Know your purpose ...

GOD already knows your pain.

A very, very horrible woman came to this earth and lived a very, very long time spreading demonic ignorance  and racist hatred.  While she was considered to be a member of  the "black race" she was not.  She wasn't even human.  My "mother" Martha Jane Walters was nothing more than a mongrel , rabid, vicious viperous monstrosity, an abomination.

I am proud to tell you because GOD told me to tell you.  Martha did something no one should ever do, she pretended to passionately love  GOD knowing full well she passionately hated Him.  Do know Martha had many faces.  Many of our friends and relatives only saw one face. I call it her "Sunday face".

Her "Sunday face" smiled, was always cheerful and gracious.  She preached great sermons out of that face, loved on you, complimented you and made you feel special out of that total facade.  Martha put on that face when she wanted something, when she was up to something.  Just as soon as she got what she wanted she gave you her ass to kiss.  And that is exactly what she bragged for the 62 years I knew her.

"I gave dat nigger my ass to kiss." Then she would clap her hands and squeal like a pig.  Of course we knew (her immediate family) and more than anything we knew we did not dare tell of the brutal beatings, sexual perversion of incest , pedophilia,  and witchcraft.

"Ni (now) I'd take dat tuh my grave!"  

By the time Mathy Jane finally expired the list of abominable sins committed by her were much too long.  Praise be to GOD she labeled me the family snitch early in life.  I was only four but I  told my granddaddy about those hot soapy enemas.  Yes, Martha was a freak that preached falsely, obtained an ordination to preach just to ensnare, enslave and make miserable.

Martha lived to make as many people miserable as possible and she did.  I found this article this morning; "Narcissists : The Cancer of Humanity",  the only comfort I found in this article is knowing I am not alone.  This article is spot on, the only thing  that should be added is my mother's name.

Johnny Rivera Velázquez , thank you for your letter you posted in Survivors of Narcissistic Abuse (no contact).  He captured, articulated my feelings exactly. He describes his tormentor as a "soulless creature whose only joy is causing confusion and pain."

"How tiresome it must be to balance different men and different lies"  That was my mother my brain screamed!   My mother  committed incest with her sons.  (I do not know if she violated all five, but two I know for sure.)   While still having sexual relations with an ex-husband, husband and future husband she lied and deliberately pinned her vile nature on me.

The world will never know how much I suffered, how confused I was when she made me her scapegoat, her punching bag.  Every day that my brother was in exile for twenty-five years she screamed; "YOU DUH CAUSE OF IT! YOU DUH CAUSE OF MY SON FORSUKING ME!" 

My "mother" had good sense, she knew full well why her son refused all contact with her for twenty five years.

Children, do know "What is done in the dark shall surely come to light."  My grandfather never wavered in his resolve; "Don't worry daughter, Jesus will fix it."

"Be NOT deceived for GOD is not mocked."  Only the very simple and the very lost will cling to the phony image Martha Jane Walters invented.  Only the most ignorant will excuse her witchcraft.

If you are reading this post and you were totally fooled by Martha,  it is not too late.  You can still repent of your sins and come to the light.  GOD loves us and forgives us.

Praise the LORD!

P.S.
My cousin shared her pain concerning the brutal unjustified murder of her loved one and so deafly pinned the phrase "Silent no more." How I agree.  "SILENT NO MORE!"

Be yourself!

Have the courage to be your genuine, authentic,  unique Self!

There is nothing you can do to make any one love you that pre-hates you.  I am so glad I did not let Martha change one thing about me.  Her hatred was real and  I thank GOD she was so low life and two faced she successfully  hid it from me.  Always a snake, a viper, always secretive.

Now the fear she inculcated in me was real, extremely terrifying.  For years my hands used to tremble, my heart used to beat out of my chest when I attempted to interact with others.  It was out of  sheer loneliness I turned to books, to academics.

This world must learn that demons are real! If we can believe in angels we must know demons are just as real and they are prolific.  GOD knows our earth is swarming with them that is why He gave us His Word, the reason He talks to us personally.  'FEAR NO MAN! "

When my mother blasted me with; "You'll be the one to BETRAY  me!"  The LORD knows I was clueless.  I fell for Martha's preaching, ordained minister scam hook, line and sinker.

Martha was such a great smooth liar I did not know she was in fact a PATHOLOGICAL LIAR!

It is good to know she knew.  The saddest fact is, the truth is,  anyone  in my family still supporting her is just as wicked, just as lost …

Martha's evil was like a vampire's bite.  She got some, she did shape some in her image, but she didn't get me.

Praise the LORD!

Very Well ...

I was four, perhaps five, my mother was already in the pulpit preparing to deliver some message to the waiting congregation in Wesley Chapel A.M.E.Zion Church in Wade Station, North Carolina.  No, she was not an ordained minister yet ,  she was the featured speaker.

Mathy Jane was always the mistress of ceremony, the hostess with the "most-est".  Never shy, inhibited  or reserved,  she promised to entertain.  The fact is no one enjoyed her performances more than she did.  I remember clearly being disturbed by what I overheard the good Christian ladies of Wesley saying about my mother; " …common as bat shit!"

Sad to say she was.  I wish they had cared enough to rescue me, us. Instead of just talking, just repeating gossip, they could have intervened.   I do wish they had done their part to reveal how criminally insane she was , had pressured or persuaded my family to have her incarcerated.

I now know for eighty-seven years my mother was unfit for human companionship.  Should a demon possessed woman be allowed to assault, maim, torture, vex, humiliate and destroy because she got here first?  Because she brags about how beautiful, brilliant and powerful she is?

I have  come to the conclusion that Martha was a homemade monster, a malignant monstrosity that we had to endure to the end.  I endured, I survived, I am still standing.  I am humbled by the Goodness of GOD because through it all I learned to never be racist, or color struck.  I learned to trust GOD, to never lean to my own understanding.  Some how through the miraculous Power of the Holy Ghost I learned to love and protect myself from such vermin.   I learned to stand up for myself, to be honest and forthright .

I learned the true consequences for being a volunteer imp for satan, for practicing witchcraft.  The most important life saving gift I received for surviving the likes of my mother is; "from such stay away."

I refuse to associate with people that still honor that woman.  I distance myself from people too cowardly to call her out for murder.

On this day, December 3, 2015 I honor my grandfather, Jerome Walters and am humbled to tears just imagining what my life would have been like  without his influence, without his fervent prayers.

Praise the LORD!

Massur Trump and Uncle Ben

Oh,  I hear you loud and clear Massur Trump and Uncle Ben.  I'm glad to see you speaking up for the unborn, children spared this evil world.  But what about the ones that get here?

Whut you gon' do about them?  Do you know their own mothers and fathers are raping and robbing them from birth?

Do you know some of these so called parents and caregivers are so low they pretend to love GOD, to be ministers of the Gospel?  Do you even care? Or are you like my mother?  A common whore hiding behind a smiling face and a pack of  lies?

The commonest of the common, the cruelest of the cruel.  Did her dirt for 87 years because good Christians were too terrified of her to stop her.  Good Christians are still too terrified to tell on her although she is long dead.  Her Church, her very Church where she "preached"  for umpteen years, Simon Temple AFRICAN METHODIST EPISCOPAL ZION CHURCH on Yadkin Road in Fayetteville, North Carolina , will not say a word against her!

Why? Terrified I imagine.  She was a root worker, a soothe sayer, a witch, a practitioner of voodoo and hoodoo.  I guess they think it works.    She did tell me they were all greedy dogs and a bunch of faggots.  I guess that was one time that pathological liar did not lie.

So you want to be President Massur Trump.  Why?  You already got eva'thang you could possibly want.  Whut you want to be President fuh?  I hope you don't plan on enslaving me.  You sho' can't do it with fear.  That damn Mathy Jane monster did all she cud tuh me and I'm still standing.

Keep on Massur Trump and Uncle Ben.  You planning on making dat house nukker yo' running mate ain't you?  Well, eva'body ain't stupid and eva'body ain't scared and there are some with  Christ on their lips AND in their hearts.

No matter what Massur Trump, GOD still large and He still in charge.

PTL!

My Christmas wish

My Christmas wish is very simple; let GOD's Love abide in your heart.  May every life touched and mangled by my horrid closet demon possessed mother come to the light, come to the cross and embrace His Holy Spirit.

I am so humbled by the Goodness of GOD I can hardly speak or write without breaking down.  If this world could only know for five minutes the excruciating pain this woman forced upon her six surviving children.  We were made to suffer so unnecessarily  simply because a very ignorant , primitive,  savage woman insisted on selling her soul to satan.  Demanded to preach falsely to LEAD US AWAY FROM CHRIST.

"My people perish for lack of knowledge".  Fresh out of slavery the Walters family did not know what to do with little Martha Jane , other than endure her, forgive and  cloak for her out of sheer fear and shock.

Shocked!  I am still shocked and I lived this horrible life she mapped out for me.  PTSD (Post traumatic shock disorder ) is real in my family.

It is not that  GOD did not care.  He cares, He is moving by His Spirit.

Dear LORD deliver Martha's enablers, men and women so terrified they would rather die and go to hell  WITH HER, than reveal the awful things this monstrosity led them to, the sins she engulfed them in.

I pray for the manhood of my five brothers.  I do believe Martha hated men more than she did me.  She was a "man eater".  Mainly she was a coward, a stupid imp, delusional and depraved enough to search graves for "power".

