I can still see him, a dark chocolate man, very unkempt , hair long and kinky, beard scraggly. I never knew his real name. I was only three or four but even I had sense enough to feel sorry for him. I guess I looked at him and saw myself, just another unwanted n***** on this earth. Brought here to suffer, to be someone's "thang", something to use and throw away.
They say he walked up and down Highway 301 collecting road kill, mostly possums, raccoons, turtles, any and all animals dumb or slow enough to get caught in the headlights of the cars and trucks rushing through the mostly black village of Wade Station, North Carolina.
I wrote "Seven Pair Of Britches", the bi-lingual translation of what we really called him. SebenPurUghBritches sounds more like what he was called. He earned that name for wearing every pair of pants he owned. He lived in an underground dugout somewhere deep in the woods.
I've often wondered what made him go "off". What could make a man prefer living in a dirty hole, eating vermin, than living with his "loved ones"? Who or what hurt SebenPurUghBritches that much?
I can relate. When my brilliant medical doctor brother returned to our jailer and tormentor I fully understood his need to return to his "roots". "Not me!"; I said. "I rather eat s*** with a knitting needle and sleep in a hollow log!": and I meant it.
Why? Because my deceased mother was the epitome, the embodiment, the pure personification of evil! Brilliant in her deceit, craftiness and debauchery. All five of my brothers are still convinced that she was a real minister of the Gospel and can't get past "Honor thy mother and father!" when I try to educate them.
Hopefully they will read the whole Bible for themselves one day. They will find that scripture doesn't stop there and there are nine other commandments.
"Parents provoke not your children to wrath, less they become disencouraged."
Jesus said:"Know ye the truth and the truth will make you free!" I have been hunting this truth down all my life. Trying to make sense of this tormented woman. An extremely violent, vicious, lying, promiscuous woman that forced us to attend Wesley Chapel A.M.E. Zion church EVERY Sunday.
Sure, she was taught to tell the truth. She said she was beaten severely every day of her life for tiny infractions. I never saw the violent side she swore my grandfather had. I never knew the man that she tried to blow away with a shotgun when she was sixteen. I never heard of her savage rapes until I was an old woman.
I know that she hated her father for not doing anything. "Daddy just run duh n**** off! He lived round Wade till he died. Some n**** shot his leg off when he caught him peeping in hiz window looking at hiz wife." My mother was already in her eighties when she shared that shocking gem with me.
If a child is vilified and rejected in her small community and is exceptionally brilliant, introduced to the occult very early, feels ruined and ashamed, that child can go wrong.
My mother was very fond of saying;"Only by the Grace of GOD there go I." I could have easily turned out like my mother. I was very attractive, charming, brilliant. Fortunately or unfortunately my severe sexual abuse made me the opposite of her. No, not necessarily better, just different. It is only by the Grace of GOD that I never shot or stabbed anyone.
I am glad I never felt the need to dig my own grave to crawl up in to get away from the vile evil men and women still crawling upon this earth. I am eternally grateful to the LORD Jesus Christ for revealing His Truth to me.
And I am coming with it! I am going to shine a bright light on INCEST and child sex abuse. I am going to take the phony pretend shame out of it. Phony pretend "Christians" pretend this is a subject they can't broach. "It is TOO disgusting!"
Well why am I constantly subjected to commercials about erectile dysfunctions, and sex toys by Trojan , if people are so shocked and chagrined by something that is DESTROYING this world?
I could not save myself from my molestors and rapists. My mother could not protect herself from the man that ruined her.
GOD told me to do something different. I will not lie, pretend or take it to my grave. And before I leave this earth I am going to save some children. Praise The LORD!
Remember;"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright January 30, 2014 All rights reserved.
Thursday, January 30, 2014
Tuesday, January 28, 2014
"Study to show yourself approved."
My grandfather taught me that as a small child. Looking back I realize Granddaddy was packing my head and heart with as much scripture as possible. At eight years old I was reading scripture rather regularly in Wesley Chapel AME Zion church.
