A freak of nature.

It does happen. Every once in a great while Mother Nature will get her wires crossed, something will go wrong. I have seen the preserved remains of two-headed snakes, a chicken that lived much too long after being beheaded.

We all know of, have heard  of incest. I've only had one pastor to so much as mention it from the pulpit.

Of course that subject was always avoided and forbidden in MJW's house. That did not mean she did not practice it however. MJW practiced everything forbidden to man in the Bible. Not only did Mathy JANE do exactly what she pleased,  with whomever she pleased, when she pleased, you were not going to open your mouth. You were not going to object, complain, show symptoms , think, define, consider, contemplate or EVER TELL!

You were Mathy's property. You belonged to her. There was no such thing as a boundary and if it came out of her mouth,  that was your reality, your truth, "shut the fuck up! The mo'you cry the less you piss! Fuck you bitch! I'm an ORDAINED MINISTER! (If GAWD didn't condone me He would not let me preach so well to thunderous applause. To souls being saved.)"

"A double-minded man is unstable in all his ways."

MJW's heart was black as soot and she knew it.  For 87 years MJW slithered around very aware of the fact she was a fallen,  extremely whorish woman for satan. While MATHY enjoyed the illicit sex, it was not carnal pleasure that kept her bound. It was her blatant ignorance. Martha was highly unread. Not dumb but very anti-intellectual . Very unmotivated to acquire a single  simple fact of real knowledge.

No, I don't know what happened or when it happened but something went wrong in the body of Christ. Something is still wrong. People are still foolishly blaming skin pigmentation for Man's Inhumanity to Man.

MJW lived and died the life she fully deserved. She knew full well her deep demonic cruelty was not courage. She knew she murdered her own father and was very glad, very proud of that fact.

MJW was in fact a home made witch. Very bush league. She could have been at the least,  a multi millionaire. MJW let her severe hatred and jealousy get in the way of her demonic blessings. She could have conned satan out of a lot more than a second hand Cadillac and ghetto preaching.

Be aware. Know your surroundings. Know your people. My grandfather's frequent question upon meeting you for the first time; "Who yo'peoples is?"

The moment you declared your family name, granddaddy nodded, gave his approval or gave you a look. One thing we all knew in Wade Station, family name meant a lot. It said something. Unfortunately even good families will have members that turn out wrong. Don't let her hide, begging your protection. Do remember she is the one that deliberately ruined you. Very few people have been made to suffer the way of the WALTERS clan.

Let go! Let go of her abysmal lies. Of course she never confessed or apologized. How could she! When you are too repugnant an abomination to know, you do deserve prayer, not pity.  No you do not deserve secrecy. You and your kind are multiplying faster than I can type.

You all are liars. You can be stopped! You will be known.

PTL!

Pain and humiliation ...

The only true gifts my mother ever gave me. I do pray for her and all such human beings.  Miserable wretches full of disbelief, guilty of weak faith. Very good cheerleaders for GOD. GOD is always in their mouths. They do loudly declare the goodness of GOD , every day ,all day. They do make great "preachers".  Always charming and charismatic, ALWAYS LYING! Pure prevaricators. Not one word of truth in them. No honesty, no integrity, no Christ like spirit.

Vicious, vulgar, hideous,   sounding brass. An ogre, a malignant monstrosity, daring her victims to love GOD , to trust Him. A roaring "root working" monster.  A primitive thing left over from slavery. Truly a volunteer imp if there ever was one. Yes, I did witness my own mother shake her "dust" and clap her hands. Yes I did have to listen to her squeal like a pig every time she thought she won.

GOD maketh not ashamed. GOD does not lead His Children into captivity.  Some how, some way, my mother convinced us that her shame was ours, her secrets were our secrets. I have no vested interest in protecting such a beast and find it difficult to fear a dead demon.

Yes, I am still mystified by her incredible, unknowable, deeply disturbed demon possession. BUT I AM FREE!

An idiot fallen woman demanding every one she touched, corrupted, impressed, bow down and serve her. YOU ARE A LIAR sAtan! BOW DOWN YOU IGNORANT IMP!

 A haint , a home made witch demanding to be kept secret and honored. Regaling her awful deeds daily to guarantee you remain her terrified "flying monkey".

World, a woman caught in the very act of fornication , ravenous enough to get up and bludgeon her accuser is NOT TO BE FEARED, held in secret . She must be made known!

I Peter 4:16

GLORY!

MJW demanded to be honored.

That day will never come!

PTL!

Chickens do come home to roost,

Guineas too.

Some evil doers are intractable! Stone walls! Some evil doers will have their way and you will not so much as frown. You will not object!! YOU WILL NOT TELL! YOU WILL NEVER BREATHE ONE WORD OF YOUR AWFUL REALITY TO A LIVING SOUL!

No, you will not tell GOD, as a matter of fact you refuse to believe your reality. Yes, you have decided to go along with this (?) [no name for this spiritual aberration] because you have no choice. No precedent has been set for this type of monstrosity.  You are shocked beyond your ability to comprehend daily. There is no way to keep up with this evil predicted to come.  Just breathe, just put one foot in front of the other. Very slowly and very methodically plan your get away.

"LORD if you let me get away this time, I promise I won't come back. I promise!" You lie, the bitch tricks you again. You might not mind so much if she didn't get on her horn broadcasting your failures to the world.   Failures she pre-planned, ditches she pre-dug. So, you push on, fighting other enemies; racism, gender bias and sheer ignorance.

Just who will believe you? This can't be true! There is no way any one human being on this earth is as common as the woman you must call mother. SEX WITH THE DOOR WIDE OPEN! Really!!! In "Church" all day and Night and every Sunday! "You still nasty , you still morally bankrupt!'you are still a pedophile! An INCESTUOUS FEMALE RAPIST!"

The fact you had sense enough to hide your proclivities proves you had sense enough to not practice what you so skillfully and wantonly hid.

"Fear no man." I heard you for decades Jesus.  But I was conditioned just like a quarry slave.  A savage , ignorant, morally bankrupt woman that tried to pimp me at 14, sold my virginity to my "stepfather" when I was eight kept me terrified and confused.

Preach all you want sinner man, sinner woman. Give yourself titles. Put on aires. Lie with wreckless abandon from the pulpit. Strut while you falsely believe GOD is not moving.

Do the worse thing any human being can do to a fellow human being. Be sure you are  most cruel and savage with infants, small children and the elderly.  If anyone ever comes at you bearing GOD's Truth, annoying  you with the truth, tear them from limb to limb with your vicious lies and filthy cursing. Use GOD! Yes, be idiotic enough to go down on graves hunting power. Forget how foolish, how primitive and depraved you must be to practice such and "preach".

Do it anyway. Laugh as the very foolish that  confuse your cruelty with courage., your lies with GOD's truth. Destroy those children. Never change your mind. Never let go of your secret envy, jealousy. Enjoy being the low viper you are. Slither, slither, lie, lie. Relish in all destruction they will never know. Worship the evil one on the sly. No one will ever know or believe. You preached so good you fooled yourself.  These dummies will never know.

"Awake from your slumber."

There is Power in that name! JESUS!

PTL!

Fifty years in the making ...

Yes, evil doer you will pay, you will reap.  One thing the old evil doer finds impossible to comprehend; GOD's Time, His Time table.

Simple imps like my mother view "delay" as proof of their demonic "gifts".  GOD sees a fool, a repugnant reprobate. Yes, my mother suffered with the worse possible Jezebel jealousy possible.

She did suffer from extreme low self esteem because she deserved too.

I was in the sixth grade, attending Newbold Traing School, thriving . "Mother" turned the second bedroom in our quaint Fayetteville State Teachers College cottage  into a den of iniquity. It was a small room  off the kitchen , in the back of the house. There was a hall door that could be closed.

If you dared to open that door after midnight on any given night you were sure to enter into hell, you would enter into a world of no return. It was a world of extreme fornication, group sex, pedophilia and incest.

Martha put her elderly father in the huge living room, the boys in the hallway and my older brother remained in the "sin den". This room was where Martha brought her secret lovers. Young soldiers she picked up nightly from Vick's Drive In.

We all knew what Martha was doing.  We all knew her pornography was so prolific, piled so high it held up her bed. I remember it well. It was the foulest, the filthiest, pure carne! All women, all wet cunts.

Fifty years in the making, over fifty years in the making. GOD told me to know my truth. My Truth; my mother was a vile sadistic incestious nymphomaniac pedophile MURDERER,  that preached.

Jesus warned us. "Ravenous wolves in sheep's clothing..."

When a woman falls low enough to haunt graves seeking power in order to satisfy her disgusting carnal proclivities,  we do have to wait for that abomination to finally exit the planet.

Do know Martha Jane Walters is the wave of the future. She is the new woman.  Read my blog and weep.

"Jesus weap."

I weap tears of Joy! I am praising the LORD! Only the LORD GOD Almighty could save me. save my family , from such a creature.

Dear LORD, thank you for II Thessalonians !

"SHUT UP!!!"

Could those two words be the cause of my loquaciousness ?  I think so …that and the fact that my own mother was a "talkaholic".  My mother never "shut up".   She talked in her sleep.  The very unfortunate truth about her incessant babbling, she was often lying.  If she wasn't lying she was flattering you to disguise her hatred and jealousy .  She was buttering you up to take you down.

