"The Sun is going to shine in my back door ...

one day."  While this world might not know, may never know, I know, GOD did not bring me here to suffer this much pain,  for nothing.

Sure, most people in this world may never care.  So what!? I will not give up the right for the wrong!

I will not be gutted like a fish by a phony "pastor" , then hog tied and ostracized into silence.

"Deze iiiiiissss some bitches!  I duh'clar!  Whut dun went wrong!?"

"Lying!  Lying!    I tell'yo'!  Lying and 'hoing!  Duh bishop 'ho monging wid duh passor ….chile hisauh mess!  Can't nodody tell on nobody cause dey is all wrong.  GAWD gon' git'um do.   ….sho' is!  You jest wait and see … gon' be auh 'shame too."

I have PTSD.  I diagnosed myself.  I suffer with anxiety attacks.  I am honest.  I do not lie, steal , fornicate, etc.  I keep all Ten Commandments.  I do love my neighbor but I do shun people that I perceive to be too needy,  if they are "liars".  I abhor people that cannot tell the truth.

Lying is a sure sign of cowardice.  What do you fear and why?  Face your fears.  GOD will prepare you.  I know it took GOD 62 years to prepare me to know the truth about the woman that birthed me.

Children deserve a chance.  Jesus does NOT tolerate child molestation.  "Suffer the children to come unto Me, forbid them Not the Kingdom of Heaven."

Deliberate child abuse is bringing America down.  It will be the direct cause of our demise as a great nation soon and very soon.    When a country no longer cares about it's youth and it's elderly , that nation is doomed.  Doomed in short order.  "Mark what I say."

The nightly scandal of the blatant elder abuse of the residents of Friendship Towers in Atlanta,  is disgraceful.  I am not shocked to see greed in the church, to see such "inhumanity to man " in the church.  It is wrong and every last one of those too good, too high up, to care, will know.  Will know in short order, too.

I do feel sorry for the residents, I do salute the community leaders fighting for them.   Never move in a high rise building owned by Friendship Baptist Church.

We are engaged in a Spiritual War.  It has nothing to do with color, race, gender or ethnic origin .

It is time to get right "Church".

PTL!

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"As a man thinketh ...

in his heart, so is he."  Brother James, got it right.  If you think you are a loser, you are a loser, a winner,  a winner.  But, be careful.  Do not let this world define you.

For 64 years I have been labeled as "crazy".  I am not crazy.  I am human.  I am normal, a normal "gutted fish".  A girl child rendered a eunuch by her own mother.  How tragic.  Every one screams; "Oh No!  Too bad, so sad  ….let's move on.  Let us never discuss this.  Let's pretend Martha Jane Walters,  is and was the only one."    Although Jesus clearly warned us.

No preacher will dare approach the subject of my mother from the pulpit. ( One did though. Changed my life! I salute you.)

My mother fully understood this scripture.  Feeling her life was washed up at 16 , when she found herself pregnant with her first born, Martha never tried.  Martha Jane Walters was a fallen woman that never tried to get up.  She merely pretended to get up.

Why should she?  She was "yalla", had "good hair".  When in actuality,  she was a whore.  When Martha found out,  that was just a line to get in her "draws", it was too late.  Again, as a man thinketh.  Martha always thought that she was a whore, so she was always a whore.  She did have whore mentality.

You could not shake it out of her.  Martha would gladly sell or trade her body for filthy lucre and she demanded everyone around her,  be of the same low calibre.  Don't you dare complain or fail to comply.  You would rue the day you ever thought about defying Mathy Jane .  

One unfortunate thing happened to me.   She permitted and arranged for my severe,  brutal,  savage,  sexual molestation,  "it"  rendered me  disinterested in sex.  "Foiled again!"  What must  Mathy Jane  do now?

 Stalk this poor innocent, miserable bird of prey.  Constantly scream at her!  Tell her she is too black!  Too lame!  Too nerdy!  Too hard lucked! Laugh! Laugh! Laugh! Pin your dirty sins on her! (No one will ever know. No one will ever care.  She is black.  Black people do NOT care about other black people.)

Martha found it difficult to control me without carnal motives.  Seriously, it would not have mattered.  I could have been the same carnal, promiscuous beast my mother.  She would have been  the same way.  There ws no saving Martha.  She had to come here.  She had to be.  "It is writte."

