"They hung Him high and stretched Him wide.", and He whispered "Forgive them Lord for they know not what they do."
She slithered up close to me and attempted to deposit shame; "I gave your luddle black ass away." But God beat her to it. Eons before He formed me in her corrupt belly He told me that I had a right to the Tree of Life.
"They hung Him high and stretched him wide." and He whispered "Forgive them Lord for they know not what they do."
Two red-eyed lecherous reprobates masquerading as a happily married couple raped me over and over. I shrunk and shrunk until I almost disappeared. No love, no happiness would this little black bastard get. Nothing would this little black heifer enjoy if MJ had any thing to do with it. What great fun MJ would have stealthily and secretly eviscerating this little bitch. Laugh. Set her up repeatedly , then rip her off. Laugh. Laugh secretly because no one thinks it is funny. Hate that bitch for loving you. Hate that bitch for daring to be prettier than you. She better not say it. She better not think it. Don't you dare love your sister. Hate that bitch as mush as I do. Hate her for trying to be so damn self righteous. I know she's a whore. She is a closet whore just like me. Set her up, rip her off. Lay her low, beat her ass. Slap her, slap her, now back slap her. Humiliate her again and again. Make her wear a grown woman's Girl Scout uniform to her girl scout meeting. Make her look like a fool. Smear red lipstick across her jet black face. Don't comb her hair make her look like Buckwheat. That blouse is too big. It is touching her little brown turned up second hand scuffed up shoes laced up with a dingy used to be white shoe string, an old shoe string cut in half. Slap that bitch again if she dares to say anything. Who is going to save you now bitch? I murdered your damn granddaddy. Make people laugh at her. Boy that is brilliant. That is not the best part. Pretend that you don't know what she is talking about. Always play crazy, people will get tired, they will forgive you or leave you alone. If they stay away too long give them a gift. It is easy to fool dumb ass greedy niggers. Pretend that you were just teaching her to tell time. What the fuck do you care about her learning to tell time with her little black blind pitiful ass. That dumb bitch is only seven years old and already crying herself to sleep. Kick her ass. Make sure she never tells. Make sure she never gets the nerve to tell. Fake like you are a preacher. Pretend like you love the Lord so that when she finally tells no one will believe her. Spit on her name. Curse her and your meddling ass daddy. Talk about those two the most. Don't worry those other niggers are too dumb, too cowardly, too selfish to care about anyone else.
"They hung Him high and stretched Him Wide." and He whispered ;"Lord forgive them for they know not what they do."
"Fear none of those things which thou shalt suffer: behold, the devil shall cast some of you into prison, that ye may be tried; and ye shall have tribulation ten days: be thou faithful unto death, and I will give thee a crown of life." Revelation 2:10
You really took advantage of me. You used your age and the fact that you had authority over me against me and you did everything you could to destroy me. All of your schemes backfired MJ. You sabotaged my financial aid when I entered A & T. But I graduated Magna Cum Laude anyway. Not one to be thwarted you came on stronger. I didn't want that "Gray eyed nigger". That was your lust. I got what I wanted, a beautiful brilliant daughter. Isn't it funny how God gave me the same thing He gave you.
Scheme after scheme, lie after lie, what have you gained? Desolation. Your desolation has finally come MJ. It is here. It is your choice, continue to live in your own shame or repent. Don't worry God is quick to forgive.
To all who read this blog, Be Blessed. "Keep yourself up as much as you can."
Pray for our deliverance from sin.
Much Love,Peace and Happiness,
Rachel
P.S.
Don't forget your homework. Read, study and extrapolate 2 Timothy 2:14 - 3:9
Saturday, October 30, 2010
Friday, October 29, 2010
Poor Little Colored Girl
The white people around Wade, North Carolina referred to her as a little colored girl. Beautiful, pretty as a picture and smart as a whip. MJ was always quick of wit. A born word crafter, a talent handed down for many generations. My grandfather told me that was a gift from his "Af-e-cun" grandmother. The great great grandmother that he told me so many stories about. I loved to hear him tell me I was just like her. "She was short and fire-ry. Smart. She didn't take no guff from no man or woman , black or white. She hep-ed to raise me. She wuz my mama's mama My mama wuz Mary Wright, she married Artemus Walters."
It seems some white man helped himself to the little kidnapped African slave girl. The rape of his grandmother always bothered Jerome Walters. He never viewed his light skin as a badge of honor. It was a matter of dishonor to him. He always considered color prejudice ignorant nonsense. An unnecessary burden that people did not have to carry.
That message never resonated with my mother, MJ. She ate that ignorant nonsense up and still tries to perpetuate it. I do not believe there is any light skinned black person more proud than she is. Hair and color, color and hair, all day long. If you are not light bright and damn near white you hold no sway with MJW. To this day this woman bases and values her "friendships" on color.
She can't help it. You have to laugh, it is so ridiculous. I do not believe she is as half as ignorant as she pretends to be. Her greatest and most generous compliment to me when she tricked me out of graduate school was; "Gwen, I 'bleve you gittin' lighter!" Let me be perfectly honest, I think I said something on the lines of thank you or really.
I am affected. It took me about fifty years to discover that I am not crow black. I am chocolate, I am brown. Well brown to her is a stain, a badge of dishonor. A mistake, an oops, Lord take it back I don't want it.
Who can black people blame for such wrong thinking? Slavery has been over too long to continue blaming the white man. Look in the mirror people. You have not because you ask not. God is ashamed! Study his Word, think for yourself, run from idiots.
Thank you Lord for your goodness and tender mercies. We all turned out pretty good despite some shameful cruelty and utter nonsense.
Anyone that is still dumb enough to worship color and put themselves under some one's boot, is a lost soul.
"Wide is the road that leads to death and destruction, narrow is the path of righteousness." More people are going to do wrong than do right. Deceivers will keep on deceiving and the blind will continue to follow the blind.
"Talk about me all you please, I'll talk about you on my knees."
