1 John 1:9

"If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unfighteousness."

My cousin forwarded that to me today. What ever she sends me is always right on time.

Why don't all people understand that you have to come clean with GOD. GOD is not going to uphold you in your wrong doing just because you profess to love Him. Of course we all make mistakes because we are human. Some people make a lot of mistakes. Some people do things that are beyond comprehension. But Christ does not give you the right to walk away from it. You just can't say;"Forget it nigga! Stop living in de archives." It is the archives to you because you like to do your dirt and hide your hand. Your past would be in the past if you left it in the past. Your past is your present and your future. Those "roots" never worked! And they are not working now! GOD never let you harm His children. What GOD has for me is for me. How did you think you could stop a writer from writing? a great musician from being a great musician? a brilliant doctor from being a brilliant doctor? Yea, you got in the way. You arrested our development. You totally destroyed our ability to trust our "mother", but you never stopped anything. No you were never totally bad. Yes, you did do a lot of good things. There were times that you did give good advice, There were times that you were tender and loving. Unfortunately your good does not out weigh your bad. Your bad is terrible. I still can not get over it. I am still in shock. You are good. You are a brilliant actress, writer and story teller. You have a quick intelligent mind. Too bad you gave it to the devil. You are the exact same "sneaky" demon at eight-five that you were at fourteen. That is not a lot of growth. As a matter of fact you went backwards and waxed worse and worse. Every one should have sense enough to care about the people they have injured, ruined or used.

But if you can't feel, you just can't do it. If you can't stop lying ,you just can't do it. If you can't stop hating ,you just can't do it. No man can do it on his own that is why you have to pray for the indwelling of the Holy Spirit. GOD is so awesome! It was your extreme cruelty that strengthened my walk with Christ. I had no one. No mother, no father, what could I do but call on the LORD. And He delivered me. Time after time GOD proved to me that He loved me, that I was His child. It is not you fault that GOD gave me courage, gave me a sense of dignity, gave me joy. Yes GOD gave me a voice and a cross. No, I will not shut up. GOD will not let me hold my peace.

GOD loves you any way. You have to look in the mirror. You know the exact truth more than any one other than God.

There are some that are blind and won't see. If you can see, if you can humble yourself and praise our Living LORD you are truly blessed.

I am starting to understand; "Many are called but few are chosen."

If you are trying to play GOD like he is one of your "tricks" you are not going to get there.

Perhaps it is true that we live in a "dog eat dog world". That doesn't mean you have to live like a dog.

I understand that every one can not obey GOD's WORD. I guess it is just not in them. GOD created some vessels for honor and some for dishonor.

The good news is that there are many people headed in the wrong direction making many mistakes. They may be shocked enough by my revelations to change. They may be humbled by GOD's awesome mercy and actually give their lives to Christ for real.

Some people know that man is not worth impressing.

Some people know that "apart from Christ you are nothing."

Be a Blessing and be blessed. "Keep yourself up much as you can."

Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel