Get over yourself!

Jesus said; "Judge not that you be not judged."   Don't get so snooty and  " hoyty-toyty"  because You think you've escaped the the "plagues" of this world.  Keep living.

The Bible warns us about the "commonness" of man.  According to the Bible it is rather frequent.  So that means a whole lot of people are lying.  That means I have some company.  There are far too many people in the world struggling with my kind of  "issue".

Keeping that hideous monster a secret, doesn't make you "normal".  Your refusal to tell doesn't clean you up, or  make you less affected.  You can not "fix" yourself.  You must find the courage to confront "her".  Do not let her keep you in that "stank nasty closet".  She has no right to demand your loyalty.  Stop up your ears.   Stop listening to her.  Look at her Fruit!

There are men and women on this earth that will do anything!  Don't act so surprised when it turns out to be your "mother" or "father" ,   your "grandmother" your aunt or your cousin..    It can and will happen to you if you don't listen any better than she did.

"The fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge."    "Fear" should not be interpreted as terror or fright.  It means respect.  It means love and honor.  "I love you Father, I trust you.  I am going to follow your laws, your commandments because I trust you.  I love you.  I put all my faith in You!"

Rank reprobates, foolish sinners, lacketh understanding.  "Without UNDERSTANDING, covenant breakers,..."

"...without natural affection,..."  That means you can NOT love your children.  Your love is artificial, a complete put-on.  You have to pretend and flatter excessively.   That means you see nothing WRONG with making a "sex toy" out of your own child.  (anyone's children)   "So what?" you think.  Because you lack understanding,  are totally void of faith, you deliberately put all of your faith and confidence in your guile, in your treachery.    You put your faith in your primitive "hoodoo".    ( You can't believe in GOD but you can put all of your faith in some graveyard dirt.  "You 'bout one fool, you know that.")

 So proud of your devious nature you brag about it.    "Who knowing the judgment of GOD, that they which commit such things are worthy of death, not only do the same, but have PLEASURE in them that do them."

"From such stay away!"    If you can't listen to Jesus, if you can't follow Jesus' advice, His commandments, you are in bad shape.  You are cursed.  "He that hath ears, let Him hear."

It is all in Divine Order.    The idea that my own "mother", the  person GOD entrusted with my  tiny precious life, would turn out to be a vicious savage, a "closeted" hater,  a sick sociopath,  is PHENOMENAL!

GOD took something that was "thrown away", something that "monster" wished she had "flushed" and made something great.  Someone my daughter can be proud of.  Someone that my grandfather was proud of.  I can walk tall, beam and radiate!

I "googled" myself and the first post to come up was "incest survivor".  I was proud!

I deliberately "outed" myself in order to save others.  I am sure there are many children confused by the hypocrisy of their parents or caregivers.  A retired educator I know how phony and uncaring our public schools are.

I want to take the sting out of the term.  Do not hold me in your low self-esteem because GOD gave me the courage to tell.  Do not rebuke me for telling on my "mother".  I have no mother.  I never had one.  She wasn't even a good caretaker.  She was a "taker" to be sure.  A "taker" of innocence.  A "taker" and a "faker" should be emblazoned on her tombstone.

"To GOD be the GLORY and Honor"

Be richly blessed family.  Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."

Much Love, Peace and Happiness
Rachel

P.S.
I always  knew she was "whorish".  I didn't think much of it.  I think most women are "whorish", not necessarily out and out prostitutes, but "traders-of-favors" for sex.

My mother taught me to never give a man "any"  for free.  That made sense.  I thought a man should invest in the woman he professed to "love".  I never agreed that a woman should consider her vagina a "gold mine".  That never made sense to me.  I never bought into grading and qualifying a woman's "stuff".

I never held her "whorishness" against her.  A woman had to survive.  A woman with children and the inability to keep a man may have necessitated a "trade" or two.

I did totally blame my stepfather for my abuse.   Deep down inside I always knew better.  I just chose to "disbelieve" it.  I could not bear the truth.  Fortunately Jesus kept talking to me, kept strengthening me.

Her sick dark secret hatred became less of a secret with each passing year,  with each life changing event.   I refused to believe she was that stupid.    "Why would she kill her own father? my brain screamed!  "Without understanding, covenantbreakers, without natural affection, IMPLACABLE, UNMERCIFUL:"

That's the WORD.  That is GOD's WORD, right there in black and white.  It can't be denied.

Thank You for Your WORD LORD!