I don't know all of them but I love them. I love those people that influenced my life. My mother called me a "luddle black bastard, you luddle black heifer!" I didn't mind that much because her name calling was always preferable to one of her beatings. This strong woman could and did beat the absolute dog shit out of men. I was not about to challenge her. As a matter of fact that was one of her admonishments; "Don't you even think back! I'll beat your black muthafucking ass again. And dry up dem fucking tears!"
Hallelujah! Praise the Lord! I lived. "How I got over. My soul looks back in wonder at how I got over."
Life didn't serve it up to MJ as promised. I know she had many disappointments. "Yalla" didn't get her a husband. Her "Gold Mine" didn't turn out to be as lucrative as she expected. If you are a female relative and ask her for money she will give you the same retort; "You sittin' on a gold mine!" At some point early in her life she turned to witch craft and hoodoo and she was good. I know for a fact what she can do because I saw it. "What am seen can't be denied." was the reply of a former slave that described the powerful "Root Doctors" that ruled the plantations and the South. Or should I say world. I have documented evidence that Queen Victoria consulted Marie LaVeaux for love potions often. That information was in my master's thesis that MJ and that ignorant coon that I married, threw away.
You destroyed my thesis but you didn't destroy my brain Bitches!
She's a bitch because she is a bitch and he is a bitch because he is a faggot.
I'm telling it! I'm telling it!
You waylayed me, you eviscerated me, you left me on the dung heap of life to die. But one day my Lord and Savior came by and he lifted me UP! He pulled me up out of the muck and the mire and he took all of the fear that had been planted and cultivated in my heart and He told me to TELL IT!
TELL IT ! so that some misguided young girl will not follow that path. Our daughters need to know that that their Father is Rich, that He allows u-turns. Forsake wrath, forsake guile. Put your hand in the hand of the man that calmed the waters. He is a mighty God and He is quick to Save you. GIVE HIM GLORY!!!
Praise be to His Holy name. Do not hate anyone. Take the HATE Lord. Heal me and lift me up,
Be Blessed. "Keep yourself up much as you can." Love the Lord with all your might.
"Know ye the TRUTH and the TRUTH shall set you free."
Much Love, Peace and Happiness'
Rachel
It seems some white man helped himself to the little kidnapped African slave girl. The rape of his grandmother always bothered Jerome Walters. He never viewed his light skin as a badge of honor. It was a matter of dishonor to him. He always considered color prejudice ignorant nonsense. An unnecessary burden that people did not have to carry.
That message never resonated with my mother, MJ. She ate that ignorant nonsense up and still tries to perpetuate it. I do not believe there is any light skinned black person more proud than she is. Hair and color, color and hair, all day long. If you are not light bright and damn near white you hold no sway with MJW. To this day this woman bases and values her "friendships" on color.
She can't help it. You have to laugh, it is so ridiculous. I do not believe she is as half as ignorant as she pretends to be. Her greatest and most generous compliment to me when she tricked me out of graduate school was; "Gwen, I 'bleve you gittin' lighter!" Let me be perfectly honest, I think I said something on the lines of thank you or really.
I am affected. It took me about fifty years to discover that I am not crow black. I am chocolate, I am brown. Well brown to her is a stain, a badge of dishonor. A mistake, an oops, Lord take it back I don't want it.
Who can black people blame for such wrong thinking? Slavery has been over too long to continue blaming the white man. Look in the mirror people. You have not because you ask not. God is ashamed! Study his Word, think for yourself, run from idiots.
Thank you Lord for your goodness and tender mercies. We all turned out pretty good despite some shameful cruelty and utter nonsense.
Anyone that is still dumb enough to worship color and put themselves under some one's boot, is a lost soul.
"Wide is the road that leads to death and destruction, narrow is the path of righteousness." More people are going to do wrong than do right. Deceivers will keep on deceiving and the blind will continue to follow the blind.
"Talk about me all you please, I'll talk about you on my knees."
I don't know all of them but I love them. I love those people that influenced my life. My mother called me a "luddle black bastard, you luddle black heifer!" I didn't mind that much because her name calling was always preferable to one of her beatings. This strong woman could and did beat the absolute dog shit out of men. I was not about to challenge her. As a matter of fact that was one of her admonishments; "Don't you even think back! I'll beat your black muthafucking ass again. And dry up dem fucking tears!"
Hallelujah! Praise the Lord! I lived. "How I got over. My soul looks back in wonder at how I got over."
Life didn't serve it up to MJ as promised. I know she had many disappointments. "Yalla" didn't get her a husband. Her "Gold Mine" didn't turn out to be as lucrative as she expected. If you are a female relative and ask her for money she will give you the same retort; "You sittin' on a gold mine!" At some point early in her life she turned to witch craft and hoodoo and she was good. I know for a fact what she can do because I saw it. "What am seen can't be denied." was the reply of a former slave that described the powerful "Root Doctors" that ruled the plantations and the South. Or should I say world. I have documented evidence that Queen Victoria consulted Marie LaVeaux for love potions often. That information was in my master's thesis that MJ and that ignorant coon that I married, threw away.
You destroyed my thesis but you didn't destroy my brain Bitches!
She's a bitch because she is a bitch and he is a bitch because he is a faggot.
I'm telling it! I'm telling it!
You waylayed me, you eviscerated me, you left me on the dung heap of life to die. But one day my Lord and Savior came by and he lifted me UP! He pulled me up out of the muck and the mire and he took all of the fear that had been planted and cultivated in my heart and He told me to TELL IT!
TELL IT ! so that some misguided young girl will not follow that path. Our daughters need to know that that their Father is Rich, that He allows u-turns. Forsake wrath, forsake guile. Put your hand in the hand of the man that calmed the waters. He is a mighty God and He is quick to Save you. GIVE HIM GLORY!!!
Praise be to His Holy name. Do not hate anyone. Take the HATE Lord. Heal me and lift me up,
Be Blessed. "Keep yourself up much as you can." Love the Lord with all your might.
