Know that! Repeat that. "Jesus loves me this I know for the Bible tells me so." I learned that in Sunday school as a five year old child. If I don't know anything, I know Jesus loves me, always did and always will. I am so glad my mother made me go to church every Sunday.
I just saw her on Facebook looking tormented. She was sitting at the graveside of my cousin's husband. It broke my heart to see her gnarled, broken, haggard and dejected. Jesus loves you Martha!
You can have peace, you can have love. You can walk right into heaven. Say "I'm sorry". Say you were foolish and without understanding.
Jesus Loves you! GOD doesn't care what you did or how long you did it. Harden not your heart. Get on your knees! Repent of your sins! Do it now.
Dear LORD in Heaven! Touch Martha's heart with a finger of love. Tell her it is alright. Tell her she is forgiven. Tell those around her to tell her. Have mercy on us LORD! Forgive us of our many sins. Forgive us for leaning to our own understanding.
Family, if you really love Martha like you claim, please pray and fast for her. Pray and fast for yourself, for this cold cruel world we live in.
"And he saith unto me, Seal not the sayings of the prophecy of this book: for the time is at hand. He that is unjust, let him be unjust still: and he which is filthy, let him be filthy still: and he that is righteous, let him be righteous still: and he that is holy let him be holy still." Revelation 22:10-11
"The time is at hand".
Saturday, May 4, 2013
"For this cause..."
For this cause! Praise the LORD! "For this cause" I will continue to endure your rebuke and ignorance. For this cause I will let you talk about me, lie on me, and laugh at me. For this cause I will endure shunning, loneliness, ridicule, mockery and your phoniness.
I will always stand up for right. I will not give up the right for the wrong. For this cause I will not tolerate, associate with, or silently condone evil.
Jesus told us;"Know ye the Truth and the Truth will set you Free!" Praise the LORD! When I gave up fear and finally confronted that demon GOD set me free! She cursed me out! Called me filthy names, disinherited me, cultivated the deep hatred she instilled in my family against me.
I will not live with you cowards in denial talking about "Mathy" behind her back. You can continue to wait in line to kiss her a** if you want to. You can accept her lying, cheap gifts and petty chump change in exchange for your manhood or womanhood if you want to. You don't have to care about me, my grandfather or the countless others she has severely maimed. Continue to live your miserable life tethered to a demon because she sounds good, looks good, claims to love you.
Don't look at her "fruit" because she forbade you. Don't listen to the voice of the LORD. Remain ignorant and abused, high, or intoxicated. Shut the world out. Continue to cloak for her because you are too ashamed to let the world know what that woman did to you.
My truth; I always felt her deep hatred and was often the recipient of her sadist cruelty. This beautiful demon was brilliant enough to wear a mask, to keep us all in the dark. To say the sweetest words, love on you, hug and kiss you and build you up.
Her actions rarely matched her rhetoric. That was the "mystery". Being "loved", lauded in public and stabbed in the back, led astray and brutalized in private. I finally caught on Mathy Jane. The world will know of your low character, of your sickness.
Someone will learn from my story how deceitful the devil is. You will learn if you give him and inch he will take a million miles and you will suffer pure devastation , shame and rebuke. You will learn that he is going to let you down. That same demon evil spirit that saved you from your just due over and over will one day finally throw you to the dogs.
The greatest lesson my life can teach you is that Book is real. It is prophesy. If you know like I know you will study it night and day. You will not lean to your own understanding. You will seek the face of GOD.
"For this cause we also, since the day we heard it, do not cease to pray for you, and to desire that ye might be filled with the knowledge of His will in all wisdom and spiritual understanding;" Colossians 1:9
There is no shortcut to heaven. There is only one way. You can't put on a mask and fool GOD. You can't "talk the talk and not walk the walk". That's your sermon Martha. You preached it and you preached it well. GOD doesn't want your double dealing and your two-facedness. GOD doesn't want you up in a pulpit putting on a show while living a lascivious life.
You hurt the body of Christ. I have two brothers that will not go anywhere near a church because of you. I left the church for many years because of you. Don't you dare think GOD does not have His eye on you. Don't you believe for one minute that because you made it to age 87 unencumbered in your filth that you got away.
Dear LORD in Heaven I pray for my family. Deliver us from evil LORD. Deliver us from this curse, this plague. Give us courage LORD. Open our eyes, remove the veils. "He that hath ears, let him hear."
There are a lot of evil people on this earth creeping around hurting others for their sadistic pleasure. Skinning and grinning, crowed in our churches, leading the simple astray. "Your days are numbered". Jesus is coming back! "And, behold, I come quickly; and my reward is with me, to give every man according as his work shall be." Revelation 22:12
"I Jesus have sent mine angel to testify unto you these things in the churches. I am the root and offspring of David, and the bright and morning star." Revelation 22: 16
"He which testifieth, these things saith, SURELY I COME QUICKLY. Amen. Even so, come LORD Jesus." Revelation 22:20
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
I will always stand up for right. I will not give up the right for the wrong. For this cause I will not tolerate, associate with, or silently condone evil.
