"STUDY TO SHOW YOURSELF APPROVED!"

It is imperative that you study!  Learn as much as you can,  while you can.  Most importantly , learn to think for Yourself!  Otherwise you will perish.  These imps and pimps with titles, people in authority over you, WILL DESTROY YOU!

It must be Morning!  "Joy comes in the Morning!"  "A lie can't live forever."  GOD is righting wrongs, straightening every crooked way, opening eyes, taking blinders off, unstopping deaf ears.  Don't worry about the ones that refuse to hear, to see.

Save yourself!  Leave your fellow victims down in that pit.  They claim to be happy.  They are also LIARS. Pray for them, offer them comfort, but don't linger in that sewage with them one more moment.

No matter how long, complicated, bizarre, repugnant,  an imp's plan, it will NOT work.  No matter if fellow victims scream; "Shut up!".   Poor,  foolish, defeated, exhausted, perplexed, and confused "children" still mourn the "mother" they never had.

The woman that should have been their mother was prevented by extreme ignorance, brought on by extreme anti-intellectualism.  Martha bragged of her great intellect.  But she lied.  Martha surrounded herself with books that she never had the discipline or intellectual curiosity to read.

Martha had a great ear for hearing something "smart" and repeating it, claiming it as her own.  Why study when you falsely believe that your skin color, hair, gift of lying, brutality and savagery , is all you need.  If Martha could not manipulate you with her "con", she resorted to name calling, vulgar insults.  If that didn't work, she laid hands on you.   Some times she had to use knives, guns, sticks, bricks and last but not least was her "dust".  It was a good thing for Martha that so few people are aware of such shameful primitive practices that still linger, left over from slavery.

Martha never changed, never bothered to change , because she did believe she was winning.  When  she sang her legendary song; "You can't win fuh duh fix you in, I can't lose fuh duh stuff I use." She meant it!

Martha was a self styled, self made, "Root Doctor".  Martha was a whore!  No,  not just any whore, the lowest.  I cry to this day realizing how low my "mother" fell.  Rock bottom.

"You done hit rock bottom dawthur. …you can't go no lower."  I was around three when I overheard those words.  In my mind's eye I can clearly see the front room we were in.  Sparse.  Granddaddy never had a lot of furniture.  I do not know what act Jerome Walters had caught his only daughter in.  I know it was foul.  I know that he never repeated it.

I do know that I lived in fear, in absolute terror for 62 Years!  I know a great cozy warm blanket of relief engulfed me when my brother texted me, informing me coldly that she had finally "passed".

Praise the LORD!

How dare any one judge me for my opinions and revelations concerning my own "mother".  How ever I feel about her, do know,  it is a "knowing", a "coming into being, fruition."   My daughter told me.  I could not see it.  All my life my mother always bragged about her superior intellect, superior beauty, skin color and straight hair.

Martha set herself up as the "Brain Trust".  We were to go to her for advice.  Only she could name our children.  I wonder , is that why she MURDERED the only wise man any of us ever knew or hoped to ever know?    She openly hated my granddaddy with a passion.   Claimed that he interfered and messed up her life.

Martha was sultry, seductive, paraded nearly naked around her mostly male family.  She purred, head bumped you, deliberately led you astray .  Demanded to witness and participate in your destruction.  Just like that puppy, Martha was going to pound you between two bricks.  She was going to laugh and she was going to get on the phone and spread the news of your sorry life to every one willing to listen to the "Wise godhead".

Martha was not nearly as brilliant as she professed.  But she was smart.  "If it had not been for GOD on my side! ….Oh LORD! …where would I be?"

Take GOD with you every were you go!  Don't wait until you think you need Him,  to call on Him.  You need Him every hour!  "Goodgot'tuhmighty!"  My own "mother" terrorized me!  Stalked me for 62 years!  And the world cries;  "Shut up!"

I will NOT!  One thing I know, the ease, comfort and longevity of Martha Jane Walters in the A.M.E. Zion church demands discussion, intellectual and spiritual exchange.    What kind of church permits, turns a blind eye to known demonic women giving COMMUNION! Presiding over funerals, taking into marriage?    A church that cloaks and harbors such reprobates,  then have the nerve to THINK THEY DON'T HAVE TO ANSWER TO GOD!

GOD said No!  Why are you Bishops, Presiding elders, pastors and preachers still pretending that you don't know me?  That you have not heard from me or about me?

One thing for sure, you are going to have to  give in account to GOD for your deeds, for your greed, for your slimy serpent ways.

For your information; I AM SOMEBODY AND I WILL BE HEARD!"

I press on ...

"Didn't nun of us ...

come heah (here) to stay always.  We sho' gon'go one day.  Naw, we don't know when, nor how, no how.  Just don't git too comfortable laying up yo'treasures on earf.   Don't be so proud of'duh fear you plant in hearts, either.

One thang fuh sho' GAWD ain't suddin' you!  I don't know why you so proud , no way!  Preying on luddle chullun and a one legged infirm old  man.

 You sho' a heifer!  You sho' hizzun (the devil's).  You know you could have overdosed him! You wuz his "caregiver"!  No! You had to heap Yo' shame on him!   KILLED HIM! LIED AND SAID HE DID IT!   GAWD gon' git you Mathy Jane!

Don't seem lak  it take much courage tuh mistreat your loved ones, no way.   They gon' love you any how…can't hep dey'sef.    But you ought to be shame!  You up'dere wid yo'mannish sef! , deliberately keeping Hiz chullun from Him!

GAWD said No!

PTL!

I press on ...

Open all blind eyes LORD, ...

unstop all deaf ears.  "Come by here LORD, somebody needs you."  Give us the courage to finally see.  To call a spade,  a spade, a whore,  a whore, a demon,  a demon, an imp,  an imp.

Martha Jane Walters was good.  She made satan proud.   "Get them straight out of the womb."   Be as "common as common can be".  Then deny, deny.  Guard your foul truth with "put-on-fake-religion".  Praise GOD with your lips but hate Him with a passion in your cold black perverted heart.

Rot!  Cover up the stench of your perversion with pronouncements like; "He quar(queer) …daddy always said that boy wuz quar."

GOD in His infinite wisdom tells us to repent.  Impudent closet demons truly believe that they don't have to.  Their "flying monkeys" insure their secrecy.  There is one problem.  What if satan, the evil, corrupt, god-head, you secretly serve, coaxes you to finally go too far?  What if your mask slips, falls off?  What if I finally put two and two , together?  What if I finally got over my selective amnesia and remembered?  What if I stopped listening to your endless babble, this world's lies and finally listened to GOD?

What if satan tells you to not only viciously beat your children but to do far worse?  How are you going to feel when you start your fake preaching and you are not well received?  Will you always blame envy and jealousy on your lack of success in life?

Will you die lying? cursing? hating?  Will you die hating GOD because of your foolish pride?  for your stiff neck?

She had to come here.  She had to do what she did, the way she did it.   But, I don't have to remain her silent fool.  I have no complaints … I finally caught on.  I am not too harmed.  I am much wiser .

I press on ...

"I Need You To Hold My Hand" - The Jackson Southernaires

"Making wise the simple …"  No, I didn't come here to stay always.  Nor did I come here to be some Jezebel spirited woman's lap dog-foot-stool-bottom-bitch, either.


 I respect GOD! I  love the LORD!  If my testimony does not move you, if you still can't find compassion, an urging, an unction,  to speak out against severe child sexual abuse.  If you still refuse to recognize the evil working havoc in your own life.  If you are still determined to enjoy brief "carnal pleasure" in exchange for your soul because that is the only way you can feel accepted and valued by your fellow man.  If you are a liar and you lie to yourself about your lying, lie on.

GOD is wonderful .  Some choose to not worship Him or believe in Him because of what happened to me.   Make sure you know and never forget,  that low, worthless whore from hell , fully intended and attempted,  to do far worse,  at every turn.

That whore's rotten soul screamed in anguish as I won!  B.S. degree with honors and "virginity" in tack!

Would she change?  Would she recognize GOD as the Head of her life,  for real!?  Hell No! "GOD was 'fuh  suckahs!" (So she "preached")

Most importantly, she is not the only one.  The whore had friends.  Hung out with like men and women.

Find your niche .  Find your "tribe".  I know my tribe is small.  "Many are called.  Few are chosen."  "Wide is the road that leads to death and destruction."  "FOOLS DIE FOR WANT OF WISDOM!"

I press on ...

"Don't leave heah (here) ...

wid yo'wok undone."  Praise the LORD!  He is Magnificent!  He is the only ONE that can save you, make intercession for you.  I'm humbled!  I'm sold.  'I'm Hizz'un!' for life!

Come heah (here) chile! ….You ain't gon' blieve dis, but it is true! Eva'word!  satan got me!  satan had me!  Whoopped my ass fo' breakfast, dinner and supper,  'fo 62 years!  Don't you know that low 'ho had me looking 'fo the cause of my unrelenting  misery.  The stankin' low 'ho helped me look too!

Ni I feel foolish.  GOT no excuse.  Jesus told me!  Told me ova' and 'ova.; "Yo'enemies will be of yo'own household!"  "They 'gon dress up in sheep's clothing, ravenous wolves, 'gon git up in the church house!"