"Know ye the TRUTH and the TRUTH shall set you free."
Much Love, Peace and Happiness'
Rachel
Thursday, October 28, 2010
A Mind Is A Terrible Thing To Waste
You don't know every thing. You can learn something. It helps if you seek knowledge.
I am a keen observer of people. I listen very carefully and watch every move of people close to me.
I am a loner, very self entertaining. Nothing I do is deliberate. It's just how I turned out, how I was shaped.
I am very intolerant of dumb people. Not uneducated people, dumb people. People that hold stupid opinions. I hate people that think white people are superior and deserve better treatment.
I don't like cruel disrespectful people, people that are mean to little children.
Don't worry I am not violent and I mind my own business.
I am fifty-nine years old and I have learned a few lessons about life.
#1 - Learn to think for yourself! Watch those people who volunteer to tell you what you need to do with your life. If you check closely they never did much with their own.
#2 - Define your self. If someone insists on telling you how you are; "You no sense-ED...you don't know how to get a man and get his check too." Study their comments closely before you react. These people like to start every sentence with "I would..."
#3 - Pursue your dream! If you don't have a dream get one. You don't have to tell every one. Quietly pursue your dream. Go to the library, research it on the Internet, enroll in some classes.
#4 - Love yourself! You may live to be a hundred and never find real love on this planet. But, love yourself, have some self respect. Most of all don't settle. If he is not your kind. If you have to get high to get with him, forget it.
#5 - Study! Study to show yourself approved. If you want real knowledge you are going to have to seek it. If you depend on others to tell you what you need to know you are going to go wrong. They are going to lead you down the path of ruin.
#6 - Start over! If you ever find yourself knocked down and ruined by life, get up, dust yourself off and start over. Oh, stay away from those people that helped to lead you astray.
Be Blessed.
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel
P.S.
"Keep yourself up much as you can."
I am a keen observer of people. I listen very carefully and watch every move of people close to me.
I am a loner, very self entertaining. Nothing I do is deliberate. It's just how I turned out, how I was shaped.
I am very intolerant of dumb people. Not uneducated people, dumb people. People that hold stupid opinions. I hate people that think white people are superior and deserve better treatment.
I don't like cruel disrespectful people, people that are mean to little children.
Don't worry I am not violent and I mind my own business.
I am fifty-nine years old and I have learned a few lessons about life.
#1 - Learn to think for yourself! Watch those people who volunteer to tell you what you need to do with your life. If you check closely they never did much with their own.
#2 - Define your self. If someone insists on telling you how you are; "You no sense-ED...you don't know how to get a man and get his check too." Study their comments closely before you react. These people like to start every sentence with "I would..."
#3 - Pursue your dream! If you don't have a dream get one. You don't have to tell every one. Quietly pursue your dream. Go to the library, research it on the Internet, enroll in some classes.
#4 - Love yourself! You may live to be a hundred and never find real love on this planet. But, love yourself, have some self respect. Most of all don't settle. If he is not your kind. If you have to get high to get with him, forget it.
#5 - Study! Study to show yourself approved. If you want real knowledge you are going to have to seek it. If you depend on others to tell you what you need to know you are going to go wrong. They are going to lead you down the path of ruin.
#6 - Start over! If you ever find yourself knocked down and ruined by life, get up, dust yourself off and start over. Oh, stay away from those people that helped to lead you astray.
Be Blessed.
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel
P.S.
"Keep yourself up much as you can."
Don't You Hinder Me
"If you don't want to go don't you hinder me." I can still hear the congregation singing to the top of their lungs. It was a rousing Gospel song, we all sang it loudly and proudly. I didn't know what it meant exactly. I liked the sound. It's funny what you remember from your childhood.
The older I get the more I understand and appreciate. The world we live in is totally wrong and corrupt. But that does not give us permission to be ignorant and deceitful. "Know ye the TRUTH and the Truth will set you free!"
Why did Jesus tell us that? Because he knew how incredibly painful the Truth is. He knew how many people just lie out of habit. Or lie because we do not want to be confrontational. Do you go along with someone that you know is delusional because you are afraid of them?
All lies stem from fear. A lie is still a lie. There is no such thing as a little white lie. (What a racist expression) You don't have permission to lie to "keep people out of your business." It is one of the Ten Commandments; "Thou shalt not LIE!"
"You are a liar and the Truth is not in you!" "He said a liar would not tarry in his sight!" I heard those admonishments every day of my life growing up in MJW's house. I thank her for it. It threw me off though. It kept me blind and befuddled. I listened to her spill lies all day long. For some reason she had the impression that God gave her the right to lie. Some how her strategy to maintain her habitual lying was to intimidate. Anyone that had a problem or question about anything she did better come ready to take a beat down. How perfect, more people should be smart enough to adopt the MJW strategy for get over living. First of all you must be extremely selfish. You can not ever care for anyone else. Do not let the words tender mercies cross your mind. Pump yourself up to be irritable and cross twenty four seven. Yes you can pretend to be loving and caring only when it suits your plot. Yes you must plot continually. Never let an opportunity to destroy escape you. You must be alert for it. If they foolishly leave you in a room with a new born baby try to deafen it, make it handicapped. Don't forget to brag about your color to the point of nausea . Do not pursue your real gifts and talents, spend all of your time comparing yourself to some one else. If anyone looks better than you, is smarter than you or has more talent than you , you make sure you do every thing you can to destroy them. No you can't be obvious. This is where your gift of guile comes in. This is when you take advantage of their vulnerabilities. Oh Devil you are just too good. This is when you get to exploit their low self esteem. You know they have low self esteem because you gave it to them, you cultivated it. You planted those seeds with the cruelest psychological attacks ever imagined. Laugh uproariously, secretly of course, then trick them again. What fun is there in life if you can't toy with your little pathetic black bastard younguns. There is one problem though. At least one of them will back talk you, probably tell on you. Don't worry about that one wayward "Truth Teller". No one is going to believe her because you have made sure that her family hates her and perceives her as weird. Make sure you label her a sneaky backstabbing blabber mouth early in her life. Don't you ever change. Go to your grave a lying, root working, double minded, fake preaching, fake loving mother/grandmother/great grandmother. Go ahead and do it. You can do it because you are the most brilliant woman that ever lived and the nigga that can out think you has never been born. You are so good that you can fool God. You can fool God because you fool yourself first. You taught yourself this trick as a small child; "If I tell myself a lie ten times it becomes true. Wow! If I cut the pure tee nigger fool I can get away with anything I think of. Nobody wants to mess with MJ. She will tie your naked ass up, gage you and beat the bloody shit out of you, and be perfectly fine. Rob them! Don't let those damn black ass bastard nigger children do any thing that you never had sense enough to do. Never admit that you squandered your own youth and beauty because you depended on your good looks, high yalla skin and good hair to get you over.
