Monday, July 15, 2013
"Never go bear hunting with a switch."
My grandfather, Jerome Walters, taught me to never go bear hunting with a switch. I had no idea what he meant. I get it now. For all these years we have been treating our mother like she was a real "mother". Trying to help her with gifts and words of encouragement, earning degrees and honors that she just hated us for. You can't treat a monster like a mother.
This woman is beyond any thing any human can do to help her. I can't appeal to her. Nothing I can ever say or do will ever penetrate her reprobate mind. This poor woman is lost and refuses to be found.
Caution, she fully intends to take as many as she can with her. She thinks she will be happy in hell just as long as she is surrounded by the people she wounded and destroyed.
Some monsters you need to shun and let GOD handle. Know when you are out numbered and out gunned. Martha Jane Walters Hodges Doster Watson Lamoureaux I surrender you to the The LORD GOD Almighty!
May the DEAR LORD have mercy on your unconquerable soul!
This woman is beyond any thing any human can do to help her. I can't appeal to her. Nothing I can ever say or do will ever penetrate her reprobate mind. This poor woman is lost and refuses to be found.
Caution, she fully intends to take as many as she can with her. She thinks she will be happy in hell just as long as she is surrounded by the people she wounded and destroyed.
Some monsters you need to shun and let GOD handle. Know when you are out numbered and out gunned. Martha Jane Walters Hodges Doster Watson Lamoureaux I surrender you to the The LORD GOD Almighty!
May the DEAR LORD have mercy on your unconquerable soul!
GOD prepared the banquet table for you!
He created this beautiful opulent world for you. Why are you satisfied with the meager crumbs from His table? You are invited to the feast! You are welcome!
Who put that seed in your heart that you are nothing? Who told you that the world would reject you, despise you for the color of your skin? Who called you ugly, bug-eyed, nappy haired, flat gun-barrelled nose? Who rebuked, scorned and Raped you? Made you too ashamed to tell? Who feed you to her perverted men?
Who is that woman that does nothing but menace and plant seeds of hate and repulsion? Who is the woman that made your life a living hell? Identify that woman that stalks you, runs ahead of you to snatch, smash and destroy any possible happiness you may hope to have.
Who hides in her secret closet, laughing, grinning, praising herself for remaining anonymous. "Dey ain't gon' nevah know, dumb black a****, he-he-he-he!"
Well if you get all of your Bible teaching and knowledge from her, you deserve to suffer. "Come ye out from among them!"
I am 62 years old and for every single day of my life that woman has cursed me, used me and tried to destroy me. She taught my brothers to hate me. Not one of my five brothers can point to anything I ever did wrong to them. Yet, they shun me, refuse to associate with me based on her lies. She rebukes me for my truth and they follow her lead. She threatened to cut their testicles out every single day they lived. Did she succeed? Are my five brothers psychologically castrated?
I have two brothers that refuse to set foot in a church for fear that all Christians are like her. They refuse to get baptized by going under the water because she is a preacher and told them not to.
Just like the whore sitting in the doorway beckoning young men to come in to her, to lie with her. She dips her sweet words in honey in order to slay her own young. If you are still too blind to see in this late hour of your life perhaps GOD doesn't want you to see. You refuse to hear the truth, quivering and quaking in fear of a nothing. A mere piss ant. She has NO Power! And you are a dummy if you still think she does.
You hate me, but let me remind you I am merely the messenger. GOD's WORD is the pure liberating Truth! Know ye the Truth and the Truth will set you Free!
I done tol'cha!
Who put that seed in your heart that you are nothing? Who told you that the world would reject you, despise you for the color of your skin? Who called you ugly, bug-eyed, nappy haired, flat gun-barrelled nose? Who rebuked, scorned and Raped you? Made you too ashamed to tell? Who feed you to her perverted men?