Did my grandfather know he was building my confidence? I know it was my grandfather that was instrumental in my role of assisting the pastor. No, I'm not talking about reading for Children's Day or Easter Sunday. I read as an equal partner with everyone on the rostrum. When it came my time to read I stood on a little stool, breathed in and illuminated the scripture. I remember projecting and articulating each and every syllable. Reading with expression in my greatest melodious voice. I felt like an equal partner with the pastor , (you see) quite often I would be the only child in the pulpit.
My mother told me ;"They just picked you cause you talk proper ...you sound lak you white." Some how I didn't quiet buy that.
Wesley Chapel was quite progressive in the late 50s and early 60s. We had a woman pastor, Rev. Ethel V. McIver. Every where she went, we went. Most of the churches we visited refused to let her sit in the pulpit with the "men", only a precious few would let her preach.
I remember my grandfather putting some anti-female preacher rabble rouser in his place. "GAWD aint NEVAH called no woman to preach! Sho' me in dat Bible whur GAWD called a 'ooman (woman) to preach! Sho" Me and ill eat yo' Bible!"
Granddaddy, always cool, always calm, simply responded; "Show me whur GAWD called a Gentile to preach and not only will I eat your Bible, I'll bring duh maynaize!"
So, I've always studied my Bible. I love to read it, never tire of it. Children what you need is in GOD's WORD. Read it, learn it, tattoo it on your heart.
Peace,
Did my grandfather know he was building my confidence? I know it was my grandfather that was instrumental in my role of assisting the pastor. No, I'm not talking about reading for Children's Day or Easter Sunday. I read as an equal partner with everyone on the rostrum. When it came my time to read I stood on a little stool, breathed in and illuminated the scripture. I remember projecting and articulating each and every syllable. Reading with expression in my greatest melodious voice. I felt like an equal partner with the pastor , (you see) quite often I would be the only child in the pulpit.
My mother told me ;"They just picked you cause you talk proper ...you sound lak you white." Some how I didn't quiet buy that.
Wesley Chapel was quite progressive in the late 50s and early 60s. We had a woman pastor, Rev. Ethel V. McIver. Every where she went, we went. Most of the churches we visited refused to let her sit in the pulpit with the "men", only a precious few would let her preach.
I remember my grandfather putting some anti-female preacher rabble rouser in his place. "GAWD aint NEVAH called no woman to preach! Sho' me in dat Bible whur GAWD called a 'ooman (woman) to preach! Sho" Me and ill eat yo' Bible!"
Granddaddy, always cool, always calm, simply responded; "Show me whur GAWD called a Gentile to preach and not only will I eat your Bible, I'll bring duh maynaize!"
So, I've always studied my Bible. I love to read it, never tire of it. Children what you need is in GOD's WORD. Read it, learn it, tattoo it on your heart.
Peace,
Sunday, January 26, 2014
We all have some strongholds ...
that we must break;
#1-Pride - Feeling superior to any one or any thing. Savoring any feelings of entitlement for any "gift"; looks, intelligence, color, hair, "race", culture, wealth, abilities, popularity, fame, etc. Who told you that you were better and deserved the lion's share of the gifts of this world?
#2-Fear - give up being terrified of everything. Never go along with any wrong doing in order to get along, to keep your job. Never let any boss, supervisor or employer intimidate you into wrong doing . (NEVER! Remember the Atlanta PS Cheating sandal.)
#3-Hate - if someone deliberately hurts you or causes you harm , you are going to hate them. I think it is only natural, it's human. Now pray, pray for the indwelling of the Holy Spirit. Pray for GOD to purge you of all the hurt, anger and sick tormented memories. Hatred is a plot from the evil one to keep you out of GOD's Kingdom.
#1-Pride - Feeling superior to any one or any thing. Savoring any feelings of entitlement for any "gift"; looks, intelligence, color, hair, "race", culture, wealth, abilities, popularity, fame, etc. Who told you that you were better and deserved the lion's share of the gifts of this world?