What happened world? Why didn't you bow down and give MJ every thing she wanted? It was them damn black bastard children that you were left with. They are ungrateful and they remember too damn much.
I don't blame you, hate 'um. Shit you could have done something with your life if you hadn't taken the time to have those sorry ass niggers. You were only twenty five when you had that black ass nigga. You fixed him good. You made sure he knew how ugly you thought he was. You cloaked it in the words of your dead mother;"...at least he's human." And that little black cunt you had when you were twenty six, make sure you make her life miserable. Make her a eunuch! Assault her blind ass physically. Slap the dog shit out her repeatedly. No one is going to believe her. Beat her in the head with a wooden brush so she will not want you to comb her hair. Send her to school with stanking mildewed clothes on so that no one in her all white class will like her. Misuse and abuse her body as often as you can. No one is going to believe her. No one has ever heard of the kind of wickedness you practice. Wipe your ass in a letter and send it to her. If that won't scare the shit out of a nigger I don't know what will.
Don't forget the best part. Play innocent and pitiful. Run the scam. No one is better than you. You convinced a six foot four brown skin nigger that his father is jet black and five foot five. Scare the hell out of that nigger, cuss his ass out! That damn heifer started that shit. She need to mind her own business. He better not ever get enough grit in his craw to question you about who his real daddy is. His daddy is who ever you say his daddy is, ugly bug-eyed, pop-eyed nigger. He thought he was going to make it as a great musician. When you heard him playing with Donald Byrd you knew you had your treachery cut out for you. Why did that dumb nigger let you manage his band? Lord you know you tempted me. That was just too easy Lord, you know I couldn't help that one. Pretend you don't care. Sahshy down the road like you have always done. Keep repeating your philosophy;"Don't nobody give a shit about what some dumb ass black ass nigger got to say. Fuck her I'm MJ.".
Aside from all of my satire I think you got the point. I will not ask why. I will simply reiterate; "If you don't want to go don't you hinder me."
Learn to think for yourself children. We are all equal in the eyes of the Lord.
"Be what you are and live the life."
Be Blessed. "Keep yourself up as musch as you can."
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel
P.S.
Your homework is to sing about his "Grace and Mercy"
The older I get the more I understand and appreciate. The world we live in is totally wrong and corrupt. But that does not give us permission to be ignorant and deceitful. "Know ye the TRUTH and the Truth will set you free!"
Why did Jesus tell us that? Because he knew how incredibly painful the Truth is. He knew how many people just lie out of habit. Or lie because we do not want to be confrontational. Do you go along with someone that you know is delusional because you are afraid of them?
All lies stem from fear. A lie is still a lie. There is no such thing as a little white lie. (What a racist expression) You don't have permission to lie to "keep people out of your business." It is one of the Ten Commandments; "Thou shalt not LIE!"
"You are a liar and the Truth is not in you!" "He said a liar would not tarry in his sight!" I heard those admonishments every day of my life growing up in MJW's house. I thank her for it. It threw me off though. It kept me blind and befuddled. I listened to her spill lies all day long. For some reason she had the impression that God gave her the right to lie. Some how her strategy to maintain her habitual lying was to intimidate. Anyone that had a problem or question about anything she did better come ready to take a beat down. How perfect, more people should be smart enough to adopt the MJW strategy for get over living. First of all you must be extremely selfish. You can not ever care for anyone else. Do not let the words tender mercies cross your mind. Pump yourself up to be irritable and cross twenty four seven. Yes you can pretend to be loving and caring only when it suits your plot. Yes you must plot continually. Never let an opportunity to destroy escape you. You must be alert for it. If they foolishly leave you in a room with a new born baby try to deafen it, make it handicapped. Don't forget to brag about your color to the point of nausea . Do not pursue your real gifts and talents, spend all of your time comparing yourself to some one else. If anyone looks better than you, is smarter than you or has more talent than you , you make sure you do every thing you can to destroy them. No you can't be obvious. This is where your gift of guile comes in. This is when you take advantage of their vulnerabilities. Oh Devil you are just too good. This is when you get to exploit their low self esteem. You know they have low self esteem because you gave it to them, you cultivated it. You planted those seeds with the cruelest psychological attacks ever imagined. Laugh uproariously, secretly of course, then trick them again. What fun is there in life if you can't toy with your little pathetic black bastard younguns. There is one problem though. At least one of them will back talk you, probably tell on you. Don't worry about that one wayward "Truth Teller". No one is going to believe her because you have made sure that her family hates her and perceives her as weird. Make sure you label her a sneaky backstabbing blabber mouth early in her life. Don't you ever change. Go to your grave a lying, root working, double minded, fake preaching, fake loving mother/grandmother/great grandmother. Go ahead and do it. You can do it because you are the most brilliant woman that ever lived and the nigga that can out think you has never been born. You are so good that you can fool God. You can fool God because you fool yourself first. You taught yourself this trick as a small child; "If I tell myself a lie ten times it becomes true. Wow! If I cut the pure tee nigger fool I can get away with anything I think of. Nobody wants to mess with MJ. She will tie your naked ass up, gage you and beat the bloody shit out of you, and be perfectly fine. Rob them! Don't let those damn black ass bastard nigger children do any thing that you never had sense enough to do. Never admit that you squandered your own youth and beauty because you depended on your good looks, high yalla skin and good hair to get you over.
