Cruelty is exactly what it is , cruel inhumane treatment. What causes it? I don't know. It is debilitating, gut wrenching. It will render you hopeless and helpless. How any one can derive pleasure from it is beyond my understanding. Why a woman who failed in her own life would skulk, plot and plan to devastate her children is beyond evil.
No, I know you didn't target your family only. You got every one that got close to you. I know my grandfather taught me to never do anything that I would be ashamed to admit I did. You never listened to him. All you ever had was fake, feigned love. That's all you ever had for anyone. Do you pretend to love yourself? Do you hate yourself so much that you would rather spend eternity in hell before you will ever admit the truth?
First of all you, you are not crazy or mentally imbalanced. Your lies are too perfect, your cunning is too brilliant. You are a horror, an abomination. That's what you get for being a lying, common sneak. You've got to own and confess that. GOD is not going to let you off the hook because you preach.
You will not shut my mouth. Calling me all kinds of vicious vulgar liars will not help you. That is just and extension of your savage cruelty. You have no empathy. You can not care for another person on this earth. You can't even love the LORD consistently. I know you think you do. You love the LORD when it is convenient, when it serves your purpose.
GOD has placed enmity between us and I'm glad. You went much too far in your treachery. I must reiterate, you are a coward of the lowest caliber. You emasculated your sons while they were still infants, small boys. You humiliated them and beat them into feeble submission. You did that to them because that is what you did to all of your men. Any man that wanted you was doomed to be your eunuch.
You could not emasculate Jerome Walters, so you shot him in the heart. What a vile coward you are. You had to wait until he was 84 and infirm. You beat us viciously as small children. When we got older you just changed your tactics.
You're still vicious, still vulgar, still lost. You remain hopelessly stupid. Your fake religion doesn't fool any one. Some may remain too afraid to tell you about yourself. Others just want to use you for the few measly dollars you selfishly dole out.
You are a liar and you know it. You lie to frustrate your accuser. You can lie to yourself, but you can't lie to GOD. "GOD made you and GOD damn you!" ; was one of your best lacerating insults. That's the one you spewed on Doster when he would catch you fornicating.
I am not going to tell you that. I am going to ask you to give up your ignorance, to stop lying. You know that I never prevented you from living the life of your dream. You know that I am not the horrible woman you have painted me to be.
You can continue to lie and pretend that all of your children wronged you and caused you great pain while you laugh in secret, delighted in their misery. You are not that stupid! No matter how you profess your blatant ignorance. How did your son ruin your life? You had him! You may be number one in their life. You have never been anything but a scourge in mine.
You are exposed. You can come to repentance or you can die in your own filth.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster ( the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch , JEROME WALTERS)
Wednesday, July 11, 2012
Tuesday, July 10, 2012
It's Alright!
I am alright with it. I accept it. My "mother" is an evil perverted demon possessed reprobate that hates me with a passion. My entire family (all except my daughter and one nephew) chose her over me. Some may be fooled, some share in her perversion. What ever the reason, I am o.k. with it.
She will never repent or come to know Christ in the pardoning of her sins. She thought she was so smart, so beautiful, so perfect, she made all of the wrong choices. I am a motherless child. My mother rejected me, refused to love me, preferred to pretend to just so she could destroy me. My grandmother died when I was three. No matter what , I had a wonderful grandfather that proudly "mothered" me. He taught me how to groom myself, cook, sew, garden, read, extrapolate. He taught me to love myself, to walk proudly and to never give up. He taught me to fight my enemies back with prayer, to never give up on GOD.
My "mother" is so evil she is rotting in her sick hatred for the deeds that she cunningly blames on others. Proud of her cruelty she finds and proclaims a good reason for every deed. She is not ashamed, she is in fact very proud. I will not be afraid of her and I will not let her invalidate my pain. I will not keep silent. There are far too many such women in this world. Wrecking havoc, ruining would be men and women. A liar, a cheater, she gets her hands on the baby before it has a chance to form. Before it knows the difference between right and wrong. She indoctrinates it with filth and self hatred. Martha and her kind are the worse human beings anyone could ever encounter. She is a monster, a man eater.
I pray that my brothers come to the knowledge of Jesus Christ, learn to trust Him. I pray that they rid themselves of the awful fear she has inculcated. I pray daily for their freedom. I pray that they learn to love themselves, something she never let us do.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember:"Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster, (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
She will never repent or come to know Christ in the pardoning of her sins. She thought she was so smart, so beautiful, so perfect, she made all of the wrong choices. I am a motherless child. My mother rejected me, refused to love me, preferred to pretend to just so she could destroy me. My grandmother died when I was three. No matter what , I had a wonderful grandfather that proudly "mothered" me. He taught me how to groom myself, cook, sew, garden, read, extrapolate. He taught me to love myself, to walk proudly and to never give up. He taught me to fight my enemies back with prayer, to never give up on GOD.
My "mother" is so evil she is rotting in her sick hatred for the deeds that she cunningly blames on others. Proud of her cruelty she finds and proclaims a good reason for every deed. She is not ashamed, she is in fact very proud. I will not be afraid of her and I will not let her invalidate my pain. I will not keep silent. There are far too many such women in this world. Wrecking havoc, ruining would be men and women. A liar, a cheater, she gets her hands on the baby before it has a chance to form. Before it knows the difference between right and wrong. She indoctrinates it with filth and self hatred. Martha and her kind are the worse human beings anyone could ever encounter. She is a monster, a man eater.
I pray that my brothers come to the knowledge of Jesus Christ, learn to trust Him. I pray that they rid themselves of the awful fear she has inculcated. I pray daily for their freedom. I pray that they learn to love themselves, something she never let us do.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember:"Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster, (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Monday, July 9, 2012
"Don't let anybody dumb you up!"
That advice was given to me by my grandfather, over and over. I understood full well what he meant. He knew that my mother was ferocious and intimidating. She was a fast talker, very vulgar and vicious. He knew her two edged tongue would cut a man down to nothing.
She always had a ready lie and the ability to misinterpret the Bible to fit her agenda. She told me that I wasn't s***! I am glad that I never believed her. It actually infuriated me. I wasn't dumb enough to talk back. But, I was determined to prove her wrong. The more I achieved, the madder she got. She must be pretty pissed right now. Good!
There are so many sorry men on this earth. My grandfather called them "blow flies". "Dey jest lay dey eggs and blow off. Any man can make a baby. Making babies don't prove you a man. A man provides for his churin', leaves them an inheritance."
My grandfather left an inheritance. He left land and a house. But more importantly he left a legacy of wisdom and prophetic understanding. His daughter wants no part of it. I will not be a part of her fantasy, debauchery and serious lack of understanding. She will not dumb me up!
My grandfather left me and inheritance and I am going to glory in it. All those those that wish to remain in captivity with a known dummy, be my guest. All those blind enough and refuse to recognize the fact that she is pure evil and MURDERED my grandfather, you will get what you deserve.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
She always had a ready lie and the ability to misinterpret the Bible to fit her agenda. She told me that I wasn't s***! I am glad that I never believed her. It actually infuriated me. I wasn't dumb enough to talk back. But, I was determined to prove her wrong. The more I achieved, the madder she got. She must be pretty pissed right now. Good!
There are so many sorry men on this earth. My grandfather called them "blow flies". "Dey jest lay dey eggs and blow off. Any man can make a baby. Making babies don't prove you a man. A man provides for his churin', leaves them an inheritance."
My grandfather left an inheritance. He left land and a house. But more importantly he left a legacy of wisdom and prophetic understanding. His daughter wants no part of it. I will not be a part of her fantasy, debauchery and serious lack of understanding. She will not dumb me up!
My grandfather left me and inheritance and I am going to glory in it. All those those that wish to remain in captivity with a known dummy, be my guest. All those blind enough and refuse to recognize the fact that she is pure evil and MURDERED my grandfather, you will get what you deserve.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Sunday, July 8, 2012
I will not suffer in silence
You may be fool enough to brag, to claim that you are happy about my pain. But, I will not suffer in silence. I will tell. No, most may not care. But, some will. You will not get away with your secret demonic life because it is too painful, too dreadful to know.
I know and you know. You know that I know and you can not care less. That means you are not human. That means that you don't have a shred of decency in you. That means you are a complete sham, a total phony.
How disgusting! How do you do it? How do you get up in a pulpit claiming to love Jesus, knowing full well every word that comes out of your mouth is a complete lie? How did you do it? How could you shoot your loving father in the heart and never flinch?
You had me driving a car without brakes for months hoping I would die in a car crash. Jesus saved me. I continue to search for that perfect peace my grandfather had. I know that I have to pray for it. I know that you will never find it.
How could you get so lost? How could you fall so low? Witchcraft! "From such stay away!" Read your Bible children.
I know and you know. You know that I know and you can not care less. That means you are not human. That means that you don't have a shred of decency in you. That means you are a complete sham, a total phony.