Jesus told us;"Know ye the Truth and the Truth will set you Free!" Praise the LORD! When I gave up fear and finally confronted that demon GOD set me free! She cursed me out! Called me filthy names, disinherited me, cultivated the deep hatred she instilled in my family against me.
I will not live with you cowards in denial talking about "Mathy" behind her back. You can continue to wait in line to kiss her a** if you want to. You can accept her lying, cheap gifts and petty chump change in exchange for your manhood or womanhood if you want to. You don't have to care about me, my grandfather or the countless others she has severely maimed. Continue to live your miserable life tethered to a demon because she sounds good, looks good, claims to love you.
Don't look at her "fruit" because she forbade you. Don't listen to the voice of the LORD. Remain ignorant and abused, high, or intoxicated. Shut the world out. Continue to cloak for her because you are too ashamed to let the world know what that woman did to you.
My truth; I always felt her deep hatred and was often the recipient of her sadist cruelty. This beautiful demon was brilliant enough to wear a mask, to keep us all in the dark. To say the sweetest words, love on you, hug and kiss you and build you up.
Her actions rarely matched her rhetoric. That was the "mystery". Being "loved", lauded in public and stabbed in the back, led astray and brutalized in private. I finally caught on Mathy Jane. The world will know of your low character, of your sickness.
Someone will learn from my story how deceitful the devil is. You will learn if you give him and inch he will take a million miles and you will suffer pure devastation , shame and rebuke. You will learn that he is going to let you down. That same demon evil spirit that saved you from your just due over and over will one day finally throw you to the dogs.
The greatest lesson my life can teach you is that Book is real. It is prophesy. If you know like I know you will study it night and day. You will not lean to your own understanding. You will seek the face of GOD.
"For this cause we also, since the day we heard it, do not cease to pray for you, and to desire that ye might be filled with the knowledge of His will in all wisdom and spiritual understanding;" Colossians 1:9
There is no shortcut to heaven. There is only one way. You can't put on a mask and fool GOD. You can't "talk the talk and not walk the walk". That's your sermon Martha. You preached it and you preached it well. GOD doesn't want your double dealing and your two-facedness. GOD doesn't want you up in a pulpit putting on a show while living a lascivious life.
You hurt the body of Christ. I have two brothers that will not go anywhere near a church because of you. I left the church for many years because of you. Don't you dare think GOD does not have His eye on you. Don't you believe for one minute that because you made it to age 87 unencumbered in your filth that you got away.
Dear LORD in Heaven I pray for my family. Deliver us from evil LORD. Deliver us from this curse, this plague. Give us courage LORD. Open our eyes, remove the veils. "He that hath ears, let him hear."
There are a lot of evil people on this earth creeping around hurting others for their sadistic pleasure. Skinning and grinning, crowed in our churches, leading the simple astray. "Your days are numbered". Jesus is coming back! "And, behold, I come quickly; and my reward is with me, to give every man according as his work shall be." Revelation 22:12
"I Jesus have sent mine angel to testify unto you these things in the churches. I am the root and offspring of David, and the bright and morning star." Revelation 22: 16
"He which testifieth, these things saith, SURELY I COME QUICKLY. Amen. Even so, come LORD Jesus." Revelation 22:20
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Friday, May 3, 2013
"I am going to stay on the battlefield"
That is a line from a Gospel song. I'm singing. I'm out of tune and I don't know all the words but I'm singing it and meaning it.
I just ran across this article "Why Boys Do Not Tell About Sexual Abuse" by Karyl McBride, Ph.D. This article certainly helps me to understand my situation; plagued and degraded by a narcissistic sexually perverted monster of a mother.
I am the only girl. I have five brothers. My mother is 87 years old and has gotten away with the sickest, vilest, most demonic deeds for her entire life! She emasculated and destroyed my five brothers and they will not say a mumbling word against her. Why? My brothers don't know a mother's love. They really can't know or understand what a real mother will or will not do. Sons, certainly would be the last to tell on their mother, no matter how messed up she is.
#1 "Cover-ups, denial, and internalizing feelings seem to dominate rather than vulnerable exposure of abusive acts perpetrated on male victims." In other words it is just too shameful for a man to tell. He would just rather keep the secret, pretend it didn't happen. Mask the pain with drugs and alcohol. Wait for the b**** to die.
#2 "In our culture, boys are socialized not to be victims. 'If I am a victim, can I then also be a man?' Big boys fight back and are not supposed to be victims or it somehow obliterates their identity of 'manhood'"
#3 "Guys are expected still, to tough things out and not ask for help." In other words men don't want to talk about it.
I am fully aware that NO ONE wants to know my truth. I don't want to know it. But, I sincerely believe that GOD wants you to know it. YOU WILL KNOW!
The fact is my mother has been able to get away with her treachery because it is certainly too embarrassing a secret to tell. I started writing this blog when I asked her about my sexual molestation. At the time the torturous life she forced my brother to live had never occurred to me. He was estranged from us for 25 years! She blamed drugs, told us this long elaborate tale of how he was addicted to cocaine. That stanking s*** knew all the time. She was hoping he would never come back. She was right to fear his return. He returned with a huge piece of the mystifying puzzle.
MARTHA JANE WALTERS HODGES DOSTER WATSON LAMOUREAUX you are the most selfish lustful carnal whore that ever lived! He won't tell on you, but I WILL!
You can take that clerical frock off! Quit spouting scripture! Repent of your many sins or find a rock. And you had the nerve to tell me; "You ain't SHIT!"
"I am out here on the battlefield" and I am going to keep fighting, keep telling, until somebody listens. GOD is righting every wrong and MARTHA JANE WALTERS HODGES DOSTER WATSON LAMOUREAUX GOD is hot on your trail. Simon Temple can't help you. Your sons can't help you. You horde of friends and supporters can't protect you from the wrath of Almighty GOD.
"When your desolation comes it will come as a whirlwind!"
Time is winding up and you still haven't repented or said you are sorry. Let me remind you GOD is large and in charge of this world. "You will get your just and honest due on this planet earth." I would say that you are over due. GOD says "in due time".
Praise the LORD!
I just ran across this article "Why Boys Do Not Tell About Sexual Abuse" by Karyl McBride, Ph.D. This article certainly helps me to understand my situation; plagued and degraded by a narcissistic sexually perverted monster of a mother.
I am the only girl. I have five brothers. My mother is 87 years old and has gotten away with the sickest, vilest, most demonic deeds for her entire life! She emasculated and destroyed my five brothers and they will not say a mumbling word against her. Why? My brothers don't know a mother's love. They really can't know or understand what a real mother will or will not do. Sons, certainly would be the last to tell on their mother, no matter how messed up she is.
#1 "Cover-ups, denial, and internalizing feelings seem to dominate rather than vulnerable exposure of abusive acts perpetrated on male victims." In other words it is just too shameful for a man to tell. He would just rather keep the secret, pretend it didn't happen. Mask the pain with drugs and alcohol. Wait for the b**** to die.
#2 "In our culture, boys are socialized not to be victims. 'If I am a victim, can I then also be a man?' Big boys fight back and are not supposed to be victims or it somehow obliterates their identity of 'manhood'"
#3 "Guys are expected still, to tough things out and not ask for help." In other words men don't want to talk about it.
I am fully aware that NO ONE wants to know my truth. I don't want to know it. But, I sincerely believe that GOD wants you to know it. YOU WILL KNOW!
The fact is my mother has been able to get away with her treachery because it is certainly too embarrassing a secret to tell. I started writing this blog when I asked her about my sexual molestation. At the time the torturous life she forced my brother to live had never occurred to me. He was estranged from us for 25 years! She blamed drugs, told us this long elaborate tale of how he was addicted to cocaine. That stanking s*** knew all the time. She was hoping he would never come back. She was right to fear his return. He returned with a huge piece of the mystifying puzzle.
MARTHA JANE WALTERS HODGES DOSTER WATSON LAMOUREAUX you are the most selfish lustful carnal whore that ever lived! He won't tell on you, but I WILL!
You can take that clerical frock off! Quit spouting scripture! Repent of your many sins or find a rock. And you had the nerve to tell me; "You ain't SHIT!"
"I am out here on the battlefield" and I am going to keep fighting, keep telling, until somebody listens. GOD is righting every wrong and MARTHA JANE WALTERS HODGES DOSTER WATSON LAMOUREAUX GOD is hot on your trail. Simon Temple can't help you. Your sons can't help you. You horde of friends and supporters can't protect you from the wrath of Almighty GOD.
"When your desolation comes it will come as a whirlwind!"
Time is winding up and you still haven't repented or said you are sorry. Let me remind you GOD is large and in charge of this world. "You will get your just and honest due on this planet earth." I would say that you are over due. GOD says "in due time".
Praise the LORD!
Is this a dream?
Is this a dream? Am I living a very long nightmare? I am 61 tethered to the most despicable woman that every lived and I don't hear a peep from not one relative other than my daughter.
Is it that you don't care?
Cousin I offered all the evidence you needed to prove that she murdered our grandfather. You have said nothing. You told me that she told you that she sent me that letter smeared in her fecal matter. How did she justify that with you? What did she claim that I did to justify such and act?
Brothers, I witnessed how she savagely beat two of you daily. You two love her more than all of us combined. She totally destroyed your lives yet you both cling to her.
I just assume that she is too heinous to know. Just ignore her, just pretend that your life is lovely, "normal".
What did she do to you? How can you be so blind? Ignoring me, "dissing" me still won't get that stanking slut into heaven. I was never her only target. You claim that you forgive her, that you refuse to live in the past. When did she change? You know her!