#2-Fear - give up being terrified of everything. Never go along with any wrong doing in order to get along, to keep your job. Never let any boss, supervisor or employer intimidate you into wrong doing . (NEVER! Remember the Atlanta PS Cheating sandal.)
#3-Hate - if someone deliberately hurts you or causes you harm , you are going to hate them. I think it is only natural, it's human. Now pray, pray for the indwelling of the Holy Spirit. Pray for GOD to purge you of all the hurt, anger and sick tormented memories. Hatred is a plot from the evil one to keep you out of GOD's Kingdom.
Saturday, January 25, 2014
Demystifying extreme evil
First of all I was shocked to see this term in writing. "Extreme evil", like the word evil is not descriptive or informative enough. Extreme evil is so apt, so perfect for our condition. The more I search the more I learn.
I've come a very long way in 62 years and I praise GOD for leading and guiding me every step of this journey.
"After the NPD (Narcissistic Personality Disordered) mother strips the SG (Scapegoat, that's me) of all they hold dear, intentionally inflicts great emotional pain and puts the blame on the Scapegoat for their own endless evil , the NM (Narcissistic Mother) will cast the SG child out without a second thought." [exerpt from NM's Dysfunctional Family Roles by Gail Myers]
"NM's are manipulative pretenders. Make no mistake about it, a true narcissist parent who is high enough on the narcissism spectrum to be NPD, Will choose to destroy all evidence of the truth rather than be exposed and be held accountable, THE NPD person USUALLY PRETEND TO BE EXACTLY EVERYTHING HE OR SHE IS NOT!!!
My NM pretended to be a preacher, a minister of the Gospel. She pretended to be a loving caring mother. Dear LORD thank you for the flood of information as I back track and try to unravel this "Family secret". I am determined to piece this fractured family back together.
No doubt about it, such a person, a so called mother will devote all of her energy, every second of her life to slick , stealth, demonic destruction. I think Martha died happy, confident that she escaped her just and honest due. Poor Martha died blind, deaf and dumb to the true knowledge of the LORD Jesus Christ.
"Do not expect any empathy or remorse, ever. Do not let the narcissist parent push you down. Take steps as early as possible to protect yourself."
"Do not let a NPD person destroy your relationship with GOD. It is the narcissist who refuses to submit to GOD."
Children it is impossible to fall too low, to become too vile for Christ. Just be careful. Pray for discernment. And never be "double minded". "Be ye hot or cold."
Stay in His WORD children. Make sure you know No weapon formed against you will prosper. In other words what your enemy does to you, to harm you, will perfect you, make you better, stronger. Also, the Dear LORd will not let anything harm His children , anything that demon devises to ultimately destroy you, GOD will shield you, put you in a "coma", take your spirit out of that tortured
body.
I call it demystifying extreme evil, GOD calls it snatching His robe, His mantle off of a rank, shank, "shudda had better sense" imp for satan.
"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright January 25, 2014 All rights reserved.
I've come a very long way in 62 years and I praise GOD for leading and guiding me every step of this journey.
"After the NPD (Narcissistic Personality Disordered) mother strips the SG (Scapegoat, that's me) of all they hold dear, intentionally inflicts great emotional pain and puts the blame on the Scapegoat for their own endless evil , the NM (Narcissistic Mother) will cast the SG child out without a second thought." [exerpt from NM's Dysfunctional Family Roles by Gail Myers]
"NM's are manipulative pretenders. Make no mistake about it, a true narcissist parent who is high enough on the narcissism spectrum to be NPD, Will choose to destroy all evidence of the truth rather than be exposed and be held accountable, THE NPD person USUALLY PRETEND TO BE EXACTLY EVERYTHING HE OR SHE IS NOT!!!
My NM pretended to be a preacher, a minister of the Gospel. She pretended to be a loving caring mother. Dear LORD thank you for the flood of information as I back track and try to unravel this "Family secret". I am determined to piece this fractured family back together.
No doubt about it, such a person, a so called mother will devote all of her energy, every second of her life to slick , stealth, demonic destruction. I think Martha died happy, confident that she escaped her just and honest due. Poor Martha died blind, deaf and dumb to the true knowledge of the LORD Jesus Christ.