Dear brothers, please finally know that sadistic cruelty is not courage.  LIVING IN THE MORTAL FEAR YOUR MOTHER ENCASED YOU IN IS NOT LIVING!   Know that this woman never loved you one day in her life.  Martha Jane Walters never loved anyone!  What she was,  was a master manipulator, a swindler, every thing foul and despicable hiding behind a pretty face and pearly white teeth.

The Word tells us; "From such stay away."  My poor family endured this savage idiot, all to no avail. We lost everything.  The sixty-five acres of prime farmland, my grandfather's beautiful home, orchards, vineyards, the Tobacco allotment, (the government paid us to NOT grow Tobacco),  all gone.

My medical doctor brother may have found a cure for cancer if it had not been for his "mother".  Who knows what  great music my brilliant musician brother may have created had he not remained crippled in the hands of his demonic "mother".

Martha stalked  me for sixty-two years falsely believing she was secretly grinding me into a fine powder.   She was determined to keep me from ever publishing one single word. She along with another imp destroyed every manuscript, prose and poetry, all my art .  Those two whores for satan took everything but my life!  And they both laughed.  (Lies you tell satan.)

 My mother was a great writer but she rarely found time to write because she was much too busy fornicating, committing adultery and working roots attempting to secretly destroy everything good and innocent.

You finally went too far low whore when you shot Jerome Walters in the heart.  The worse of the worse, to finally know you were on your deathbed and still refuse to repent.  "I ain't repenting fuh ****!"  are not the words of a minister of GOD's Gospel.

Any one still hiding and cloaking for a dead demon is lost.  I pray you will be found before it is too late.
Hate me all you please,  I will always love you and I promise to stay on my knees.

Be well.

PTL!

I still don't get it

I still don't get it.  My mother was a sadist.  No doubt about it.  A sadist that bragged, relived her brutal stabbings, scaldings, and perennial torture everyday.  But what did she get?  She did enjoy the terror reflected in our eyes.  Perhaps she loved to hear us scream.  But what did she get?

As a small child she busted her brother's skull open with an iron skillet , forced his little hand into the fire, pounded a puppy to death.  What did she get?  Why was the spilling of blood pleasurable to her?

Why shoot an old 84 year old feeble one legged man in the heart and frame him for suicide?  Why stalk your own children pretending to love them when you knew you hated them with a deep passion?

Why stalk and hunt me like a bird of prey?  All I ever did was try to love you.

All I can say is' "We we all understand it better, by and by."

PTL!

Autopsy of a demon

No, I am not stuck on stupid.  I am obedient to the LORD Jesus Christ.  From the first awareness of myself as a human being His Voice has led and guided me.  I praise the LORD everyday.  Not only has the Dear LORD guided me , He has snatched me from imminent death and rescued me from every plot that two legged viper could conceive.

No, my message is not for everyone.  It is for fellow victims, future victims and all true Christ lovers.  It is very clear to me now Martha Jane Walters was a reprobate.  GOD did release her over to a reprobate mind.  She is found in 2 Timothy chapter 3.  She was exactly as described.  "from such stay away."

It is impossible to stay away from a demon possessed woman you are born to, but you can pray to get away.  You can pray for GOD to lift you up out of that pit.

Finally acknowledging the depth of my own mother's depravity still takes my breath away.  Then I remember how Christ was crucified.  If you are a lover of Christ, of His Grace, of His Goodness, you will be crucified.  You will be hated and rejected.  But GOD reminds us in His Word to gird up our loins.  He promises to strengthen our hearts.

GOD is quick to forgive us of our sins.  My mother knew that .  She rejected Christ on purpose, preached on purpose in order to dissuade many from Christ.

satan it will not work.  Your divide and conquer, your color grading and ranking will not work.  Yes, Martha, GOD finally took my blinders off.  I finally did an autopsy of your vile long life and you get no honor here.  You get what you tried so desperately to do to me.

Yes, satan is roaming to and fro seeking whom he shall destroy.  Wake up world.  "Resist the devil and he will flee."

You foolishly believed you got away, scot free with your father's murder.  No, you did not go to prison but you rotted from the inside out.  You did project your evil onto me.  Only the very foolish and simple believed you.

You always called me a fool.  That was delusion Martha.  The delusion GOD promises to blind all reprobates such as you.  My poor blind, destroyed brothers demand that I let you rest in peace.  It can not happen.  No one is smart enough to manipulate GOD's Word for their personal pleasure.  No one can escape their just and honest due.

The autopsy of my mother's dead rotting body reveals nothing but excruciating pain and anguish, self hatred.   (Well earned I might add.)   Martha you were a brutal savage woman with absolutely no respect for GOD.  Yes, I heard your praise and enjoyed your sermons but your fruit is still stinking.

You laughed, you rejoiced at my destruction, my demise.  You laughed too soon.  Truly GOD has a purpose for my pain.  For the rest of my life I will do everything GOD guides me to do to warn this world of evil doers like you.

"From such stay away."

PTL!