"She don't owe you no apology!" you scream (brother #2). What about your apology? What about all the horrible things she did to you? She is not sorry, nor is she ashamed. The fool thinks she got away, too blind to see that she is being punished. Too dumb to know that she is an abomination to GOD.
I love and pray for all of you daily and I will continue to do so. I refuse to be involved in your farce, in your pretend family where everything is so wonderful. Age doesn't make that slut a saint. Her fake preaching doesn't make her forgiven and her "roots" don't work on me.
Brother #2, you told me that you hope I find peace. I hope you find your mind, your manhood. I hope and pray you come to your senses. I pray that GOD will deliver your from evil.
In my heart of hearts I do wish that she would finally confess. I wish she could sincerely apologize to me. For many years I longed to hear her say that she is sorry. It doesn't matter now. If she finally called and expressed her love and regret I would not believe her.
You "stayed" out there too long Martha. Your "whored", lied, practiced witchcraft, destroyed and defiled too long. You are right. What is the point? You can't love. You can only offer something fake and artificial. You are an abomination to GOD and all His glory. I can't tolerate the thought of you.
You don't have to worry about me pissing on your grave. That was the last thing you told me not to do. Just who is that common? Why did that cross your mind? One thing for sure we are not going to live forever. One by one GOD will call us home. One day you will have to give an account for the life you lived.
Family one day you will have to give an account to GOD for not standing up for your grandfather, for tolerating and loving a demon, for not caring about me. For witnessing all the sick things she did to me and never coming to my aid or defense.
You will give an account to GOD for NOT standing against evil.
"Seek the LORD while He may be found."
Is it that you don't care?
Cousin I offered all the evidence you needed to prove that she murdered our grandfather. You have said nothing. You told me that she told you that she sent me that letter smeared in her fecal matter. How did she justify that with you? What did she claim that I did to justify such and act?
Brothers, I witnessed how she savagely beat two of you daily. You two love her more than all of us combined. She totally destroyed your lives yet you both cling to her.
I just assume that she is too heinous to know. Just ignore her, just pretend that your life is lovely, "normal".
What did she do to you? How can you be so blind? Ignoring me, "dissing" me still won't get that stanking slut into heaven. I was never her only target. You claim that you forgive her, that you refuse to live in the past. When did she change? You know her!
"She don't owe you no apology!" you scream (brother #2). What about your apology? What about all the horrible things she did to you? She is not sorry, nor is she ashamed. The fool thinks she got away, too blind to see that she is being punished. Too dumb to know that she is an abomination to GOD.
I love and pray for all of you daily and I will continue to do so. I refuse to be involved in your farce, in your pretend family where everything is so wonderful. Age doesn't make that slut a saint. Her fake preaching doesn't make her forgiven and her "roots" don't work on me.
Brother #2, you told me that you hope I find peace. I hope you find your mind, your manhood. I hope and pray you come to your senses. I pray that GOD will deliver your from evil.
In my heart of hearts I do wish that she would finally confess. I wish she could sincerely apologize to me. For many years I longed to hear her say that she is sorry. It doesn't matter now. If she finally called and expressed her love and regret I would not believe her.
You "stayed" out there too long Martha. Your "whored", lied, practiced witchcraft, destroyed and defiled too long. You are right. What is the point? You can't love. You can only offer something fake and artificial. You are an abomination to GOD and all His glory. I can't tolerate the thought of you.
You don't have to worry about me pissing on your grave. That was the last thing you told me not to do. Just who is that common? Why did that cross your mind? One thing for sure we are not going to live forever. One by one GOD will call us home. One day you will have to give an account for the life you lived.
Family one day you will have to give an account to GOD for not standing up for your grandfather, for tolerating and loving a demon, for not caring about me. For witnessing all the sick things she did to me and never coming to my aid or defense.
You will give an account to GOD for NOT standing against evil.
"Seek the LORD while He may be found."
"Mother's Day"
The world is in love with "Mother's Day" a time devoted to treating your loving mother special. We love to brag about our beautiful loving mothers. "Motherhood" is equivalent to sainthood.
GOD certainly designed mothers to be very special. Babies will cry for hours, totally inconsolable, demanding to be held by their mothers only.
Studies have been conducted that prove all people need to be held and loved. Man hungers for the human touch. Children will fail to thrive if they are deprived of love and human contact.
Our world refuses to believe that an evil corrupt mother is possible. "Don't disturb this dream", let me remain ignorant. Let me participate in the bragging contest of how great and loving my mother is.
The truth is "Mother's Day" is a holiday I've always dreaded. I was always forced to "honor" my mother. I had to buy gifts and cards, make a big deal, carry on to excess or get "cussed out". I look back now and realize that I was going to get "cussed out" any way, get mistreated anyway. No gift was ever good enough. "Mother's Day" was just another opportunity for her to prove that she was in control, the high priestess, could commit any filthy deed or act and get away clean.