Who is that woman that does nothing but menace and plant seeds of hate and repulsion? Who is the woman that made your life a living hell? Identify that woman that stalks you, runs ahead of you to snatch, smash and destroy any possible happiness you may hope to have.
Who hides in her secret closet, laughing, grinning, praising herself for remaining anonymous. "Dey ain't gon' nevah know, dumb black a****, he-he-he-he!"
Well if you get all of your Bible teaching and knowledge from her, you deserve to suffer. "Come ye out from among them!"
I am 62 years old and for every single day of my life that woman has cursed me, used me and tried to destroy me. She taught my brothers to hate me. Not one of my five brothers can point to anything I ever did wrong to them. Yet, they shun me, refuse to associate with me based on her lies. She rebukes me for my truth and they follow her lead. She threatened to cut their testicles out every single day they lived. Did she succeed? Are my five brothers psychologically castrated?
I have two brothers that refuse to set foot in a church for fear that all Christians are like her. They refuse to get baptized by going under the water because she is a preacher and told them not to.
Just like the whore sitting in the doorway beckoning young men to come in to her, to lie with her. She dips her sweet words in honey in order to slay her own young. If you are still too blind to see in this late hour of your life perhaps GOD doesn't want you to see. You refuse to hear the truth, quivering and quaking in fear of a nothing. A mere piss ant. She has NO Power! And you are a dummy if you still think she does.
You hate me, but let me remind you I am merely the messenger. GOD's WORD is the pure liberating Truth! Know ye the Truth and the Truth will set you Free!
I done tol'cha!
Dear LORD, ...
I pray for my family, friends and citizens of the world that are afraid or too proud to give their lives to you. I pray that you give understanding to our youth that think they can do anything on their own, without you.
I pray for the wrong thinkers that think I am "too saved", a fanatic, or a lunatic. You are the way LORD! The only way! You open the doors! You slay the dragons, reveal the serpents. It's you LORD!
Where would I be without the LORD on my side? This demonic monster that has done nothing but plot and exercise evil for 88 years is yet unrecognized! Intelligent, "GOD fearing" people remain terrorized pretending to be blind. Pretending they don't know or don't care.
Family! You are enslaved! Get up off of your knees, come out of that bondage. Follow me out of Egypt!
The woman is a fool! An imp for satan. She does not love You! She doesn't love herself. Please know the Truth. Please be set free!
GOD told me that family curses can be broken. Cling to her if you want to. You will never have anything. You will never amount to anything. Every time you deliberately refuse to acknowledge Jerome Walters, your blessed ancestor, you are cursed.
You can let satan lead you to hell if you want to. Remain too blind, too deaf. Keep your blinders on. Sit up under her influence. Take her advice. You will be reduced to a crust of bread.
Pray and fast family. Seek His wisdom.
I pray for the wrong thinkers that think I am "too saved", a fanatic, or a lunatic. You are the way LORD! The only way! You open the doors! You slay the dragons, reveal the serpents. It's you LORD!
Where would I be without the LORD on my side? This demonic monster that has done nothing but plot and exercise evil for 88 years is yet unrecognized! Intelligent, "GOD fearing" people remain terrorized pretending to be blind. Pretending they don't know or don't care.
Family! You are enslaved! Get up off of your knees, come out of that bondage. Follow me out of Egypt!
The woman is a fool! An imp for satan. She does not love You! She doesn't love herself. Please know the Truth. Please be set free!
GOD told me that family curses can be broken. Cling to her if you want to. You will never have anything. You will never amount to anything. Every time you deliberately refuse to acknowledge Jerome Walters, your blessed ancestor, you are cursed.
You can let satan lead you to hell if you want to. Remain too blind, too deaf. Keep your blinders on. Sit up under her influence. Take her advice. You will be reduced to a crust of bread.
Pray and fast family. Seek His wisdom.
"Physician heal thyself."