"Do not expect any empathy or remorse, ever. Do not let the narcissist parent push you down. Take steps as early as possible to protect yourself."
"Do not let a NPD person destroy your relationship with GOD. It is the narcissist who refuses to submit to GOD."
Children it is impossible to fall too low, to become too vile for Christ. Just be careful. Pray for discernment. And never be "double minded". "Be ye hot or cold."
Stay in His WORD children. Make sure you know No weapon formed against you will prosper. In other words what your enemy does to you, to harm you, will perfect you, make you better, stronger. Also, the Dear LORd will not let anything harm His children , anything that demon devises to ultimately destroy you, GOD will shield you, put you in a "coma", take your spirit out of that tortured
body.
I call it demystifying extreme evil, GOD calls it snatching His robe, His mantle off of a rank, shank, "shudda had better sense" imp for satan.
"Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright January 25, 2014 All rights reserved.
Friday, January 24, 2014
"You being wicked ...
know how to give your children good gifts." that is what Jesus said. "If ye then, being evil, know how to give good gifts unto your children, how much more shall your Father which is in heaven give good things to them that ask Him?" (Matthew 7:11)
'If a son shall ask bread of any of you that is a father, will he give him a stone? or if he ask a fish, will for a fish give him a serpent?" (Luke 11:11)
Dear LORD thank you for your beautiful revealing scripture.
So, wicked people are good to their children. Perhaps not all, but the majority I am sure. Well where does that leave us, leave me? It leaves me climbing out of a slimy pit. Wait, before you caste us as a bunch of dummies , let me remind you that evil is crafty, brilliant in deceit.
I've ordered two books and I can't wait to get them. One is on exorcism, "An Exorcist Tells His Story", something Martha desperately needed before she left here. And "People of the Lie:Hope for Healing Human Evil"
If any family has ever known terrifying evil from a homemade abomination that throughly enjoyed every sick demented millisecond, it is my family. But thank GOD all is not lost. Just one WORD, Jesus! will bind that despicable volunteer demon in the incredible hell she created for her "loved ones" for eternity.
Yes children, incredible diabolical evil is possible. Demons will plaster Jesus on their lips, run and procure an illegal license to preach just to block your way, just to keep YOU out of the Kingdom because they know they aren't going.
Remember, GOD said No! And He can not lie.
Name what you want children. Visualize it, call it into being! "Name it and Claim it!" Don't let a demon laying rotting in her despicable dirty grave keep you from the Glory of GOD!
Stay in His WORD "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright January 24, 2014 All rights reserved.
'If a son shall ask bread of any of you that is a father, will he give him a stone? or if he ask a fish, will for a fish give him a serpent?" (Luke 11:11)
Dear LORD thank you for your beautiful revealing scripture.
So, wicked people are good to their children. Perhaps not all, but the majority I am sure. Well where does that leave us, leave me? It leaves me climbing out of a slimy pit. Wait, before you caste us as a bunch of dummies , let me remind you that evil is crafty, brilliant in deceit.
I've ordered two books and I can't wait to get them. One is on exorcism, "An Exorcist Tells His Story", something Martha desperately needed before she left here. And "People of the Lie:Hope for Healing Human Evil"
If any family has ever known terrifying evil from a homemade abomination that throughly enjoyed every sick demented millisecond, it is my family. But thank GOD all is not lost. Just one WORD, Jesus! will bind that despicable volunteer demon in the incredible hell she created for her "loved ones" for eternity.
Yes children, incredible diabolical evil is possible. Demons will plaster Jesus on their lips, run and procure an illegal license to preach just to block your way, just to keep YOU out of the Kingdom because they know they aren't going.
Remember, GOD said No! And He can not lie.
Name what you want children. Visualize it, call it into being! "Name it and Claim it!" Don't let a demon laying rotting in her despicable dirty grave keep you from the Glory of GOD!
Stay in His WORD "Apart from Christ we are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
Copyright January 24, 2014 All rights reserved.