I went through this farce every year without fail until I was 37 years old. I became a mother at 33 and finally learned what motherhood truly meant. It doesn't mean you own a person. Nothing will ever give any person the right to sexually abuse a child. Forcing and manipulating your six children into keeping your secrets doesn't erase them. The scars are still there.
My mother is Martha Jane Walters Hodges Doster Watson Lamoureaux. She is 87 years old. She has never loved me. As a matter of fact she hates me with a passion and always has. She has painted a picture of me that is despicable and totally untrue. Assigned her sexual perversions to me, her lying to me, her witchcraft to me. In her weak tortured mind she has made me her, made me pay for her deceit and low common character.
I AM NOT GOING TO TAKE IT! You will NOT commit every sick despicable sin known to man and get away clean!
I look back over the 61 years you have successfully tormented and abused me and realize that is all you have every wanted; "to get away clean". You love deceiving people, making people think you are a loving mother and devoted preacher of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. You hate GOD! You hate children! You hated your father! You hate! You are the absolute opposite of what you portray!
I stand alone. No, I am not alone in my pain and grief. I am not the only person you did sick despicable things to. My fellow victims do not share my "courage". I don't think they trust GOD. "Oh ye of little faith."
88 years is a long time to wait, to watch, to witness pure evil. On the surface she looks like she got away, she appears to prosper. She lives in a decent house in a decent neighborhood. She has a much younger husband, drives an old Cadillac, is loved and admired by hordes of people. Not one relative will dare say one word against her.
Your "fear" proves she won. You let her defeat you. From our birth she never did anything but brutalize, curse and secretly sabotage. Brother#4, don't forget you started a successful band at 14, played with Donald Byrd, briefly enjoyed a very successful musical career. What happened? Martha. Why don't you know? She got "away clean". That was her purpose, her plan, to creep in and destroy your life. Why? You made her look bad. You are an"outside" child that she tried to abort. You are evidence of her whoredom. You are an alcoholic. Pray, ask GOD to take the taste from your mouth. Give up fearing Martha. Give your life to Christ.
Brother #2, what happened to your medical practice? Martha. Why don't you know? Again a slippery sneaky serpent that was determined to destroy everything good in your life. You became a medical doctor and she hates you with a passion. You made her look bad. Your father refused to marry her. You look just like him. She feed you to the dogs, did the unspeakable many times over. How did you survive? GOD bless you. GOD has so many blessings stored up for you. Give up the terrifying fear she cultivated in you. Give your life to Christ.
Brother#1, your mistake was believing her lies. No, you didn't make the mistake of trying to make a mother out of a whore. You made the mistake of trying to make a mother out of a demon. Stop believing her lies. Give up that fear! GOD bless you. Know that GOD loves you, will provide for you and you don't need Martha for anything. Stop fearing her witchcraft.
Brother #3, stand up to her! Listen to the voice of the LORD. Tell satan to get behind you. You can live, you can be made whole. Embrace the truth and step on that serpent. I see you healed and made whole.
Brother #5, wake up! Stop pretending. You know her. You know what you went through. You know that you don't trust her either. Hate me if you want to. But hate me because it's your decision not hers.
Prepare for your "Mother's Day". If you have a good mother, love her, tell her. I will not be forced into honoring a mother I never had. No monster is going to twist my arm and make me live a lie. And I will not shut up! I am going to talk about you until the day I die. And when I'm dead I've written volumes about you.
For those of you that judge me harshly, that think they have the right to tell me what not to say, what not to do. Walk a mile in my shoes. Did some sick perverted monster pretend to nurture you? Did your "loving" mother pimp you out to your stepfather?
No! I will not keep this secret. "I press on." The world will know about you. Please read Philippians 3:7 - 14. "I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of GOD in Christ Jesus."
I will not tolerate a society that turns a blind eye to child abuse. I will not associate with a family that honors you, fears you and pretends to be perfect. So, go and enjoy your "Mother's Day". I just hope it is real.
May GOD's Grace. Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
GOD certainly designed mothers to be very special. Babies will cry for hours, totally inconsolable, demanding to be held by their mothers only.
Studies have been conducted that prove all people need to be held and loved. Man hungers for the human touch. Children will fail to thrive if they are deprived of love and human contact.
Our world refuses to believe that an evil corrupt mother is possible. "Don't disturb this dream", let me remain ignorant. Let me participate in the bragging contest of how great and loving my mother is.
The truth is "Mother's Day" is a holiday I've always dreaded. I was always forced to "honor" my mother. I had to buy gifts and cards, make a big deal, carry on to excess or get "cussed out". I look back now and realize that I was going to get "cussed out" any way, get mistreated anyway. No gift was ever good enough. "Mother's Day" was just another opportunity for her to prove that she was in control, the high priestess, could commit any filthy deed or act and get away clean.
I went through this farce every year without fail until I was 37 years old. I became a mother at 33 and finally learned what motherhood truly meant. It doesn't mean you own a person. Nothing will ever give any person the right to sexually abuse a child. Forcing and manipulating your six children into keeping your secrets doesn't erase them. The scars are still there.