What happened world? Why didn't you bow down and give MJ every thing she wanted? It was them damn black bastard children that you were left with. They are ungrateful and they remember too damn much.
I don't blame you, hate 'um. Shit you could have done something with your life if you hadn't taken the time to have those sorry ass niggers. You were only twenty five when you had that black ass nigga. You fixed him good. You made sure he knew how ugly you thought he was. You cloaked it in the words of your dead mother;"...at least he's human." And that little black cunt you had when you were twenty six, make sure you make her life miserable. Make her a eunuch! Assault her blind ass physically. Slap the dog shit out her repeatedly. No one is going to believe her. Beat her in the head with a wooden brush so she will not want you to comb her hair. Send her to school with stanking mildewed clothes on so that no one in her all white class will like her. Misuse and abuse her body as often as you can. No one is going to believe her. No one has ever heard of the kind of wickedness you practice. Wipe your ass in a letter and send it to her. If that won't scare the shit out of a nigger I don't know what will.
Don't forget the best part. Play innocent and pitiful. Run the scam. No one is better than you. You convinced a six foot four brown skin nigger that his father is jet black and five foot five. Scare the hell out of that nigger, cuss his ass out! That damn heifer started that shit. She need to mind her own business. He better not ever get enough grit in his craw to question you about who his real daddy is. His daddy is who ever you say his daddy is, ugly bug-eyed, pop-eyed nigger. He thought he was going to make it as a great musician. When you heard him playing with Donald Byrd you knew you had your treachery cut out for you. Why did that dumb nigger let you manage his band? Lord you know you tempted me. That was just too easy Lord, you know I couldn't help that one. Pretend you don't care. Sahshy down the road like you have always done. Keep repeating your philosophy;"Don't nobody give a shit about what some dumb ass black ass nigger got to say. Fuck her I'm MJ.".
Aside from all of my satire I think you got the point. I will not ask why. I will simply reiterate; "If you don't want to go don't you hinder me."
Learn to think for yourself children. We are all equal in the eyes of the Lord.
"Be what you are and live the life."
Be Blessed. "Keep yourself up as musch as you can."
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel
P.S.
Your homework is to sing about his "Grace and Mercy"
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
The Lord Gave Me Knowledge Of It
I can not explain it, you will just have to believe it. Something was deposited in my spirit before I came to this earth. Some one saw it years before I knew I had it. I have suffered a suffocating debilitating pain my entire life because of it. I have always told but few people have ever been able to hear me.
"Now the Lord gave me knowledge of it, and I know it; for You showed me their doings. But I was like a docile lamb brought to the slaughter; and I did not know that they had devised schemes against me saying, 'Let us destroy the tree with its fruit, and let us cut him off from the land of the living, that his name may be remembered no more.'" Jeremiah 11:18 - 19
There is only one reason that you should care about my plight; for your protection. Don't you ever think that you are safe and that you can't be victimized. Yes you should care and work to expose such evil.
I have a very disturbing truth that I am not going to keep bottled up inside me any longer. My birth mother is an evil succubus that pretends to be a minister and loving mother/grandmother. She is a selfish unrelenting whore that murdered her own father. For some reason she has escaped retribution for far too many years. I refuse to believe that she can continue in her demonism unrecognized.
Please forgive me for hating her. It is my humanness. If your mother did to you what my "mother" did to me you would be full of hatred and rage too.
I pray to find the strength to forgive her again. Yes again!I have forgiven this woman so many times that it makes me dizzy.
No I will not go around her, I will not speak to her. I will continue to pray for her and keep my distance.
I would keep her demonic deeds a secret forever if I could. I tell you that it is His Holy Spirit that compels me to broadcast this testimony.
Jesus commanded us "Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and do good to them that despitefully use you and persecute you;"
Did this demon force me to hate her just to block my blessing Lord? Take this Pain, take this deep dark hatred Lord. Remove it Lord! Clean me up, wash me, wash all the filth of my abuse from me. Wash my brothers. Clean us up and make us worthy Lord.
I just want an opportunity to set the record straight. She is famous for belittling and tearing down the good name of her father and children. Do you think that squares you with God MJ? Hiding your evil intentions and waylaying your children; does that elevate you? I am sorry but I missed something. I will never know. I can never live long enough to know why any mother would savagely and cruelly violate her own children. Well it happened, I can not change the past but I can protect my future. I will warn your future hapless victims.
I'm sorry MJ. I don't know what happened to you. I do not know what caused you to become such a sick creature. May the Dear Lord have mercy on your soul. I am advising you to tell the whole lie. The next time you tell every one how *B**** lost his job and his house and he is a worthless drunk be sure you tell them how you brutalized him as an infant. Tell them how you never did anything but beat the manhood out of him. Tell them how you cursed him and called him ugly just for your own pleasure. Tell them how you and your husband sexually abused me. Tell them about the excruciating pain in my tiny vagina. Tell them how you still work roots on every one that is dumb enough to associate with you. Do not forget to tell your children and relatives how you stalk them, turn them in to the police and IRS. I forgive you. You can't help it, it is an uncontrollable impulse that you developed in childhood. You mastered guile and diabolical evil as a child. Yes you are a bad seed. There is no goodness or kindness in you. No goodness! You only do good to get close enough to do your evil. I pity you.
Do know that I am healing, I am getting stronger and I am blessed.
Remember there is none so blind as he who refuses to see.
Dear children continue to study His Word. Be Blessed. "Keep yourself up as much as you can."
