Glorified!

He said no weapon formed against me would prosper and that is exactly what He meant.  An old simple minded, fast ***, fallen, whorish woman,  thought she knew every thing and falsely believed every man wanted her, or should want her.  Even kin, it didn't matter.

Why?   Rebellious, hard headed, full of pride and she did seriously hate GOD.  She hated GOD for His commandments and she hated her saintly, truly saved father , for constantly , gently admonishing her.

Poor foolish Martha was lured to the dark side with her great gifts for the occult and her serious insane jealousy.  She hated her own first cousin *Ivey Jane for have "straight as a shingle" hair and being more white looking.   Martha raged so irrationally that she threw *Ivey Jane's brand new "Sunday-go-to-meetin'" shoes in the fireplace.

Little evil redheaded Mathy Jane was always up to no good.  She was unexplainable and dreadfully evil.  I found my mother again today in Isaiah 65!

What is it?  GOD's Divine Order! Hallelujah!

Please permit me to take you a little further in this WORD.

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13 - 14: "Therefore thus saith the LORD GOD, Behold, my servants shall eat, but ye shall be hungry; behold, my servants shall drink, but ye shall be thirsty: behold, my servants shall rejoice, but you shall be ashamed: Behold, my servants shall sing for joy of heart, but ye shall cry for sorrow of heart, and shall howl for vexation of spirit."

23 -24 :"They shall not labor in vain, nor bring forth for trouble; for they are the seed of the blessed of the LORD, and their offspring with them.  And it shall come to pass, that before they call, I will answer: and while they are yet speaking, I will hear."

"They shall not labor in vain"  GOD did not call me here to be Mathy's footstool, her dirty washrag.  A woman so common she offered her own little brown bastard children to her lovers, just because she could.

My mother never tired of showing me how much she truly hated me, was viciously jealous of me and fully intended to ruin me and make me a worse wretch than she was.  GOD did not permit me to suffer and survive her secret cowardly torture for 62 years  for nothing.  For people to say; "Just get over it! Move on with your life."  At 63 this is my life.  At the longest it is not long.  This is the last chapter of my book.  Why didn't some of you tell that horrid lying "preaching, reaching, scavenging"  whore to leave me alone?

Did she foolishly think she was winning?  Apparently so.  Was she as common as bat ****, like the people in Wade Station, North Carolina, always said?  Apparently so.

I have surmised that abominable fear and sheer ignorance,  kept Mathy "protected" from the law.and the horror of her many acts and daily deeds,  kept us stunned, mortified,  in the deep shame that she should have experienced.

"…nor bring forth trouble."; I am not telling to make trouble.  I am telling because GOD told me to tell!  Because I promised her I would tell when I was eight years old and she cussed me out for having the nerve to complain about being viciously RAPED!

"Dry dem f***** tears up! The mo' you cry, the less you piss!"

"… for they are the seed of the blessed of the LORD,"   I am the offspring of a brilliant, anointed man of GOD!  JEROME WALTERS!   I know that he was blessed because he was a black man that acquired 65 acres of land in the rural south when blacks were prohibited from buying  such land.  I know he was blessed because he had orchards, vineyards, barns, a huge rambling ranch style home.  I know he was blessed because he could lend and never mention repayment!  I know he was blessed because to hear him speak,  would put you in awe.   He was wise, he was kind and most of all he was humble.  A  great anointed man of GOD,  that his own ignorant, foul, succubus of a daughter, did dare MURDER!  Why? Jealous! Covetous!    She did laugh at him, lie on him, at us, on us for our entire lives.  Did offer us up as sacrifices to her family and friends in order to divert attention from her foul life.   And did die thinking that she would get away forever.

Did die cursing GOD, bragging that she wasn't repenting for ****!

She did MURDER him in 1979.  I did start contacting my family and the Fayetteville Police Department in 1988, all to no avail.

A woman that will rape and brutally assault her own babies,  a woman that did brag about flushing 5 of her babies down the toilet, would have no problem shooting and old 84 year old infirm man in the heart.

For all my nay sayers that say; "Forget it!"  Are you really that common? that immoral?  My grandfather was not a dog or a blowfly.  He was a poor man liken unto Job,  vexed with the most whorish rebellious daughter possible.