"Fear NO Man!"  We ain't studdin' dat.  We say it, but we sho' don't mean it.  Got "goofer dust" bags tied 'round our bellies, up under our arms.  Going tuh fortune tellers, soothe sayers and such.

My "mother" laughed, 'The minute they come in my do' I know dey a fool! he-he-he-he-he …jest somebody that want tuh git they money took! he-he-he-he'

Martha did believe and declare that we lived in a predatory world, therefore we should be predatory. "Git 'dem 'fo' dey git you.'

GOD in His infinite wisdom did not create us to be predatory.  He keeps trying to tell us.  He sent His son, sacrificed Him.  Yet the masses tarry.  The evil imps continue to vex, unimpeded, unhindered.  Why?  Carnal sin.  Too many men and women are programmed like robots to have "illicit sex" as often as possible.

Many women put up with whoredom, promiscuity, on the  part of their husbands because of some nonsense; "A man 'gon do, what a man 'gon do."

Carnal sin tarnished Dr. King's name.  Bill Clinton's name.  The number of people that lost favor because of carnal sin is innumerable .  John What'shis-name, from North Carolina.

When are men and women going to get it?  Why must you have illicit sex? secret sex?  sex outside of your marriage?  You don't.  But the adversary is luring you, deluding you.    You do it.   Get played by women like my "mother".  You gave her money for a good time.  You feel guilty, go to church, never miss a Sunday.

Now satan has you living a lie, living  in fear.  What if the world finds out?  Well, just repent.  Pride will prevent you from repenting.  Pride will prevent you from caring, from having compassion.

One thing I found out, I never had to fear the adversary for one moment.  I learned that I did not have to placate the devil.  Most importantly, I learned; what is, Is!

My "mother" was a low,  common,  demon possessed,  sadistic,  imp,  that I feared more than I loved GOD.   I prayed for GOD to take that unnatural truly demonic terror from me.  He did! PTL!

I press on ...

"Learn to live together as friends or die ...

together as fools."

I must have a thousand quotes lined up in my brain waiting for an opportunity to be gifted, delivered to an anxious ear.

 Can wise quotations  help you?  Certainly, if you are receptive.  Do know words of wisdom make some people rage.  That is the kind of woman my "mother" was.  Don't bother wasting your breathe admonishing Martha with  GOD's Commandments, proverbs or Jesus' parables.

Martha Jane Walters was an IMP!  Goggle it!  Finally know what an IMP is and "stay 'way from'um!".

 Please listen.  I am not hating on the old *****.  I just want to share , unburden myself a little.

My "Mathy Jane Experience" has taught me why some men become serial murderers.  If nothing else, I will always have compassion in my heart for men that find they prefer "men".  If any man has a deep psychological fear and hatred for women, I fully understand.

Of course I am still tormented.  An 87 year old demon possessed pervert!  A woman so common we refused to see.  GOD told us not to fear.  We feared!  You see what we got.

The saddest possible truth about this whole saga; my "mother" declared her "church" (Simon Temple A.M.E.Zion Church on Yadkin Road in Fayetteville, North Carolina) to be just like her.  She felt comfortable among them.  I know they never prayed for her, treated me with disdain.

  "Be ye also ready…" was a Wade Station quote.  An itinerant preacher's [ that always wore a snow white double breasted silk  suit and silk scarf] tag line.  We laughed.  Now I get it.

GOD's perfect world is possible and it is coming.  Rest assured, you and I may never see it.  But GOD is going to have his way.

"Prepare ye the way …"

Justice is coming!  Truth is coming!  GOD is righting every wrong.  Get on the right side.  My "mother" used cunning, ignorant brutality and methods too low and common to ever mention again, in order to have her way for 87 years.  Bragged about it.  Gloated.

What did she get?  She claimed to the Mother of a church.  Do they claim her now?  Is her picture up any where in that church?  Is she revered and lauded as she demanded?  Is she still feared?

What does the Bible say?  "When your desolation comes, it will come as a whirlwind!"

Keep being a lying, phony,  fornicator,  like Mathy.  I do not suspect too many of "chunking dust" or working "roots" like Mathy. I do hope and pray few fall that low and "stay" .   "Stay" as deliberately remain vacuous out of envy and jealousy.   But Mathy's carnal nature, highly over sexed, lying and free to fornicate nature, will ruin far too many.

"Dear LORD, deliver us of "'hoish (whorish) men and women".

Stop that practice.  Will you give up your integrity, sell your soul to satan for 30 seconds of "pleasure"?  Poor Martha did, over and over , for 87 years.  What did she get?   What did she reap?

Pray to pray.

I press on ...

Old rugged cross - Johnny Cash

Classic!