My sweet LORD, thank you for your wisdom, understanding, patience and guidance. I learned more about my mother's condition today. The term is Histrionic Personality Dsorder. "(HPD) is defined by the American Psychiatric Association as a personality disorder characterized by a pattern of excessive emotionality and attention-seeking, including inappropriately seductive behavior and excessive need for approval, usually beginning in early adulthood. People afflicted by HPD are lively, dramatic, vivacious, enthusiastic, and flirtatious. HPD affects four times as many women as men. It has a prevalence of 2-3% in the general population. ...They may exhibit sexually provocative behavior, express strong emotions with impressionistic style, and can be easily influenced by others. Associated features include egocentrism, self-indulgence, continuous longing for appreciation,and persistent manipulative behavior to achieve their own needs."
Well it seems GOD not only enabled me to "mother" myself, He is guiding me in my healing process. Thank you LORD!
We always knew that she was crazy. We never knew there was a name for it. Malignant narcissistic sociopath! She murdered, so I guess that makes her a psychopath.
Dear LORD thank you for taking the awful hatred out of my heart, for putting Jerome Walters in my life to save me from her maniacal plans. Help her LORD. Touch her poor feeble brain. Release her blind cripple prisoners. Grant her a church, pastor and first lady with the courage to pray for her. Give her a church that will readily acknowledge her illness and lay hands on her. Give her a family that does not fear her but love her. Love her enough to pray for her healing and deliverance.
May my brothers learn to love themselves, define themselves and escape this abomination that has entrapped them since birth.
May she humble herself and come to your cross before it is too late. In the mighty name of Jesus I pray.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Well it seems GOD not only enabled me to "mother" myself, He is guiding me in my healing process. Thank you LORD!
We always knew that she was crazy. We never knew there was a name for it. Malignant narcissistic sociopath! She murdered, so I guess that makes her a psychopath.
Dear LORD thank you for taking the awful hatred out of my heart, for putting Jerome Walters in my life to save me from her maniacal plans. Help her LORD. Touch her poor feeble brain. Release her blind cripple prisoners. Grant her a church, pastor and first lady with the courage to pray for her. Give her a church that will readily acknowledge her illness and lay hands on her. Give her a family that does not fear her but love her. Love her enough to pray for her healing and deliverance.
May my brothers learn to love themselves, define themselves and escape this abomination that has entrapped them since birth.
May she humble herself and come to your cross before it is too late. In the mighty name of Jesus I pray.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Sunday, July 14, 2013
It is alright ...
GOD sees and GOD knows. He has always dispatched His angels to hover over you, to protect you. Do read and study your Bible. Do pray for wisdom and understanding. Practice discernment.
Are you afraid of a demon possessed person because you call her mother? Love is an action verb. It won't let you hurt, haunt and destroy.
GOD knows that you want a mother. Sure you want to be loved. But, darling she is not the one. GOD told you that when your mother and father forsake you He will pick you up. Don't let your desire to be "normal" keep you form GOD's blessings, His arms. All lies, all denial is from the devil.
My research taught me that we had to lie and deny the truth to ourselves in order to survive. She is too painful, too cruel. The sad reality is that she inflicted too much pain, robbed too many for far too long.
"Fear No man. GOD rights every wrong."; has been ringing in my ears for over 50 years. I always heard you LORD. I heard you when I was four years old. No, I didn't understand but I trusted you.
I was three and she deliberately pushed me into a hot wood burning stove. I still carry the scar on my right arm. She told my grandfather I fell into the stove. Told me too, I was only three, what did I know? No one ever explained the horrible scar branded on my oldest brother's beautiful face.
It is time family. "Come ye out from among them." She has no power. We know a lot of the flim-flams she pulled were aided by magician's toys from South of the Border. That "goofer dust" is dirt, just dirt. It has no power.
GOD gave you the Power! "Resist the devil and s/ he will flee." Please don't let a lie that you know is a lie live forever. Jerome Walters did NOT kill himself!