Wednesday, January 22, 2014
Ole Sambo outwits Ole Massa again!
There he was guilty as sin trying to act as pure as the Virgin Mary. Ole Sambo stood there, tall handsome and sturdy , every beautiful black muscle rippling under that jet black velvety flesh.
The fact is Sambo wasn't old at all. Ole Massa bought himself a new n***** named Sambo and he refused to answer to his new name Jupiter. Said his missus had taught him to write it and he didn't believe he had enough since to learn to spell another. So he became New Sambo and Sambo , Ole Sambo.
Ole Massa didn't trust Ole Sambo at all. Every time Ole Sambo was around something came up missing. I mean big stuff, gold watches, ivory pipes, new leather boots, not just chickens and watermelons. No matter what, no matter how much Ole Massa throughly investigated he could not catch Ole Sambo. He vowed to get him though. Ole Massa just knew he was bound to catch Ole Sambo one day. There was no way any slave, his property, any worthless soulless coon could outwit or out think him.
Finally! Ole Sudie, the slave snitch , went and told Ole Massa that Ole Sambo "done stole and ete up massa's prize ham dat was locked up in duh smoke house!"
So there they were , all the slaves were called to the portico. Had to stand at attention as Sudie ratted on Ole Sambo.
"Stealing!!! How dass you! I will beat duh black off you! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh-Ahhh-Ahhh- "
"Master sir! If fen you pleeze ! You know you is a wise master and not easily led astray by some toothless worthless n **** lak dis heah Sudie! You knows I loves you and ain't never been nuttin but loyal to you! YOU KNOW I WOULD NEVAH BE FOOL ENUF TO STEAL FROM SUCH A FINE BRILLIANT MAGNANIMOUS MASSA QUALITY WHITE MAN SUCH AS YO'Sef!
(Ole Sambo screamed that so loud and fast he lost his breath.)
I'm gonna beat you anyway n****! (I got to show dese savages who duh real Massa is, who duh smartest , who superior .)
"Massa I's blong to You! Duh ham blong to You! ... I eats duh ham. ...duh ham in me! So how is I stealing?"
Ole Massa looked rather stunned, incredulous ... Then scratched his head; " Git otta heah n *****! "
*********************************************************************************Excerpt from The JR WALTERS Chronicles
Copyright January 22 , 2014. All rights reserved
The fact is Sambo wasn't old at all. Ole Massa bought himself a new n***** named Sambo and he refused to answer to his new name Jupiter. Said his missus had taught him to write it and he didn't believe he had enough since to learn to spell another. So he became New Sambo and Sambo , Ole Sambo.
Ole Massa didn't trust Ole Sambo at all. Every time Ole Sambo was around something came up missing. I mean big stuff, gold watches, ivory pipes, new leather boots, not just chickens and watermelons. No matter what, no matter how much Ole Massa throughly investigated he could not catch Ole Sambo. He vowed to get him though. Ole Massa just knew he was bound to catch Ole Sambo one day. There was no way any slave, his property, any worthless soulless coon could outwit or out think him.
Finally! Ole Sudie, the slave snitch , went and told Ole Massa that Ole Sambo "done stole and ete up massa's prize ham dat was locked up in duh smoke house!"
So there they were , all the slaves were called to the portico. Had to stand at attention as Sudie ratted on Ole Sambo.
"Stealing!!! How dass you! I will beat duh black off you! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh-Ahhh-Ahhh- "
"Master sir! If fen you pleeze ! You know you is a wise master and not easily led astray by some toothless worthless n **** lak dis heah Sudie! You knows I loves you and ain't never been nuttin but loyal to you! YOU KNOW I WOULD NEVAH BE FOOL ENUF TO STEAL FROM SUCH A FINE BRILLIANT MAGNANIMOUS MASSA QUALITY WHITE MAN SUCH AS YO'Sef!
(Ole Sambo screamed that so loud and fast he lost his breath.)
I'm gonna beat you anyway n****! (I got to show dese savages who duh real Massa is, who duh smartest , who superior .)