Remember, "Fear them not therefore: for there is nothing covered, that shall not be revealed; and hid, that shall not be known." Matthew 10:26
Much Love, Peace and Happiness
Rachel
"Now the Lord gave me knowledge of it, and I know it; for You showed me their doings. But I was like a docile lamb brought to the slaughter; and I did not know that they had devised schemes against me saying, 'Let us destroy the tree with its fruit, and let us cut him off from the land of the living, that his name may be remembered no more.'" Jeremiah 11:18 - 19
There is only one reason that you should care about my plight; for your protection. Don't you ever think that you are safe and that you can't be victimized. Yes you should care and work to expose such evil.
I have a very disturbing truth that I am not going to keep bottled up inside me any longer. My birth mother is an evil succubus that pretends to be a minister and loving mother/grandmother. She is a selfish unrelenting whore that murdered her own father. For some reason she has escaped retribution for far too many years. I refuse to believe that she can continue in her demonism unrecognized.
Please forgive me for hating her. It is my humanness. If your mother did to you what my "mother" did to me you would be full of hatred and rage too.
I pray to find the strength to forgive her again. Yes again!I have forgiven this woman so many times that it makes me dizzy.
No I will not go around her, I will not speak to her. I will continue to pray for her and keep my distance.
I would keep her demonic deeds a secret forever if I could. I tell you that it is His Holy Spirit that compels me to broadcast this testimony.
Jesus commanded us "Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and do good to them that despitefully use you and persecute you;"
Did this demon force me to hate her just to block my blessing Lord? Take this Pain, take this deep dark hatred Lord. Remove it Lord! Clean me up, wash me, wash all the filth of my abuse from me. Wash my brothers. Clean us up and make us worthy Lord.
I just want an opportunity to set the record straight. She is famous for belittling and tearing down the good name of her father and children. Do you think that squares you with God MJ? Hiding your evil intentions and waylaying your children; does that elevate you? I am sorry but I missed something. I will never know. I can never live long enough to know why any mother would savagely and cruelly violate her own children. Well it happened, I can not change the past but I can protect my future. I will warn your future hapless victims.
I'm sorry MJ. I don't know what happened to you. I do not know what caused you to become such a sick creature. May the Dear Lord have mercy on your soul. I am advising you to tell the whole lie. The next time you tell every one how *B**** lost his job and his house and he is a worthless drunk be sure you tell them how you brutalized him as an infant. Tell them how you never did anything but beat the manhood out of him. Tell them how you cursed him and called him ugly just for your own pleasure. Tell them how you and your husband sexually abused me. Tell them about the excruciating pain in my tiny vagina. Tell them how you still work roots on every one that is dumb enough to associate with you. Do not forget to tell your children and relatives how you stalk them, turn them in to the police and IRS. I forgive you. You can't help it, it is an uncontrollable impulse that you developed in childhood. You mastered guile and diabolical evil as a child. Yes you are a bad seed. There is no goodness or kindness in you. No goodness! You only do good to get close enough to do your evil. I pity you.
Do know that I am healing, I am getting stronger and I am blessed.
Remember there is none so blind as he who refuses to see.
Dear children continue to study His Word. Be Blessed. "Keep yourself up as much as you can."
Remember, "Fear them not therefore: for there is nothing covered, that shall not be revealed; and hid, that shall not be known." Matthew 10:26
Much Love, Peace and Happiness
Rachel
Monday, October 25, 2010
If There Be Any Goodness
"A good name is better than precious ointment; and the day of death, than the day of birth." Ecclesiastes 7:1
My noble regal grandfather had a good name because he was a good man. To this day people tell me fantastic heroic stories about my grandfather. I am honored to know him. I feel so privileged to have his blood running warm in my veins.
Jerome Walters is my hero. His wisdom is legendary. Tall and handsome, eloquent, kind and patient, his presence radiated and illuminated every where he went. I walked many dusty country roads with this great man holding my tiny hand, protecting and teaching me.
God knew that my insignificant life would have been destroyed with out his influence.
This poor man suffered mightily on this earth. His seventeen year old son bled to death in his arms and his only daughter plagued him without ceasing until she finally relented and put him out of his misery in his eighty-fourth year of life.
"Vengeance is mine, saith the Lord, I shall repay." I am not seeking vengeance. I do want justice. I can no longer sit quietly while she dons clerical robes and preaches. Coos sweet lullabies and gets over on the world like a fat rat. That woman is evil incarnate and foolishly believes that she is unstoppable. She is daring God to touch her. I want you to pay very close attention because you are about to witness Biblical prophesy come to fruition. No I do not know when, where or how. I just know that it is going to come to past.
There are far too many times that I feel sorry for myself and my brothers. But my grandfather comes to me and interupts my tears to remind me ; "It is all in divine order, baby. God will take care of her, all in his good time." My grandfather was such a good Christian that he actually forgives her for ending his life.
"Sorrow is better than laughter, for by sadness of countenance the heart is mad glad." Ecclesiastes 7:3
Sadness of countenance is the perfect term for our condition. Broken hearted and worn down by life Jerome Walters turned his attention to his grandchildren. Every day he spoke healing and blessings over us. He told us repeatedly that we were the jewels in his crown. Thank you for that grandaddy. Thank you for standing in the gap.
I am still trying to understand the sad mess I find myself in today. It is a nasty mess, some call it nigger shit. Nigger shit is a real term. All black people have heard it and understand it's true meaning. Heartbreaking, numbing cruelty for nothing. Countless family members held captive by a stealth demon from the depths of hell for over eighty years.
I must share our story. It is healing me and if it pricks the heart of that woman it is well worth the effort.
To the shocked and repulsed do not be so quick to judge. If you sweep around your front door you may find some dark secrets lurking in your past.
