DON'T LOOK BACK

Do not spend another minute lamenting what might have been. ""Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehenended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things that are before, I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of GOD in Christ Jesus." (Philippians 3: 13-14)

I know GOD has a purpose for every creature on this earth. Some are for honor, some are for dishonor. I know the my Almighty GOD planted something in me. It will not let me hold my peace. It will not let me shut up. I thank GOD every minute of every day for choosing me. I count it JOY!

Children when someone takes the time to be jealous of you, "You somebody!" You mean you think I look too good? You think my shape is too fine? You think I'm too smart?

Now when that jealous person goes out of their way to destroy you, to set traps, to put you in harm's way; You must be blessed, you must be anointed.

That is why you have to learn to listen to the voice of GOD. That is why you can not have any fear. That is why you must be BOLD! GOD did not bring you this far to let you fail. The devil is a blow hard. A vulgar loud toothless tiger.

Claim your destiny children. Live your dream. Do what GOD has commanded you to do. He will do all the work.

GOD just needs for you to be willing. Do not shrink in the face of the devil. That is her desire. That is her life's dream. Don't pay any attention to her. She is ignorant. She doesn't know any better. The devil stole her before you were even an idea. GOD is so wonderful that he used her to to prepare you , to sharpen your skills, to refine you.

I was put on the potter's wheel. I was broken. I tell you I was crushed. I was messed up. But, I wasn't destroyed. While she was grinning and lying, pretending to love me and leading me astray I was growing in wisdom, growing in humility. I collected victory after victory. I was blessed. She became accursed, a foul demon. Praise GOD!

Ask GOD to come into your life children! I don't care who you are or what you are you need Jesus. We all need Jesus!

It's beautiful! It is glorious! You can't stop praising His Holy Name!

Let's get back to the notion that you can have "too much religion". The only person who ever told me that was that woman. The same woman that violated, misused and abused me. Laughed at me , taunted me: " I gave your black a** away!"

I'm not mad. Yes I am very sad, but I'm not mad. Thank you for not killing me. Thank you for taking me to church. Thank you for trying even if you didn't make it. Thank you for the good Gospel music. Thank you for the gift of gab and a brilliant writing voice. Thank you for my brilliant grandfather.

I'm sorry that you lost your way. I am sorry that the devil got a"a hold of you". I am sorry that you couldn't listen to your father.

I remember you complimenting me when I returned to your house from my first graduate school. You complimented me and told me that I was very strong and I shot back: "I just learned from your mistakes mother." I really meant that . I now realize that you were offended. Why were you offended? You had three illegitimate children before you ever married.

It is not my rule. It is "decent" society's rule. It is GOD's rule against fornication. Why would you have children that you could not take care of?

Of course you hated us! We never did anything to you. You did it to us. I do not have one "whole" sibling. I am not mad. I always thought it was funny. I thought you were bold and honest, perhaps courageous.

It never crossed my mind that you had a secret life. Something that you could be ashamed of. I didn't think anything shamed you. You always had a vulgar mouth and you used the bathroom with with the door open. I am not criticizing you. I am just saying, a person of your "boldness" should not feel the need to hide anything.

My granddaddy taught me to never do anything that I would be ashamed to admit that I did. I listened. I am not saying that I am better. But I can say that I have never deliberately tried to hurt anyone in my life and my daughter is the best thing that ever happened to me.

My daughter gave me the opportunity to enjoy maternal love.

GOD is good, He is so great and merciful. He said even in the last hour you can come into the kingdom. You have no excuse. We don't have to suffer. His grace is sufficient.

I do not care how long you have wrestled with or danced with the devil. I don't care if the devil did fool you, mislead you, robbed you, it is not over. As long as you have breath in your body you can claim your victory in Christ.

Why are you frightened? Why have you given up? You are not defeated! He said ;"No good thing shall I with hold from those who love me".

Do you love Him, do you love the LORD? You should not have to think about that question. Let your yea be yea and your nay be nay. You can't be double-minded, torn between the two. You can't measure out a little bit. You can't get a little bit of Christ. There is no such thing as "too saved" or a "Jesus freak". Those are lies from the devil who desires to destroy you.


"My head is bloody but unbowed." I have been "whupped", laid low, counted as dung.

But my Dear LORD picked me up, opened my blinded eyes, set my feet on a solid rock.

We have no excuse. GOD gave us POWER, HOLY GHOST POWER!

We are not perfect. We will go astray. We will lose our way from time to time.

Ask GOD to right your course. Ask GOD to set your feet on the right path.

Ask GOD to search your heart. If you are weak, ask him to strengthen you. If you are "slow" or "condused" ask Him for knowledge.

If you went out and "got messed up" bring him your bloody head and put it in His lap.

Be a Blessing and be blessed. "Keep yourself up much as you can". Remember, "Apart from Christ you are nothing."

Much Love, Peace and Happiness,
Rachel