"Massa I's blong to You! Duh ham blong to You! ... I eats duh ham. ...duh ham in me! So how is I stealing?"
Ole Massa looked rather stunned, incredulous ... Then scratched his head; " Git otta heah n *****! "
*********************************************************************************Excerpt from The JR WALTERS Chronicles
Copyright January 22 , 2014. All rights reserved
No children I will not ...
let you think I serve a GOD that would let me suffer this demon for 57 years and agonize over His revealed truth for years. No it is clearly my fault. GOD told me, spoke to me when I was eighteen years old. GOD told me my mother was a demon. My grandfather said; "leave heah dawtuh and don't nevah come back!"
I am the one that refused to listen, refused to obey. I remember clearly having an intellectual debate with GOD; "A demon! No way! No such thing! Utter nonsense! What silly superstition!" I know now I was determined to win this woman's love. I was like Jennifer Hudson in Dreangirls; "You GONNA LOVE ME!!!"
I graduated from college with honors, Magna Cum Laude. No I still wasn't good enough. I still wasn't s***! (Her words, not mine) Kept myself up, kept my "viriginity". Won two fellowships to graduate schools. No I still wasn't good enough. No I never was good enough children. I showered her with gifts. At one point she had me sending her money every month. (Yes she was a pimp, pure Iceberg Slim) I took care of her through two major surgeries but I had the audacity to question the excruciating pain I felt in my vagina when I was eight. That demon lost it, cussed me like a dog, but fled. No I was never bothered with Mathy again. She just slithered away and enjoyed concentrating all of her secret venom on my medical doctor brother. (Pray for him)
All my life all I heard from my mother was; " She duh cause of it! .." No matter what went wrong in Mathy's house I was " duh cause of it".
But GOD! But one day GOD finally had to hit me in the head with a ton of bricks. I woke up! I finally saw the light! I haven't stop shouting since my LORD set me free, brought me up out of that pit,
PRAISETHELORDPRAISETHELORDPRAISETHELORDPRAISETHELORDPRAISETHELORDPRAISETHELORDPRAISETHELORD !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Spread GOD's Good WORD children.
Remember GOD does not want us to suffer. If you are grown and still suffering the pangs of an awful childhood it you own fault.
Embrace GOD's Truth today ...be set free!
Copyright January 22, 2014. All rights reserved.
I am the one that refused to listen, refused to obey. I remember clearly having an intellectual debate with GOD; "A demon! No way! No such thing! Utter nonsense! What silly superstition!" I know now I was determined to win this woman's love. I was like Jennifer Hudson in Dreangirls; "You GONNA LOVE ME!!!"
I graduated from college with honors, Magna Cum Laude. No I still wasn't good enough. I still wasn't s***! (Her words, not mine) Kept myself up, kept my "viriginity". Won two fellowships to graduate schools. No I still wasn't good enough. No I never was good enough children. I showered her with gifts. At one point she had me sending her money every month. (Yes she was a pimp, pure Iceberg Slim) I took care of her through two major surgeries but I had the audacity to question the excruciating pain I felt in my vagina when I was eight. That demon lost it, cussed me like a dog, but fled. No I was never bothered with Mathy again. She just slithered away and enjoyed concentrating all of her secret venom on my medical doctor brother. (Pray for him)
All my life all I heard from my mother was; " She duh cause of it! .." No matter what went wrong in Mathy's house I was " duh cause of it".
But GOD! But one day GOD finally had to hit me in the head with a ton of bricks. I woke up! I finally saw the light! I haven't stop shouting since my LORD set me free, brought me up out of that pit,
PRAISETHELORDPRAISETHELORDPRAISETHELORDPRAISETHELORDPRAISETHELORDPRAISETHELORDPRAISETHELORD !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Spread GOD's Good WORD children.
Remember GOD does not want us to suffer. If you are grown and still suffering the pangs of an awful childhood it you own fault.
Embrace GOD's Truth today ...be set free!
Copyright January 22, 2014. All rights reserved.
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