Dear Mathy Jane,
It gives me great pleasure to write you this letter and to greet you in the name of our LORD and Savior Jesus Christ. I hope this letter finds you well and at peace.
I am doing much better. My deep hatred for you subsides much more often. Today I can truthfully say that I don't hate you. Of course I hate the fact you allowed yourself to become a volunteer imp, a shepard for the devil. As you told me so many times; "I did the best I could!"
For my entire life you know GOD has talked to me and walked with me. You know that I shared the words He spoke to me with you often. So here we are, Sunday, May 20, 2012, you still unrepentant, me undeterred by your stubborn pride and stealth cruelty.
For so long I agreed with you. I truly believed that you had successfully destroyed my life, snatched every hint of joy I could possibly have. When in fact you succeeded in helping me to become the GOD fearing, Kingdom builder that the Holy Spirit desires.
You, on the other hand, lost big time. Thank you for destroying all my manuscripts and art. I certainly do thank you for ruining that "marriage". Thank you for stalking me and crucifying me on the sly.
You see I never would have known the real Mathy Jane without your awful fruit. If asked to describe or define you, I will have to say; " My mother is the most horrific, intrusive, demanding, emasculating, promiscuous, demonic, cunning woman that ever lived."
I once thought it was a tremendous waste. So much beauty, charm and talent dedicated to pure evil. But, I know now that it was all in Divine Order. GOD wants that beautiful rebellious little girl to know what can happen when you fight against Him. GOD wants the world to know that you can't fool Him. That you can go on for a long time, but the world will know.
The greatest gift I acquired from this tremendously long ordeal is my deep uncompromising faith in the LORD. I learned to heed His voice and to trust him to do what He said. I also learned that the vast majority of people that I know are "deceived believers." They are hearers only. Some of them are repeaters of His WORD. Very few people are actual doers.
Blind, they think attending church and tithing is enough. Most are too lazy to search the scripture for themselves. They let wolves in sheep's clothing like you preach to them. Fellow "Jesus pimps" reaching for the money and not caring for the soul.
You should know that I contacted your church several times via e-mail and fb. Not "narry" a word. If they thought me crazy or deranged as I'm sure you painted me to be, they never tried to speak to me, to pray with me.
What do they care about you? I told them that you were suffering with an "unclean spirit". Frankly, I don't think they care. How awful. A woman that has dedicated so many years in that ministry, left to the wiles of the devil. Do they care that you might possibly spend eternity in hell? Apparently not. Do know that my church, The Potters House is praying for you.
How did you get here? How did you get to such a sorry state in life? Pride, rebellion and "witchcraft". Granddaddy warned you often. But, you refused to listen. No, you are not going to get by. There is no back door to heaven. You can't barter with GOD and trade your sins for your fake "preaching".
"Except ye repent." Mathy, you need to repent. You need to be born again! If GOD could save Saul and make him Paul, surely He can save you. As I told my students for 30 years; "Even in the last hour, you can come into the Kingdom."
Won't you come into His Kingdom? Won't you repent of your many sins? Won't you invite the living LORD into your heart? We all have sinned and come short of GOD's best. That hatred that you have comes from your lustful envy.
GOD blessed you with a brilliant talent to write, to act, to charm and you squandered it away. You poor unfortunate woman. You spent sixty years of your life trying to rob me of the same talents you had. That's what happens when you put your faith and hope in clandestine, covert evil.
Children, don't you do it. Don't you emulate your grandmother. Run, go in the other direction. Do read and study your Bible for yourself. Remember; "Apart from Christ you are nothing."
May GOD's Grace, Mercy and Truth, engulf you, cloak you and keep you in Perfect Peace,
Rachel Gwendolyn Doster (the exceedingly proud granddaughter of a great Patriarch, JEROME WALTERS)
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You always told me "you can't win for the fix you're in, I can't lose for the stuff I use." I don't want you to miss how GOD turned that around. Now, "You can't win for the fix you are in and I can't lose for the GOD I serve!" I can't lose b/c I stepped out on faith! I can't lose b/c I listened and I heard "Fear no man!" I wonder how many people could be saved by your testimony? How many could you bring to Christ by confessing? repenting? Re-read the book of Acts!
ReplyDeleteGood word, an excellent line by line appeal for your mother's salvation. Her testimony would save a multitude of people as did Saul/Paul's. It's one thing when a garden variety sinner is saved, but quite another when one of Satan's emissaries comes home to Glory. The power of a resurrected life of willful darkness is magnetic.
ReplyDeleteSo true! There is nothing like a powerful testimony! GOD can and will take the "shame" ,every bit of it! He took mine. I learned that I wasn't a victim of abuse and incest. I was a target, but my LORD and Savior made me a Victor! I truly have the Victory! PTL!
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