I am not innocent. I am guilty of expecting a loving caring world. I am guilty of loving a "mother" that never loved me back. Of course it's OK. I survived, I nurtured myself. A lack of maternal love is not my issue. It is her unrelenting sabotage. It is her total phoniness. She is a complete fraud, an absolute fake. This blog is a warning. I've known her for sixty years and her treachery has never failed to slay me. Delivered into the clutches of this creature June 4, 1951 I never had a chance. Too cowardly or too cheap to abort me she settled on this secret sick sabotage. If you know her and she has convinced you that her children are worthless and no count; just watch your back. She can not help it. Hang around her long enough, that "demon" is going to come out. Oh yes, she has some pain layed up for you. She delights in naivety. Watch her, her favorite line is ; "Oh, I didn't know...I didn't know that." Yes she did, this "woman" is smarter than you and me put together. In all of her clever deceit she is not smarter than God. As powerful as she thinks she is she can not bend a lie into the truth. MJW can't erase my memory and she can't shut my mouth. "You don't tell a muthafucking thang that go on in this house!" was her mantra. I must compliment her incredible guile. You had a good run MJW. God gave you space, time and reason to repent. No chance. Well I tried, granddaddy tried.
"The heart of the wise is in the house of mourning; but the heart of fools is in the house of mirth." Ecclesiastes 7: 4
Are you still laughing? Still menacing? Still leading the innocent into captivity?
"Better is the end of a thing than its beginning; and the patient in spirit is better than the proud in spirit."
That is my fervent prayer Lord; please give me patience. I do not know when this sad saga will end, but it will end, and I know that it will end on the side of the righteous.
God sent you two messages today MJ; "Your wickedness will chasten you, and your apostasy will reprove you. Know and see that it is evil and bitter for you to forsake the Lord your God; the fear of me is not in you, says the Lord God of hosts." Jeremiah 1:19
"Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things." Philippians 4:8
It is raining outside and in my heart. "Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:7-8
Be Blessed. "Keep yourself as much as you can."
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel
My noble regal grandfather had a good name because he was a good man. To this day people tell me fantastic heroic stories about my grandfather. I am honored to know him. I feel so privileged to have his blood running warm in my veins.
Jerome Walters is my hero. His wisdom is legendary. Tall and handsome, eloquent, kind and patient, his presence radiated and illuminated every where he went. I walked many dusty country roads with this great man holding my tiny hand, protecting and teaching me.
God knew that my insignificant life would have been destroyed with out his influence.
This poor man suffered mightily on this earth. His seventeen year old son bled to death in his arms and his only daughter plagued him without ceasing until she finally relented and put him out of his misery in his eighty-fourth year of life.
"Vengeance is mine, saith the Lord, I shall repay." I am not seeking vengeance. I do want justice. I can no longer sit quietly while she dons clerical robes and preaches. Coos sweet lullabies and gets over on the world like a fat rat. That woman is evil incarnate and foolishly believes that she is unstoppable. She is daring God to touch her. I want you to pay very close attention because you are about to witness Biblical prophesy come to fruition. No I do not know when, where or how. I just know that it is going to come to past.
There are far too many times that I feel sorry for myself and my brothers. But my grandfather comes to me and interupts my tears to remind me ; "It is all in divine order, baby. God will take care of her, all in his good time." My grandfather was such a good Christian that he actually forgives her for ending his life.
"Sorrow is better than laughter, for by sadness of countenance the heart is mad glad." Ecclesiastes 7:3
Sadness of countenance is the perfect term for our condition. Broken hearted and worn down by life Jerome Walters turned his attention to his grandchildren. Every day he spoke healing and blessings over us. He told us repeatedly that we were the jewels in his crown. Thank you for that grandaddy. Thank you for standing in the gap.
I am still trying to understand the sad mess I find myself in today. It is a nasty mess, some call it nigger shit. Nigger shit is a real term. All black people have heard it and understand it's true meaning. Heartbreaking, numbing cruelty for nothing. Countless family members held captive by a stealth demon from the depths of hell for over eighty years.
I must share our story. It is healing me and if it pricks the heart of that woman it is well worth the effort.
To the shocked and repulsed do not be so quick to judge. If you sweep around your front door you may find some dark secrets lurking in your past.
I am not innocent. I am guilty of expecting a loving caring world. I am guilty of loving a "mother" that never loved me back. Of course it's OK. I survived, I nurtured myself. A lack of maternal love is not my issue. It is her unrelenting sabotage. It is her total phoniness. She is a complete fraud, an absolute fake. This blog is a warning. I've known her for sixty years and her treachery has never failed to slay me. Delivered into the clutches of this creature June 4, 1951 I never had a chance. Too cowardly or too cheap to abort me she settled on this secret sick sabotage. If you know her and she has convinced you that her children are worthless and no count; just watch your back. She can not help it. Hang around her long enough, that "demon" is going to come out. Oh yes, she has some pain layed up for you. She delights in naivety. Watch her, her favorite line is ; "Oh, I didn't know...I didn't know that." Yes she did, this "woman" is smarter than you and me put together. In all of her clever deceit she is not smarter than God. As powerful as she thinks she is she can not bend a lie into the truth. MJW can't erase my memory and she can't shut my mouth. "You don't tell a muthafucking thang that go on in this house!" was her mantra. I must compliment her incredible guile. You had a good run MJW. God gave you space, time and reason to repent. No chance. Well I tried, granddaddy tried.
"The heart of the wise is in the house of mourning; but the heart of fools is in the house of mirth." Ecclesiastes 7: 4
Are you still laughing? Still menacing? Still leading the innocent into captivity?
"Better is the end of a thing than its beginning; and the patient in spirit is better than the proud in spirit."
That is my fervent prayer Lord; please give me patience. I do not know when this sad saga will end, but it will end, and I know that it will end on the side of the righteous.
God sent you two messages today MJ; "Your wickedness will chasten you, and your apostasy will reprove you. Know and see that it is evil and bitter for you to forsake the Lord your God; the fear of me is not in you, says the Lord God of hosts." Jeremiah 1:19
"Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things." Philippians 4:8
It is raining outside and in my heart. "Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:7-8
Be Blessed. "Keep yourself as much as you can."
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel
Saturday, October 23, 2010
There Are Those...
