will not wait on her to die. She let me know loudly and clearly how she feels and always felt about me. World, you don't know pain until you find yourself in the clutches of a sick depraved demon that only pretends to love you just so she can slay you. Rank with the cruelest hatred and the sickest schemes she will not give up. Demanding to watch you suffer up close and personal she insists on playing "loving mother". You know to RUN but you can't. You are in disbelief. Impossible! This must be a very bad dream, a nightmare.
SHE'S MY MOTHER! SHE'S MY MOTHER! explodes in your head. NO ONE IS THAT CRUEL! NO ONE IS THAT CRUEL! ricochets in your brain . You stuffed down all of the cruel deeds until one day they finally surfaced. GOD put it together for you. You finally accepted the awful truth that she MURDERED your grandfather. You finally understood why she mailed you a turd, tried to deafen your infant daughter. You listened while she laughed at everyone's pain. She pretends that you are the only one that she loves. She justifies her secret hatred for everyone in your family. Your uncle called her a 'ho once. Your brother abandoned her for twenty-five years. Your other brother called her a bitch once. The other brother became a Panamanian. One brother is a hopeless drunk. One brother is a liar just like his father. Her father is the cause of her getting pregnant at sixteen. On and on. She is beautiful, she is brilliant, she is prefect. You are nothing "wid yo' broke a**".
All you know is there is no greater sin than telling on Mathy. "KEEP MY NAME OUT'CHA MUTHAF***** MOUF!" Why? So the world will never know? So the church will never know? So her neighbors and friends will never know? Be her human sacrifice. She taught you that you are nothing. She did the best she could. You are just a "luddle black bastard!" Shut up and suffer!
GOD revealed her to me. GOD saved me from her wrath. She will not come to repentance and I will not lie and cloak for her. I will not turn my head, close my eyes, or keep my mouth shut. I will give honor to who honor is due. FAMILY you do what you must. "Let your conscious be your guide" (Jerome Walters)
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Of course the name Judas comes from Judas Iscariot , the disciple that fell prey to Satan and betrayed Jesus for thirty pieces of silver.
Our world is crawling with "Judas Goats", people that deliberately lead the simple, blind, deaf and dumb into captivity, to their "slaughter".
We have no excuse. We have the Bible, we have GOD's WORD. If you are too lazy to read it, to study it for yourself you have no one to blame when you find yourself rotting in some pit. If you are satisfied with just existing and not living, shivering in fear, feeling threatened by a toothless 86 year old monster because she enslaved you from infancy. You have no one to blame but yourself. Let go of her! She can't hold you. She is too weak. Her sick demonic scheme has been fully exposed.
There is a "Judas Goat" in my family. She is rank with sin and cruelty. She is a terrorist. You will not tell on her! You will not criticize her. Your job is to honor her and to pretend that she is something that she isn't. She plays the part of a "preacher", a matriarch. She is a frightening cruel woman. She is a ravenous wolf just as Jesus described.
FAMILY! Do what you feel, do what you must. As for me I will honor GOD. I will honor JEROME WALTERS! I would have been some uneducated maggot crawling around in a crack den without his influence in my life. I will not pretend some blood thirsty lying demon possessed fake wanna-be-preacher is more than what she is. I will not fear her witchcraft. I do not care about what the world thinks. I will not wait on her to die. She let me know loudly and clearly how she feels and always felt about me. World, you don't know pain until you find yourself in the clutches of a sick depraved demon that only pretends to love you just so she can slay you. Rank with the cruelest hatred and the sickest schemes she will not give up. Demanding to watch you suffer up close and personal she insists on playing "loving mother". You know to RUN but you can't. You are in disbelief. Impossible! This must be a very bad dream, a nightmare.
SHE'S MY MOTHER! SHE'S MY MOTHER! explodes in your head. NO ONE IS THAT CRUEL! NO ONE IS THAT CRUEL! ricochets in your brain . You stuffed down all of the cruel deeds until one day they finally surfaced. GOD put it together for you. You finally accepted the awful truth that she MURDERED your grandfather. You finally understood why she mailed you a turd, tried to deafen your infant daughter. You listened while she laughed at everyone's pain. She pretends that you are the only one that she loves. She justifies her secret hatred for everyone in your family. Your uncle called her a 'ho once. Your brother abandoned her for twenty-five years. Your other brother called her a bitch once. The other brother became a Panamanian. One brother is a hopeless drunk. One brother is a liar just like his father. Her father is the cause of her getting pregnant at sixteen. On and on. She is beautiful, she is brilliant, she is prefect. You are nothing "wid yo' broke a**".
All you know is there is no greater sin than telling on Mathy. "KEEP MY NAME OUT'CHA MUTHAF***** MOUF!" Why? So the world will never know? So the church will never know? So her neighbors and friends will never know? Be her human sacrifice. She taught you that you are nothing. She did the best she could. You are just a "luddle black bastard!" Shut up and suffer!
GOD revealed her to me. GOD saved me from her wrath. She will not come to repentance and I will not lie and cloak for her. I will not turn my head, close my eyes, or keep my mouth shut. I will give honor to who honor is due. FAMILY you do what you must. "Let your conscious be your guide" (Jerome Walters)
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Tuesday, July 3, 2012
Oh yea!
You might get by, but you won't get away. No one on this earth is smart enough, pretty enough , arrogant enough to think they can turn GOD's Truth into a lie. You knew when you did it that you would be known. You didn't care. You could not care because the love for Christ did not burn in your heart.
You demanded to be a reprobate. You couldn't wait. You started early. The devil you serve told you that you could be a successful thief. You became a god in your own mind. You demanded to be feared, worshipped and kept secret.
Why would I keep you a secret? Why would I worship you? Why would anyone worship or revere you? A person would have to be terribly brutalized and dehumanized to look up to you. A man would have to be totally emasculated by you to love you. You would have to start your demonic plot very early in their enslaved tortured lives.
You are caught. You eyes reveal the fact that you know your awful truth. GOD prophesied that your pride would prevent you from being saved. I pray to GOD that many will read my story and refuse to follow you into captivity.
You laughed that hideous laugh and truly thought you were winning. No one would ever be smart enough to figure you out. That "preaching" was the perfect ploy. Who could ever catch on? You thought you fooled GOD Himself didn't you?
Your daddy told you every day; "Apart from Christ you are nothing." That truth riled you. You were determined to prove him wrong. You think you got away with the perfect murder, the perfect perverted life. It was so easy, you thought. You turned 86 and thought you had it made. You tricked others and Satan tricked you.
Is there yet a way out? Yes. Repentance. Is it still too high a price to pay? Are you still too beautiful, too "yalla and good haired"? Are you still smarter than GOD? Will go down on that graveyard again looking for the right demonic spirit? Can you find and mix the right combination of "goofer dust"? Will your "Lost Book of Moses" save you? Is there a spell or incantation that will deliver you? Can you continue to convince your family that your daughter is a deranged fool? Will you continue to feign remorse and repentance to your family while you continue to hate and curse your daughter? Will you continue to blame the men you wronged for your down fall?
I will continue to pray for you and women like you. I will continue to warn as many as I can about you.
I thank GOD every day for my journey, for my truth and for my delivery. PRAISE THE LORD!
You demanded to be a reprobate. You couldn't wait. You started early. The devil you serve told you that you could be a successful thief. You became a god in your own mind. You demanded to be feared, worshipped and kept secret.
Why would I keep you a secret? Why would I worship you? Why would anyone worship or revere you? A person would have to be terribly brutalized and dehumanized to look up to you. A man would have to be totally emasculated by you to love you. You would have to start your demonic plot very early in their enslaved tortured lives.
You are caught. You eyes reveal the fact that you know your awful truth. GOD prophesied that your pride would prevent you from being saved. I pray to GOD that many will read my story and refuse to follow you into captivity.
You laughed that hideous laugh and truly thought you were winning. No one would ever be smart enough to figure you out. That "preaching" was the perfect ploy. Who could ever catch on? You thought you fooled GOD Himself didn't you?
Your daddy told you every day; "Apart from Christ you are nothing." That truth riled you. You were determined to prove him wrong. You think you got away with the perfect murder, the perfect perverted life. It was so easy, you thought. You turned 86 and thought you had it made. You tricked others and Satan tricked you.
Is there yet a way out? Yes. Repentance. Is it still too high a price to pay? Are you still too beautiful, too "yalla and good haired"? Are you still smarter than GOD? Will go down on that graveyard again looking for the right demonic spirit? Can you find and mix the right combination of "goofer dust"? Will your "Lost Book of Moses" save you? Is there a spell or incantation that will deliver you? Can you continue to convince your family that your daughter is a deranged fool? Will you continue to feign remorse and repentance to your family while you continue to hate and curse your daughter? Will you continue to blame the men you wronged for your down fall?
I will continue to pray for you and women like you. I will continue to warn as many as I can about you.
I thank GOD every day for my journey, for my truth and for my delivery. PRAISE THE LORD!
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