JUDAS GOAT

I taught in the public school system for thirty years.  In the last few years of my tenure I was surprised by the number of students that were unaware of that term. I had to explain to them that a "Judas Goat" was a goat used to lead sheep to slaughter.  Dumb blind simple sheep fell into line and went to their deaths, slaughter, never realizing where they were going or why.

Of course the name Judas comes from Judas Iscariot , the disciple that fell prey to Satan and betrayed Jesus for thirty pieces of silver.

Our world is crawling with "Judas Goats", people that deliberately lead the simple, blind, deaf and dumb into captivity, to their "slaughter".

We have no excuse.  We have the Bible, we have GOD's WORD.  If you are too lazy to read it, to study it for yourself you have no one to blame when you find yourself rotting in some pit.  If you are satisfied with just existing and not living, shivering in fear, feeling threatened by a toothless 86 year old monster because she enslaved you from infancy.  You have no one to blame but yourself.  Let go of her!  She can't hold you.  She is too weak.  Her sick demonic scheme has been fully exposed.

There is a "Judas Goat" in my family.  She is rank with sin and cruelty. She is a terrorist.  You will not tell on her!  You will not criticize her.  Your job is to honor her and to pretend that she is something that she isn't.  She plays the part of a "preacher", a matriarch.  She is a frightening cruel woman.  She is a ravenous wolf just as Jesus described.

FAMILY!  Do what you feel, do what you must.  As for me I will honor GOD.  I will honor JEROME WALTERS!  I would have been some uneducated maggot crawling around in a crack den without his influence in my life.  I will not pretend some blood thirsty lying demon possessed fake wanna-be-preacher is more than what she is.  I will not fear her witchcraft.  I do not care about what the world thinks.  I will not wait on her to die.  She let me know loudly and clearly how she feels and always felt about me.  World, you don't know pain until you find yourself in the clutches of a sick depraved demon that only pretends to love you just so she can slay you.  Rank with the cruelest hatred and the sickest schemes she will not give up.  Demanding to watch you suffer up close and personal she insists on playing "loving mother".  You know to RUN but you can't.  You are in disbelief.  Impossible!  This must be a very bad dream, a nightmare.

SHE'S MY MOTHER! SHE'S MY MOTHER! explodes in your head.  NO ONE IS THAT CRUEL! NO ONE IS THAT CRUEL! ricochets in your brain .  You stuffed down all of the cruel deeds until one day they finally surfaced.  GOD put it together for you.  You finally accepted the awful truth that she MURDERED your grandfather.  You finally understood why she mailed you a turd, tried to deafen your infant daughter.  You listened while she laughed at everyone's pain.  She pretends that you are the only one that she loves.  She justifies her secret hatred for everyone in your family.  Your uncle called her a 'ho once.  Your brother abandoned her for twenty-five years.  Your other brother called her a bitch once.  The other brother became a Panamanian.  One brother is a hopeless drunk.  One brother is a liar just like his father.  Her father is the cause of her getting pregnant at sixteen. On and on.  She is beautiful, she is brilliant, she is prefect.  You are nothing "wid yo' broke a**".

All you know is there is no greater sin than telling on Mathy.  "KEEP MY NAME OUT'CHA MUTHAF***** MOUF!" Why?  So the world will never know?  So the church will never know?  So her neighbors and friends will never know?  Be her human sacrifice.  She taught you that you are nothing.  She did the best she could.  You are just a "luddle black bastard!"  Shut up and suffer!

GOD revealed her to me.  GOD saved me from her wrath.  She will not come to repentance and I will not lie and cloak for her.  I will not turn my head, close my eyes, or keep my mouth shut.  I will give honor to who honor is due.  FAMILY you do what you must.  "Let your conscious be your guide" (Jerome Walters)

Stay in His WORD children.  Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."

May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)