How disgusting! How do you do it? How do you get up in a pulpit claiming to love Jesus, knowing full well every word that comes out of your mouth is a complete lie? How did you do it? How could you shoot your loving father in the heart and never flinch?
You had me driving a car without brakes for months hoping I would die in a car crash. Jesus saved me. I continue to search for that perfect peace my grandfather had. I know that I have to pray for it. I know that you will never find it.
How could you get so lost? How could you fall so low? Witchcraft! "From such stay away!" Read your Bible children.
No, I don't know
what tomorrow holds, but I do know who holds tomorrow. I know that old succubus has made our lives, my life, a living hell! A demon so depraved she still refuses to come kicking and screaming to GOD's Truth.
If she is what I needed to find GOD, thank you Jesus! GOD knows what I needed in my life. Our world is crawling with evil in high places. Study the book of Ephesians. "Know ye the Truth and the Truth will set you free."
Never be ashamed of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. Never suffer a demon and wait on her to die. You can not appease her. She is too selfish. She can never be satisfied.
If she is what I needed to find GOD, thank you Jesus! GOD knows what I needed in my life. Our world is crawling with evil in high places. Study the book of Ephesians. "Know ye the Truth and the Truth will set you free."
Never be ashamed of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. Never suffer a demon and wait on her to die. You can not appease her. She is too selfish. She can never be satisfied.
So excited!
Please listen to the song I posted "Somewhere to lay my head" by the Highway QC's. That was one of my grandfather's favorite gospel records. He had a .45 (rpm) record that he played on a little box shaped record player in his little quaint, sparse living room in his house (totally debt free, no mortgage) sitting on his sixty-five acres of land in Wade, North Carolina, Route #1, Box #1, Godwin, North Carolina.
Listening to that song brings back so many good memories, good smells, brilliant life lessons and tremendous pride. I am the direct offspring of a great man. A very wise and wonderful man. I want the world to know it. I strut like a peacock, crow like a batam rooster. I am proud, excited as we approach the 118 birthday anniversary of the birth of a great Patriarch. (July 12, 1894)
My grandfather was a good father, a great grandfather. He was the epitome of what every man should be. You told me how he sucked the mucus out of your nostrils when you were an infant. Sucked the mucus out with his mouth because he did not have an aspirator. Now, that's love. He never, not one time , told you I told you so, as you made tragic mistake after tragic mistake , year after year. He had to tire of you because I know I did. He loved you. No, matter what you did. No matter what sick selfish trick you pulled, he loved you anyway. Perhaps that is why I held on so long.
It was my grandfather that advised me to love you, to always help you. Maybe he was blind. Maybe he held on to hope too long. You tried to murder him when you were sixteen, but he held on. You tricked him out of his hard earned tobacco farming money year after year. An occupation you foolishly disdained.
When I listen to that song I see that good man, tall and regal, gentle and kind. Unfortunately he was plagued by the same demon that still menaces and holds my entire family hostage. I can only do what my grandfather always did, pray for them, pray for you. He read and studied his Bible. He knew better than to fear a demon. "Though he slay me, yet shall I serve the LORD."
I figured you out demon. I haven't heard from you since. True, you are perverted, but it was never sexual pleasure that you wanted. You demanded my joy. (Our joy) Why? Because you have none. You have things, but you are void of joy. You can't have any joy because you don't have Jesus. You can't have Jesus because Jesus will not dwell in an unclean spirit. Your spirit is worse than unclean, you are tormented by that demon you invited to dwell in you. I will not be intimidated by you and your kind.
You are double minded, twisted, confused, deaf and blind. But, more than anything you are afraid. You suffer from tremendous fear that you insist that I share in. I will not! You are nothing to fear. You have no power. You have no love to give me. You have no wisdom to share. I do feel sorry for you and I pray for you. You caustically lacerated me with "Yo' prayers don't go pass yo' head!" How would you know? Where do your prayers go? GOD is not fooled by your fine robe or your sermons that you found on the Internet or Rev. Robinson's prayer that you memorized.
Woman you sure made me suffer. But, you went too far. You went for the over kill. Why couldn't you stop? Who ever heard of an 86 year old demon pretending to be a preacher? Hating me because I knew your truth. Hating me for managing to find some joy in life despite you. Turn that sick hatred on yourself and rid yourself of that awful demon that plagues you and always has.