PTL!

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"The hoodoo that you do"

Jesus tells us; …mothers will be against daughters, daughters against mothers …"  There is an enmity , a polar resistance, good versus evil, a distrust, a type of competition , placed between some mothers and daughters.

For the evil doer like my mother, it was a game.  A vicious, catty, unfair game,  immature, extremely ignorant, deliberately highly uneducated Martha demanded to play until her dying day.  She never tired of it.  For 87 years Martha Jane Walters delighted in being a closet imp.

Trilled to death to ruin, fool, foil,  while being honored by the very people she secretly hated.  No, this is why you should pay attention.  I am sure at eight, Martha never set out to, never dreamed, she would die,  the hideous monster she became.

Pride goeth before a fall.  Bible! Fact!  I didn't write it.

You can't be double minded!  Fact!  I didn't write it!

You will reap exactly what you sow!

I am sick as hell of old nasty perverted evil doers like my demon laden mother , committing all kinds of hellish crimes and trying to lay them at my feet!

 My old,  low- whorish- root- working-gospel-preaching- stank mama, MURDERED her own daddy! Then turned right around and  was successful, smooth as silk,  in persuading all my kit and kin to hate Me!

I am despised as the MURDERER AND THE MURDERED! Not for doing, but for telling, for snitching.  Martha did fully believe she HAD THE RIGHT TO TAKE HIS LIFE!

I heard her rationale as she screamed at him daily; "WHEEEEEEEEENNNNNNNNNNN YOOOOOOOU  GON' DIE OLD MAN!?"

I'm a living witness!

Why didn't I do something?

I realize now, I was a fellow slave, a captive, a footstool for the evil doer.

GOD said No!

You look like a damn idiot supporting Mathy, hiding her "carne " after she is long dead.  I am not the only one that got molested, raped and ruined!  ROBBED!

GOD help the daughter of the wickedly evil mother.  That poor child will never know true peace.  She will suffer from maddening confusion.  (Some misguided relative felt it best to never tell the children, to never let on  what a beast their mother truly was.  Just let them be sacrificed.  Let them be satan's fodder.  It is their own hard luck being conceived in the womb of a volunteer reprobate.)

She will live a nightmarishly horrible life, all of her life.  She will be laughed at and made the footstool of a demonic ner-do-well.  A very foolish woman that refused to ever see her children as a gift from GOD.  A woman so low,  envious and devious , she knew to always PRETEND to be the EXACT OPPOSITE OF WHAT SHE TRULY WAS.   (That is why she preached.)

(Children, when your life can not be lived as an open book, something is wrong.)

I was made to pay for my mother's carnal deeds.  Martha knew full well that she should not hate me at all.  She also knew that her hatred was irrational, well over the top.  She did not care.  How could she care?  Why would she?  Martha's long list of tragic sadistic deeds had surpassed their human limit by the time she was eight years old.

Martha had no where to go but down.  She found a compromise in pretending, imitating, declaring and FORBIDDING!

#1 NEVER TELL ON MARTHA JANE!

#2 NEVER THINK FOR YOURSELF! LET MARTHA JANE THINK FOR YOU!

#3 NEVER TRUST ANYONE BUT MARTHA JANE! DO KNOW YOU ARE GETTING SCREWED BUT GET SCREWED ANYWAY!

#4 TAKE EVERYTHING YOU KNOW ABOUT MARTHA JANE TO YOUR GRAVE!

I CAN'T DO IT!

PTL!

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"Making wise the simple"

The poor evil doer is deluded, full of self congratulations, proud of her achievements.  Never crediting GOD one iota.  Blaming GOD, yes, thanking GOD, no.

The poor deluded evil doer is convinced his or her schemes are fool proof.   All deeds are carefully balanced, all lies categorized and memorized.  Plus, all  the spoiled evil doer need do,  is cry.  She will get her way.  Unfortunately she knows she is a manipulator.  She knows her heart is empty, and will remain empty until she prays.  She will not pray because she likes things just the way they are, with her on top.  She is quite cruel, sadistic and perverted and loves it very much.  In Martha's sick mind, she is not the problem.  The world is the problem.  GOD is the problem!