How dare you be dumb enough to permit this world to identify your heroes for you.  You worship, remember and cherish the name of men that you didn't know.  Tomas Jefferson took the virginity of 13 year old Sally Hemmings and made her his concubine when he was 42.  I bet you skin and grin when you hear his name.  You cherish his face on that money.

George Washington never had any children, he was rendered sterile as a result of syphilis and he died from pneumonia when Martha held a musket on him and made him stand in the Potomac river for hours when she caught him fornicating in the slave quarters.

You don't read, you don't study, but you scoff and quick to tell me to shut up!  I will shut up when we "disremember"  the Holocaust.  When we forget slavery and every war fought for personal freedom and liberty.

I am Rachel Gwendolyn Doster, the proud granddaughter of a righteous man, the man that saved my life.  Praise the LORD!

Trust Him!

GOD put Adam to sleep when He took his rib to make his helpmate , Eve . GOD rocked me to sleep while my own mother delighted in her secret torture, feed by her irrational insane jealousy. 

Dumb "YALLA heifer" found out far too late in her rebellious life that color has nothing to do with GOD's anointing.

Was she finally just too ashamed to repent? Perhaps? She was a wretch, something so dispicable, GOD TOLD ME TO WARN!

Be very careful. Don't be so quick to ridicule and revile me. Don't be so quick to scream ; "Shut up!" Do not let your dull understanding convince you that you can begin to comprehend GOD's Divine Order.  And what ever you do, do not be a stumbling block. Get out of GOD's way!

Praise the LORD ...

from whom all blessings flow.  GOD just showed me something.  He revealed something very key to my healing.  He had to let Mathy be Mathy.  He deliberately let her have her way for 87 years so that I could see , could be confident in every word of that Book!

My testimony will not save all , but GOD has assured me that some potential slaves for satan have been saved, prevented.  There are many that will never touch witchcraft, Tarot cards, Ouija boards, or go near the occult as a result of what they have learned here.

I lost all five of my brothers. They are gone.  She very successfully taught them to hate their own grandfather and me.  She was always serpent-ish, slithering around, half dressed, wearing nothing but a bra and half slip, using the bathroom with the door standing open.

Woman!  GOD said NO to nasty whorishness!

Having loud carnal sex with the door open or unlocked, pretending it was an accident.  If any of my family hates or rejects me,  for the likes of her, so be it!  Bye!   Because I refuse to be conned.    You accuse me of being unforgiving because I refuse to be the blithering idiots you five are.

You have no defense !  You are not that dumb or in love.  We suffered together!  She held us all hostage, mistreated all of us.  I think two, the two born in "wedlock" she pretended to prefer and to treat better.  I notice she never gave you two five cents to go to college with either.  She told just as many lies on you and "rooted" you just as much.

She tied you up like a hog and nearly beat you to death!  Left you in a bloody pile, targeted your testicles and penis! And made us watch in horror!

That's "yo'mama"?  Never did anything but stalk and destroy you.  Somebody is lying!  You five have other reasons for cloaking for Mathy.  You need not cloak.  It is coming out.  It is going to be made known.  Don't believe me.  Believe in GOD's WORD.

Get it right!  How can I forgive her for something she claimed she never did.

Glad to be a blabber mouth for Christ!

"I'll always love my mama!"  Go straight to hell with her!

No wonder she suffered with ...

debilitating self hatred.  She should have!  Martha was a pervert. plain and simple.  Of course her childhood rape pointed her in that direction.  But what kept her there?  Going down on graves conjuring up evil spirits, a sure sign of the most ignorant stupidity I ever heard of.

The fact that she was a PATHOLOGICAL LIAR did not help her.  

Dear LORD, please forgive me.  I know that I should not be glad that my mother is dead.  But, I will not lie.  I am jubilant !  That woman was a beast!  Dear LORD, if you have any more women like that, do the best you can to keep them away from GOD's innocent children.

Make them known LORD, reveal them.  Sometimes I do get a little lonely.  I have no friends , well very , very few.  I have no family, very few relatives dare even associate with ME!  It tears me up inside to be hated on account of her.  I wonder if any one can possibly know what it feels like to be hated and despised by your own mother for 62 years?  Lied on and set up repeatedly, always trying to arrange some sexual assault ? Canceling great careers.  I could have been the first black female anchor in Greensboro, NC.  I foolishly shared that news with my mother.  So you know it never happened.  The first black paralegal with the city attorney for Fayetteville, NC.