Call me names, throw your fiery darts. You will not win. You commented on the smile on my grandfather's face as he lay dead in his casket . He did look content. He was suffering, forced to live out his life with your demonic psychotic a**. He only had one leg and he was feeble. Yes, he was glad to go. But one thing about it, he had somewhere to lay his head. You, don't. You are hell bound. No, you are already in hell. I refuse to remain in the hell you created for me. I don't like you that much. I no longer fear you. Your goofer dust is not working. People that hate and revile me on your account don't mean much to me anyway.
You can't have my joy devil. Yes I'm black. But, I'm black and beautiful. Yea, I am a bastard, but I am not an "illegitimate" child. I am a child of GOD with illegitimate parents,. You did successfully snatch a lot of dreams from me but evidently GOD had another purpose for my life.
You robbed your entire family of joy and happiness. You ruined, maimed and destroyed. But, what did you get? You are still not happy. You will never be happy until you gain the strength and courage to accept GOD's Truth.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace,Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Listening to that song brings back so many good memories, good smells, brilliant life lessons and tremendous pride. I am the direct offspring of a great man. A very wise and wonderful man. I want the world to know it. I strut like a peacock, crow like a batam rooster. I am proud, excited as we approach the 118 birthday anniversary of the birth of a great Patriarch. (July 12, 1894)
My grandfather was a good father, a great grandfather. He was the epitome of what every man should be. You told me how he sucked the mucus out of your nostrils when you were an infant. Sucked the mucus out with his mouth because he did not have an aspirator. Now, that's love. He never, not one time , told you I told you so, as you made tragic mistake after tragic mistake , year after year. He had to tire of you because I know I did. He loved you. No, matter what you did. No matter what sick selfish trick you pulled, he loved you anyway. Perhaps that is why I held on so long.
It was my grandfather that advised me to love you, to always help you. Maybe he was blind. Maybe he held on to hope too long. You tried to murder him when you were sixteen, but he held on. You tricked him out of his hard earned tobacco farming money year after year. An occupation you foolishly disdained.
When I listen to that song I see that good man, tall and regal, gentle and kind. Unfortunately he was plagued by the same demon that still menaces and holds my entire family hostage. I can only do what my grandfather always did, pray for them, pray for you. He read and studied his Bible. He knew better than to fear a demon. "Though he slay me, yet shall I serve the LORD."
I figured you out demon. I haven't heard from you since. True, you are perverted, but it was never sexual pleasure that you wanted. You demanded my joy. (Our joy) Why? Because you have none. You have things, but you are void of joy. You can't have any joy because you don't have Jesus. You can't have Jesus because Jesus will not dwell in an unclean spirit. Your spirit is worse than unclean, you are tormented by that demon you invited to dwell in you. I will not be intimidated by you and your kind.
You are double minded, twisted, confused, deaf and blind. But, more than anything you are afraid. You suffer from tremendous fear that you insist that I share in. I will not! You are nothing to fear. You have no power. You have no love to give me. You have no wisdom to share. I do feel sorry for you and I pray for you. You caustically lacerated me with "Yo' prayers don't go pass yo' head!" How would you know? Where do your prayers go? GOD is not fooled by your fine robe or your sermons that you found on the Internet or Rev. Robinson's prayer that you memorized.
Woman you sure made me suffer. But, you went too far. You went for the over kill. Why couldn't you stop? Who ever heard of an 86 year old demon pretending to be a preacher? Hating me because I knew your truth. Hating me for managing to find some joy in life despite you. Turn that sick hatred on yourself and rid yourself of that awful demon that plagues you and always has.
Call me names, throw your fiery darts. You will not win. You commented on the smile on my grandfather's face as he lay dead in his casket . He did look content. He was suffering, forced to live out his life with your demonic psychotic a**. He only had one leg and he was feeble. Yes, he was glad to go. But one thing about it, he had somewhere to lay his head. You, don't. You are hell bound. No, you are already in hell. I refuse to remain in the hell you created for me. I don't like you that much. I no longer fear you. Your goofer dust is not working. People that hate and revile me on your account don't mean much to me anyway.
You can't have my joy devil. Yes I'm black. But, I'm black and beautiful. Yea, I am a bastard, but I am not an "illegitimate" child. I am a child of GOD with illegitimate parents,. You did successfully snatch a lot of dreams from me but evidently GOD had another purpose for my life.
You robbed your entire family of joy and happiness. You ruined, maimed and destroyed. But, what did you get? You are still not happy. You will never be happy until you gain the strength and courage to accept GOD's Truth.
Stay in His WORD children. Remember;"Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace,Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
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