Just like my cousin *C*** *R*******, I knew from the beginning. I knew the moment I got that phone call. I just didn't want to believe it. I was terrified of her. She taught me to shut my mouth and do as I was told. She threatened to kill all of us daily. Just like her private quarry slaves we became conditioned to her abuse. "Don't you criticize Mathy. Don't try to defend yourself. Don't try to appeal to her intellect or sense of right and wrong. Let her abuse you over and over. Ignore it and thank her for not taking your life. Pretend that you haven't noticed that she is mentally unstable, slightly sexually perverted. Attend church with her every Sunday. Brag on her sermons. Brag on her good looks, on the color of her skin, her "good hair" and big legs."
"Never want anything for yourself. When you accomplish something, play it down. Don't be too ambitious. Don't out do her. And never, never let her know that you are happy. Put on the "po' mouf", never have any money because she will borrow it and cuss you out when you ask for it back. Never establish a loving relationship with a spouse because she never had a decent relationship or decent man. Well, she had one decent man but she abused him beyond measure."
She Has NO Power! Why do you insist on fearing her? GOD is disappointed in your lack of faith. He knows! He cares! He is dispatching His angels to rescue you right now! Take the blinders off! Stand up, tell the Truth. Shake the devil off, put her under your feet. GOD's got your back!
Are you afraid of a demon possessed person because you call her mother? Love is an action verb. It won't let you hurt, haunt and destroy.
GOD knows that you want a mother. Sure you want to be loved. But, darling she is not the one. GOD told you that when your mother and father forsake you He will pick you up. Don't let your desire to be "normal" keep you form GOD's blessings, His arms. All lies, all denial is from the devil.
My research taught me that we had to lie and deny the truth to ourselves in order to survive. She is too painful, too cruel. The sad reality is that she inflicted too much pain, robbed too many for far too long.
"Fear No man. GOD rights every wrong."; has been ringing in my ears for over 50 years. I always heard you LORD. I heard you when I was four years old. No, I didn't understand but I trusted you.
I was three and she deliberately pushed me into a hot wood burning stove. I still carry the scar on my right arm. She told my grandfather I fell into the stove. Told me too, I was only three, what did I know? No one ever explained the horrible scar branded on my oldest brother's beautiful face.
It is time family. "Come ye out from among them." She has no power. We know a lot of the flim-flams she pulled were aided by magician's toys from South of the Border. That "goofer dust" is dirt, just dirt. It has no power.
GOD gave you the Power! "Resist the devil and s/ he will flee." Please don't let a lie that you know is a lie live forever. Jerome Walters did NOT kill himself!
Just like my cousin *C*** *R*******, I knew from the beginning. I knew the moment I got that phone call. I just didn't want to believe it. I was terrified of her. She taught me to shut my mouth and do as I was told. She threatened to kill all of us daily. Just like her private quarry slaves we became conditioned to her abuse. "Don't you criticize Mathy. Don't try to defend yourself. Don't try to appeal to her intellect or sense of right and wrong. Let her abuse you over and over. Ignore it and thank her for not taking your life. Pretend that you haven't noticed that she is mentally unstable, slightly sexually perverted. Attend church with her every Sunday. Brag on her sermons. Brag on her good looks, on the color of her skin, her "good hair" and big legs."
"Never want anything for yourself. When you accomplish something, play it down. Don't be too ambitious. Don't out do her. And never, never let her know that you are happy. Put on the "po' mouf", never have any money because she will borrow it and cuss you out when you ask for it back. Never establish a loving relationship with a spouse because she never had a decent relationship or decent man. Well, she had one decent man but she abused him beyond measure."
She Has NO Power! Why do you insist on fearing her? GOD is disappointed in your lack of faith. He knows! He cares! He is dispatching His angels to rescue you right now! Take the blinders off! Stand up, tell the Truth. Shake the devil off, put her under your feet. GOD's got your back!
Pearl #9 ...