My daughter wants to know why I kept sharing, keep trying to win her love.  It had to be GOD's will, His Divine Order.  Or perhaps I am as dumb as my mother always declared me to be.

The wicked demons eyes would turn fire red and she would mock me; "Yo' life didn't turn out lak you planned it,  did it?"  Get a pet, a little dog or cat, express love for it, it would be dead the next day.


I really didn't know more mistreatment was even possible.  Any one that prefers to shine her "halo" and pretend that she was a preacher must be just as wicked, just as demon possessed as she was.

Jesus told us that many are called and few are chosen.  When GOD said few, He sure meant few.  I had no idea he meant few as in "two", LOL.

One thing about it, I am not stupid.  My ignorant mother told me that I thought too much of myself!  Woman you were a fool!  One complete idiot.   Every time I think about your "dirt chunking", I fall on my knees!

You blithering idiot!  And it hurts me to know, in order for my family to still love you, to still fear you and you as dead as dead can be, they must be operating on one brain cell!

Than you Jesus, you said to shun, from such stay away.

I know you all know!  If you are as dumb as you pretend to be, you deserve to be lost.  You deserve the hell you are rotting in.  You all have Mathy Jane disease.  Talking to her lying *** was like preaching to a brick wall.  At least she would pretend to listen.  She did pretend to love the LORD and she would repeat the good information you taught her.

And for all the friends and family that shun me for my unrelentless rant about severe sexual child abuse, you are liars too.  You are merciless and uncaring also.  Pray! Pray for the indwelling of the Holy Spirit.
*"There are only two states f being: submission to GOD and goodness or refusal to submit to anything beyond one's own will - which refusal automatically enslaves one to the forces of evil.  We must ultimately belong either to GOD or the devil.  This paradox was, of course, expressed by Christ when He said, 'Whosoever will save his life shall lose it.  And whosoever shall lose his life, for my sake, shall find it."

"There is no neutral ground in the universe: every square inch, every split second is claimed by GOD and counter claimed by satan." C.S. Lewis

"We must choose."

If you really want to know why I am so devastated, my mother was so good.  I am sure no greater closet demo monstrosity has ever lived.  With that, my greatest wish is death to tyrants, and a miserable torturous death to all baby rapers.

Sucked in by a succubus

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Praise GOD Almighty for delivering me from the hands of my mortal enemy!  Jesus you told us in your  WORD that mothers would be against daughters, daughters against mothers.

Born with a good spirit, a Holy anointed spirit, I  suffered, I was forced to suffer mightily, mysteriously, over and over, by a mortal enemy,  I failed to identify clearly as such for many, many years.

At 63,  I know full well what love feels like and I know what unbridled secret demonic hatred feels like.  Plagued by a succubus, mocked, stalked, crucified, lied on, tortured and tormented by a homemade demon for my entire life, I am finally coming to myself.  Finally realizing that I have a right to the Tree of Life, that I am somebody!

GOD said NO!

Born October 9, 1925, in Wade, North Carolina, to Jerome and Rachel Walters, a girl child so mystifyingly evil , it still takes my breath away to describe her.  As a result of her maniacal stealth constant evil,  I suffer with PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder).

Thanks to the information highway I have discovered the many names for my mother's condition; malignant narcissist, pathological liar, sadistic sociopath, nymphomaniac, psychopath .  Every name for something evil describes the woman that held my heart hostage for her carnal pleasure for decades.

A beautiful, charismatic, gifted woman that "lived" on this earth for 87 years as the most evil despicable successful succubus that ever lived.   Jesus did tell us to look at their fruit.  To listen to Martha, her sweet siren, you would be enraptured, her slave forever.

But if you look at her fruit and refuse to entertain any excuse from her lying foul mouth, you will know and you will shun.  There is no blessing in honoring her memory.  There is a curse.  Love her if you want to,  you are accursed.  Refuse to honor JEROME WALTERS, you are accursed.

Keep pretending that you don't know and don't want to know about such whorish women.  You better get on your knees right now and pray that your son or grandson never falls into the clutches of such a creature.  There is no freedom, there is no escape, SHE IS A SUCCUBUS!

I tell you GOD is tired of this mess!  There is no reason on this earth for this creature to have been allowed to live so wrong, so long, other than our collective ignorance.    Ignorance and lack of knowledge feed to us by her.

• Don't nevah git baptized again, dey ain't but one baptism
• Honor thy mother! (Very hollow disingenuous words from a woman that shot her own father in the heart and laughed)
• You sitting on a gold mine
• Truth and honesty don't get you no where but USED
• I would take that to my grave
• GAWD too slow

"My people perish for lack of knowledge."  Most people do not read the Bible.  Most people are lost running from pillar to post leaning to their own understanding.  Positive that the keen intelligence, satan deluded them into believing they possess,  is enough.

"You done runt out dawthur ….you can't go no lower." I am very sure I was barely three when I heard my grandfather deliver those words to that woman,  Mathy Jane,  the infrequent interloper that came by whenever she needed more money.

Something so evil and deplorable she refused to look at herself.  We got sucked in by a succubus.
Six children born into the clutches of a selfish, heartless, merciless, sick, sadistic, greedy whore, so disrespectful, so rebellious and common , she preached!

That Jezebel/Python searched for a "church" where she could be adored , honored and accepted,  though she was as phony as a three dollar bill.   (Martha was always hostile, angry, insulting.  I know for a fact that she hated all of her pulpit associates because she told me.  She called them all bunch of dummies.  She demanded to be the one selected to preach in her pastor's absence.  She stole sermon's blatantly stole Jasper Williams an Augusta H. Hall, dry)   Martha did not preach one single day to save souls!  She preached because she needed to find a place to wear her fine clothes. Where she could slay people with her fineness, almost "whiteness".  A place where she could act holy and put on a show for a few hours a day.  Some where to park her luxury car.

GOD said NO!

Thank you LORD, my bad dream, my 62 year nightmare,  is finally over.  Praise the LORD.  Honor her or remain silent concerning your constant abuse, if you want to.  You will never prosper.

"Judge not that you be not judged"

It is no secret what GOD can do.  He can and will do mightily. I am living proof.  I have been through the fire!

I said Dear LORD, how do I explain my anointing to unbelievers? "You don't have to.  Like minds come together, are drawn to each other.  Those that have scorned, mocked,  and ridiculed you when you were at your lowest,  all knew better.  Like your mother they refuse the indwelling of the Holy Spirit.  They don't want it.  They live to hate, revile and injure. It gives them joy because they refuse to look inwardly.  Do forgive them.  They do not care, can not care and will never care without the indwelling of the Holy Spirit."

The Dear LORD has spoken very clearly to me, led and guided me for my entire life.  GOD strengthened me to know my most horrible truth.

"Don't you(blankety , blank, blank tell a _______ ______ thang dat go on in dis house!"  That was our law.  We all knew better to breathe a word about anything that went on in my mother's house.  Did I fully comprehend how deeply evil and depraved she actually was? No!!! GOD put blinders on, put me on auto pilot until I could understand.

My mother did exactly what she wanted to, with whomever she wanted to , when ever she wanted to.  Was she a master liar ? " Yes!  A brilliant actress?  Yes!  Did she know that she would be found out, revealed to the world by me, one day?   She sure did because she told me, Mother's Day, 2005.

I was mystified.  "You'll be duh one tuh betray me one day!" ; she angrily scoffed and barked.  Like the frail docile slave she created, I responded; "I would never do that mother."  Little did I know.

I am sitting here humbled, marveling as GOD unfolds His WORD in my heart.  Crying, Thank you Jesus! Thank you Jesus!

I do know this misery I suffered, we suffered, had to be done.  When merely reading the word about ravenous wolves infiltrating GOD's house, His pulpits, it is simply literature.  But when you put a face on it, add the sick deeds done to innocent children by their so called anointed preaching mother you will get someone's attention.  To realize that one woman could be so common, so evil,  for so long, not undetected, but feared, is more than amazing, it is the fulfillment of GOD's Truth, His Justice .

A loathsome creature so feared she roared and destroyed for 87 years , unencumbered.  GOD said NO!

A woman so horrible,  granddaddy had no answer for her behavior , other than; "When your head is in the lion's mouth, don't make any sudden moves."  And: "Leave heah (here) and don't nevah come back!"

Martha was an evil despicable tyrant but also so unmerciful you could not flee her.   She would not leave one victim alone.  It was as if she were pleading; "I need some one to torture!  I can't look at my  own despicable life! I need someone to cast down, walk on, ridicule, over and over.  Since you nitwits were born to me. Since that righteous GOD,  that I secretly hate, saddled me with your worthless ***,  because I am full of pride over my good looks, light skin, good  hair, and "skills", I chose you to sacrifice you.  I will sacrifice you Gwen!  You will be my footstool. I am merciless and full of abominable hatred.  I  will destroy you gladly for my king satan.  I fully intend to snatch every dream, every gift, every hope, every promise, you ever thought of having."

Do know that somewhere between my mother and ex-husband, every manuscript, (including my master's thesis),  every book of poetry and prose, every piece of art, was destroyed while I was birthing my daughter alone.  Completely alone, in Southwest Community Hospital ALONE! No mother, no husband, not even a friend. No nurse, no attendant , no doctor.  I suffered mightily for 28 lonely hours. I refused all painkillers, no anesthesia , for fear it would harm my  beautiful baby, someone I loved dearly the moment I conceived.

No, I was not totally alone because I had Jesus.  He held my hand during the whole ordeal.  When my baby was born with the umbilical cord wrapped tightly around her neck, GOD interceded, sent the doctor in.

For all my critics that scream; "Shut up! I am tired of hearing it.  I hope you know that you are also merciless.  You know that there are men and women that do in fact rape their own babies while you scream shut up.   Incest and pedophila is on the upswing,  while you scream "Shut up!" May the Dear LORD have mercy on your soul.

Something to ponder, if my mother born in 1925, became something so repugnant, the world refuses to know about her, what does this new generation promise?  They have the vile Internet?  There are far more greedy ravenous selfish "preachers" in existence today.  Fewer and fewer read the word, less than that genuinely study it.

I am still very ashamed of my mother. ( Pray for me.)  I do know she had to be.  We had to go through this in order to see, to know, that every Word in that Book is true.

When I realized that my own mother  was so devious,  she forced me to drink a whole tumbler of alcohol at eight years old , so that she and her just as despicable husband could rape me, I was deeply ashamed.

Now I am proud.  I can look back over my life, 62 years of mystifying pain, and understand why.  Martha was too common.  The people in Wesley Chapel A.M.E. Zion church knew.  "Common as bat ****!" was all I ever heard as a small child.  People said that in the church!  I don't think they would have let her in without granddaddy's presence.

I do not know when her evil started.  I don't know if she was born evil.  I know that it was her first cousin that shared with me the fact that my mother smashed a puppy to death between two bricks when she was a child.  I do know that she remained secretly sadistic for her entire life.

I love and forgive every one in my family.   She was a tyrant!  She was a beast! Continue to hate and revile me if you so desire.  But, not one of you can point to anything that I ever did wrong to you.  I have never lied on you or hated you in any way.

I do cry for you.  I was privileged to see the evil she did unto you.  She did pick and chose the ones to savagely beat and the ones to spoil and pretend to love deeply.  "You luddle black bastards"  We suffered the most.  If our fathers fled her evil before she could get their names on a marriage contract, we suffered!  We suffered so mightily,  we came to accept it as normal.  So beaten down and trauma bonded,  we learned to be grateful for a phony smile.

GOD said NO!

Help me LORD Jesus! Send me a publisher, a great publisher that is honest.  Send me a producer, put my life on film!  Send me,  good merciful Jesus,  loving children to help me fulfill your will.  And it is done in Jesus' name. Amen.

Junior Wells - Cryin' Shame

I am not with any of this racial division and color bias.  Not one bit.  If I had one dime for every time my mother blasted me for the color of my skin I do believe I would be a millionaire.

Why hate people for the color of their skin?  They can't go back up into the womb and change it.  Martha had to blast every one darker than she was because that is the only thing she had that made her feel better.  She could not possibly feel good about her low moral character, or her total inability to be truthful on any subject.

A shameless, merciless, conjuring "root worker" that very successfully fooled every one she knew or met that she genuinely, sincerely, loved the LORD.

The only time I saw her cry was when that young third husband ran off with the Cadillac she did put in his name.  She fooled us into believing she was a hurt, scorned, wronged woman.  She was just hurt that he ran off with her long sleek car and now she had to start over scrambling some other man's brains.

Some things are a crying shame.