"Apart from Christ we are noting."  That is the pure Gospel truth preached from my grandfather's lips and lived by example every day of his life.  Simple.  Jerome Walters lived the life he talked about.  His daughter talked about a life she never lived and truthfully , never wanted to live.

Here I come.  The volunteer whorish imp is 26 years old.   She is not fresh.  By my calculations and her  infrequent confessions, I was her 9th child.  She did give me away.  Claimed she gave me to a "madame" that ran a "whorehouse" (brothel).

Did my mother hate me?  Yes!  That severely? Yes!  She was demon possessed.  Knew it and preferred life with the demons.

While the evil doer possesses all the greatest strategies and appears  to be winning, they are losing.  Not only are they losing they are causing tremendous needless heartache.

Dear LORD, I am praying to let go of my demons, anything that has me bound.  Break every chain LORD.  Do for kit and kin, friend and foe, in your name LORD.

PTL!

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Ride on King Jesus!

Let no man hinder me!  When the evil one is so low and treacherous as to send  your evil,  fallen , hopelessly clamorous , dimwitted , mother to destroy you, you are in trouble.

But, make sure you have studied GOD's WORD enough to know; "The fervent prayers of a righteous man availeth much.".  It is true.  My grandfather, Jerome Walters was a righteous man.  The only true Christian I am willing to vouch for.

I must marvel.  Every aspect of Martha's scheme should have worked.  It worked for over eighty years, it appears.

"What am seen, cain't be denied." were the words I read over and over in one of the volumes of slave narratives I read while attending graduate school.  This former slave offered no explanation for the things he had seen in his extremely long life.

He repeated fascinating stories of slaves that were born with "familiar" spirits that could heal.  The interviewer questioned him sternly, over and over.  And over and over he replied; "Whut am seen , cain't be denied."

Well that is where I am in my life. I can not deny what I have seen!  I saw my mother call up demons!
I know what she did to my knee!  I know how she got and kept her "husbands".

Fearing her was the best option at the time.  We survived.  Praise the LORD!  "Now come ye out from among them."

PTL!

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Get Up!

First thing, "Get up soon in the morning!".  Always get up early, praising GOD, just thanking Him.  Walk through every room of your house thanking Him, blessing Him for blessing you.  Acknowledge the Goodness of GOD in all that you do.

Please don't deny Him.  Please don't play scientific and all brand new.  Don't turn "neo-coon" and become agnostic because you think it is cool, because you think you are too educated for this "GAWD" of the primitive, shouting, getting the Holy Ghost Christian.

Let them "nay sayers" say nay.  I know, I saw it.  I am a witness!  A person can call evil spirits up from the grave.  MY MOTHER DID!

She was such a low demonic whore she MURDERED her own daddy!  Her "roots" are wearing off now.  The blinders are falling off and more and more people are beginning to hear me.  I know my story is too incredible to believe .  But the GOD I serve is too incredible to NOT be believed.

Children, I have a testimony!  Praise the LORD! I am humbled!  A demon came here and tried to use GOD to destroy an entire dynasty!  (If I am the only one to escape, to make it out, so be it.)

The LORD Jesus Christ delivered me from a demon , a stealth demon that I was born enslaved to.  I never had a chance.  My life was over before I was born to this hideous monster void of all maternal instinct.

I am not angry.  I am glad.  I am positively jubilant.  I am due to be dead!  A miserable, toothless, crack addict,  at the most.  Instead I am a retired school teacher.  I completed a stellar career as an educator.

1. Love GOD! Put The LORD Jesus Christ first in your life.  Live for Him.  "For Him I live, for Him I will die!"  Fall in love with GOD!  Stop searching for some Hollywood Adonis.
2. Love YOU!  Embrace you! Kiss you!  Adore you!  Do know that GOD did not make a mistake.  Do not spend one more moment complaining about your "flaws".  If it is unsightly, fix it.          If you are tall, love being tall.  Short, be short.  I make short,  shine.  Do know those people that never liked you, never will.  Love your color, your status, love everything about your "self".
3. Become ravenous for knowledge.  Search for wisdom and understanding.  "No pain ,no gain"  True scholars spend hours away from the mainstream, reading.  Pour over all the great books of wisdom,  of philosophy .  How dare you reject GOD without a thorough reading of His Book for yourself.  I am certainly glad I read it and continue to read it over and over.  It seems my spiritual advisor, my mother, was making it up as she went.  Searching for scripture that would keep us blind, controlled and tormented.