Don't give the devil any space in your heart. Make sure satan knows there is no room for him. Don't hate, don't harbor or plot revenge. If you give evil an inch it will take a mile. There is no such thing as being a little bit corrupt. There is no such thing as a "little lie". A lie is a lie and if you tell a lie, that makes you a LIAR!
My mother used to run around the house screaming at the top of her lungs; "He said a LIAR wudden tarry in hiz sight!!!" Yes she knows the WORD, taught me, just could not accept it for herself.
We would laugh when she announced; "I'm 'gon lay my religion down, cuss yo' black a** out, den pick it back up again." Sad to say, I think a lot of people think that way. When we perceive that we have been wronged we instantly forget about GOD and want to handle it ourselves. I think most people still bristle at Jesus' advice to turn the other cheek.
We don't want to be seen as weak , plus we are mad. I grew up in a very violent family and I would fight. To be perfectly honest, I still have a lot of that hostility in me. I love Jesus, but I am not Jesus. Don't push me. I hope and pray that I would pray first. But, I know that I am not there yet.
The problem with reserving a tiny bit of room for evil is that it will take over. The devil is a shrewd manipulator. He is the author and creator of paranoia. You know; "The wicked fleeth when no one pursueth."
The devil made my mother see every one as a potential enemy or a pigeon to be plucked. She had no respect for anyone because she had none for herself. She couldn't love anyone because she couldn't love herself. The devil made her ashamed to ever be wrong. He made her compare herself to every one, made her burn with envy. He would not let her have any joy. He made her think that her con games were victories. In order to boost her low self esteem she was forced to steal, destroy and most of all to LIE, to live in denial and to take her whole family with her
I told you that my mother told me that some man, some friend of the family raped her viciously 3 times when she was an eight year old little girl. This is why I am so adamant about my cause. This is why I demand a conversation about child abuse.
I don't know what kind of little girl my mother was. I suspect she was a little precocious, a little" Lolita". No matter what, no grown man had any business touching her in that way. I also suspect that she was rejected and scorned by the entire tiny community she lived in. I am sure that stroked the fires for her tremendous secret hatred.
I know that she was very disappointed in her father's reaction; "Daddy didn't do nuttin' but run duh n**** off." She lamented sadly.
I am sure I will never get the the whole story. I do know that it is estimated that 25 to 50 percent of children that are sexually abused become abusers themselves. I know that is why she secretly molested us, arranged our sexual assaults.
Of course she knew she was wrong and was deeply ashamed. That's why she has always been a master of deceit and subterfuge. Sadly, it is hilarious in 20/20 hindsight. I went my whole life being constantly puzzled. Why was I always losing one shoe? I always worked, earned my own money and bought my own clothes. My favorite pair of expensive shoes, now worthless. Many beautiful suits that fit my size 4 frame perfectly, ruined. Strangely, the skirt or the pants would turn up missing.
I was in the 3rd grade, showed my mother my homework. Proud! It was beautiful. When I went to turn it in the next day I couldn't find it. I never found it. Again I was mystified.
Sneaky and covert, that's what the devil will do. He will turn you into sneaky slimy vermin and you will hate yourself. You will do things to dishonor yourself compulsively. You will have no restraint or self discipline, no dignity. You will become a woman without virtue, with out discretion. You will want it, crave it, but that little evil you secretly harbor will forever prevent you
I now understand why my mother had sex with all those men in that day room of the barracks in my presence when I was 19. She could not help herself. She had sold out to satan and he was having his way with her, degrading her. Poor Martha has been lost in self hatred for her entire life. She can't hear GOD, can't listen and can't see. Pray for her. Pray that she will finally hear the LORD tenderly calling. Pray that one day she will realize that she is forgiven.
Spewing hatred, curses and lies on me is an instant satanic reaction. It could happen to you , to me, if you reserve even a small space for evil. If you think or say; "Jesus is too slow, I'm gon' cuss yo' a** out right now!"
