"Lean not to your own understanding!" Make sure you know and recognize , you know nothing! And EVERYTHING YOU need to know is in that Book! Our dear LORD in (His) infinite wisdom, in (His) tender mercies, gave us a Guidebook. Read it! Study it ! Obey it!
Please do not rely on your "feelings". Anyone can make you feel good with an exciting "message". So many "Churches" use Theatre, pure theatrics, music, loud microphones, pounding drums and organs to entertain. That is all good, but are you learning? Are you improving? Can you feel your growth? Do you know more about Christ, the Kingdom, your soul salvation? Are you on a high road? Are you moving toward the mark, the high calling? Do you feel good? Do you ever feel the Holy Spirit surging through your body? Is it like fire shut up in your bones? I know GOD is good. (He) enabled me to experience the worse possible "mother" on earth and not only survive, but THRIVE! I did ask GOD why a woman like Martha Jane Walters, that proved to be abhorrent , despicably wicked, why she preached? It is obvious that she never loved GOD, never loved us, never loved period. Poor Martha never loved herself. GOD told me the evil one she secretly served ushered her to preach in order to disrespect GOD. To tarnish (Hs) name. To dissuade the lost. satan's imp is satan's imp! satan has a diabolical plan. Yes, he knows he can't win. He doesn't care, he just wants to ruin. satan is the father of every lie. My "mother" was a pathological liar and a brutal savage beast that did an exemplary job of pretending to be the exact opposite of the extremely mentally ill, psychotic, sadistic satanist, she really was. World, there are far too many lying, MURDERING, vipers on this earth! "This should not be." "Awake from your slumber." She is safely dead now. We can come out of the dark now. We can finally come out of hiding. GOD set this captive free! Praise the LORD!
"You shall know them by their fruit." You may know them by their fruit and do nothing to protect yourself. You can be silent, docile. Live in abject fear and poverty, claiming to still fear a dead demon.
You can pray, attend "Church" three times weekly. You can be her punching bag, footstool, toilet, garbage receptacle. You can love her, shower her with gifts, call her minister, Reverend, Prophetess, Madame, mother, High Priestess. It doesn't matter. She is a Demon! A Viper! You can be totally destroyed by your inability to acknowledge how truly demon possessed she, your "mother" is. You can look like an old fool still cloaking and lying for the woman that volunteered to decimate you and DID!
Or you can come to the Cross, you can come to Jesus. You can finally know your truth. Or you can waste away in denial claiming to love that whore, claiming a bond that never existed except in your feeble mind. A mind made feeble by your own "mother".
Sitting here reflecting on the awful woman that birthed me (us) and delighted in her secret sadistic torture every single day I (we) shared on this earth with her.
Is this type of viper new? No, more embolden, more confident, according to 2 Timothy , chapter 3.
I am sitting here still bewildered. Actually still shocked, very aware of the devastating affect my own "mother's" sick, viperous behavior and beliefs had on me, on us. One brother was the first "black" physician to have an office on once very prestigious Owen Drive. Martha bragged about it. Pretended to be proud. Martha Jane Walters totally destroyed that dream in short order. Devastated, destroyed, raped, molested, hid her hand. Bragged, laughed about what an idiot her black bastard son was. Martha had six children that she hated with a passion. Martha kept all of our relatives entertained by sharing our stupidity and just plain hard luck, never so much as hinting that she was the dark force behind our pain.
Martha blew all her chances at sixteen. It was over for her and it would be over for us. No one on this earth was smart enough to perceive who and what she really was. The truth was, Martha hated GOD! Hated GOD and all his *** **** ******* rules and regulations! Martha would NOT be handled! She would not be controlled because in her delusion she did falsely believe she was greater than and smarter than GOD.
Another brother, a brilliant musician. Tall and handsome, told and taught by his "mother" that he was a hideous ugly beast. Beaten, brutalized and degraded by his own "mother" from his premature illegitimate birth.
I get it now. My vision grows clearer with each passing day. A "mouf'ul" (mouthful) of "love", flattery, pure ignorance and superstition disguised as wisdom. That was Martha Jane Walters, something assigned to us, to be our "mother".
The Bible is replete with examples of people taking off their shoes, covering and uncovering their heads, washing feet, baptizing, anointing with oil, attempting to get clean enough to approach The LORD. For someone, a so called human being , to flat refuse, to lie, to plot, to summon evil spirits and PREACH! , is an ABOMINATION UNTO THE LORD!
There is no defense for our collective stupidity as a family. There is no reason or justification for our never ending enslavement.