My mother is Martha Jane Walters Hodges Doster Watson Lamoureaux. She is 87 years old. She has never loved me. As a matter of fact she hates me with a passion and always has. She has painted a picture of me that is despicable and totally untrue. Assigned her sexual perversions to me, her lying to me, her witchcraft to me. In her weak tortured mind she has made me her, made me pay for her deceit and low common character.
I AM NOT GOING TO TAKE IT! You will NOT commit every sick despicable sin known to man and get away clean!
I look back over the 61 years you have successfully tormented and abused me and realize that is all you have every wanted; "to get away clean". You love deceiving people, making people think you are a loving mother and devoted preacher of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. You hate GOD! You hate children! You hated your father! You hate! You are the absolute opposite of what you portray!
I stand alone. No, I am not alone in my pain and grief. I am not the only person you did sick despicable things to. My fellow victims do not share my "courage". I don't think they trust GOD. "Oh ye of little faith."
88 years is a long time to wait, to watch, to witness pure evil. On the surface she looks like she got away, she appears to prosper. She lives in a decent house in a decent neighborhood. She has a much younger husband, drives an old Cadillac, is loved and admired by hordes of people. Not one relative will dare say one word against her.
Your "fear" proves she won. You let her defeat you. From our birth she never did anything but brutalize, curse and secretly sabotage. Brother#4, don't forget you started a successful band at 14, played with Donald Byrd, briefly enjoyed a very successful musical career. What happened? Martha. Why don't you know? She got "away clean". That was her purpose, her plan, to creep in and destroy your life. Why? You made her look bad. You are an"outside" child that she tried to abort. You are evidence of her whoredom. You are an alcoholic. Pray, ask GOD to take the taste from your mouth. Give up fearing Martha. Give your life to Christ.
Brother #2, what happened to your medical practice? Martha. Why don't you know? Again a slippery sneaky serpent that was determined to destroy everything good in your life. You became a medical doctor and she hates you with a passion. You made her look bad. Your father refused to marry her. You look just like him. She feed you to the dogs, did the unspeakable many times over. How did you survive? GOD bless you. GOD has so many blessings stored up for you. Give up the terrifying fear she cultivated in you. Give your life to Christ.
Brother#1, your mistake was believing her lies. No, you didn't make the mistake of trying to make a mother out of a whore. You made the mistake of trying to make a mother out of a demon. Stop believing her lies. Give up that fear! GOD bless you. Know that GOD loves you, will provide for you and you don't need Martha for anything. Stop fearing her witchcraft.
Brother #3, stand up to her! Listen to the voice of the LORD. Tell satan to get behind you. You can live, you can be made whole. Embrace the truth and step on that serpent. I see you healed and made whole.
Brother #5, wake up! Stop pretending. You know her. You know what you went through. You know that you don't trust her either. Hate me if you want to. But hate me because it's your decision not hers.
Prepare for your "Mother's Day". If you have a good mother, love her, tell her. I will not be forced into honoring a mother I never had. No monster is going to twist my arm and make me live a lie. And I will not shut up! I am going to talk about you until the day I die. And when I'm dead I've written volumes about you.
For those of you that judge me harshly, that think they have the right to tell me what not to say, what not to do. Walk a mile in my shoes. Did some sick perverted monster pretend to nurture you? Did your "loving" mother pimp you out to your stepfather?
No! I will not keep this secret. "I press on." The world will know about you. Please read Philippians 3:7 - 14. "I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of GOD in Christ Jesus."
I will not tolerate a society that turns a blind eye to child abuse. I will not associate with a family that honors you, fears you and pretends to be perfect. So, go and enjoy your "Mother's Day". I just hope it is real.
May GOD's Grace. Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Thursday, May 2, 2013
Second wind.
Praise the LORD! Thank you Jesus! You promised to deliver me from evil and You Did! Praise the LORD! I am prostrate with grief and joy.(All at the same time) Slayed in the spirit, jubilant, rejoicing and praising my Almighty GOD. Thanking Him for saving me from the grossest evil, an abomination impossible to see with the naked eye.
Martha Jane Walters has a demon that only GOD can save us from. You can not save yourself. You can not pretend or ignore this evil spirit, this curse that afflicts us and our poor mother. No, she deserves no sympathy. This poor woman does NOT have a shred of decency. Not an authentic ounce of maternal love. A complete phony.
She is not even a female. She is in fact and evil male demon with breasts and a vagina. A total fake in every area of her life for 88 years! So a horrible a plague few can find the courage to confront her. But, she demands your prayers. I want everyone of this earth to pray for this fallen woman.
Don't be callous and unconcerned, it could happen to you. "Play with fire. You will get burned." Keep going to "Root Workers". Get involved with witchcraft if you want to, you are going to end up a "Mathy Jane". A thing, a monster, a trickster masquerading as a mother and a preacher, an imp, a she-demon. You will be so pulled down, so sunk in the lowest depravity you will be too ashamed to repent, to confess. You will live out the rest of your life lying, denying, hating, suffering, growing ugly and hated.