Let GOD handle your problems. Let Him fight your battles. In due time Jesus will fix it. Trust GOD, He rights every wrong.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
My mother used to run around the house screaming at the top of her lungs; "He said a LIAR wudden tarry in hiz sight!!!" Yes she knows the WORD, taught me, just could not accept it for herself.
We would laugh when she announced; "I'm 'gon lay my religion down, cuss yo' black a** out, den pick it back up again." Sad to say, I think a lot of people think that way. When we perceive that we have been wronged we instantly forget about GOD and want to handle it ourselves. I think most people still bristle at Jesus' advice to turn the other cheek.
We don't want to be seen as weak , plus we are mad. I grew up in a very violent family and I would fight. To be perfectly honest, I still have a lot of that hostility in me. I love Jesus, but I am not Jesus. Don't push me. I hope and pray that I would pray first. But, I know that I am not there yet.
The problem with reserving a tiny bit of room for evil is that it will take over. The devil is a shrewd manipulator. He is the author and creator of paranoia. You know; "The wicked fleeth when no one pursueth."
The devil made my mother see every one as a potential enemy or a pigeon to be plucked. She had no respect for anyone because she had none for herself. She couldn't love anyone because she couldn't love herself. The devil made her ashamed to ever be wrong. He made her compare herself to every one, made her burn with envy. He would not let her have any joy. He made her think that her con games were victories. In order to boost her low self esteem she was forced to steal, destroy and most of all to LIE, to live in denial and to take her whole family with her
I told you that my mother told me that some man, some friend of the family raped her viciously 3 times when she was an eight year old little girl. This is why I am so adamant about my cause. This is why I demand a conversation about child abuse.
I don't know what kind of little girl my mother was. I suspect she was a little precocious, a little" Lolita". No matter what, no grown man had any business touching her in that way. I also suspect that she was rejected and scorned by the entire tiny community she lived in. I am sure that stroked the fires for her tremendous secret hatred.
I know that she was very disappointed in her father's reaction; "Daddy didn't do nuttin' but run duh n**** off." She lamented sadly.
I am sure I will never get the the whole story. I do know that it is estimated that 25 to 50 percent of children that are sexually abused become abusers themselves. I know that is why she secretly molested us, arranged our sexual assaults.
Of course she knew she was wrong and was deeply ashamed. That's why she has always been a master of deceit and subterfuge. Sadly, it is hilarious in 20/20 hindsight. I went my whole life being constantly puzzled. Why was I always losing one shoe? I always worked, earned my own money and bought my own clothes. My favorite pair of expensive shoes, now worthless. Many beautiful suits that fit my size 4 frame perfectly, ruined. Strangely, the skirt or the pants would turn up missing.
I was in the 3rd grade, showed my mother my homework. Proud! It was beautiful. When I went to turn it in the next day I couldn't find it. I never found it. Again I was mystified.
Sneaky and covert, that's what the devil will do. He will turn you into sneaky slimy vermin and you will hate yourself. You will do things to dishonor yourself compulsively. You will have no restraint or self discipline, no dignity. You will become a woman without virtue, with out discretion. You will want it, crave it, but that little evil you secretly harbor will forever prevent you
I now understand why my mother had sex with all those men in that day room of the barracks in my presence when I was 19. She could not help herself. She had sold out to satan and he was having his way with her, degrading her. Poor Martha has been lost in self hatred for her entire life. She can't hear GOD, can't listen and can't see. Pray for her. Pray that she will finally hear the LORD tenderly calling. Pray that one day she will realize that she is forgiven.
Spewing hatred, curses and lies on me is an instant satanic reaction. It could happen to you , to me, if you reserve even a small space for evil. If you think or say; "Jesus is too slow, I'm gon' cuss yo' a** out right now!"
Let GOD handle your problems. Let Him fight your battles. In due time Jesus will fix it. Trust GOD, He rights every wrong.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
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