It is time for this world to quit lying and making every woman that delivers a baby some kind of saint, the Virgin Mother Mary.  The fact is, an immoral, unprincipled , corrupt woman will be an immoral, unprincipled , corrupt mother.

I do blame the man.  Man, if you are a real man, do not impregnate a woman you would not marry.  A woman you do not trust, do not want.  And most importantly, if you do in fact impregnate a hideous whore like my mother, see about that child.  GOD does not excuse you because the mother is a low whore.

Why were you with a low whore in the first place?   What does that say about you?  True,  my mother did end up marrying a pervert, a man with equally low morals.  That should not be.   I am sure GOD cried when those two buzzards found each other.

No matter.  GOD was there, is here, has never left me and never will.

I must marvel at my mother's tenacity.  She never tired of her wickedness.  AND SHE WAS GOOD!  I never would have known.  I would have remained clueless without the sudden return of my long lost brother.  He was gone, some where in the wind,  for twenty-five years.  I was blind, deaf and dumb.  I get it now, can see it clearly with 20/20 hindsight.  As a matter of fact I should have known.  I should have known,  if that had been in GOD's Divine Order.

I find it scandalous that my mother got away with her evil for so long.  I find it offensive to GOD that we assigned her evil to Him.  We did not  blame Him but, for some reason she taught us, the world taught us, that she had to be tolerated.  Not only tolerated,forgiven without acknowledging her sin but,  kept secret.  "Tell and die!"  and I do mean die!  She stabbed a woman once for calling her a whore.  Funny, she was a whore.  She was whoring on her first husband that was blind.  I have to laugh.  I bet that woman never called another woman a whore.

Why? Because she preached?  Please do not offer her lame excuses, her color, her ignorant parents, racist white people.

"Take your licks."  If you do wrong, quickly admit it.  Admit what you did wrong, where you went wrong.

I saved up my grief.  I refused to be soft around my mother.  I refused to cry because she told me ;"Duh mo' you cry …duh less you piss!".  I became harden, stoic. I guess I was waiting to exhale.

 My mother was an extremely evil sociopath.  Worse she was unrecognized, unrepentant, unpunished.  She was a wretch, a saboteur, a pathological liar, a witch, a root worker THAT PREACHED!

Do not hold your tears in hoping for a different outcome.  Jesus told us to know our truth.  The truth is not easy when it is truth like mine , ours, held by a complete reprobate.

My mother made me think my tears meant that I was weak.  I was already black, blind, short and defective.  I wasn't as smart as she was, although she thought I was pretty intelligent.  I was lucky.  But

No matter,  it is true.  satan can NOT Win!  GOD is not about to let some piss ant like my mother come here and block anyone's blessings. GOD is NOT about to let some MURDERING reprobate win because she got away wither deep dark sins for so long.  It is just a matter of time.  "Time changes all things".

 I do pray for my brilliant talented brothers.  All handsome men that would have made very good husbands and very good fathers to some very good women.

 "Love never fails."

Become Christ like.  "Let GOD fight your battles."

PTL!

I press on   ...

"In all thy getting, get understanding."

Thank you Jerome Walters.  Thank you Jesus.  I heard and comprehended those words early in life.  I have always been keenly aware, brilliantly perceptive.  I had to.  If I expected to navigate and survive the pits pre-dug for me by my own mother.

Dear LORD,  the lost is incredible.  You said in Your Word if we try to elevate ourselves through unscrupulous means we would be brought down.  Wrong can never be made right.  Evildoers waste their time scheming and dreaming of defeating the Righteous.

Is that why Mathy Jane murdered her own father LORD?  Was she trying to defeat GOD?   Was she trying to erase and eradicate all evidence of the truth about her life?

Martha was so confident that granddaddy would never reveal her that she laughed in his face as he kept mum.  There was so much we didn't know and would have never known if Mathy Jane had not volunteered, had not been bragging and running off at the mouth.

I know now that Martha was never smarter than me as she bragged.  She was just older, more hardened, more corrupt.  Paying a prostitute to give a "client" oral pleasure was not a sign of her superior intelligence.  It was merely evidence of her sick criminal predatory mind.  If was evidence that she was a woman of very little virtue, very little faith in a true living,  loving GOD.

Poor Martha spent the better part of her life preaching and proclaiming the goodness of GOD while not believing one single solitary word.   My grandfather must have memorized the entire Bible.  He quoted it chapter and verse, often.  He,  unlike his daughter, believed every word.  Liked every word, set an example for his descendants to follow.  He taught us about "Covenant" living and GOD's promises.  Mathy Jane quickly and always dismissed such knowledge as garbage. (So, why preach?)

Well,  I admit to seriously having a nervous breakdown, a total collapse.  First , just recognizing how truly evil my mother absolutely was slayed me.  How any one human being could be so evil, corrupt and purely perverted for eighty-seven years and never desire to change,  AND GO UNRECOGNIZED, UNREPENTANT, UNAPOLOGETIC, knocked me for a loop.