"There are those who curse their fathers and do not bless their mothers. There are those who are pure in their own eyes but are not cleansed of their filth. There are those -- how lofty are their eyes, how high their eyelids lift! There are those whose teeth are swords, whose teeth are knives, to devour the poor from off the earth, the needy from among men." Proverbs 30: 11 - 14. "The eye that mocks a father and scorns to obey a mother will be picked out by the ravens of the valley and eaten by the vultures." Proverbs 30: 17
When I read those words I was awe struck. You are not the first MJW. I tremble for you. My Lord, have mercy on our miserable souls. Yes I was a very slow learner. How could I find the courage to believe my own eyes? How many people have ever had enough courage to with stand a grubbing from you? I always suspected that you were a black hearted demon. Your deeds and antics never matched up with your words. Your father survived for eighty-four years on this earth until you decided to off him. I get it. When did you not get your way? I am sure that you can count on one hand the times that you did not succeed in your treacherous deceit. Murder and mayhem is your pleasure. It keeps you young, excited, it gives you purpose. MJ the brilliant puppeteer. One of your famous expressions; "Bullshit ain't 'nuttin' but chewed up grass." Is that you MJW; the master Bullshit Artist?
I'm a living witness. I know how you treated my grandfather. I know how you treated my brothers. And I know full well how you tortured me. What are you bored now? You don't have that "stanking luddle black heifer" to humiliate and degrade any more. Whoa! Hold up, your trademark is over kill. You tried to pistol whip my brother for returning your Cadillac an hour late. Any one that knows or ever knew you must agree that your anger is vituperative. Aren't you tired yet? Do you have a hint of remorse?
You are a sniveling coward. What kind of grown woman would curse her little three year old daughter until there was nothing left of her but breath? A fool that's who. An incorrigible miscreant that took advantage of her father's tender heart. A silly woman that believes more in the Occult and her "Lost Books of Moses" than the Bible. A demon that does not yet recognize that her sheep's clothing has grown too small for her monstrous hideous body. Keep following that devil. Follow him down to the depths of hell. Do not let repentance cross your mind. It is not that your "allies" do not believe me. They like me are horrified by this truth. It is too heavy, it is too dark, it is beyond any "normal" person's ability to comprehend.
God rendered you powerless to sin when He released you over to a reprobate mind. The Bible is my perfect guide. Void of natural affection you could not love me no matter how much I craved it. Your immaturity tries to make your "illegitimate" children jealous, bragging how you gave this one five thousand dollars. Reminding us that you were married to *B***s father, or *P******'s father. In or out of wed lock that doesn't diminish me in the eyes of the Lord. If you are dumb enough to rank and discriminate against your own children chalk that up to your stupidity.
There is only so much pain a person can take. I don't owe you anything. I wish I could forget how you treated us. I do pray every day to not hate you. I pray to forgive you. I know that it is all in divine order.
Do be very careful, do not dismiss my Lord and Savior. Look well to your going.
Try again, bend your stiff neck, fall down on your knees. Cry out to Jesus, He will be quick to save you. Rest in his arms. Thank him for a brilliant loving father. Thank him for a long life. Thank him for his Word.
Be Blessed. "Keep yourself up as much as you can."
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel
When I read those words I was awe struck. You are not the first MJW. I tremble for you. My Lord, have mercy on our miserable souls. Yes I was a very slow learner. How could I find the courage to believe my own eyes? How many people have ever had enough courage to with stand a grubbing from you? I always suspected that you were a black hearted demon. Your deeds and antics never matched up with your words. Your father survived for eighty-four years on this earth until you decided to off him. I get it. When did you not get your way? I am sure that you can count on one hand the times that you did not succeed in your treacherous deceit. Murder and mayhem is your pleasure. It keeps you young, excited, it gives you purpose. MJ the brilliant puppeteer. One of your famous expressions; "Bullshit ain't 'nuttin' but chewed up grass." Is that you MJW; the master Bullshit Artist?
I'm a living witness. I know how you treated my grandfather. I know how you treated my brothers. And I know full well how you tortured me. What are you bored now? You don't have that "stanking luddle black heifer" to humiliate and degrade any more. Whoa! Hold up, your trademark is over kill. You tried to pistol whip my brother for returning your Cadillac an hour late. Any one that knows or ever knew you must agree that your anger is vituperative. Aren't you tired yet? Do you have a hint of remorse?
You are a sniveling coward. What kind of grown woman would curse her little three year old daughter until there was nothing left of her but breath? A fool that's who. An incorrigible miscreant that took advantage of her father's tender heart. A silly woman that believes more in the Occult and her "Lost Books of Moses" than the Bible. A demon that does not yet recognize that her sheep's clothing has grown too small for her monstrous hideous body. Keep following that devil. Follow him down to the depths of hell. Do not let repentance cross your mind. It is not that your "allies" do not believe me. They like me are horrified by this truth. It is too heavy, it is too dark, it is beyond any "normal" person's ability to comprehend.
God rendered you powerless to sin when He released you over to a reprobate mind. The Bible is my perfect guide. Void of natural affection you could not love me no matter how much I craved it. Your immaturity tries to make your "illegitimate" children jealous, bragging how you gave this one five thousand dollars. Reminding us that you were married to *B***s father, or *P******'s father. In or out of wed lock that doesn't diminish me in the eyes of the Lord. If you are dumb enough to rank and discriminate against your own children chalk that up to your stupidity.
There is only so much pain a person can take. I don't owe you anything. I wish I could forget how you treated us. I do pray every day to not hate you. I pray to forgive you. I know that it is all in divine order.
Do be very careful, do not dismiss my Lord and Savior. Look well to your going.
Try again, bend your stiff neck, fall down on your knees. Cry out to Jesus, He will be quick to save you. Rest in his arms. Thank him for a brilliant loving father. Thank him for a long life. Thank him for his Word.
Be Blessed. "Keep yourself up as much as you can."
Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel
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