"Don't piss on my grave when I'm dead!" ; you spewed. Angry that I know GOD's Gospel truth. Roaring, spewing, spreading lies, torturing because YOU killed your own father. Hating and trying to destroy everyone that loves you because YOU had six living children by six different men. Hating, lacerating and plotting because no decent man could tolerate you.
Martha Jane Walters, a very beautiful, brilliant , talented little girl came to this earth and destroyed and inflicted the most excruciating pain this world has ever known. I will not waste time describing her right now.
I will tell you GOD DELIVERED ME! Snatched me from the jaws of this low life heathen.
Did you really think you were going to get away? Do you really believe that our Loving LORD is going to let you come to this earth and deliberately plot, plunder and destroy for 88 years and then quietly move off the scene?
Do you think you are going to practice perversion, lying, stealing and killing for 88 years and get clean away? Do you really think you fooled any body?
Two of my brothers are totally defenseless against you because you crushed them early in life. They may be unable to protect themselves from your mind games and incestuous love. But, GOD can and WILL save them in "Due time".
Tick, tick, tick goes the clock on the wall. Inch by inch we creep closer to our dirty little graves. Time is running out. You know the truth. You know that you are forgiven. You know GOD loves you. Do you love GOD? Can you love GOD? Can you give your heart to Christ in the last hour?
Will you?
Martha Jane Walters has a demon that only GOD can save us from. You can not save yourself. You can not pretend or ignore this evil spirit, this curse that afflicts us and our poor mother. No, she deserves no sympathy. This poor woman does NOT have a shred of decency. Not an authentic ounce of maternal love. A complete phony.
She is not even a female. She is in fact and evil male demon with breasts and a vagina. A total fake in every area of her life for 88 years! So a horrible a plague few can find the courage to confront her. But, she demands your prayers. I want everyone of this earth to pray for this fallen woman.
Don't be callous and unconcerned, it could happen to you. "Play with fire. You will get burned." Keep going to "Root Workers". Get involved with witchcraft if you want to, you are going to end up a "Mathy Jane". A thing, a monster, a trickster masquerading as a mother and a preacher, an imp, a she-demon. You will be so pulled down, so sunk in the lowest depravity you will be too ashamed to repent, to confess. You will live out the rest of your life lying, denying, hating, suffering, growing ugly and hated.
"Don't piss on my grave when I'm dead!" ; you spewed. Angry that I know GOD's Gospel truth. Roaring, spewing, spreading lies, torturing because YOU killed your own father. Hating and trying to destroy everyone that loves you because YOU had six living children by six different men. Hating, lacerating and plotting because no decent man could tolerate you.
Martha Jane Walters, a very beautiful, brilliant , talented little girl came to this earth and destroyed and inflicted the most excruciating pain this world has ever known. I will not waste time describing her right now.
I will tell you GOD DELIVERED ME! Snatched me from the jaws of this low life heathen.
Did you really think you were going to get away? Do you really believe that our Loving LORD is going to let you come to this earth and deliberately plot, plunder and destroy for 88 years and then quietly move off the scene?
Do you think you are going to practice perversion, lying, stealing and killing for 88 years and get clean away? Do you really think you fooled any body?
Two of my brothers are totally defenseless against you because you crushed them early in life. They may be unable to protect themselves from your mind games and incestuous love. But, GOD can and WILL save them in "Due time".
Tick, tick, tick goes the clock on the wall. Inch by inch we creep closer to our dirty little graves. Time is running out. You know the truth. You know that you are forgiven. You know GOD loves you. Do you love GOD? Can you love GOD? Can you give your heart to Christ in the last hour?
Will you?
"The Giraffe Club"
The "Giraffe Club" is an online support group for adult survivors of narcissists. "Survivor!"; meaning escaped with your life. It doesn't mean that you are not harmed, ruined, abused, maligned, raped or tortured. It means that you managed to escape.
There are books written, studies dedicated to "understanding" these predators. How many of these vile selfish creatures exist? Is it 1 in 5, 1 in a 100? I found no one with my pain, my problem until I "googled" child sexual abuse.
The Internet put me in touch with ASCA (Adult Survivors of Child Abuse) an organization designed to help victims recover from the ravages of evil parents and caregivers.
First of all I thank GOD for these organizations and groups. I thank my daughter for encouraging me to reach out for help. As far as I know there is no such help for individuals that commit these crimes. Where can they go for help? They can go to the LORD, they can tell the truth, warn people and repent of their sins. Fat chance.
To be sure they are never going to acknowledge the fact that they are nothing but human scum. Does it hurt them? Do they lie awake at night crying, regretting their awful deeds? Do they reach out to GOD and ask for guidance or help? Can you stop doing something repugnant and despicable that you love to do?
I came to tell you that I am more than a survivor, Thrive-or Truth teller. I am angry! I have every right to be. "I am mad a hell!" This savage ignorance MUST STOP!
