FREE AT LAST!

Meet Him on your knees children! Start every day in prayer. "Bow Down" Humble yourself before your Father and thank Him out of a pure heart.

Oh help me Heavenly Father. "Come by here, somebody needs you."

Dear LORD it is the worse case of double-mindedness imaginable. One minute she is professing her love and admiration. In the next moment she is ranting and raving lies, spewing poisonous venom. Her mind is bad. She is paranoid and sees evil where there is none. That is not the worse thing about her. Murdering her own father is just one of the despicable acts she committed in her long life.

Her feet are always swift to run to mischief. Quick to tell a lie, always ready to inflict pain. No, she is not the mother that I would have picked, but she is the mother GOD gave me.

There is something in me that will not let me feel sorry for myself. We all suffer pain, we all struggle. Life is a constant, never ending battle. We are all engaged in a *"secret war, enemy unseen." (Alice Lovelace)

As much as I want to hate my mother I can't. She's ignorant. "Don't pay no attention to yo' mama. she ignut." ; my grandfather reminded me over and over. It would have helped if he had told me that she was a demonic pervert. Maybe he didn't know. Or maybe he chose to not see the obvious. I am forced to admit that I too chose to ignore the signs. Was I that desperate for a mother? Was I blind, did GOD blind me? "Time changes all things." and there is no disputing, she is a full fledged demon alright.

She is not the only demon trying to fit in, trying to cozy up to you just to destroy you. Why? There is no "Why?" She doesn't know why. She follows the will and whims of this world. Born into a wicked ignorant world she just did what was natural, she too followed the master of this world blindly.

There is a lesson here, look into your own life. Be honest with yourself. Don't bully and intimidate with your vicious mouth. Chill out on the rudeness. Watch that mouth, "the tongue is a fire". Just because you have a gift for rude flippant remarks, that doesn't make you right. Read your Bible, that fallen woman has a tongue sharper than a two edged sword. She can cut you long , deep and consecutive. Pray for discernment.

My mother could not listen or learn because she was so defensive. "Pride goeth before a fall." She could not flee whoredom because she pretended to be insulted when you dared to call her what she was. Her strategy was and still is; attack the messenger. If you bloody enough heads they will soon learn to leave you alone. Most of all when caught in wrong doing, LIE! Never come to the knowledge of the truth. Deny the truth to yourself. Scream, holler and brutalize until they believe you or at least leave you alone. If you profess that lie long enough it becomes the truth. You can keep pretending and spinning more lies to protect the first lie. LIE! LIE! LIE! Lie till you can no longer recognize the truth. The truth is what ever you say it is because you are the big dog, the mass murderer, the master mind. Make them bow down to you, after all you are the smartest, the fairest, they most beautiful. If anyone dares speak against you , tear them down. Destroy their good name. Make every one fear you.

Learn to listen to the voice of wisdom. Do not declare lies trying to convince yourself. Know you. Make sure you know the real you. If you are lazy and no count admit it. If you are too lazy to earn a degree or acquire a skill admit it. If you think you are so pretty that men should be glad to take care of you, admit it. If you can't control your lusts, admit it.

Care! Try to care about others. If you can not genuinely care about your fellow man you are already lost.

"Stand up for justice." Start with yourself. Do not let anyone misuse and abuse you for any reason. Do not compromise. Do not settle; "He get mad and beat me sometime, but he always pays the bills." "He is ugly and stank. He makes my flesh crawl when he touches me but he pays my rent." No! Trust GOD and get your own, take care of yourself. Live in a tent if you have to. Trust GOD to help you get your life together. Your precious life is too short for you to have to suffer needlessly for one minute.

Never stand by idly and watch while others are being abused. Do not seek vengeance. I assure you they will get their just and honest due on this planet earth. We all will.

In the mean time do what you can to bless some one's life. Learn to think about someone other than yourself. If you can't stop lying, if you can't speak or bear the truth, take a vow of silence.

Pray to free your mind and heart of all the ignorance that has been planted there. Study to show yourself approved. Seek truth and justice. Praise and thank the LORD for Dr. M.L. King, Jr. His noble sacrifice made all of our lives better whether we know it or not.

Be a Blessing and be blessed. "Keep yourself up much as you can." Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."

Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel