true, I might not be the brightest , but I am far from that dummy satan demands that I be. I WILL NOT SHUT UP! YOU SHUT UP! YOU ******* ******! You pusillanimous ignoramuses! Dear LORD please save the world from these on-line PhDs, these "educated", indoctrinated , loud clamorous, blessing blockers. No one is that stupid, nor that callous. You understand me and understand me well, you jealous, envious heifer! You lust after gifts you wish you had, yet you remain unwilling to earn them. Like a spoiled toddler, you demand to have your way. Pitch a loud ignorant tantrum to get your way. Talk slam and rude to people to get your way. Call on your flying monkeys to get your way. Wave your status and "money" to get your way! Make every one around you miserable yet silent to get your way! You are the Queen Bee, you know everything about everything. You claim to be a devout Christian because you attend an all black prominent church. You are always on the front line marching against the slightest indication of any wrong doing committed by a white person. When it comes to exposing filth committed by human beings, that just so happen to be black, prominent in the church, you shrink. "Now, that ain't none of my business. Frankly I am tired of hearing about it! How do we even know it is true? I am an expert on everything black and I know for a fact that she is lying. Her life is impossible! Let's ostracize her! Plunge the rusty dagger in deeper, twist it, grin, feign compassion. Now, run on and look for another victim to satisfy your sadistic narcissistic supply." Not only do you shrink, YOU LIE! YOU PREACH AND PREVARICATE ! You are a liar and the truth is not in you! You do want so desperately to be that Queen Bee, you pretend to be. You are a roaring racist. You do not have a shrewd of compassion for anyone on this earth.
Why do you insist on being called "Doctor"? Why aren't you comfortable with using your first name? You use that title to bully, to show proof that you are tough, that you are intelligent. You are a fool, move out of GOD's way.
I stand alone, accused or hatred, " unforgiveness", of seeking revenge, of being stuck on stupid.
I alone, begged my mother to repent. I alone, solicited her church to pray for her. My concern for my mother's salvation points towards love and compassion, the direct opposite of hate.
"Unforgiveness" is the label my mother pinned on me. "Unforgiveness" for what? You claimed to be innocent of all charges. You did not call me "unforgiving" to my face after I voluntarily (at the LORD's urging) returned to your den of iniquity after a nine year hiatus.
I did exactly as you demanded, I put every horrible , sick sadistic deed you every perpetrated against me, against anyone, even the MURDER of my grandfather, in the "sea of forgetfulness". And yet again you betrayed me. Played the hopeless harlot to the end. "Good riddance to bad rubbish."
You accuse me of seeking revenge. Just what for? You accuse ME of hating you, of being jealous of you. Why would I be jealous of a beautiful, clairvoyant woman that squandered her life, her gifts, a woman that lived for 87 years, bringing nothing but misery and pain?
I will not be robbed by some reprehensible reprobate. A woman so common, so horrifying you will wail! When you finally know the Martha Jane Walters succubus I (we) survived by GOD's Divine Order, you will wail to Almighty GOD; "Mercy Father! No more! No mas!" Knowledge of her unrepentant, unrequited deeds will cause you to weep.
Who would dare to let such a creature off unscathed? Her wounded, destroyed victims that chose to be like her, were manipulated by her clever cunning, to cloak for her, to lie and deny like her, to be cold callous and selfish like her, to be a predator like her.
Those just as envious, just as common. No decent person on this earth could ever know of such a woman and keep silent. No decent, honest, GOD loving, GOD fearing human being would dare to love or hide such a woman!
Check your character. Why are you here? Are you just another lying, lustful hypocrite? What good are you? Will this world miss your "good deeds" when you are gone?
Thank GOD she made me her scapegoat!
"Ye shall know them by their fruit." What good is empty rhetoric? Scream who you are! If you have to announce yourself and describe yourself, maybe you are trying to convince yourself. My poor mother screamed; "I'm a Lady!", all day, every day, for 87 years, while knowing full well what a repugnant ogre she really was.
"Forgive" , were the words always in my mother's mouth. Claiming to be merely human, Martha Jane Walters, knew she was a roaring sick demon all the time. Purely loved it! Relished it! Had to, the list is too long
puppy pounded to death by her little hands
burns baby brother's hands in fireplace
grandmother mysteriously catches on fire
burns first cousin's shoes in fireplace
attempts to murder her own father at 16
freely had sex with any and all first cousins, crossed serious boundaries of age, kingship and gender and demanded to be kept secret
severely burns first son's handsome face
pours pot of hot coffee on toddler son
burned me severely at age 3, pushed me into a red hot stove
rapes and molestation are constant but kept top secret
constantly bragged about flushing 5 babies down the toilet
worked voodoo freely and clapped her hands and squealed like a pig when she claimed she was victorious
destroyed every book, manuscript, prose, poetry, art, clothes, saxophone, relationship, good name and reputation of all her children that she secretly hated and blamed for her low life
MURDERED HER OWN FATHER! FRAMED HIM FOR SUICIDE! (don't believe me, I bet you can NOT find a tombstone on his grave!)
for 87 years mysterious, mystifying, misery, simply to elevate herself. Martha was incapable of love, could only mimic it momentarily, evidently
refused to repent of her sins
died cursing GOD!
died forbidding that her awful life ever be revealed to a living soul
Those hot soapy enemas when we were toddlers should have been our first clue. No, like most of you, I always wanted to believe my mother was just another lying hypocrite , faking it until she made it to "heaven".
No sir! You wish, I wish. As angry and frustrated as I become when lame ass, never had a hang nail people advise me; "Just get over it!"
Let me tell you something, you simple minded judgmental "think you know eva'thang". You know nothing about pain, about murder, and certainly know less about mercy.
Dear LORD, deliver your innocent children from the hands of these selfish vipers. Do not let them hide in your churches. Expose denominations that dare give a woman like my mother a license to preach!
That is repugnant! I am offended! I want my money back! I got fleeced!
Yes, GOD, I see and I clearly understand. She had to be taken out of the way. She was an OUTLAW!
It is hilarious now. This movie is locked in my head forever!
My brother and I ( 4 and 5) were sitting in the front seat of my mother's brand new husband's brand new 1955 powder blue Ford. Parked directly behind our new "quarters" on Smoke Bomb Hill, Fort Bragg, NC. Martha was in the back seat with some man. Suddenly XXXXXX springs out of nowhere, (the first black ninja ) busted the side window out with his fist! Pandemonium! Blood gushing! Cussing! Glass and body parts flying! Mathy pulled her "draws" up in a millisecond, and proceeded to whoop XXXXXX's ass! She whooped that ****'s ass, until she got tired! Rested, and whooped him again! He barely escaped with his life. I swear, I think she beat all of the clothes off of him! I know she swore to beat all of the black off of him. And he ended up begging her back.
That is a LAWBREAKER!
Yea, GOD I understand. Brother Paul knew something. You have to "let" some people "let" until they be taken out.
Let it roll! Be who you are! Live your life unto the Glory of GOD, not man, never lying hypocritical man. A man that only does what is convenient , when it is convenient.
"Mark that man!" "Mark that lying hypocritical man that did deliberately lead astray and made criminals out of millions of millions of GOD's children. Now, suddenly we can smoke weed. Now, he finds all of these great medicinal properties that no one knew about.
Read Genesis 1:11, GOD said He gave us the "Herb" LOL
You better hurry and learn "Critical Thinking Skills"and practice them.
No I will not let that demonic whore hide behind the door, roaring stinking with filth. Filth that she did sling on me. The ***** was too common to give me a fighting chance. Started me on the road to Perdition at age three! (That 3hour cursing down in the woods, next to the house *Queen Ester Zoar , lived in.
Instead of improving herself. Instead of concentrating on her gifts she fought to destroy. GOD said NO!
The fact is, I gave her more credit. I readily believed in the make believe mother/sister/princess/Queen/preacher/root worker/know-it-all-godhead she created and re-created every day.
Very unlike my brothers, I knew to never trust her completely.
Did granddaddy know? He must have. Why else did he put that Bible in my hand just as soon as he heard I could read.
Why was he their to refute every lie? Why would a very mild mannered man jump on her quick if she went too far with my abuse in his presence?
was permitted to run roughshod over my family. A ruthless, selfish, greedy, envious, disrespectful, sick sadistic LAWBREAKER!
She had to come here, GOD had to "let" her Let" "until she be taken out of the way." EVIL! Rotten, low down savage! A baby brutalizer, a baby rapist, a whorish untrustworthy woman. A woman so common she hid behind her "race" as a cover for her deliberate filth.
I am proof that the people can't learn if they have no teacher. Common, evil, carnal lawbreakers holler Jesus and justice the most when corned by their own deliberate sin.
My mother cursed me. Called me the foulest names imaginable when I finally mustered up the courage to finally inquire about my molestation.
"The wicked fleeth, when no one pursueth ."
"Whut you trying to say!?…(half barked, half screamed) I had sumptin' tuh do wid it!? …"
My mother was a terrorist. She was a brutal common savage. If you looked for tell- talel signs of decency, like nervousness , guilt, or even embarrassment , when you caught Mathy in wrong doing, you better quickly forget about it.
To know Martha was bad news. She was the friend that your parents told you to shun. I bet if I went to the Cumberland County court house, right now, I would find an article concerning my mother's arrest for prostitution.
She was a criminal . Was she a born criminal? Was it nature or nurture? She was awful. She had NO conscious! She was a selfish carnal animal by choice. She was a good preacher or should I say repeater ?
She could preach the hell out of someone else's sermon. Was she too lazy to read the Bible? No, simply rebellious. She demanded to be revered for the color of her skin, for the texture of her hair. She did demand to have her way, to "dilly-dally" with her perversions when she was bored or the days she got up roaring with jealousy for your accomplishments.
Some how I do believe that Mathy promised satan that she would punish the entire world, her entire life , for not making her Queen. For "Success" failing to come flocking to her door. Every one that got a compliment, recognition, earned a degree, instead of her, would pay. And they would pay dearly. They would never know, never in a million years guess , that she was the ravenous wolf, Python snake not hiding up in the wood pile, but coiled up around your tender heart.
Mathy hated me the most. Not for being a rebellious teen. But, for being her exact opposite. I kept the ***"s house clean, earned good grades and kept my virginity. (So I thought)
Martha hated the world for having to work, pay bills, cook for a man the same age as her oldest son. Martha did hate that loathsome feeling she carried, tucked deeply inside her. Hidden carefully by loving false words, compliments that made her gag.
She was mad that, that "boy" came back. How could she fix yet another mess she created? Martha resorted to her same old remedies, witchcraft.
"You might be my color, but you are not my kind." I will not lock step or march with you. You know your son did wrong. He was a lawbreaker, not a toddler. He had a long history of violent lawbreaking. No one is paid enough to risk their life coddling your son.
Stop spreading racial division. It is character, not color. You will not use me. You will not get me to join your posse because we be kin, because we are black, because we have to stick together.
All exploiters of ignorance, racism and hatred should sit down. Some things are commonsense. I understand your grief. But go back to the WORD. " Study to show yourself approved."
To my family or family members, still hiding, sill holding onto a toxic memory, hold on. Your own mother , grandmother, aunt, cousin, friend, pastor, Sunday School teacher, came to this earth, did abominably for 87 years and you remain silent out of fear.
You can hold on to satan's hand out of fear, fearing being known or recognized with me. Keep crossing the road. You all can chunk all the dirt you want in that ditch now. I'm not in there. I am not sleeping. I am alive and well!
Try GOD! The real GOD, not some homemade monstrosity, half voodoo, half Holy. "Come ye out from among them!"
Is it truly fear, are you minding your own business, or are you , just as common, selfish, greedy and "all for yourself"?
I came to tell you that it doesn't matter what you do or don't do. GOD's got this! He is in control. Relax in the back seat. Let Jesus drive. Turn your music on. Free fall!
Be abundantly blessed today as you travel on your way. I hope you are searching for the truth. I hope you are trying to bless someone other than yourself. Do know that it is far more than Jesus on the lips. You must obey.