GOD is giving "my family" time and space to do what is right, to live right, to love the LORD in truth and honesty. You say you love the LORD, that you are blessed. Yet you remain frozen in fear waiting on a monster to die. You have no desire to expose her. You could care less about her countless victims.
Can't you see that she is determined to take you down with her? For 88 years she has done nothing but inflict excruciating pain. Why? She is demon possessed! No "commoner" woman has ever lived and walked on this earth. I am determined to expose her and others like her (nasty slut).
My expose on my "mother" should get your attention. Every one in this world should fear such possession. You should be so afraid, so grateful to GOD for His protection that you live right, that you read and study your Bible daily.
You should not associate with such a person. You should not "honor" her. Expose her! GOD is looking at you. GOD has His eye on you Simon Temple A.M.E.Zion Church. You are cloaking a demon in your pulpit. GOD has something against you "Walters Family". You are clinging to a demon, fearing for your life, ignoring GOD and His WORD. You are ignoring GOD's Truth, your own pain. It would serve us all right if she lives to be 120. She should bury every last one of us, stand over our cheap caskets and put on one of her famous phony performances. She should continue to be called on to pray, to bless. And every last one of us should get exactly what we deserve.
"Tight lipped", foggy memories, totally brainwashed, lost and confused bragging about your "mother". If you still can't think, still can't understand, ask GOD.
Martha Jane Walters is a selfish greedy corrupt woman that did nothing but go from bad to worse, to WORSE. Carnal and sex crazed she made GOD ashamed. He released her over to a reprobate mind and she "showed out". I believe satan himself is ashamed of her. No matter what she has no power. She has no goodness, no love or tenderness. A savage crazed brute that adamantly refuses to repent or apologize.
All five of my brothers are attempting to shield and protect a truly sick woman. It is not going to happen. The world will know and wonder why you protected her. The world may cry "Why?". The answer is in the Book.
Pray. Study. Fast. Seek the LORD. Stay in His WORD. Remember;" Apart form Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
There are books written, studies dedicated to "understanding" these predators. How many of these vile selfish creatures exist? Is it 1 in 5, 1 in a 100? I found no one with my pain, my problem until I "googled" child sexual abuse.
The Internet put me in touch with ASCA (Adult Survivors of Child Abuse) an organization designed to help victims recover from the ravages of evil parents and caregivers.
First of all I thank GOD for these organizations and groups. I thank my daughter for encouraging me to reach out for help. As far as I know there is no such help for individuals that commit these crimes. Where can they go for help? They can go to the LORD, they can tell the truth, warn people and repent of their sins. Fat chance.
To be sure they are never going to acknowledge the fact that they are nothing but human scum. Does it hurt them? Do they lie awake at night crying, regretting their awful deeds? Do they reach out to GOD and ask for guidance or help? Can you stop doing something repugnant and despicable that you love to do?
I came to tell you that I am more than a survivor, Thrive-or Truth teller. I am angry! I have every right to be. "I am mad a hell!" This savage ignorance MUST STOP!
GOD is giving "my family" time and space to do what is right, to live right, to love the LORD in truth and honesty. You say you love the LORD, that you are blessed. Yet you remain frozen in fear waiting on a monster to die. You have no desire to expose her. You could care less about her countless victims.
Can't you see that she is determined to take you down with her? For 88 years she has done nothing but inflict excruciating pain. Why? She is demon possessed! No "commoner" woman has ever lived and walked on this earth. I am determined to expose her and others like her (nasty slut).
My expose on my "mother" should get your attention. Every one in this world should fear such possession. You should be so afraid, so grateful to GOD for His protection that you live right, that you read and study your Bible daily.
You should not associate with such a person. You should not "honor" her. Expose her! GOD is looking at you. GOD has His eye on you Simon Temple A.M.E.Zion Church. You are cloaking a demon in your pulpit. GOD has something against you "Walters Family". You are clinging to a demon, fearing for your life, ignoring GOD and His WORD. You are ignoring GOD's Truth, your own pain. It would serve us all right if she lives to be 120. She should bury every last one of us, stand over our cheap caskets and put on one of her famous phony performances. She should continue to be called on to pray, to bless. And every last one of us should get exactly what we deserve.
"Tight lipped", foggy memories, totally brainwashed, lost and confused bragging about your "mother". If you still can't think, still can't understand, ask GOD.
Martha Jane Walters is a selfish greedy corrupt woman that did nothing but go from bad to worse, to WORSE. Carnal and sex crazed she made GOD ashamed. He released her over to a reprobate mind and she "showed out". I believe satan himself is ashamed of her. No matter what she has no power. She has no goodness, no love or tenderness. A savage crazed brute that adamantly refuses to repent or apologize.
All five of my brothers are attempting to shield and protect a truly sick woman. It is not going to happen. The world will know and wonder why you protected her. The world may cry "Why?". The answer is in the Book.
Pray. Study. Fast. Seek the LORD. Stay in His WORD. Remember;" Apart form Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
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