It's in my eyes

I looked at my baby picture often.  Something in my eyes always disturbed me.  Why were they so plaintive?   So sad, so forlorned?  My grandmother saw it, declared that I had been here "befo' "   What did she know and when did she know it?  She warned my mother repeatedly about mistreating me.  She told her not to do it.  Made her swear on her death bed to "not mistreat dat baby."

The evil witch did it anyway.  Some people view GOD's patience, His "inaction" to be proof that they are winning.  There are some people that are just defiant, rebellious.  They can't hear or see GOD in there lives. Some people are given up to a reprobate mind.

When GOD gives you up to a reprobate mind He is "threw wid'cha".  You are beyond help.  You are a disgrace, an abomination.  "We walk by faith and not by sight."  We say that totally clueless to it's true meaning.  Most people go by what it looks like, by what is logical, by what makes sense.

She's pretty, she has money, she has status, she's brilliant.  So you think.  You can't see that hideous monster writhing inside her for the wigs and Fashion Fare makeup.  Oh yea she sounds good, praising the "LAWD" 24/7.  Showering you with token gifts and phony praise, you just beam with pride, glad to be in her presence.  Glad to be included in her "posse".

I used to hear the old folks in Wade say; "I'm gon' slow walk you down." Grandma meant that she wasn't about to chase you to beat your behind, but she was going to get you.  You were going to get exactly what you deserved one day.

That day is here family.  You are not going to mistreat any of GOD's children and think that you are going to get away.  You are not going to sit idly by and refuse to help GOD build His Kingdom here on earth.   You know.  You know what's right.  GOD plants His truth in all our hearts.  You can heed or you can ignore.  You can secretly hate, be envious of someone else's gifts. You can secretly wish that they fail.  GOD knows, and you will get your just reward.

I am going to publish my book.  The world will know that a very evil woman came to this earth and tried every thing in her power to destroy GOD's anointed and lost.  Lost big time.  She did every sick demonic thing she could and was glad.  Really thinks that she shut that righteous, always kindly admonishing daddy of hers up. Really believed she tarnished his image and successfully stole his mantle.

The world will know that there are some women ignorant enough, foolish enough, diabolical enough to think they can rob GOD.  She will soon find out that GOD let her live to see and enjoy 86 years on this earth for His own reasons.

Who can know the mysteries of our all knowing, all loving GOD?  I do know that GOD sent me to this planet  to be an armor bearer, to be a Truth Teller.  He told me not to fear.  My grandfather told me to trust GOD with all my heart, with all my might.

No, little ones,  my grandfather was not the monster she has portrayed and invented to justify her deeds.  To ease her conscience.  I am not the ungrateful whore that she invented in order to conceal her guilt.

One thing I know for sure, my grandfather taught me that ; "Time changes all things." I was born before 911, or child abuse hot lines.  I was born before many people were aware of pedophilia. I was born when black skin was considered a curse and "luddle black bastard younguns" were considered a burden.

I was born in the bottom of a pit, unwanted and unloved by every one except my grandparents.  My grandfather told me every day of his life that I was the jewel in his crown.  That evil daughter that was born with everything in her favor was determined to prove him wrong.

For 86 years she could not care less for GOD and His Truth.  Over confident in her "hoodoo" she made a complete mess of her life.  But, the beautiful, wonderful loving GOD I serve says ; "Daughter it is not too late.  You can still come into the Kingdom.  Repent of your sins.  Humble yourself, forgive yourself.  Honor me and I will honor you."

Stay in His WORD children.  Pray and fast.  Seek His wisdom and guidance. Never let mercy and truth forsake you.  Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."

My grandfather promised me that; "Jesus will fix it."  And He will .  I don't have to wait on your disbelief.  I don't have to fear your "stank eye", your slanderous remarks and ridicule.  There is nothing the devil can bring against me.  I have been through the fire.  I've been purged.  But, most of all I've been washed in the blood of the lamb.

May GOD's Grace, Mercy, and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the proud granddaughter of Jerome Walters, a brilliant Patriarch)