WOMAN! You were never that ignorant. You were that wicked. You just hoped we would remain dumber than dirt. The way you made us. Am I angry? Outraged? The humanness in me is, not the Christ like nature. I am rejoicing in my Christ like spirit. "You did not get away! You did not slay me and I DID NOT BECOME LIKE YOU! PRAISE THE LORD!"
Stop looking for a demon dressed in a red suit with horns and a pitchfork. Don't you dare think satan will not target ignorant silly women that think they are superior, deserving. They are all greedy, selfish, lustful, carnal, conniving whores. Know them by their fruit. The moment you meet a Soothe Sayer, a person willing to go down on graves collecting dirt like some idiot in the Salem Witch Trials, run! I could not run. She was my "mother". I had to endure to the end.
Caught in the act of practicing WITCHCRAFT is one of the first clear memories I have of my "mother". It was dark, blacker than a thousand midnights. I know I was not older than three years old. "Whatcha'doing Mathy Jane?" "Collecting my goofer dust"; my "mother" responded confidently. My friends , that was the beginning of what the evil one thought was my end. Try again satan. GOD got me. "Day by day."
to understand that there is nothing that can be understood to the point we can correct it. It is all in Divine Order. Our lives are predestined, pre-ordered, prearranged. The Holy Ghost is a Spirit that loves us, leads and guides us if we desire (It).
I pray that every one on this earth lives long enough to realize their hopes and dreams. That every person have a fair chance. While I am still actively crawling out of that pit my "mother" dug for me, I do thank her.
While she meant to ruin me, to grind me into dust on the sly, she made me strong. (Praise the LORD)
My "mother's" psychotic, sadistic, demon possessed persona forced me to become the "beautiful, brilliant, tender-hearted person" I think I am. I have issues. I have a hair trigger temper. I scare myself. GOD has always saved me from "myself". (Praise the LORD)
I fully acknowledge that I am human, I am weak. Not weak for sin. Not when it comes to obeying the Ten Commandments.
I have never understood why so many people struggle with fornication and adultery. But, there are a lot of things that do not interest me. Sports. If every sport on earth disappeared today, I would not care.
Books and music! Wait a minute! What good is life? I must have my books. I must read! I can not sit five minutes without reading something. We acquired that trait from my grandfather and he from his mother and grandmother.
"Readers are Leaders."
Salute to David Bowie. He lived. He loved. He made a difference. Rest In Peace.
One day, perhaps as early as one hundred years from today, people will look back shocked and chagrined by the foolishness of man. By the eagerness of the wayward to lead the innocent astray.
I do hope and pray that on this day more will read their Bibles and draw the parallels Almighty GOD put there for us to see. "My people perish for lack of knowledge."
If you think following some greedy "preacher" , some fellow human being is going to lead you to the Promised Land, you are mistaken.
"The blind can not lead the blind …lest they all fall in the ditch."
Loud clamorous nay sayers cursing me for revealing my "mother". Unlearned, woefully uneducated "Christians" that have never read the Bible entirely, one time in their whole lives, telling me to "Shut up!"
Telling me, what GOD told me!
No one on this earth has to believe me. "Many are called, few are chosen." Any one , still, too dumb, too blind, to see Martha Jane Walters was possessed by the many demons she collected over eighty-seven years, "has my sympathy". Eighty-seven years of being a blind imp, not so secretly serving satan.
Martha Jane Walters had a spirit that had to be endured. (Read and study 2 Thessalonians) How could we ever believe 2 Timothy without examples , fallen , "silly women" like "mother"?
There is no shame in "Salvation". True "Salvation", book of Acts "Salvation" will make you Peacock proud! When you have Christ in your heart you fear o man. Period. All imps are squashed! "How dare you!" "How dare you study just enough Bible to make you a fool? How dare you be more in evil you conjure from graves than from Almighty GOD? How dare you try to terrorize me into fear? Silence? Docile submission? I have the Spirit of Jesus Christ burning in my heart!
You do know you are forgiven, right?
(You are forgiven! No matter what you did, when you did it, why you did it, you are forgiven forever!)
Those are the words GOD spoke in my heart this morning. While my "mother" was quite the ogre, lying hypocrite, sadistic, viper whore, she could not prevent me from thinking, from observing, from knowing GOD. If she could have retarded me more than she did, she would have.
It appears to me in my "twenty-twenty" hindsight Martha went too far, far, over and beyond a mortal enemy's attempt to destroy. I observed what she did to my brothers, actually knew a great deal of what she was doing to me, yet, I held on. Clung to hope. Yes, I wasted my time. Oh well, I will never change my heart. My "mother" could have changed. She could have given up her evil nature. Pride. "Pride goeth before a fall."
Now, more than any time in my life I understand the patience of Jesus.
