"What an awesome GOD we serve!" That phrase is said I am sure millions upon millions of times every day. Many say they believe it, there are some that know it. I know it and I have an awesome testimony.
I know that the woman that gave birth to me is evil beyond comparison. She is so evil her brain should be donated to science for further study upon her death. I am telling you about it because I am awe struck by the goodness of GOD. GOD saved me and protected me my entire life. I am due to be dead at her hands. I escaped becoming the drug addicted prostitute she carefully planned and plotted for me to be. It was my all knowing loving GOD that saved me from her.
Martha is a sneaky kind of evil. So diabolical there are actually only a few people that really know the truth about her. She is that devious and cunning. Most people think she is a kind loving grandma, sold out for Christ, on her way to heaven. Little do they know.
I know that she was five or six years old when she busted her baby brother in the head with an iron skillet over a piece of sausage. Her brother was four years her junior. But, she harbored more than sibling rivalry for him. She harbored sheer masked hatred. She always hated him. Talked about him like a dog behind his back , but always loved and stroked him to his face.
She described how the blood flew. In her old age I could see the pride swelling as she re-told that story. "Duh n***** wuz trying to choke a piece of sausage out my mouth dat my mama had given me. I picked up dat skillet and lambed dat n**** in duh head! And the blood flew!...my ignut mama beat my ass."
A two year old trying to coke a six year old over a piece of sausage. I think not. More than likely her mother had slipped her baby a piece of sausage and Martha became enraged with greed and jalousy. I call it the "back lie". Martha is very skillful in creating "back lies" to hide her tracks. She is so good she can convince you that it happened just the way she told it. She is also very good, brilliant in fact at hiding her insane jealousy. All of her plots are extremely cunning and perfect.
A nurturing older sibling she was not. "My mama wuz always picking duh luddle n***** up kissing his natchul yalla ass. I mean she wud kiss his ass. She didn't nevah kiss me till I got grown."
I know that is part of her psychosis, unresolved jealousy concerning her mother's love. She would tell me often of how much she hated her mother and father. Then she would turn around and tell me how much she loved them. Is she bi-polar? Does she have multiple personalities?
Was that it? Did her mother inadvertently create serious jealousy and envy? Did she shower her baby son with more attention than her only daughter?
There was another time, my uncle was around two and she was around six. They were given their own bag of peanuts. I wasn't there but the Martha I know is very greedy, selfish and cunning. So I image she snatched his peanuts away from him. I can't say that she ate them before she threw the bag in the fire but I am relatively certain that she did. I am very sure she encouraged the little toddler to put his hands in the fire to retrieve his bag. My uncle carried the scares of third degree burns on his hands his entire life.
I was still a child but I remember clearly a cousin telling me how my mother smashed a puppy to death between two bricks. If you step back and look carefully and honestly you know that Martha is a sociopath, a sadist. Not, a dumb one, a very clever one.
What happens to a family that unknowingly harbors a sadistic sociopath? Why did we keep her a secret? Why didn't we tell the many horrible things she did to us? We were children, we were helpless. My grandfather just kept praying for her. Did he know she was a demon?
My grandfather lies MURDERED (by her) in and unmarked grave. All of her children (all six of us) are maimed, destroyed, permanently psychologically scarred. My brothers remain under her thumb. I refuse.
Everyone in my family knows she did it! Why am I the only one willing to tell? I can't give up the right for the wrong. She is cunning. She will make you love her. No one will say a word against her in public. Some share their horror secretly, quietly.
Some are convinced that she changed. Some admit that they are still terrified of her. I believe most still love her. That is the hardest part of my story. The woman brutalized me, treated me worse than an animal, secretly plotted the worse schemes against me. Yet I loved her for so long. I hated and loathed her constant abuse, yet I loved her. I lived for the day she would change. She had to curse me out with foul names in 2009 before I finally realized that it is too late. It will never happen.
I have asked GOD why. But, I know the LORD's WORD is replete with warnings against such women. I know He told us to "fear no man." I know He told us to shun evil to walk not in the counsel of the ungodly.
If you are born into the clutches of a demon you need to hurry up and admit it. You can't get blood out of a turnip and you can't get love from a demonic sociopath.
Jesus told us that they would dress up in sheep's clothing but inwardly they would be ravenous wolves. The devil is a liar, the father of lies. When has Martha ever told the truth about any thing? If she loves and trusts GOD so much, why does she still work "roots", practice witchcraft?
Why do people still fear her? Why is she still living? Why did she get away with so much evil so long? Why
do people still ask her to preach and pray for them? Is she a bad habit? too diabolical to be believed? Will she ever repent?
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster, (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
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