All for naught ...

You tried to make me hate myself, devalue myself.  I was nothing to you, so I didn't deserve anything in this world.  You were determined to make me suffer for burdening you with my sorry life.  No, you didn't just do it to me.  You did it to everyone you "love".

Do you actually think claiming to love someone and giving them a few sorry gifts clears you?  Do  you think your lying declarations corrects your constant sins?

You poor lady.  You are burdened with some sick hatred and insane jealousy.  You know the answer.  You know confessing your sins and accepting Christ would miraculously save your life in an instant.  You know that your pathological lies and carnal lust destroyed your life.

Is it easier to hate me?  Hate your father?  Is it easier to secretly hate everyone that ever tried to love you?
I forgive you.  I forgive you, pity you and continue to pray for you.  You sure made a sorry mess of your life because you could never embrace the truth.  You could never be wrong.

Granddaddy was right.  His simple explanation for you was ignorance.""Don't pay no attention to yo' mama....she ignut."

I have sixty-one years of your awful treachery and betrayal.  You don't have to worry about me trying to love you any more.  I don't hate you either.  That is a tremendous burden I refuse to carry any longer.

I just want you to know, all your plots, all your cunning vile manipulation and soothsaying was for naught.

I'm fine.  I'm healing.  GOD is healing that little girl you destroyed.   If you pray maybe GOD will heal yours.

Stay in His WORD children.  Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."

May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)