"Do not believe in things you don't understand." Do not follow blindly. Don't be intimidated by ignorant imps flinging primitive "goofer dust."
"Time changes all things." (Praise the LORD!) "Come ye out from among them." "Let the dead bury the dead." ; just some of the scripture swirling around in my head as I rejoice today!
Rejoice! PRAISE THE LORD!
Only GOD! Only Almighty GOD could take me from depressed victim to VICTORIOUS THRIVER in a millisecond! (Praise the LORD! The Fast and the Furious!)
P.S.
For all those that do not understand my repetitive praise, thank GOD you have never been where I have been! (Praise the LORD! Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeewuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhhh!)
Sitting here purely flabbergasted, realizing how evil and immoral my mother truly was. Still angry that she flat refused to repent and very successfully led so many into captivity.
The brother she forced to swear to a judge that she had been separated from her husband for over two years. The audacity, the nerve, the violation of his human dignity, never occurred to Martha. Martha was truly a woman void of all scruples, morals, integrity, common decency. Why am I still shocked that I witnessed her mock GOD, spew venom, rather than repent, apologize?
I get you Martha and you are wrong. The fact that your many victims still lack the "manhood", the intellectual capability and moral integrity, to rebuke you, does not make you right. You are still going to bust hell wide open, whether you admit it or not. While you foolishly bragged about your brilliant ability to ruin, you failed to recognize how you, crippled you.
Perhaps the slave master considered himself blessed, privileged, to have hundreds of slaves. The ruling class reaped the benefits of forced labor, exploitation. Did they sleep well? Consider the laws passed to prevent slave revolt, to guarantee safety. Talk about paranoid. The names Denmark Vesey, Gabriel Prosser, Nat Turner still enrage white supremacist.
The Word was that slaves were happy and docile but the laws said they were paranoid as hell.
Wrong doers are extremely violent, loud, physically, mentally and emotionally abusive. Their cruelty is not only repulsive it is debilitating. My own mother crippled me on purpose. (Dumb bitch)
There is still only One Race, The Human Race. GOD is righting every wrong, making every crooked way straight. You will get your just and honest due on this planet earth.
I do want the world to know how I was made to suffer. It is important for the world to learn every
Word in that Book is true. satan can not win. My mother knew that she could not win. She knew that she deliberately chose the losing side. It didn't matter to her. She was a hater.
There is a reason GOD commands us not to envy. Envy , coveting, wanting , desiring the hard earned gifts of others, leads to sick insane jealousy, like that of my mother. She was a mental midget. A carnal lying beast that could not be saved for her lying mouth, her very own lying nature.
"Obedience is better than sacrifice." Don't just know the Word, do the Word. Practice the Word. Why are you tithing and living in disobedience?
"Would a man rob GOD?" Is there a man or woman ignorant enough, delusional enough, to practice WITCHCRAFT? If you are a person inclined to play god, to manipulate in order to ensure you get your way, because you are carnal and common, you are a Mathy Jane. Your name will rot.
You will not get away. You will reap exactly what you sow.
I read an article yesterday cautioning against "compartmentalizing" the narcissist.
We always kept Martha's deep sick evil away from her good acting. In other words we were aware of the loud, horrid anger Martha could and would unleash upon you. There was really no reason or justification for it. "A lot of ****** shit!"; Martha's extreme overreaction to her extreme immature childish jealousy. Martha was an habitual plotter, a low slut addicted to sabotage.
For nearly sixty years I was perplexed. I was constantly confused. We all knew she could not be trusted but few of us knew how deeply disturbed she really was. The words "pervert", pedophile and incestuous never entered my mind. And criticizing, admonishing Mathy Jane was not worth it. Some people are "Hell bound". You just have to let them go. Do warn, but get out of their way. Do not drown in their ship! Do not lose your life trying to save theirs.
I know now, Martha knew all the time. Martha knew full well she was evil, deeply disturbed. So, selfish, narcissistic, she didn't care, could not care about another human being on this earth. That is a reprobate mind. That is what GOD promises to release you over to for disobedience, disrespect.
I know so many people "sowing seeds", tithing . Trying to stave off misfortune and bad luck. Blind sheep trying to buy a blessing from GOD. They say they want salvation , not enough to read and study GOD's Word for themselves, though.
Most people would rather sit up under a charismatic personality like my mother, being lied to and led astray, than read.
I think Stevie Wonder sums it up best; "When you believe in things you don't understand, then you suffer."
The very foolish evildoer thinks pretending to be too afraid, too ashamed, to repent is a feasible option. No, such thing. If you are a Christ lover you trust (Him). You obey (His) Word. You live righteously. You live and let live. You Free Fall.