The  world will eventually know about this woman, Martha Jane Walters.  She went too far.  Was  far too inhumanely  wicked.  When a woman lives such a hideously wicked life,  she has to be dead and in the ground  quite awhile,  years,   before her victims can come out of hiding, is amazing in itself.

Jesus told us to "Fear no man " because only He knows what a low,  vile, gutless coward,  satan really is.  If you have a small child,  killing small animals ….stay in prayer.

GOD saved me!  Praise the LORD! Kept me in the palm of His hand.  I thank Him.  Actually, He kept all of us.  I hope they all will  know,  will learn of the true goodness of GOD,  of Jerome Walters ,  one day.  I hope all of my family will soon learn what a wonderful GOD we all  have the privilege of serving.

PTL!

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I just can't stop dancing!

The poor blind, deliberately deaf evil doer stands in the shadows hiding, eyeballing your every move.  You are happy, the life of the party.  No matter how much your mother mistreats you, you shrug it off.

I had one pair of shoes in high school, they were brown expensive stack hills from the Prissy Hen.  I wore them proudly with everything.  What could I do?  Driving a long Navy Blue Cadillac to school every day    …. wearing the same pair of shoes.  But the shape was fine and the legs were big.  The hair was extremely long and luscious , seriously, I was dynamite!  I was a thug and NOBODY WAS ABOUT TO **** WID' ME!

She will never tell you or congratulate you for not being the whiny spoiled disrespectful brat she was.  Nothing was ever good enough for Mathy Jane.  She was very negative and offensive on purpose.  The only time she was ever nice to any one was when she wanted something or was plotting something.

She demanded that you be the same way, sneaking, lying, perverted, untrustworthy.  She was hated but she was feared.  Martha preferred being feared than loved.   "Pretend love" was good enough for her if you bought her something, if you turned over your entire check.

Just like the "darkies" in Gone With the Wind, put on a good "coon" act.  Martha felt superior, didn't have to look at her slutty miserable life.  After all, every one was in worse shape than she was.  The proof was she drove a long Cadillac, wore fine clothes, made heads turn, was popular. Mathy's phone rang off the hook,  "nitwits"  seeking her advice.

You should have just gone straight to satan himself.  It would have been more beneficial to you.

So, the Bible warns us of these Jezebel spirited whores,  that have babies without fathers,  deliberately. Women that choose to manufacture "cannon fodder" for satan.  Just more imps to die, to be sacrificed for their carnal pleasure.   And you can't say anything because they are "ladies", women high up in the "church"

GOD said No!

 I find one, catch one red handed and  this world  tells me No!  Must be a coincidence !  SHE PREACHED!  She baptized me!  She performed my wedding!  She was always sweet to me!  She gave me gifts!  She was funny!  She was smart!  She was creative!  She was a bold innovative hustler.

Yes, Martha was all of  that,  but,  unfortunately, she was jealous.  Stuck on comparing, measuring, judging and deciding that , what ever you had, she had made possible, therefore she  had the right to steal it, to take it back, to destroy and ridicule you for trying.

She was going to lie and blame the white man, your evil spouse, your stupidity, your bad luck.  No matter what she was going to stand beside you pretending to hold you up while (secretly) celebrating another  demonic "voodoo" victory.  

Martha needed prayer and she needed it bad.  But, unfortunately  she was always  too smart for her own good.  She read minds so well you were not approaching her with no Holy Ghost!  That was for you losers.  Martha's self esteem was so low, she felt that if you loved or believed anything that came out of her mouth, that  proved you were a GOD forsaken loser.

Plus, Martha was blind and could not see GOD working on our behalf.  She never saw it.  Left here mad.  Cussed me like a dog.   

Martha Jane Walters is proof the evil one has no manners, recognizes no boundaries and is beyond sneaky and cunning.  Planting a lascivious Jezebel in a good family!  In a good church!(?)

GOD said NO!

My Mathy Jane Experience proves GOD is Always Right!  He is never late!  His ways are mysterious! He breaks Every chain!  He destroys every yoke!  He sets every Captive that desires to be free, Free!

PTL!

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