"Forgive and forget" was our life.  Let Mathy Jane do and commit all kinds of evil and treachery on a daily basis.   Mathy Jane gets to do all the evil, we get to forgive and forget. (And keep silent.  To love Mathy Jane was to suffer in silence.)

It happened in 1979 and I still can't get over it.   Perhaps if I had been made aware of her incredible evil along the way.  I knew about the five aborted babies.   She bragged about "flushing" them so nonchalantly, so gleefully, so often,   it really didn't phase me as it should have.

Did "Christianity" condition me, us, to tolerate Martha's extraordinary evil?  No, she did!  The mother is the first teacher and the greatest teacher.  When your mother is a corrupt perverted pedophile, you have a problem.

I grew to maturity with an awful problem.  An extremely evil, treacherous, lying, malignant narcissistic mother was my inheritance, my "cross to bear".  I bore it well.    Only a few major mental breakdowns in sixty-four years,  is due to the goodness of GOD, His tender mercies and the fervent prayers of Jerome Walters.

My grandfather always declared; "Time changes all things."  No truer words have ever been spoken.  To know that your own mother hated you with a deep passion and never wanted anything but the worse for you is devastating.  Finally acknowledging that you were  always the dummy standing there whimpering, pleading and crying for this "thang" to please  love you,  depresses you even more.

Dear LORD  please do not let me lose the love I have,  chasing a love that I can never receive.  I rebuke you satan! Bow down!

Dear LORD I thank you for my beautiful, brilliant, loving daughter.  Dear LORD you surely "showed out" when you created her.  I know you blessed me beyond measure and I thank you.

I view Martha Jane Walters as stepping stones, misery that had to be endured like child birth.  Yes, I am glad she is gone!  Praise the LORD she is gone.  Yes, I will talk about her, describe her, warn of her. Yes, LORD I will warn the world about women so low they willfully, gleefully and gladly commit incest, MURDER and "chunk dust".  A self styled, home made "witch", a country "root doctor" that decided to preach for cover.  GOD said No!

Keep on you evildoers!  Keep on knowing full well you are wasting your time.  While you may falsely believe you are keeping GOD's children away from their promised blessings you are merely a tool to usher them into the Kingdom.

GOD sees you evildoer.  You can't get away.  All your lying, intimidating, "dust chunking" mean nothing to GOD.  What you did was expose your ignorant primitive reprobate self.

Evildoers that preach, do know that you are teaching the truth.  My mother preached the Truth concerning GOD's Word.  She chose not to believe.  She chose to stand in a pulpit lying, trying to cover up all the filth she drug behind her, lying and denying.

For eighty-seven years Mathy Jane bragged that she was winning.  Something tells me she knew she was losing all the time.    I do think the day Mathy Jane poured that pot of hot boiling coffee on her son was the day she should have been put out of her misery.  All she did was wax worse.  She did not heed, feel ashamed or apologetic.  She felt slick, considered herself a brilliant liar, a secret disciple of the evil one.

One thing I have learned from my tremendously long Mathy Jane Experience,  a miserable lying woman will bring untold, incalculable misery on her entire family for hundreds of years if that succubus is not stopped, hindered, prevented, exposed or revealed.

The Mathy Jane demonic whores of this world must be revealed, made known.  When a person comes out of misery they must tell , they must brag about he goodness of GOD.

I'm bragging! I'm testifying of the goodness of GOD!

Praise the LORD!

Thank you Jesus!

Thank you for letting my soul know there is no excuse for such evil.  Martha knew better.  She knew better, far better than we ever realized.  Yes, she did despitefully use us.  It did cost her.  She pretended that she didn't care.   She did.  She career enough to become something extremely evil and cunning.

No, Martha did not mind going to hell, spending eternity in hell because she foolishly lived eighty-seven years in hell.  Her deep shame for her "afflictions" was torture enough.  No wonder she tortured so many people so willingly.  She was tortured.

She could not let that ignorant pride concerning her skin and hair go.  She knew no one cared.  She knew it was a lie from satan.  But, it was the only thing she had.  Pregnant  "umpteen" times by age 26, uneducated, practically illiterate , what could she do?  Could she humble herself? apologize? admit she was wrong? Never!  "Pride goeth before a fall."

I listened LORD.  Yes, I am a wretch undone.  We all are.  Man is weak, man is ignorant.  But, I am humble LORD.  I am humble and I am grateful.

I just want to say thank you.  No, my life has been far from perfect but it has been good!  No better daughter could any woman  ever have! PTL!

That little girl stopped what she was doing.  Flew here and saved her mother from utter ruin! PTL!

I know there is a GOD and I know He loves me!